I'd like to thank everyone who review ch7:
Geministarz, HiME-AnGel-RaCeR, RavenChickMoon,
Ahknee/Kitteen, Jade Stellar, Anime Dream Lover, Eo, Kate.
I was going to right personal responses to everyone but most of you commented on what I did to Usagi, and Im not about to comment on that, It would give away too much of the plot. But not to worry you will find out next chapter. Until then let me know what you think of this chapter (warning tho, it's a little sad, and possible morbid!)
~Disclaimer: I do NOT own Sailor Moon, if I did why would I write a FAN- fiction!!!!!
Chapter 8 - Reactions & Goodbyes
Usagi's mind was spinning. 'How can this be happening?' She thought to herself, slowly she raised her eyes from the floor up to her friends, who were oblivious to her presence.
It broke Usagi's heart to see all the pain and saddness that appeared on all their faces. Tears streamed down from their eyes, only increasing the ones flowing from Usagi's.
~*~
All of the senshi stood silently, dealing with the shock that; their princess, their hope for the future, but most importantly their friend, was gone.
The moment of quiet reflecton was broken by a loud whimper, turning towards the sound they found the usually calm and cool Haruka shaking violently as she allowed the tears to fall freely from her eyes.
Her legs gave out from under her, dropping to the floor, not concerned with the spectacle she was making. Thrusting her hands into her short, sandy blonde hair, roughly tugging at it, as if the pain could some how eleviate some of the saddness, but it could not. She started to rock back and forth, trying to wrap her mind around the horrible events that led up to this sickening moment, her mind blanked, she couldn't understand any of this.
Michiru crouched down beside her partner, trying to give some solice, but she knew it would be wasted. Haruka was already to far gone in her own grief to even notice her.
"Usagi" Haruka mumbled through her tears, her voice raspy "USAGI!!!" she cried out, finally succuming completely to the body wracking sobs that had been threatening to over take her.
~*~
Usagi shuttered as the desperate cry escaped Haruka's lips. She watched as the strongest person she had ever known crumple to the floor, allowing the pain to consume her.
Usagi's heart wrenched in guilt from the obvious pain she had caused all the people she loved. Watching Haruka's pain was the worst, it burned into the soul of the petite princess. She turned her eyes away from the sandy blonde, no longer able to stand the burnden of guilt that weighed heavily on her heart.
Her clear blue eyes met Seiya's. Usagi was surprised to find nothing there. No pain, no emotion, simply nothing. He stood motionless, his cold, unfeeling eye's stared out into the distance. As if he had no conection to the scene that surrounded him.
His expressionless face terrified Usagi, his deep blue eye's no longer held the joy and life they once did. She could not longer stand it, unsteadily she rose from the floor, and took off out the door.
*** ** * ** ***
As much as she fought it, Usagi knew that she couldn't stay away. She had to be there for her friends and family, even if the only person who knew she was there was herself. This day would be hard for all of those that she loved, and for herself, in the short years she had live she never once imagined that she would attend her own funeral.
Stepping inside the church, she saw all the sad faces of the mourners, some her family, others her friends, and the rest just random people that she had met through-out the years. Walking to the front of the church, she stood beside her casket, looking down she saw her familar form, dressed in a simple white satin gown.
Looking out into the pews she saw that the front row was taken up by her parents, shingo, all her senshi, and the starlights. All looking so sad. Usagi felt the all too familar guilt surround her heart, but before she could dwell on it any further, the priest made his way up to the podium.
"Welcome everyone. We are gathered her to day to remember Usagi Tuskino. As I look out across the room I can see that she had many people who loved her, and I am sure that she would have been glad to see that so many of you have come to say good bye. I believe many of her closest friends and family wished to say a few words." the priest speech went on a while longer.
Usagi watched and cried as everyone she knew came up to the front, telling there memories of her. Everyone except Seiya.
She stared at the raven haired boy intently, as he sat beside his brothers with the same emotionless stare she had seen at the hospital. It tore her up inside.
Gradually, after everyone had was finished speaking, they made there way up to the front, to say their final goodbyes to Usagi. She listened to everyone as they struggled to hold back their tears. Until only a few remained.
Seiya was the last to approch the casket. Gently he brushed away some of the blond bangs that fell onto her eye lids.
"Odango" he wispered painfully, as if it was the first thing he had spoken in days. Clearing his throat he tried to speak once more, but as he did the tears that he had been keeping inside spilt down his cheeks. He rested his head to the smooth wood surface of the coffin, gathering his strength, to that he too could say goodbye.
Usagi watched as his eyes sprang forth with tears, it hurt so much to see him so sad, but she knew there was nothing she could do but wait to hear what he had to say.
Seiya lifted his head and wiped the wetness from his face. "Odango" he started again, his voice more confident now, but still soft. "I am so sorry. It should be me in this casket, not you. You don't deserve this." more tears fell from the starlights face but he ignored them and continued, "I asked you once if I wasn't good enough, but you didn't understand what I meant, how I felt. I always wondered if you had known, would things have been different between us. I have always loved you Odango, from the moment we first met, and I will continue to love you until the day I die." He paused to catch his breath, trying to regain control over his emotions.
Usagi gasped at this new revelation. 'He loves me?' she thought, then cursed herself 'How could I have been so blind, everything he had said, and done, it was so obvious. Now, it to late to do anything about it. I am so sorry.' Her heart was aching, knowing that this whole time she had been hurting the raven haired starlight, whom she cared about so much.
Seiya regained his composure and continued with what he was saying. "I have my answer now, to that question I asked you two years ago, I wasn't good enough, I could never be, nor could anyone else. You were too perfect for this world, and now you've gone back to heaven to join the rank of the angels, where you belong." he leaned down and brushed a light kiss on her forehead "good bye Usagi, my precious Odango!" he said, then turned, walking toward the exit.
Usagi watched him leaving through tear-blurred eyes. "Oh Seiya" she whispered as he walked out of sight.
Geministarz, HiME-AnGel-RaCeR, RavenChickMoon,
Ahknee/Kitteen, Jade Stellar, Anime Dream Lover, Eo, Kate.
I was going to right personal responses to everyone but most of you commented on what I did to Usagi, and Im not about to comment on that, It would give away too much of the plot. But not to worry you will find out next chapter. Until then let me know what you think of this chapter (warning tho, it's a little sad, and possible morbid!)
~Disclaimer: I do NOT own Sailor Moon, if I did why would I write a FAN- fiction!!!!!
Chapter 8 - Reactions & Goodbyes
Usagi's mind was spinning. 'How can this be happening?' She thought to herself, slowly she raised her eyes from the floor up to her friends, who were oblivious to her presence.
It broke Usagi's heart to see all the pain and saddness that appeared on all their faces. Tears streamed down from their eyes, only increasing the ones flowing from Usagi's.
~*~
All of the senshi stood silently, dealing with the shock that; their princess, their hope for the future, but most importantly their friend, was gone.
The moment of quiet reflecton was broken by a loud whimper, turning towards the sound they found the usually calm and cool Haruka shaking violently as she allowed the tears to fall freely from her eyes.
Her legs gave out from under her, dropping to the floor, not concerned with the spectacle she was making. Thrusting her hands into her short, sandy blonde hair, roughly tugging at it, as if the pain could some how eleviate some of the saddness, but it could not. She started to rock back and forth, trying to wrap her mind around the horrible events that led up to this sickening moment, her mind blanked, she couldn't understand any of this.
Michiru crouched down beside her partner, trying to give some solice, but she knew it would be wasted. Haruka was already to far gone in her own grief to even notice her.
"Usagi" Haruka mumbled through her tears, her voice raspy "USAGI!!!" she cried out, finally succuming completely to the body wracking sobs that had been threatening to over take her.
~*~
Usagi shuttered as the desperate cry escaped Haruka's lips. She watched as the strongest person she had ever known crumple to the floor, allowing the pain to consume her.
Usagi's heart wrenched in guilt from the obvious pain she had caused all the people she loved. Watching Haruka's pain was the worst, it burned into the soul of the petite princess. She turned her eyes away from the sandy blonde, no longer able to stand the burnden of guilt that weighed heavily on her heart.
Her clear blue eyes met Seiya's. Usagi was surprised to find nothing there. No pain, no emotion, simply nothing. He stood motionless, his cold, unfeeling eye's stared out into the distance. As if he had no conection to the scene that surrounded him.
His expressionless face terrified Usagi, his deep blue eye's no longer held the joy and life they once did. She could not longer stand it, unsteadily she rose from the floor, and took off out the door.
*** ** * ** ***
As much as she fought it, Usagi knew that she couldn't stay away. She had to be there for her friends and family, even if the only person who knew she was there was herself. This day would be hard for all of those that she loved, and for herself, in the short years she had live she never once imagined that she would attend her own funeral.
Stepping inside the church, she saw all the sad faces of the mourners, some her family, others her friends, and the rest just random people that she had met through-out the years. Walking to the front of the church, she stood beside her casket, looking down she saw her familar form, dressed in a simple white satin gown.
Looking out into the pews she saw that the front row was taken up by her parents, shingo, all her senshi, and the starlights. All looking so sad. Usagi felt the all too familar guilt surround her heart, but before she could dwell on it any further, the priest made his way up to the podium.
"Welcome everyone. We are gathered her to day to remember Usagi Tuskino. As I look out across the room I can see that she had many people who loved her, and I am sure that she would have been glad to see that so many of you have come to say good bye. I believe many of her closest friends and family wished to say a few words." the priest speech went on a while longer.
Usagi watched and cried as everyone she knew came up to the front, telling there memories of her. Everyone except Seiya.
She stared at the raven haired boy intently, as he sat beside his brothers with the same emotionless stare she had seen at the hospital. It tore her up inside.
Gradually, after everyone had was finished speaking, they made there way up to the front, to say their final goodbyes to Usagi. She listened to everyone as they struggled to hold back their tears. Until only a few remained.
Seiya was the last to approch the casket. Gently he brushed away some of the blond bangs that fell onto her eye lids.
"Odango" he wispered painfully, as if it was the first thing he had spoken in days. Clearing his throat he tried to speak once more, but as he did the tears that he had been keeping inside spilt down his cheeks. He rested his head to the smooth wood surface of the coffin, gathering his strength, to that he too could say goodbye.
Usagi watched as his eyes sprang forth with tears, it hurt so much to see him so sad, but she knew there was nothing she could do but wait to hear what he had to say.
Seiya lifted his head and wiped the wetness from his face. "Odango" he started again, his voice more confident now, but still soft. "I am so sorry. It should be me in this casket, not you. You don't deserve this." more tears fell from the starlights face but he ignored them and continued, "I asked you once if I wasn't good enough, but you didn't understand what I meant, how I felt. I always wondered if you had known, would things have been different between us. I have always loved you Odango, from the moment we first met, and I will continue to love you until the day I die." He paused to catch his breath, trying to regain control over his emotions.
Usagi gasped at this new revelation. 'He loves me?' she thought, then cursed herself 'How could I have been so blind, everything he had said, and done, it was so obvious. Now, it to late to do anything about it. I am so sorry.' Her heart was aching, knowing that this whole time she had been hurting the raven haired starlight, whom she cared about so much.
Seiya regained his composure and continued with what he was saying. "I have my answer now, to that question I asked you two years ago, I wasn't good enough, I could never be, nor could anyone else. You were too perfect for this world, and now you've gone back to heaven to join the rank of the angels, where you belong." he leaned down and brushed a light kiss on her forehead "good bye Usagi, my precious Odango!" he said, then turned, walking toward the exit.
Usagi watched him leaving through tear-blurred eyes. "Oh Seiya" she whispered as he walked out of sight.
