Just so You Know…
A Poem(?) by: Naomi Hunter.
Just so you know: I love you.
I may not be able to say it to you, Dee,
(Anytime soon at that…)
But I do. I do love you.
I know I'll tell you,
One day,
When what other people say begins to matter less and less
And when I can finally admit to myself that I am in love with you, a man.
Before now, the thought was unfathomable.
But, now, it's all too real.
And to tell you the truth, Dee,
It frightens me.
We are part of the police, Dee.
I know the figures, I've seen the statistics.
I've heard the rumors, I' understand the news.
I remember Mathew Shepard,
And all of the others.
Maybe I'm a coward, Dee,
Too afraid of the what-ifs and consequences
Too afraid of who and what I am.
Too afraid to have pride in who I love.
I'll admit it one day,
Running is ineffective in a whole.
There is no way I can escape how much I love you.
But, for now,
how much I love you is hidden,
Like a little prize in every simple touch:
On the hand, the cheek
If I dare to allow my hand to brush your knee when we're alone.
It will be reflected in silence of every word I say.
My body will scream it whenever you kiss me, touch me.
My life will revolve around it.
My entire being will survive just on the chance that you will make the first move.
You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
I have never believed in fate until now.
I believe in you;
Your kindness, your caring nature, every aspect of your persona.
I'll never forget everything you've done for me.
Ever.
So, until that day when my insecurities
Fade away,
Please,
Wait for me, Dee.
I need you.
I'll never ask you for anything again as long as we live.
Just please,
Please, Wait for me,
So I can finally say:
'I love you'.
[End.]
I finished this at 11:48 at night and took me about 5 minutes. 0.o Soo….sleeeeppyyyy…….goddamn fireworks.
It was sweet in that angsty way. ^^ Read and Review please. I might write a reaction from Dee. Who knows.
I love you all! *huuggggsss*
