Chapter 13: The Letter

"So what are we going to be for the Ball?" Gwen asked the other two girls. The ball was going to be a costume party. The three girls always go as something together.

"How about we be a girl band? We can where cute outfits and stage make-up. It would be SO fun!" Bella suggested. Gwen nodded her head in agreement.

"No, I don't want to." Lily said thinking how she would hide her looks in a outfit like that. She was scared people would treat her differently if they new how pretty she really was.

"Fine, you think of something then." Bella pouted.

"I will." Lily promised. They headed off to class.

*Lily doesn't like to draw attention to herself. She's so funny and outgoing when she's with us. I wish she would act like that all the time. She lets people think she's a nerd. Really she's a BIG flirt.* Bella thought. Not paying attention to the boring Professor Binns.

*She really is a lot like Potter. Except she would NEVER cheat on someone. *

That night Lily was going through a trunk of pictures of her family before Hogwarts. She was so much more care-free. She let her beauty show and was always playing pranks and making people laugh. Even at a young age she was a big flirt. She laughed looking at a picture of her at age 8, posing for the camera. She wished she could just be like that again.

*But look what that got you Lily* a voice inside her head said

*But that's not going to happen at Hogwarts, what am I afraid of?* She fought back.

"What's this?" She said aloud, holding up a letter addressed to her.

She opened it and read it. Dear Lily,

I just wanted you to let you know how I felt if anything happened to me. I love you. But you must stop fearing the past. Let you beauty show. Inside you and out. Go back to making people laugh. Don't hide your external beauty either. What happened to you will most-likely never happen again, but hiding from it will get you no where. If anything happens to me and you read this I want you to promise to give your-self a make-over internally and externally. Stop running from the past. Promise me! We love you, Your father and I, we do and never forget it.

Love, Mom

Tears were in her eyes. Why does her mother have to ask her to do such impossible things?

*But she's right* the voice said.

But I can't! Was the last thing she thought before she fell asleep. The next morning she woke up and sighed.

"Come on guys, wake up we're gonna be late for breakfast." She yelled.

"We're up, We're up" Gwen and Bella muttered together. They all got dressed and headed down to breakfast.

As they we're sitting down, Sirius and Remus came over to them.

"Listen Gwen, I know what I said that night was wrong, completely and I didn't mean it when I said it. I just had to support James. But I was wrong and I'm sorry but I can't live life with-out you." Sirius said after he pulled Gwen aside. By the looks of it Remus had done the same with Bella.

"Listen Sirius. I know you're sorry but you really hurt me. I don't know if I can forgive you." Gwen said tearfully.

"I'll do anything!" Sirius said pleadingly.

"You'll just have to prove you love me." Gwen said before returning to her seat. Lily looked at her questioningly.

"He was apologizing. I told him he had to prove he was sorry." Gwen answered her look. "I think Remus did the same" She added as Bella sat down. "Right?"

"Yes, and I said the same thing. I hope you don't mind lily, but I really like him and just because James is a jerk doesn't mean I can't go out with Remus, and you shouldn't hate them either. " She preached to Lily, She nodded.14

"You guys are totally right." Lily said distractedly. She was deep in thought about what to do. In her heart she knew her mother was right, but that didn't change the fact that she was scared. She just needed to think about it more.

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A/n- So what you think? What's Lily so afraid of? What happened to her? And what will Sirius and Remus do? Review and you'll find out sooner!