Chapter 2:

Let go

Relena walked out the room. Her eyes were red, still stained with tears. The other four pilots and her brother and sister in law were standing in front of her.

¡§ Relena, are you okay? You are crying! My god, what happen?¡¨ Quatre said softly

¡§no, I am fine, so does Heero. But he is tired, we need to leave him alone and give him some rest¡¨ Relena said softly

¡§It is apparently not!! What that son of bitch said to you!? Has he hurt you? Sure he has!! Tell me, your brother will make him pay for it!!¡¨ Milliardo said angrily.

¡§No, Heero doesn¡¦t hurt me, he just¡K..¡¨ Relena¡¦s words were choked by tears

¡§Just what?¡¨ Milliardo demanded.

¡§He was just telling me the truth¡¨ Relena whispered.

¡§What truth?¡¨ Milliardo kept asking, not noticing how pale Relena looked.

¡§The truth that he does not love me and he will never return my love!!!!!¡¨ Relena screamed out, broke down into the tears.

¡§I will kill that bastard¡¨ Milliardo hissed, before Relena could stop him, Quatre stand in front of him.

¡§No, I will talk to him. I am better at convincing.¡¨ ¡¥Heero loves Relena, doesn¡¦t he?? I can tell by the way he protects her. The way he looks at her. I must talk to him¡¦Quatre thought silently

¡§yeah, he is right¡¨ said Noin

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Heero didn¡¦t feel well. He didn¡¦t feel well at all. He was having a serve migraine. He shut his eyes tightly from screaming or moaning aloud. He was grinding his teeth in pain. He squeezed his fists so hard that they started to bleed. Then he had an urgent to throw up. But the bathroom was too far away, he could not move because of the headache. He was now a weakling!! He was so ashamed of himself. He felt frustrated.

And at the worst possible time, Quatre opened the door and stepped in.

¡§Hi, Heero¡K¡Kwhat¡¦s up with your hand?¡¨ Quatre asked seriously

¡§Nothing important, just broken the glass¡¨ In Heero¡¦s heart, he wished Quatre to go away more than anything. It was difficult to hide the pain.

It was obvious that Quatre did not believe in his stupid lie. Heero thought dumbly.

¡§why are you here anyway? Give me some rest¡¨

¡§You know, why do you reject Relena? You love her, don¡¦t you? I can tell¡¨

¡§So what?¡¨

¡§So you admit you do love her! So you can accept her confession and you two will be happy with each other¡¦s company!!¡¨

¡¥Never¡¦ Heero thought sadly. ¡§Then why don¡¦t you tell her your feeling?? You love her, don¡¦t you?¡¨

¡§How can¡K¡K¡¨

¡§How can I know? It is just plainly obvious¡¨

¡§But she loves you, I want her to be happy¡¨

¡§Believe me or not, be with me will be the last thing that makes her happy¡¨ he thought ¡¥since I am dying¡¦

Quatre frowned slightly ¡§Why do you have to do stupid things like this? Just admit your feeling and everything will be fine.¡¨

Everything will become worse was all Heero able to think of. Suddenly, the urgent to vomit appeared again. ¡§ Quatre, go away.¡¨ almost begged him

¡§No! not until you tell me the reason¡¨

¡§You will not understand¡¨

¡§Enlighten me¡¨

¡§Why do you have to¡K¡K.¡¨ The perfect soldier could not stand anymore, he opened his mouth and started to throw up. And to his horror, there was blood. He tried to hide it, but it was too late. Quatre has saw it really clearly.

¡§Heero, what happen? Tell me! What are you hiding?? You just vomit blood!¡¨ Quatre¡¦s eyes widen.

Heero knew he couldn¡¦t just say it is okay to cover Quatre¡¦s mouth. He could do nothing apart from telling the truth.

¡§Okay, but swear not to tell a soul, especially not Relena¡¨

¡§I don¡¦t know, maybe it is important¡¨

¡§Then go away¡¨

Quatre thought for a moment ¡§Okay, I swear¡¨

¡§I am dying¡K.¡¨

The air suddenly became stifling.

¡§You what?¡¨ Quatre was frozen. Quatre didn¡¦t believe his ears, no, he refused to listen to his ears

¡§You heard me clearly, Quatre. I am dying. I have cancer. I only have less than a year time¡¨

¡§Relena? Is that the reason?¡¨ Quatre started to babbled.

¡§yes, I cant lie to you anyway. You will figure it out. How will Relena react to this?? I can¡¦t give happiness to her but sorrow! I am destined not to be with her! If I accept her the grief she gonna experience will be much bigger than she has now, do you understand?¡¨ A tear dropped from Heero¡¦s eyes. It was the first time he cried for his disease. He cried for himself, he was going to die at such a young age; he cried for his friends, that they were going to lose a partner; he cried for Relena, that she was in love with a dying person; most of all, he cried for a love that can never be fulfilled, a love that could have the power to overcome everything but a little tumor.

¡§Heero¡K..¡¨ Realization hit Quatre hard. The one who experienced the most pain was not him, nor Relena, but Heero himself. Both physical and emotion¡K.and he had to carry them on his shoulder all by his own, alone, without any support. It was hard, it was not the losing battle he used to fight.

¡§Quatre, can you promise me something?¡¨ Heero¡¦s voice suddenly became very soft. He had used too much effort before and he now didn¡¦t have the effort to speak.

¡§anything..¡¨

¡§Thanks¡¨ Heero smiled his rare smile. ¡§Please take care of Relena, and please make her forget me.¡¨

¡§What do you mean?¡¨ Quatre shocked

¡§You know exactly what I mean, please confess your love to her and go out with her. You are the only one that I can be trust of, to hand Relena to you¡K.ha¡K..how stupid I am¡K..Relena isn¡¦t mine.¡¨

¡§No! Relena loves you! And it is so unfair to you. You have to sit here and see we two fall in love? It is ridiculous!¡¨

¡§no one says life is fair. Now can you just fulfill my only wish¡Kplease I am not too greedy, am I? I just want to see her smile. There is a saying goes ¡¥if you love someone, let her go¡¦¡¨ Heero stopped, he could not finished the sentence. It was just too hurtful. ¡¥if she comes back, it will be yours forever¡¦ there was no forever, there would never be ¡¥forever¡¦¡K.and when Relena was going to come back, he has already dead.

¡§ok, I will try. But I don¡¦t think Relena will love me. Her heart will only and just belong to you¡¨

¡§Deal¡¨

¡§Get some rest¡¨

Just as Quatre left, Heero bent down and vomited again. A year? Maybe less than it¡K.6 months perhaps. He thought sadly..

Do you think it is touching or sad?? I try to make it but it doesn¡¦t really seem so, I hope it is just because I am too cruel. Pls review!! And tell me what do you think? Is it sad enough?? Or should I make it sadder??