*Sometimes school gets away with me and studying comes before writing. Ugh, I hate the world. And sometimes marching band comes before it all! Ah! Anyway, here is the next chapter. Hope you like. The chapter after this will be the long-awaited chapter on Hikaru. Sorry about all the angst, once its finished though be sure for a lot of fluff! ^.^*
Chapter Six: Twinkle
He looked out the window and sighed wistfully, staring at the heavens. His thoughts were elsewhere as he took in the breathtaking view of his country.
Where was she now? Was she okay? Had she survived this last year and a half of torment?
The sky smiled pitilessly on, without thought of him or her. Without thought of any of the others who suffered. It smiled on through everything; the stars blinking in their endless happiness.
Sure that star can Twinkle
And you're watching it do
"Prince, you're not looking well today, maybe you should rest some more," Clef suggested to Ferio softly, and Ferio turned and looked at the Guru.
He looked healthy enough; his restored form suited him. But everyone could tell there was something wrong. He seemed to be weak, and his spells weren't what they used to be. He kept everything running smoothly though, and was always looking out for everyone, as he always had.
"I'm fine, thank you though Clef," he answered and looked back at the stars.
"You're holding up okay?" Clef seemed skeptical, but Ferio nodded and assured him once more that he was fine.
"I'll go see to the others then," Clef turned and left Ferio with the solitude they all seemed to enjoy these days.
He thought about the last year and half and how it had changed them all. They had all grown with tragedy, but he realized they wouldn't even be here without each other.
Boy so hard boy so hard
Silky blond hair and dazzling emerald eyes that seemed to glow brighter than the stars at midnight. She had a mystical presence and a fire in her soul that never died. She never looked upon anyone with hate or malice; she loved all. She loved him though. He clenched his fists on the rail. His Fuu-chan, how was she now?
He knew she was strong; she had survived it. She had weathered the pain and had gone on. She had to be happy, she was Fuu. He didn't know if he could imagine her any other way, and if he could he didn't want to.
But I know a girl
Twice as hard
He had made her promise once that she would come back to him always and forever, then his own world had betrayed them. It had turned on its protectors and shut them out of Cephiro. It had turned and shut her out of his life.
And I'm sure
When he looked up at those merciless stars he cursed them and wanted to let them swallow him whole. Sometimes he felt like giving up; the thing that kept him going was hope. He prayed that she knew somewhere that he thought of her all the time. He hoped that she knew how much he loved her still. Though he could never hope for her to come back he could at least hope for her happiness.
Said I'm sure
Somewhere in that vast universe his Fuu-chan was smiling up at the sky and cherishing life. She had that star deep in her heart, their star. She would keep it there and cherish it as she had once cherished him, wouldn't she?
She's watching it too
He wanted her to know that there could be someone else. He had made her promise that there would never be anyone else no matter how long they were apart. He hadn't thought to take that back in their last meeting. He wanted now to take it back, because he wanted her to be happy. He didn't care if she had someone else, just as long as she never forgot him or what they had together.
No matter what tie she's got in her right
Dresser
"Ferio?" a voice called behind him, and he turned and met deep blue eyes. "Ferio, what are you doing out there?"
He looked at her with a sense of betrayal and hurt.
"Ferio, what's wrong?" she stepped onto the balcony, through the white curtain and looked concerned. She was a beautiful young girl about his age with long brown hair and blue eyes. She walked like a dancer, neither as graceful nor as beautiful as his Fuu-chan, but beautiful all the same. She had a good caring soul, but her temper could be set off. She had a jealous streak sometimes, but she was the fiancée of a Prince.
Tied
"Just looking at the stars and reflecting," he answered her, and she smiled and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Why don't you give up on your stars?" she teased softly, and anger flared in his heart.
"Never," he muttered, and she pulled back with the passion in his voice.
"Ferio is something wrong?" she sounded more worried than angry. When she had met him he had been depressed and tired. Since they had been together his mood swings had become less and less frequent, but not gone entirely. She thought it was because of her, but those whom knew him better knew that it was just because he was giving up on being angry at the world, because he knew there was nothing he could do.
"No, nothing," he looked back at the sky, but couldn't let the word escape his lips.
'Fuu-chan…'
I know she's watching that star
*"Is everyone okay?" they burst into the room, concern written all through her green eyes.
"We're fine," Presea called back, and she met his eyes and smiled with knowing that he was safe from approaching danger.*
That was his Fuu-chan, always caring about others before her.
Gonna Twinkle
*"We have to get stronger," Umi promised Fuu, and Fuu nodded and added.
"For the people we love."*
He had seen her that night at her strongest. He had loved her then, watching her for a long while and realizing that he needed to tell her. He couldn't interrupt then though; she looked too precious. Her and Umi there, friends until the end. And who was it that she was protecting? His heart fluttered; it was him. She had told him once. She had fought for him.
Gonna Twinkle
*"Happiness isn't made by just one person," she smiled brightly. She was always smiling, and when she looked at him it made him feel like she smiled for him. Maybe she did, all he knew was that it warmed his heart every time.
"You always bring my happiness with you," he pulled her close to him.*
It was true; she was his happiness. When she left so did he, all his joy and energy seemed to fade out of him when she vanished from the world. She was his star, his life force, and with her gone it seemed like the sky had fallen.
Gonna Twinkle
He punished himself for letting her go without saying enough of the things he wanted to stay. He punished himself for letting her go at all. His fingers ran through his hair and stopped at his ear. He fingered the earrings, both earrings. He pulled one off and ran it over his fingers.
Did she ever feel responsible like this? Questions raced through his mind, questions that he would never be able to answer. Every new question that surfaced placed a new weight upon his heart. How much could it hold though, how much until it collapsed entirely and could take no more?
And last time I knew
She worked at an Abbey in Iona
She said "I killed a man T
I've gotta stay hidden in this Abbey"
"Ferio," not even her voice could bring him from this place. He cared about nothing but finding her face in the stars. When he stared at them long enough they rearranged themselves and let him see images.
Tonight the picture was grim. Her shoulders rose and fell with her gentle sobs. Her hands were limp and weak under the covers. Her face was red, and she seemed to have lost weight. He wanted to reach out and console her, but when he did they turned back into stars, a cruel game they enjoyed playing with him.
But I can see that star
Her smile.
When she twinkles
Her laugh.
And she twinkles
Her amazing eyes that always plagued him, would forever plague him.
And I sure can
That means
I sure can
"Ferio," this time he pulled himself from the balcony and took off his cloak and lay next to her. "You okay?"
Her caress never moved him the way Fuu's did, and he felt guilty that he couldn't love her. This was not his choice though.
That means
And Fuu was never coming back, she could be happy though.
I sure can
She was strong, she was his Fuu-chan.
So hard
And they would both survive and move on. They would, he had hope for them both. Mostly he had hope for her, for his one true love.
So hard…
*Arigato! And don't forget to read and review! Until next chapter!*
