Chapter 2

Yeah, so i planned on tellin him.......but then i chickened out an avoided him all week so i wouldnt have to tell him. i know i know. it was pathetic of me. Im just nervous as well. i really need to do this but i really really really dont wanna. I dunno how he's gonna react here. Maybe he wont care. or he'll pretend he wont care and start treating me like before when we hated each other. not that after what i've done i wouldnt deserve that. But i dont think we could eva go back to that. Too much has happened between us. i mean shit, we've made each other cum. No one else has seen me do that. I hope not very many people have seen Seto do that. I was always to scared to ask him how many people he's slept with. I'd be afraid it was a high number and i'd jsut get too intimidated. it's best not to think about it.

I was on the phone with the other guy when i got a beep. It was Seto.

"'allo?"

"Hey hun, what are you doing?" he asked.

"oh...um.....not much. just hangin around, ya know." yeah good answer Joey! real brilliant!

"oh. ok......well my meeting was cancelled tonight....?"

"oh.......well that's nice."

He sighed, "well do you want to see me?" he waited for an answer that i wasnt quiet ready to give, "or do you have plans?"

"well........i did kinda have something going on..."i said

"oh ok. well that's ok, i guess. I just thought it would be nice to see you.....outside of school. I've been really busy lately with work and all. and you've been busy too........" he sounded so sad, i felt bad. i dont know why i was trying to ditch him. i decided maybe i should go see him after all.

"ok well, i can change my plans. they arent that important" i said.

"ok. great!want me to pick you up? "

so we made plans to meet in 30 minutes. He said he just wanted to hang out at his place. Damn. We'll be alone and MOkuba's out so there wont be any excuse not to tell him. Shit!

When he picked me up he leaned over to kiss me. I kinda forgot how good a kisser his is. i leaned towards him and i felt his arms wrap around me. His tongue entered my mouth and i couldnt help but moan.

"i've missed you" he whispered into my ear.

"yeah i've missed ya too" i whispered back, and i meant it. I mean, even i'f i'm not sure if i love the guy, i still definitely like him alot.

We could barely keep our hands off of each other on the ride back to his place and i dont really remember how we into his house and on his couch. I jsut knew that suddenly we were naked and Seto was kissing his way down my stomach.. It felt so good but i knew we shouldnt be doing this. I should be telling him what i've been doing behind his back. i should be telling him we need a break or something but shit! its hard to think when you're getting a blowjob! It didnt take long for me to cum. Seto knows what he's doing.

He moved back up so that his face was just above mine. He leaned down and kissed me real gentley. I was surprised. I expected him to be all super horny and aggressive. but no, he was satisfied just cuddlin and kissing lightly.

" i love you Joey, i really love you" he said rubbing his face in my hair.

i couldnt take this. it was wrong.

"Seto we need to talk"

he stiffened. Nothing happend for a moment then he sat up and started putting his pants back on.

"W-whatcha doin?" i asked him.

"i just suddenly feel like i dont want to be naked right now." i noticed he was shaking. "'we need to talk' is never really considered a happy phrase".

Shit! i hadnt even told him yet and he was edgy. i'd hurt him already.

"well......it's just there's something you should know, i think........."i began.

he turned his body towards me but he wouldnt look me in the eyes.

"if it's that there's someone else............i kind of already know."

i couldnt believe it! how did he know????

"oh........" we sat in silence for what seemed like eternity but was probably only a few seconds.

"um....well .......how?"

then he looked at me, "how could i not know?" i could see that tears were forming in his eyes and his shaking got worse. "i know you tried to hide it. but you failed miserably."

"what do ya mean?"

"i started to wonder when you kept ditching me saying you had to go hang out with Yugi or Tristan.......but theni'd see them out somewhere with out you......or they'd call me looking for you. Then one night when a meeting ended early i went to go pick you up from work.........and you two were standing outside talking.....and kissing............i saw you get in his car."

my heart was pounding. Suddenly i wished i had never decided to tell him. This was a mistake! the whole thing was a mistake! I wished that i could go back and undo what i did, i wish i had never even taken that job there, even though i got it before i was with Seto. I just wanted him to stop crying........and stop looking at me like that. Tears in his eyes that he was trying to fight off, like i'd ripped his heart out andtorn it in half infront of him.

"so......" he sniffed "is that what you wanted me to know?"

"yeah..........yeah it was. Look Seto-" i said moving over beside him and placing my arm around him. he accepted it for a moment. Even leaned into me. "-i dunno why i did it. i dunno why i let it go on like it did."

He pulled away. "howlong did it go on for?"

"'bout a month or so." i whispered.

Seto leaned back against the couch. "wow.............i didnt know it went on for so long...." he laughed sadly"i thought it was maybe a one or two time deal."

he turned to look at me again, "so you have been cheating on me for a third of our relationship?"

i didnt know what to say. This was a nightmare. He bent over, putting his elbows on his knees, resting his head in his hands and cried. "shit Joey! i never really thought you'd do something like that. I tried to pretend i didnt know! why the fuck did i do that!!!???"

"Seto, i'm sorry!" i begged. "please i really am sorry!" I realized all of a sudden that tears were running down my cheeks. I couldnt stop them.. I just totally ruined everything. I didnt want this. I wanted things back how they were. Back when we first got to gether. Back when no one was crying or cheating.

He sat up and started to put his shirt back on. "Listen" he said handing me my pants"I think i'd better take you home now."

"Seto.....i mean it!....I"M sorry!!!!!" was all i could say.

He drove me home in silence. Well silence except for a sniffle here or there from one of us. He stared straight ahead. when he pulled up to my house i didnt get out right away. I felt like i should say something. I was trying to find the words to fiz this mess i made.

but i couldnt so i opened the door and started to get out. Part of me was beggin SEto to grab my arm pull me back in and tell me that it was ok. He'd forgive me and things would be good again. but i knew he wouldnt.

"Joey." he said, i turned to look at him.

"we'll talk tomorrow after school ok?"he looked me in the eye finally"can you make time for me then or are you busy?" ok i deserved that! before he was sad and shocked........now he was starting to get mad and bitter. Cant say i blamed him at all.

"yeah Seto. whenever you want. You know where my locker is."

He nodded his head then drove off.