Chapter 3: Joey

Joey,

 Well, we didn't get off on the right foot did we? I'm glad things turned around for us Joey because there really is no one out there like you. Our little "double date" with Dawson was a bit of a disaster though, wasn't it? Just know Joe, that I never disliked you, not really. I envied you quite a bit though.

 Joey, you had a life that I wanted. You had Dawson and Pacey and the town. You were the girl that they both wanted and sometimes I thought I was just the bad girl from New York. Funny how it turns out, for a while you too wanted to be me. To be the bad girl from New York who had Pacey and Dawson drooling at my arrival.

  Now, I've taken a wild guess that "you've always known" you wanted to be with Pacey, haven't you? You're a bit slow aren't you? Even I have always known that there was more behind your petty banter. Dawson and Andie may not have agreed, they might never, but it's true that you and Pacey belong together. Just remember now that I made it my dying wish that you "stop running" as you so elegantly put it. Maybe you already have, and I hope you have. You two need each other now more than ever.

   Believe Joey. Believe in people without being afraid to that they'll let you down. Believe in love without fearing the heartbreak that might come. Believe in yourself. Belief is important Joey and I know that both of us have a hard time with it for many reasons. You'll be surprised how far believing will get you. You have believed in people before but you're afraid to now. Why? Because your father lied, Pacey left, and other bad things happened. They're glitches Joe, your beliefs in people are shrouded by your beliefs that they'll all let you down. Believe solely on the good Joe.

   Let Go. You've done it before, let yourself get drunk, sing with a band and fall in love. Don't hold anything back Joey, not now and not ever. You've got to live life Joey, live it like there's no tomorrow. Don't put things off or try to wait. Do what you can in that very moment, change life around you or freeze it. You can do anything Joey as long as you give it your whole self.

  Love as much as you can Joey. Love everyone around you, your family and friends. Because no matter how estranged or angry you are at each other love is important. Love can be blinding but it can also give light. It's important that you love no matter whom, no matter how. Love can hurt but it can also heal in its own way.

   I know you'll take care of Jackers for me. I'm almost afraid that he'll bury himself in his work and Madison. Jack needs to keep his life, help him in any way that you can and take him out once a month and get him drunk. Just make sure Dougie knows. See, before Jack and I were close you and Jack were and you still are. You dated him Joey; you helped him come out of the closet and admit that he was gay. I'm not able to take care of him, to make sure Jack gets things done right. So, I'm bestowing my duty upon you. Also, it's now your job to look after Pacey. I know that you will, but I need you to be there for him all the time, even after you fight no matter how horrible because Pacey has no where to run. He's given himself completely to you Joey. His heart and his soul are yours and yours alone. I helped Pacey along as much as I can, I was there when you fought and when he couldn't turn to Dawson and now you need to be. Dawson is in LA and Jack has too much to handle. No matter how bad your fight is you need to be there. Comfort him, forgive him, and apologize. Be the bigger person Joey because he'll need you to be.

  I Love you Joey,

   Goodbye,

      Jen.