If only we'd known we were all doomed.

Maybe I could've done something to prevent this all. I could've changed it. Maybe if I'd been more careful I never would've gotten bitten and I never would've met them. I never would've needed friends to help my transformations.

Or maybe if we hadn't felt sorry for Peter. Yes...the little worm. If only I hadn't persuaded them to let him join us...

These were the thoughts of Remus Lupin as he sat at his desk in Number Twelve Grimmauld Place, his head in his hands. The blank look on Sirius's face as he fell through the veil...he didn't even have a chance to fight back.

So unlike James.

Not that Remus thought Sirius's death was any less honourable than James's. They both died fighting.

"Two to death."Remus said softly, closing his eyes.

Peter. If only he hadn't trusted Peter. This was all his fault. How could he have known though? How does anyone know?

"One to fear."He added through grritted teeth. A picture of the Marauders sat on the desk in front of him. Over James's face was a large D. Over Sirius's face was a large D. Glaring, Remus drew a large F on Peters face.

"And one....."He paused. What WAS he anyways?

~Alone.~Came a voice in his head. His vision became cloudy.

"Alone. One left Alone...."He repeated, hot tears sliding down his face.He scrawled an A on his own face ((in the picture)).

"Two to death. One to fear. One left Alone."Remus sighed, leaving the picture on his desk as he walked out of the room....the room that had once been Sirius's.

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Written to go with the song on my Sirius dedication page: