It is Hard to say Goodbye
¡§Finally, it¡¦s over.¡¨ This was the last word he could hear before darkness overwhelmed him. He had no strength to fight.
¡§Relena¡K¡K¡K¡K¡¨. Heero murmured. It was the first word he had managed to say. He had no strength to move, his eyes just looked around until his gaze located on someone next to him.
¡§Relena?¡¨
¡§No. I am not Relena. I am a nurse. My name is Ashley. You are in hospital.¡¨ The young female said softly.
¡§I want to see Relena.¡¨ Heero didn¡¦t know why he wanted to see her so badly. He just knew he wanted to see her. To feel her gentle gaze upon him again. To look at her sincere smile just for him.
¡§Ms Dorlain has been here just sit beside you for 3 days since you were in coma. Her brother and friends are worried about her. They had finally convinced her to get some rest 2 hours ago.¡¨
¡§¡K¡K.¡¨ Heero did not feel like replying. He just wanted to get some rest again. He closed his eyes.
¡§But¡K¡K¡¨the nurse said hesitantly.
¡§What!?¡¨ said Heero, being annoyed
¡§The doctor wishes to see you. He has¡K..uh¡K¡Ksome news to inform¡K.¡¨
¡§just let him in¡¨ Heero answered casually, did not know what was waiting for him..
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¡§Mr Yuy, I am sorry to inform you the news¡¨ The doctor said formally.
¡§Just say it¡¨ Heero gave him one of his dead gaze.
¡§When you were in coma, we checked your body to heal the bruises and broken bones. And we have found a malignant tumor in your brain. Cancer, put it simply.¡¨
The silence hung in the air was stifling. Heero did not know what to say. He has prepared to die since he was given training. However, he was now really dying. He did not want it. Not now, not when the world had finally achieved peace¡K¡Knot when he has made friends with other four pilots¡K¡Knot when he knew what love is¡K.when he fell in love with none other than Relena Peacecraft¡K..yes¡Khow ironic¡Khe has finally realized he was in love with Relena at the same time knowing that he was dying.
And what the doctor said made his heart sink even lower. ¡§ I am regret to inform you that it is too late. The tumor has grown quite big now. We can not get rid of it by surgery. It is way too risky. So¡K¡K.you have about 1 year left I suppose.¡¨
¡§Any questions?¡¨
Relena¡¦s images kept showing in Heero¡¦s head. Herro knew clearly that Relena was attracted to him. He was not being conceited or what. It was just simply obvious. She followed him everywhere. He did not know if she loved him or just some short infatuation like other teenagers did. He hoped it was the latter. He could not stand Relena¡¦s tear, moaned over his life all her life. Because he loved her, not infatuated, but loved. Realization hit his head. Relena could not know about this!!
¡§Am I the first one to know this news?¡¨
¡§Of course, the patient is always the first¡¨
¡§So, nobody knows of this yet?¡¨
¡§Absolutely¡¨
¡§Can you promise not to tell anyone?¡¨
¡§huh¡K¡K¡¨ the doctor thought for a moment. ¡§ Okay, we respected the decision of the patient. Although we prefer to let his friends know so he can get support from them¡¨
¡§I don¡¦t need those¡¨
¡§That¡¦s fine. Rest please. We will inform the course of treatment to you later on.¡¨
¡§what¡¦s the point of having those fucking treatment if I am sure I am dying?¡¨
¡§well¡K¡Kit will relieve your pain and may make your life a little longer¡¨ The doctor than feeling his anger, left the room quietly.
¡¥Relieve my pain?¡¦ Pain was no stranger to Heero. He did not need those treatments. He was dying anyway. It wouldn¡¦t help if it could only make his life a LITTLE longer. A month? No use at all.
As Heero was deep in thought, he did not realize the door was opened.
¡§Heero?¡¨ as he looked up, he saw the most beautiful eyes he has ever seen. Relena was looking at him with concern. ¡§Are you okay?¡¨ She let her hands to touch his cheeks. ¡§ You look very pale. Heero?¡¨
Heero pushed away her hands roughly. Her hands were so warm, too warm, it cut his heart deep to know that he can never has those hands on his cheeks in the coming days¡K.that he had to leave those hands to keep its owner away from the grief she would experience.
He felt Relena¡¦s body trembled a bit. She was hurt. She seemed to fight against the tears that were going to fall from her eyes. ¡¥Holy shit, what are you doing Heero Yuy?¡¦ he thought desperately.
Relena was fighting against the tears. She tried to smile, pretending to take no notice at Heero¡¦s rejection. But she could not help it. The tears have already falling down. She burst out ¡§Heero, can u just look at me? I know you are really annoyed ny me! I am really worried about you!! I know you are strong! But can you just let me step in. I care about you!! You know it!! I love you!! I am so in love in you!! I cant even stop myself!! I am so fucking in love with you!!¡¨
¡¥That is¡¦ Heero thought. His worst fear came true. Relena was in love with him. He couldn¡¦t image how great the sorrow she would been though if she knew the news. How much he wanted to tell her he loved her as much as she loved him, how much he wanted to wipe away the tears in Relena¡¦s eyes, to hug her and comfort her, tell her everything is okay. But he knew it would never happen
And he just sat here, looking at her with blank eyes, controlling his emotions.
¡§ I am sorry to trouble you. I shall leave now. Please take care.¡¨
Heero tried his best to stop himself to get up and stop her.
Before closing the door., Relena turned around and said ¡§ But remember that, Heero Yuy, no matter how little I mean to you, how you don¡¦t care about me, I will always love you, forever, never forget that¡¨
Heero did not what to feel, happy to know someone that loves him this much? Angry with the god played such a cruel game with him? Sad f for what¡¦s Relena is going to go though?? All he managed to said after a long while Relena left was ¡§ I love you too, Forever¡¨
Guys, pls review!! I don¡¦t know should I continue it if no one reads it!! So pls review!! Pls !! comment pls!! I wanna improve, and if you spot some mistakes, do tell me, I am a Hong Kong, So pls excuse my poor English.!!
