Yeah.... Chapter 10 is finally complete, sorry it took so long. It took me
several hours to write. So now I am just glad it is finished.
As for the last chapter, a quick thanks to the following people:
Starlighthime, Jade Stellar, Usakou, Stefanie, Ahknee/Kitteen, Li Mouri, RavenChickMoon, and Christina Sheffield.
As usual I do NOT own the Sailormoon or its characters, If I did why would I write a FAN-fiction!!!
Chapter 10 -- Encouraging Words
Usagi stepped through the door, basking in the familiar warmth of her bedroom. She was glad to be home. Not that she didn't appreciate her friends concern, she really did, but currently she was suffering from an endless stream of thoughts regarding the past events and the destruction of a long known destiny.
Everything was different now, she knew that, but there was still apart of her that wanted to hold on to the future that Sailor Pluto had shown them all those years ago. That was the future that would make every one she cared about happy. Well almost everyone.
Seiya. Even just thinking the name sent shivers down her spine, but did she love him? She was almost positive she did.
'What about Mamo-Chan?' Usagi asked herself silently, 'What happended to him after I was taken to the ER? How does he feel about everything that happened?'
All these questions caused undue strain on her already tired mind. Determined, that for now atleast, she wouldn't give them a second thought, she climbed in to her bed and promptly fell asleep.
~*~
Usagi slept for hours, having dreams that eleviated none of her current confusion. Her dreams were more like visions, of an uncertain future. Of Neo-Queen Serenity standing amongst thousands of beautiful but presently unknown variety of flowers. Looking down across the city of crystal Toyko, her kingdom.
She felt a presence walk up beside her. Turning she noticed that he wore the traditional robes of a king, Serenity's gaze rose to the strangers face, but to her dismay she was unable to see it due to the setting sun casting it into shadow, only strands of black bangs, being caught by the light could be seen.
Moving closer she raised her hand to touch his face, surprised when it passed through the man, as if he was a ghost lacking a corporeal form.
"What the.." she cried, unable to finish her thought out of fear
The voice that replied was hidden in echos, making it seemingly unfamiliar to the future queen's ears. "Usagi" it spoke, "Until you discover the truth that lies in your heart the future will remain uncertain!"
~*~
Usagi awake with a start, the words of the faceless man still ringing in her head. She groaned as she swung her legs over the side of her bed.
'Since when did my love life become so complicated?' she thought to herself.
Standing, she stretched, straining her weary muscles. Usagi walked over to her window glancing out, into the darkened sky, that was only now starting to lighten at the horizon.
Usagi caught sight of something from the corner of her eye. An envelope half hidden under her window seat. She picked it up, assuming it was just another 'get well card'. After opening it though, she was stunned to find a letter. Even more so to find, that she knew the handwritting.
"Mamo-chan" she whispered, then preceeded to read the letter.
My Dear Usako
I don't know where to begin. I am so sorry for all the pain I brought in to your life. I stayed in Toyko, and watched you, to make sure you recovered. Once you made it out of the ICU, I got a ticket for the first plance out of Japan, to stay would have only caused you more pain.
In leaving, I free you from our destiny, and I give up my claim to the future throne. Find someone who you love to share your future with. Someone who could love you openly and with out limits, something that I could never do.
You were the best thing that ever happened to me, and the thought of losing you, terrified me. Then I saw you with him, with Seiya, the love that you held in your eyes for him filled me with a rage I didn't even know I was capable of.
The last thing I ever wanted was to hurt you, but I did. I may never be able to forgive myself for what happened, but I hope that one day you will be able to think back to the time we had together and smile, remembering the good, without the bad.
I will always love you. You showed me how to care for another, and gave my life meaning, I will never forget all that you have done for me. Perhaps in the next life we will get it right, but until then I wish you all the happiness the universe can provide. You deserve that, and so much more.
Love always,
Chiba Mamoru
~*~
Usagi felt tears escape her eyes as she finished reading. She wasn't sure why she cried, she knew this was for the best.
The freedom he offered her, seemed to instantly remove the confusion in her heart. Like clouds clearing after a storm, allowing the sun to shine in, drying up all the rain that soaked the earth.
A knowing smile stretched across her face. She knew what would make her happy, without a doubt in her heart.
Looking around her room, she found some clean clothes and quickly dressed. Silently she left her room and snuck down stairs careful not to wake her sleeping family.
As she got to the door, she turned the knob about to open it, but she stopped. Usagi closed her eyes and silently wished that Mamoru also one day find something that makes him even half as happy as Seiya did her.
*** ** * ** ***
Seiya shifted uncomfortably in his bed. It had been less then twenty-four hours since Usagi had been released from the hospital, yet he longed to see her. He had come so close to losing her.
He tried desperatly not to think about what could have happened, but he failed. Seiya couldn't help but imagine how his life would be if he never saw her again; her golden locks cascading down her back, her clear blue eyes gazing up at him with an innocent expression, her rosy lips turned down in a playful pout. Never hearing her laugh again, never seeing the beautiful shine that she emminated from her soul.
It drove him crazy to think that she could have left this world with out ever fully understanding the depth of his love for her. He knew know what he had to do.
'As soon as she is up to having visitors' he thought to himself, 'I will tell her my feelings in no uncertain terms.'
Seiya knew in his heart that the feelings would probably never be mutual, even after what Mamoru did, Usagi could never hate him. He was certain that somehow the destined pair would work things out and end up married. How could he deny what he knew to be fated, but that fact didn't change his plans, When he next saw Usagi, he'd confess that he loved her.
*** ** * ** ***
Usagi was out of breath by the time she reached the lights loft. Sitting down on the steps she relized that at this time in the morning it would be rude to knock, besides she knew that Yaten would kill her if she interupted his 'beauty sleep'. Usagi giggled at the thought of how the silver haired star light would react, before walking around the back of the building. Luckily the loft was on the ground floor, so accessing Seiya's room would be easy, assuming he didn't lock his window.
~*~
Seiya had his eyes closed in a vain attempt to sleep, at which he was failing miserable, his mind was far to busy contemplating the exact words he would say to his odango. Being so wrapped up in his thoughts made him completly unaware when someone climbed through his window, and now stood nervously beside him.
~*~
Usagi looked down where he slept, and smiled timidly. She chided herself silently 'what do I have to be nervous about?'
She gently sat on the edge of the bed, careful not to rouse the sleeping form. She needed to gather all her courage before she could wake the boy. Gingerly she reached out her hand and laid it softly on his shirtless chest.
~*~
All Seiya's thoughts were forgotten when he felt a light touch on his bare skin. His mind jumped to the conclusion of an intruder and instantly went into warrior mode. Grabbing the troublesome hand he yanked it forward pulling its owner along with it, falling partially on top of him. Seiya was shocked to hear the intruder yelp at his actions, in a voice that was very familiar. He snapped open his eyes, the breath caught in his throat at the sight that laid before him.
~*~
Usagi was so stunned when the arm that was balancing her weight was pulled out from under her, she could barely manage to cry out, blushing when she realized where she had fallen. She looked up at Seiya's handsome face only to catch his eyes quickly opening. She smiled shyly and lifted herself off him, locking her arms so that her face hovered only a foot above his.
The surprising turn of events caused Usagi to forget the words she wanted to use to express her feelings. She desperately searched her mind for something that would properly convey the emotions in her heart, only to draw a blank. Speechlessly she stared in to his eyes, well aware of how this would look if anyone where to walk into the room.
An idea sprung to mind, amist the embarrasment and hillarity of the situation. 'Just because I can't tell him how I feel, that doesn't mean I can't show him' she thought wickedly.
~*~
Seiya was dumbstruck as he watched the petite girl rise off of him, immediatly feeling the warmth she brough with her dissapate. 'Why was she here?' he thought to himself, not that he minded, he just didn't really believe it.
He felt helpless, trapped, in the intensity of her clear blue eyes, her long blonde hair tumbling down around them, lightly tickling his skin.
Seiya broke free of the trance, realizing this may be the perfect time to tell her how he feels, not caring for the moment why she had come in the first place.
"Odango.." he started but was quickly silenced by a finger that she pressed against his lips. He closed his eyes breifly enjoying the feeling that was soon removed. Dissapointed, he was about to reopen them, when another more intoxication sensation was upon him.
'She is kissing me!' he realized, as he felt her soft lips brush against his gently. Though shocked, he managed to respond, wrapping his one arm around her tiny waist pulling her down, back on top of him. His other hand laid against her cheek, fingers entwined in her hair, urging her on.
Usagi smiled at his response and immediatly deepened the kiss, surprising herself at the hunger and longing behind it, enjoying the feeling of being held in his arms.
After a few minutes their lips broke apart, gasping for the oxygen their intense kiss deprived them of. She remained in his grasp, unwilling to let go. He opened his mouth to question the sudden, though not unwanted, action. He was once again silenced by the slight pressure of her finger.
"Seiya" She saild smiling "You are probably wondering why I did that, right?'
He nodded, though slightly fearful of the response.
"Well" Usagi responded "it's because I couldn't figure out another way to tell you how I feel."
"WHAT!" Seiya exclaimed, he was starting to wonder if he was dreaming.
"I love you" she replied, and watched for his reaction, when he just gaped at her, she decided to continue. "I know its kind of weird, that it took me dying..." Usagi realized her mistake, quickly correcting it "... well, almost dying to realize it, but its the truth, I love you Seiya!!!" She stated.
Usagi waited, still trapped in his arms, wanting to know what he had to say. When only silence ensued, she got impatient. "So, um... How do you feel about that?" she said unsure how to envoke a response from the raven- haired boy.
Seiya broke out of his trance, and took in what she had asked him. "Odango!" he said in a breathy tone, "you have no idea how long I've wanted to hear you say those words!"
Usagi smiled, light shinning in her eyes, she snaked her arms around his neck and pulled his body tightly against hers, never wanting to let go.
"I love you too, Odango" he wispered into her ear, trailing light kisses down the side of her neck.
*** ** * ** ***
It had been eight months since that night in Seiya's room, neither of them regretted the confession. They grew closer everyday, falling in love deeper and deeper as the weeks passed.
~*~
The inner senshi, and the starlights decided to spend the day at the beach. Rei and Lita spent most of the afternoon sunbathing, trying to catch the eye of the cute life guard who was on duty only a few short feet away from their strategically placed beach towel.
~*~
Ami and Taiki spent their time under the shade of an old oak tree, reciting their favourite poems and sonnets to each other, then proceeding with a lenghty discussion about the deeper meaning it conveys.
~*~
Out on the water Minako and Yaten floated silently in the raft she had rented, doing nothing but enjoying each others company. Both of them noticing, not for the first time, how right it felt to be in the others arms.
~*~
Usagi and Seiya walked hand in hand along the water edge, with cool waves lapping at their heels. In front of them lay a gorgeous sunset, casting into the sky the most beautiful rainbow of colours.
Beside her she felt Seiya slow down and gradually stop, so she followed suit, realizing just how nevous he seemed to be. Releasing her grip, she raised her hand to his face and caressed his cheek. "What wrong Seiya?" she asked curiously
"Odango" he said reclaiming her hand in his, "I wanted to ask you something" she nodded at him and he continued struggling through the question "Will... Will you." he pause taking a deep breath and reached into his pocket, reveling a small velet box.
Usagi stared at the item, watching as he opening it. She gasped at the contents that laid inside.
"Will you marry me" he finally said. His eyes stared intently as she raised her face to his, slightly surprised to find tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Oh Seiya, of course I will!" She replied happily.
He gently placed the ring on her finger, and she lept into his arms. Usagi's vision clouded over only to be replaced by the images of the familiar dream she had expirenced only eight short months ago. She saw her future self standing amongst the flowers, she felt the presence of someone walking up beside her. This time was different though, she knew that when she turned around there would not be a faceless man standing before her. So she turned, wanting to confirm what she already new to be true. There he stood in his full royal attire. Seiya, King of Crystal Tokyo.
Usagi's vision cleared and she found herself back in the present in the arms of the man she loved.
"What were you thinking about just then?" he questioned
Smiling she replied "Just about what an amazing future we have ahead of us."
Seiya grined before leaning down closing the gap between them, kissing his new fiance with all the hunger and passion he held for the girl he loved with all his heart. His Odango.
~*FIN*~
***I hope you liked the ending I didn't really know if I should keep in the 'beach scene' but then I couldnt really decided how else to wrap it up! Let me know what you think.
**Soon, I will have out another U/S fic (time permitting) so please keep an eye out for it!
*Thanks to every one who read this fic, and especially if you wrote me to let me know what ya think... knowing your opinion means alot to me.
As for the last chapter, a quick thanks to the following people:
Starlighthime, Jade Stellar, Usakou, Stefanie, Ahknee/Kitteen, Li Mouri, RavenChickMoon, and Christina Sheffield.
As usual I do NOT own the Sailormoon or its characters, If I did why would I write a FAN-fiction!!!
Chapter 10 -- Encouraging Words
Usagi stepped through the door, basking in the familiar warmth of her bedroom. She was glad to be home. Not that she didn't appreciate her friends concern, she really did, but currently she was suffering from an endless stream of thoughts regarding the past events and the destruction of a long known destiny.
Everything was different now, she knew that, but there was still apart of her that wanted to hold on to the future that Sailor Pluto had shown them all those years ago. That was the future that would make every one she cared about happy. Well almost everyone.
Seiya. Even just thinking the name sent shivers down her spine, but did she love him? She was almost positive she did.
'What about Mamo-Chan?' Usagi asked herself silently, 'What happended to him after I was taken to the ER? How does he feel about everything that happened?'
All these questions caused undue strain on her already tired mind. Determined, that for now atleast, she wouldn't give them a second thought, she climbed in to her bed and promptly fell asleep.
~*~
Usagi slept for hours, having dreams that eleviated none of her current confusion. Her dreams were more like visions, of an uncertain future. Of Neo-Queen Serenity standing amongst thousands of beautiful but presently unknown variety of flowers. Looking down across the city of crystal Toyko, her kingdom.
She felt a presence walk up beside her. Turning she noticed that he wore the traditional robes of a king, Serenity's gaze rose to the strangers face, but to her dismay she was unable to see it due to the setting sun casting it into shadow, only strands of black bangs, being caught by the light could be seen.
Moving closer she raised her hand to touch his face, surprised when it passed through the man, as if he was a ghost lacking a corporeal form.
"What the.." she cried, unable to finish her thought out of fear
The voice that replied was hidden in echos, making it seemingly unfamiliar to the future queen's ears. "Usagi" it spoke, "Until you discover the truth that lies in your heart the future will remain uncertain!"
~*~
Usagi awake with a start, the words of the faceless man still ringing in her head. She groaned as she swung her legs over the side of her bed.
'Since when did my love life become so complicated?' she thought to herself.
Standing, she stretched, straining her weary muscles. Usagi walked over to her window glancing out, into the darkened sky, that was only now starting to lighten at the horizon.
Usagi caught sight of something from the corner of her eye. An envelope half hidden under her window seat. She picked it up, assuming it was just another 'get well card'. After opening it though, she was stunned to find a letter. Even more so to find, that she knew the handwritting.
"Mamo-chan" she whispered, then preceeded to read the letter.
My Dear Usako
I don't know where to begin. I am so sorry for all the pain I brought in to your life. I stayed in Toyko, and watched you, to make sure you recovered. Once you made it out of the ICU, I got a ticket for the first plance out of Japan, to stay would have only caused you more pain.
In leaving, I free you from our destiny, and I give up my claim to the future throne. Find someone who you love to share your future with. Someone who could love you openly and with out limits, something that I could never do.
You were the best thing that ever happened to me, and the thought of losing you, terrified me. Then I saw you with him, with Seiya, the love that you held in your eyes for him filled me with a rage I didn't even know I was capable of.
The last thing I ever wanted was to hurt you, but I did. I may never be able to forgive myself for what happened, but I hope that one day you will be able to think back to the time we had together and smile, remembering the good, without the bad.
I will always love you. You showed me how to care for another, and gave my life meaning, I will never forget all that you have done for me. Perhaps in the next life we will get it right, but until then I wish you all the happiness the universe can provide. You deserve that, and so much more.
Love always,
Chiba Mamoru
~*~
Usagi felt tears escape her eyes as she finished reading. She wasn't sure why she cried, she knew this was for the best.
The freedom he offered her, seemed to instantly remove the confusion in her heart. Like clouds clearing after a storm, allowing the sun to shine in, drying up all the rain that soaked the earth.
A knowing smile stretched across her face. She knew what would make her happy, without a doubt in her heart.
Looking around her room, she found some clean clothes and quickly dressed. Silently she left her room and snuck down stairs careful not to wake her sleeping family.
As she got to the door, she turned the knob about to open it, but she stopped. Usagi closed her eyes and silently wished that Mamoru also one day find something that makes him even half as happy as Seiya did her.
*** ** * ** ***
Seiya shifted uncomfortably in his bed. It had been less then twenty-four hours since Usagi had been released from the hospital, yet he longed to see her. He had come so close to losing her.
He tried desperatly not to think about what could have happened, but he failed. Seiya couldn't help but imagine how his life would be if he never saw her again; her golden locks cascading down her back, her clear blue eyes gazing up at him with an innocent expression, her rosy lips turned down in a playful pout. Never hearing her laugh again, never seeing the beautiful shine that she emminated from her soul.
It drove him crazy to think that she could have left this world with out ever fully understanding the depth of his love for her. He knew know what he had to do.
'As soon as she is up to having visitors' he thought to himself, 'I will tell her my feelings in no uncertain terms.'
Seiya knew in his heart that the feelings would probably never be mutual, even after what Mamoru did, Usagi could never hate him. He was certain that somehow the destined pair would work things out and end up married. How could he deny what he knew to be fated, but that fact didn't change his plans, When he next saw Usagi, he'd confess that he loved her.
*** ** * ** ***
Usagi was out of breath by the time she reached the lights loft. Sitting down on the steps she relized that at this time in the morning it would be rude to knock, besides she knew that Yaten would kill her if she interupted his 'beauty sleep'. Usagi giggled at the thought of how the silver haired star light would react, before walking around the back of the building. Luckily the loft was on the ground floor, so accessing Seiya's room would be easy, assuming he didn't lock his window.
~*~
Seiya had his eyes closed in a vain attempt to sleep, at which he was failing miserable, his mind was far to busy contemplating the exact words he would say to his odango. Being so wrapped up in his thoughts made him completly unaware when someone climbed through his window, and now stood nervously beside him.
~*~
Usagi looked down where he slept, and smiled timidly. She chided herself silently 'what do I have to be nervous about?'
She gently sat on the edge of the bed, careful not to rouse the sleeping form. She needed to gather all her courage before she could wake the boy. Gingerly she reached out her hand and laid it softly on his shirtless chest.
~*~
All Seiya's thoughts were forgotten when he felt a light touch on his bare skin. His mind jumped to the conclusion of an intruder and instantly went into warrior mode. Grabbing the troublesome hand he yanked it forward pulling its owner along with it, falling partially on top of him. Seiya was shocked to hear the intruder yelp at his actions, in a voice that was very familiar. He snapped open his eyes, the breath caught in his throat at the sight that laid before him.
~*~
Usagi was so stunned when the arm that was balancing her weight was pulled out from under her, she could barely manage to cry out, blushing when she realized where she had fallen. She looked up at Seiya's handsome face only to catch his eyes quickly opening. She smiled shyly and lifted herself off him, locking her arms so that her face hovered only a foot above his.
The surprising turn of events caused Usagi to forget the words she wanted to use to express her feelings. She desperately searched her mind for something that would properly convey the emotions in her heart, only to draw a blank. Speechlessly she stared in to his eyes, well aware of how this would look if anyone where to walk into the room.
An idea sprung to mind, amist the embarrasment and hillarity of the situation. 'Just because I can't tell him how I feel, that doesn't mean I can't show him' she thought wickedly.
~*~
Seiya was dumbstruck as he watched the petite girl rise off of him, immediatly feeling the warmth she brough with her dissapate. 'Why was she here?' he thought to himself, not that he minded, he just didn't really believe it.
He felt helpless, trapped, in the intensity of her clear blue eyes, her long blonde hair tumbling down around them, lightly tickling his skin.
Seiya broke free of the trance, realizing this may be the perfect time to tell her how he feels, not caring for the moment why she had come in the first place.
"Odango.." he started but was quickly silenced by a finger that she pressed against his lips. He closed his eyes breifly enjoying the feeling that was soon removed. Dissapointed, he was about to reopen them, when another more intoxication sensation was upon him.
'She is kissing me!' he realized, as he felt her soft lips brush against his gently. Though shocked, he managed to respond, wrapping his one arm around her tiny waist pulling her down, back on top of him. His other hand laid against her cheek, fingers entwined in her hair, urging her on.
Usagi smiled at his response and immediatly deepened the kiss, surprising herself at the hunger and longing behind it, enjoying the feeling of being held in his arms.
After a few minutes their lips broke apart, gasping for the oxygen their intense kiss deprived them of. She remained in his grasp, unwilling to let go. He opened his mouth to question the sudden, though not unwanted, action. He was once again silenced by the slight pressure of her finger.
"Seiya" She saild smiling "You are probably wondering why I did that, right?'
He nodded, though slightly fearful of the response.
"Well" Usagi responded "it's because I couldn't figure out another way to tell you how I feel."
"WHAT!" Seiya exclaimed, he was starting to wonder if he was dreaming.
"I love you" she replied, and watched for his reaction, when he just gaped at her, she decided to continue. "I know its kind of weird, that it took me dying..." Usagi realized her mistake, quickly correcting it "... well, almost dying to realize it, but its the truth, I love you Seiya!!!" She stated.
Usagi waited, still trapped in his arms, wanting to know what he had to say. When only silence ensued, she got impatient. "So, um... How do you feel about that?" she said unsure how to envoke a response from the raven- haired boy.
Seiya broke out of his trance, and took in what she had asked him. "Odango!" he said in a breathy tone, "you have no idea how long I've wanted to hear you say those words!"
Usagi smiled, light shinning in her eyes, she snaked her arms around his neck and pulled his body tightly against hers, never wanting to let go.
"I love you too, Odango" he wispered into her ear, trailing light kisses down the side of her neck.
*** ** * ** ***
It had been eight months since that night in Seiya's room, neither of them regretted the confession. They grew closer everyday, falling in love deeper and deeper as the weeks passed.
~*~
The inner senshi, and the starlights decided to spend the day at the beach. Rei and Lita spent most of the afternoon sunbathing, trying to catch the eye of the cute life guard who was on duty only a few short feet away from their strategically placed beach towel.
~*~
Ami and Taiki spent their time under the shade of an old oak tree, reciting their favourite poems and sonnets to each other, then proceeding with a lenghty discussion about the deeper meaning it conveys.
~*~
Out on the water Minako and Yaten floated silently in the raft she had rented, doing nothing but enjoying each others company. Both of them noticing, not for the first time, how right it felt to be in the others arms.
~*~
Usagi and Seiya walked hand in hand along the water edge, with cool waves lapping at their heels. In front of them lay a gorgeous sunset, casting into the sky the most beautiful rainbow of colours.
Beside her she felt Seiya slow down and gradually stop, so she followed suit, realizing just how nevous he seemed to be. Releasing her grip, she raised her hand to his face and caressed his cheek. "What wrong Seiya?" she asked curiously
"Odango" he said reclaiming her hand in his, "I wanted to ask you something" she nodded at him and he continued struggling through the question "Will... Will you." he pause taking a deep breath and reached into his pocket, reveling a small velet box.
Usagi stared at the item, watching as he opening it. She gasped at the contents that laid inside.
"Will you marry me" he finally said. His eyes stared intently as she raised her face to his, slightly surprised to find tears streaming down her cheeks.
"Oh Seiya, of course I will!" She replied happily.
He gently placed the ring on her finger, and she lept into his arms. Usagi's vision clouded over only to be replaced by the images of the familiar dream she had expirenced only eight short months ago. She saw her future self standing amongst the flowers, she felt the presence of someone walking up beside her. This time was different though, she knew that when she turned around there would not be a faceless man standing before her. So she turned, wanting to confirm what she already new to be true. There he stood in his full royal attire. Seiya, King of Crystal Tokyo.
Usagi's vision cleared and she found herself back in the present in the arms of the man she loved.
"What were you thinking about just then?" he questioned
Smiling she replied "Just about what an amazing future we have ahead of us."
Seiya grined before leaning down closing the gap between them, kissing his new fiance with all the hunger and passion he held for the girl he loved with all his heart. His Odango.
~*FIN*~
***I hope you liked the ending I didn't really know if I should keep in the 'beach scene' but then I couldnt really decided how else to wrap it up! Let me know what you think.
**Soon, I will have out another U/S fic (time permitting) so please keep an eye out for it!
*Thanks to every one who read this fic, and especially if you wrote me to let me know what ya think... knowing your opinion means alot to me.
