Chapter 4: Pacey

My Dearest Pacey,

  We are kindred friends aren't we? We started out as the over-sexed of the group and ended up being the hopeless romantics. We've taken over Dawson's role, but I trust that you won't say anything right? We've searched for love high and low and found it in the most peculiar places haven't we? Then again you've always known your true love haven't you?

   I am glad that you were by my side Pacey throughout the years and in my last days. You not how everyone makes you out to be Pacey. You're unlike everyone else and you don't pretend to be anything you aren't. You've searched for your place in the world just as I have only to find that you had a place all along. Never disbelieve that it is your place, and do not let anyone persuade you that it isn't either. Just know that it is just as you know that I am always there with you.

   Joey loves you Pacey and she always has as you have always loved her whether you chose to believe it or not. The two of you will have a great life, there's no doubt in my mind. Give her the space she needs Pace, but know when she needs you but won't say. Joey does have a tendency of being stubborn, doesn't she? I've always believed the two of you would make it and once upon a time you did too. Did you find that belief again Pace? You have, haven't you? I saw it in you eyes the other night. Maybe it was being here in Capeside all together again, or maybe it was the fact that you would be losing me, a friend, a confidant. Whatever the reason, I'm glad you found the belief.

     Never forget your promise to me Pacey. Saturday night with Madison is your night, I'm sure Jack will appreciate the break. I need you to keep your promise Pacey because it's really important to me that Madison know her Uncle Pacey. You and Jack were always there to make sure I was alright. You are a great friend Pacey, to all of your friends. It is one of many great things about you and I hope that you are able to pass such a trait onto Madison. Teach her great things Pacey.

    Keep the Ice House as it is and keep it. Don't ever let that restaurant go. Cooking is what you were meant to do, it's another gift you have. That restaurant is an amazing place, I love it. That is you sanctuary Pacey, it's your baby. No matter how dull some months seem never give up on it. Dedicate a table for me will you? Or a dish or something? The kids of Capeside need to remember my legend some way.

    As for our revelations on True Love, they are forever locked away for on each other to remember. I never did really find my own True Love Pacey, not in the way I intended it. I loved Dawson for a time I believe and CJ as well but never anyone in the way that you loved Joey Potter. I did find my True Love in another form, in my wonderful daughter Madison and in my soul mate Jack. And you Pacey, you made up with Dawson. It took a few years but it happened nonetheless.

  Do I have any regrets? I regret not being able to see my daughter grow up, to raise her. But I trust that Jack, and you as well as the others will help raise her. Will help her grow up and became a wonderful baby girl.

   I Love you Pacey,

     No Regrets,

          Jen.