Author's Notes: This is my first RK fic!! So please be gentle!! This is a A/M fic!! I might added K/K and S/M later, can't promise you!! Please read and review!! =^.^=

Disclaimer: Don't own Rurouni Kenshin or the Avril Lavigne Lyrics!!

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

He thought it was all for the best, really, he did. Deep down inside, it pained him to do do this, but it was for the best. Or so he thought.

"Misao, do I to have spell it out for you? You're just a silly girl with a equally silly infatuation!" Aoshi said harshly. He watched as her eyes glisten with tears, but they did not trickle down her innocent face.

"I understand, Aoshi--sama." With that she ran out of the temple with an excruciating pain her heart.

Why should I care

Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone

As she reached the Aoiya, she sat outside on a bench. The sky began to darken with rain and it began to pour. Only then did Misao cry. She sobbed and wailed out her pain. She felt so alone. She felt as if no one could reach her. Lost was the word for it. Kami-sama, did she feel lost.

Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
You used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided

What had ever happend to her beloved Aoshi-sama? The one who loved her and showered her with affection. Now it seems like he was someone completely different.

Finally, Misao began to feel numb. Not from the rain, but the pain she felt slowly seeped deep inside her. She felt nothing, heard nothing. Slowly, she grinned with a lost stare.

Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud

Somewhere, far off, she felt something call out to her. Misao felt this strong ki call for her to come. She knew this source could help her. She knew what she had to do.

Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone

She would leave tonight and reach this strong force. Maybe it could teach her something. Help her.

Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then I don't care were not going anywhere

Why should she care about Aoshi? He made it clear that he cared nothing for her. It was time for Misao to get a grip on reality and find a way to help herself. After all, she couldn't help anyone else if she couldn't help herself.