Something We Never Knew
Disclaimer: Anything that you recognize as S.E Hinton's isn't mine. Anything you don't recognize probably is mine.
A/N . Thanks for all the reviews guys. Now a few responses.
Yeah, maybe it wouldve been more angsty if Dally and Johnny weren't alive, but their perspective on all of this fits into the story later.
Maybe the gang didn't pay this much attention to Johnny and Dally when they were in the hospital, but then they didn't try to commit suicide. And in the book, they were in the hospital only a little bit. Because Dally leaves and Johnny...dies.
And yes I know Dally is a little OOc, but the only POV we get in the novel is from Ponyboy.
Thanks to everyone that reviewed chapter 20.
*Johnny's POV*
* Right after chap 20*
Hey man you got a ciggarette? I asked Steve
He shook his head.
No smokin' in hospitals, Johnnycakes,
Yeah, I just need something, I said
Well uhhh here's.... no... Two Bit said as he rummaged through his pockets
What're you lookin' for? Soda asked him
Two Bit shrugged
I dunno, something, he said
Where's Dally? Darry asked
With Pony I think, Steve said
I thought Pony was sleeping, Two Bit said
Maybe he's awake now, I said
You wanna go check? asked Soda
Yeah, we'll all go, Darry said
We walked down the hall for a little bit, then we turned the corner and ran into Dally. I hate corners, its always hard using my crutches around them. When I say we ran into Dally, I mean it. We did, literally. He and Steve walked straight into eachother.
Damnit Randle! Dally yelled.
Steve asked.
I cringed a little. Steve was using the voice. The one he used when he was really angry. The same kind of voice I hear from my so called parents every friggin' day.
Guys, c'mon, it was just an accident, Two Bit said
He kept looking at me with a nervous expression on his face. Why do I have to be the jumpy one?
Yeah, all right, Steve said in a voice that was more normal.
Where were you Dal? asked Soda
Talking to Ponyboy, and some girl he knows, said Dally.
He took out a ciggarette from his pocket, lit it and started to smoke it. Dally has never and never will pay attention to rules. Now that I think about it, Steve doesn't either.
Girl? I ask him
Yeah, Hannah something or other, he said.
He turned away from me and blew four perfect smoke rings. With most guys, Dally would've been blowing the smoke right on them, but some reason he turns away from me.
Oh yeah, she wrote that poem, Soda said
Tuff poem, I said to no one in particular.
What's she like? Darry asked Dally.
Hmmmm, a little strange, even for .......here, but she and Pony seem to get along real well, Dally said
Darry seemed glad to hear that.
I'm glad he's made a friend here, Darry said, but his voice was unsure.
They sang some song when I was there, it was pretty depressing, Dally said.
Pony and Hannah? Steve asked
Dally gave Steve a look.
No, the Beatles, yeah Pony and Hannah.
Dally turned his attention back to Soda and Darry.
Yeah, did you know that Pony can sing?
He can? asked Soda
Yeah pretty well, and it made him seem almost, I dunno, happy, Dally said
I have heard of free lessons over at the rec center, mused Darry.
Well there you go, i...... when Pony gets out of here he can do that, Dally said.
He placed his ciggarette butt on a nearby ashtray. Wait, a minute. Ashtray? Steve said.......what the hell, why am I listening to Steve anyway? I glimpsed at Steve's face and saw that he was only joking. Strange though, because Two Bit is the usual joker of the group. And Steve was... well the angry one. Annoyed at myself for falling for that, I lit up my own and began smoking somewhat furiously. Dally looked at me and frowned a little.
Hey slow down Johnnycakes, or else we'll be putting you in here for lung disease or somethin' Dally said.
I stared at him. Then I shook my growing bangs out of my face and slowed down a little. Dally can really sound almost parental sometimes. I'd never tell him unless I'd feel like getting my ass kicked. But maybe he wont...... Like the night when Pony fell into the fountain and Dally made him change clothes.
Hey Johnny, we're gonna go see Pony now. You coming? Soda asked me.
Yeah, give me a sec, I said and shivered even though it wasn't cold.
Two Bit touched my arm.
Johnny, you ok?
I nodded and forced myself to look normal.
I'm fine, don't worry bout it, I told him.
All right Johnnycakes, but you know we all worry about you sometimes, he said
I frowned.
Yeah, wish you wouldn't though,
Ahhh, don't worry Johnny, we're just concerned, he said
Ok, can we go be concerned about Pony? I asked.
Sure kid, he said
Two Bit, don't call me kid, I told him.
Why not, you're younger than me aren't you? he asked me
Yeah, but it makes me feel like a .....little......kid,
Johnny, you ain't a little kid, Two Bit said to me.
His expression softened a little and he said in a quieter voice,
No, after all the shit you've been through and how you've handled it, you're definitely not a little kid,
Hey, Two Bit, I'm going now, I said to him a sort of loud voice.
He snapped out of whatever trance he was in.
Yeah? All right man, he said with an emphasis on man.
Two Bit, sometimes you really are too much, I told him.
Yeah, but where would you guys be without me? he asked with a cocky grin.
Definitely not in Hawaii, I know that.
Hawaii, what the hell....I swear Johnny, you're getting stranger everyday, he said
We were almost at the door to Pony's room. It strange, but I kinda like how Pony has a room instead of just a bed and a curtain.
Yeah, guess its because I'm around you so often, I said and quickly walked inside the room before Two Bit could say anything.
He was right, well in a way. I was different. I've been like this ever since I got back from Windrixville. For some reason I think it made me stronger, better. No, I know it did.
Hey Pony, how ya feeling? I asked him.
I looked down at the fourteen year old in the bed. He was pale, and looked thinner than he had ever been. His grey-green eyes seemed tired and his hair was still partly blonde.
I'm all right, just a little tired, he said
Pony was always a little tired.
I heard from Dal that he met Hannah, I said after a moment of silence.
Pony then made the closest facial expression to a grin that I had seen in a long time.
Yeah, she's something else, he said
Tuff, I said
You know what, Johnny? he asked me
I shook my head.
I think I love her, he said
I was shocked.
Love, you know thats a pretty big thing, I said dumbly.
No, not the way Soda loves..loved Sandy, but its like shes my twin or somethin', he said
I was starting to understand.
So like a bond, like you're always talking about? I asked.
Yeah, I don't think I would've survived this place without her, he said
Then he added,
You guys were a big help too,
Don't say anything, I told him.
Pony stopped for a minute and closed his eyes. Then he continued what he was saying.
They're making me go see this woman for therapy, and shes all right I guess, but its not the same as talking to Hannah or you guys, and I told Hannah something, something I haven't even told you guys yet, and she says I should tell. I think thats why I love her, cause I really think I should tell too, and yeah.... he was rambling by now.
Pony, you ok? I asked him.
Yeah, but I need to tell you something, he said
I'm listening, I said
Remember the night I took the pills? he asked
Yeah.... I remember, I said
How many pills did you guys think I took? he asked
This conversation was making me feel kind of uneasy.
Soda said about fifteen, but I didn't get it cause you got so sick, I said
Yeah. I did take fifteen, and then about fourty five more, he said
I asked in a numb sort of way.
I had a bottle hidden under my bed, just for me when I had a headache or something, and that night I also got the bottle from the bathroom, which was almost empty, and I took them both. You're the first one besides Hannah that I've told, he said
Pony...... Pony, my mouth was dry.
Why didn't you tell us sooner? I asked him.
Why didn't the doctors say anything, they knew Pony must've taken a lot of pills to end up like that, I thought angrily.
Just like a lot of other things,...... I was scared, he said
You shouldn't be scared, you know we all want to help you, I told him.
I know, well I know now, he said
He didn't say anything else and I was wondering what was going on. I noticed that he had a few tears falling down his face and I was about to say something to him.
Damnit! Fuck this! I hate this! Damn it! Pony yelled, his face twisted with rage through his tears.
Hey Pony, calm down, it'll be ok, I told him.
He continued to scream and yell.
Pony! Come on, calm down, Two Bit said to him.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, Pony was starting to look blue.
What's wrong with him? Soda asked.
I don't know, said Steve
He's spazzing out or something, Dally said
As quickly as it started it stopped and Pony slumped over in his bed. Some doctors rushed in and they pushed me away. I saw them get out a needle and inject what ever was in it in Pony's arm. Finally they stepped back.
He's sleeping, one of them said with a fake smile.
No, he's drugged, I thought.
But I didn't say it, I didn't want to believe it had come this far.
Ok that was chaper....21 right? Lol, ok please tell me what you think because I love you all.
