A*n: I can't believe it! The last chapter. Its been so fun. Theres gonna be
a short epiloge but no sequel *hides* sorry! But I hope you like this!!
Chapter 27: Scared
Everyone wondered what Sirius had to do, but neither he nor Lily would say. Lily was being treated like a hero by most of Hogwarts for saving the Ball. With the Ball back on the female population had to rush to get everything ready. Two hours before the Ball the Gryffindor 6th year girls left the guys in the common room and headed to the dorm to get ready. Lily wanted to make sure she was extra stunning as she was going to be on stage for half the night. She felt bad leaving Evan dateless for half the Ball but he insisted he was fine with it.
"Are you almost ready?" Bella asked. She looked stunning in her light blue dress and matching make-up. Her curly dark brown hair was up in a bun with two curls framing her face.
"Yeah, I'll be down in a second." Lily also looked beautiful. Her dark blue dress looked great on her. Her hair was up in a elegant twist studded with diamonds. She put on a simple silver necklace and glanced at herself in the mirror.
"You look stunning dear." The mirror said kindly. Lily went down to meet her friends.
Gwens simple black dress fitted her personality perfectly. She left her hair down and straight but a few pieces were curled over the straight hair.
Haley looked pretty in her pink dress. Her hair was in two french braids and had pink ribbons woven in.
"Well, I really need to get going, I need to make sure everything is ready. I still can't believe I'm doing this!" Lily giggled nervously. Evan offered to walk her down and she accepted. The Great Hall looked great. It was decorated with streamers and other muggle decorations. There was a stage that had a microphone and amps.
"Good luck sweetie, your gonna be fine." Evan kissed her on the cheek and she went over to the stage.
"Is everything working fine?" She asked Pimbler the muggle studies teacher.
"All in order."
"Good." Lily said faintly.
"Nervous?" He asked her.
"Very VERY nervous. I've never sang in front of anyone before."
"You'll do fine. From what your friends told me you have a great voice." Pimbler left her because it was time to open the doors.
"Okay, take a deep breath, everything is going to be fine." She said to herself as she got on stage and ajusted the microphone.
The Great Hall Doors opened and the school poured in. Lily started off singing some popular muggle songs and people were having a great time. They all commented on how good she was. Well not the Slytherins but anyway, she then started to sing some of her own songs. About an hour later Lily was running out of songs and the band wasn't there yet.
"Lily, they should be here soon, do you at least have one more song you can sing?" Dumbledore asked.
"Well, I guess." She was thinking about the song she had written about James, she didn't want to sing something so personal, but no one would know it was about him anyway.
"It was around 11:30 when I realized I miss you, sitting at home all alone
thinking what did I just do, feeling was strong coming on and I knew I wanted you, something inside me held me back, boy you got me scared of you." She couldn't help but watch James, who was dancing with a Hufflepuff.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." James looked at her.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." She tried to look away but couldn't.
"If I let go I don't know if my heart will remain strong, cause you the type that just might give right and get me strong I couldn't be just a girl that you're seeing once a month cause if it goes down better believe I'm gonna be your only one." They locked eyes.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." He knew the song was about him, Lily realized.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." She had to finish the song.
"Should I let it go, Should I let it go, no no no no, Should I let it go, Should I let it go, no no no no no no."
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." She finished the song and ran off the stage. Tears streaming down her face. Evan went to go after her but saw James go first.
She ran out into the gardens. She couldn't believe she had done that, she promised herself she wouldn't hurt Evan. That she was over James. But what she really couldn't believe was WHAT she was feeling. James made her heart race and it DID scare her. She didn't want to get hurt again. She was so lost in her thoughts she didn't see James run after her or hear him calling her name. But she did feel his hand on her shoulder.
"Lily." James said. He didn't know what else to say.
"James, I, I think I love you and it scares me. I don't want to hurt Evan and I don't want to get hurt again.
"Lily I will never hurt you ever again. I love you more then anything in the world and I can't bare to be without you. And your hurting Evan more by lying to him about your feelings." Lily was sobbing softly. This was all so hard to deal with. Her feelings were so confusing. But then James pulled her into his arms and she couldn't think about anything but him.
"I think I'm going to kiss you." James said softly.
"I think I'm going.." Lily began but was cut off by his kiss. It reminded her of a year ago when they had shared a kiss in this same garden and she felt just as she did then. But now she knew everything would work out and she would never have to be without James again. It was a great feeling.
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A*n: The song was Scared by Ashanti. I really hoped you liked this! I wanna thatnk everyone for reading ym stroy. Especially those who reviewed! This was for you! And don't worry, you'll fine out wat Sirius had to do!
I love you all!
Laina
Chapter 27: Scared
Everyone wondered what Sirius had to do, but neither he nor Lily would say. Lily was being treated like a hero by most of Hogwarts for saving the Ball. With the Ball back on the female population had to rush to get everything ready. Two hours before the Ball the Gryffindor 6th year girls left the guys in the common room and headed to the dorm to get ready. Lily wanted to make sure she was extra stunning as she was going to be on stage for half the night. She felt bad leaving Evan dateless for half the Ball but he insisted he was fine with it.
"Are you almost ready?" Bella asked. She looked stunning in her light blue dress and matching make-up. Her curly dark brown hair was up in a bun with two curls framing her face.
"Yeah, I'll be down in a second." Lily also looked beautiful. Her dark blue dress looked great on her. Her hair was up in a elegant twist studded with diamonds. She put on a simple silver necklace and glanced at herself in the mirror.
"You look stunning dear." The mirror said kindly. Lily went down to meet her friends.
Gwens simple black dress fitted her personality perfectly. She left her hair down and straight but a few pieces were curled over the straight hair.
Haley looked pretty in her pink dress. Her hair was in two french braids and had pink ribbons woven in.
"Well, I really need to get going, I need to make sure everything is ready. I still can't believe I'm doing this!" Lily giggled nervously. Evan offered to walk her down and she accepted. The Great Hall looked great. It was decorated with streamers and other muggle decorations. There was a stage that had a microphone and amps.
"Good luck sweetie, your gonna be fine." Evan kissed her on the cheek and she went over to the stage.
"Is everything working fine?" She asked Pimbler the muggle studies teacher.
"All in order."
"Good." Lily said faintly.
"Nervous?" He asked her.
"Very VERY nervous. I've never sang in front of anyone before."
"You'll do fine. From what your friends told me you have a great voice." Pimbler left her because it was time to open the doors.
"Okay, take a deep breath, everything is going to be fine." She said to herself as she got on stage and ajusted the microphone.
The Great Hall Doors opened and the school poured in. Lily started off singing some popular muggle songs and people were having a great time. They all commented on how good she was. Well not the Slytherins but anyway, she then started to sing some of her own songs. About an hour later Lily was running out of songs and the band wasn't there yet.
"Lily, they should be here soon, do you at least have one more song you can sing?" Dumbledore asked.
"Well, I guess." She was thinking about the song she had written about James, she didn't want to sing something so personal, but no one would know it was about him anyway.
"It was around 11:30 when I realized I miss you, sitting at home all alone
thinking what did I just do, feeling was strong coming on and I knew I wanted you, something inside me held me back, boy you got me scared of you." She couldn't help but watch James, who was dancing with a Hufflepuff.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." James looked at her.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." She tried to look away but couldn't.
"If I let go I don't know if my heart will remain strong, cause you the type that just might give right and get me strong I couldn't be just a girl that you're seeing once a month cause if it goes down better believe I'm gonna be your only one." They locked eyes.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." He knew the song was about him, Lily realized.
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." She had to finish the song.
"Should I let it go, Should I let it go, no no no no, Should I let it go, Should I let it go, no no no no no no."
"You got me afraid to let my love go. Is it my heart that I should follow.
Got me afraid to let myself go. Got me scared of you." She finished the song and ran off the stage. Tears streaming down her face. Evan went to go after her but saw James go first.
She ran out into the gardens. She couldn't believe she had done that, she promised herself she wouldn't hurt Evan. That she was over James. But what she really couldn't believe was WHAT she was feeling. James made her heart race and it DID scare her. She didn't want to get hurt again. She was so lost in her thoughts she didn't see James run after her or hear him calling her name. But she did feel his hand on her shoulder.
"Lily." James said. He didn't know what else to say.
"James, I, I think I love you and it scares me. I don't want to hurt Evan and I don't want to get hurt again.
"Lily I will never hurt you ever again. I love you more then anything in the world and I can't bare to be without you. And your hurting Evan more by lying to him about your feelings." Lily was sobbing softly. This was all so hard to deal with. Her feelings were so confusing. But then James pulled her into his arms and she couldn't think about anything but him.
"I think I'm going to kiss you." James said softly.
"I think I'm going.." Lily began but was cut off by his kiss. It reminded her of a year ago when they had shared a kiss in this same garden and she felt just as she did then. But now she knew everything would work out and she would never have to be without James again. It was a great feeling.
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A*n: The song was Scared by Ashanti. I really hoped you liked this! I wanna thatnk everyone for reading ym stroy. Especially those who reviewed! This was for you! And don't worry, you'll fine out wat Sirius had to do!
I love you all!
Laina
