Chapter 4
Utskushii Itai

Kagome woke up the next morning, still snuggling close to Inuyasha. She felt save and love in his arms, but she still feared what would happen on monday. Would he ignore her? Act like he hates her? Pretend he doesn't know her? So many possibilities rushed through her head.

Inuyasha woke up to see a worried look on Kagome's face, "What's wrong?"

Kagome turned and looked at him, "What's going to happen tomorrow, you know, at school?"

"Nani?"

"Are you going to pretend you don't know me or something...?"

"Kagome, did I leave you alone at the police station?"

"Ano... Iie..."

"Did I leave you allow under the tree?"

"No..."

"Did I let you die?"

"No."

"Then you know the answer."

"You mean, you're going to actually hangout with me and stuff at school and you won't care what the other guys say?"

"Why would I care? I've got a girl that rules them all, and they've got nothing."

"You mean it?"

"Hai, I wouldn't lie to you..." Inuyasha brushed her hair back and Kagome kissed him. The happy couple was interrupted in the middle of their kiss by Sango's throat clearing.

"Come on," Sango said. "Kagome and I have to do our sunday shopping."

Inuyasha and Kagome got up. Sango and the couple walked down, Inuyasha holding Kagome's hand. Sango felt jealous that Kagome had a guy that she liked. What did Sango have? No one, just Miroku who she was too afraid to tell him her true feelings, How pathetic am I?

Kagome kissed him goodbye and went into the car, "Ja ne, Inuyasha."

"Bye, babe," Inuyasha replied, waving goodbye as she left in her car.

When Kagome and Sango turned the corner, Inuyasha missed her. What the fuck is wrong with me? Inuyasha began to ponder. She's Kikyou, keep saying that to yourself. Kikyou, Kagome is shit, this is Kikyou! Kikyou, damn it, it's fucking Kikyou! Then... Why did I save her? Inuyasha hit himself on the head and muttered, "That's a stupid question to ask yourself... It was because you saw Kikyou dying again. Duh."

Inuyasha hopped onto his motorcycle and drove to Miroku's.

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Kagome strolled along beside Sango, pushing the cart. Sango began to mutter to herself, "Let's see... We need tampons, cereal, bread, and..." Sango raised her voice for Kagome to hear. "And we'll need condoms..."

Kagome hit Sango in the arm, "Shut up, we don't need those."

"That's right, Inuyasha should have some!" Sango pretended to scratch off condoms on her list. "That's taken care of!"

"You're so pathetic..."

"Arigatou, Kagome-chan. So, anyway, we actually need tampons, bread, cereal, sobe, and... What was the last thing..." Sango thought deeply.

"You didn't put it on the list?"

"It was last minute, I had just realized it and I couldn't find a pen. Oh yes! Shampoo and conditioner."

"Great."

Sango grabbed the things they needed and the two standed in line, waiting patienly. Kagome realized something, "Hey, Sango. Could we go to the mall?"

"Why," she replied.

"I need to get some shirts and jeans."

"All right, just nothing too much."

"Hai, of course, I'm not that thick headed."

"You certainly seem like it to fall for Inuyasha!"

"Ursai..."

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Inuyasha reached Miroku's place and he parked his motorcycle in his apartment garage. He went up to Miroku's apartment and noticed his door was silently open, "Miroku?"

Miroku was lying on the floor when he woke up like something had just attacked him, "Oh, hey, buddy."

"What are you doing," Inuyasha questioned, staring at the mess on the floor.

"Ran out of beer, you drank the last can yesterday. I was stuck with root beer."

"Baka..."

"I'm never going to get a child..."

"Ursai about that! Kami, it's getting old! You have a kazaana, big deal? You can bear a child when you actually treat a girl like she's not some damn toy!"

"You're in a bad mood."

"My plan isn't working so great..."

"Plan?"

"I'm dating Kagome, so I can be with Kikyou."

"Naaaaaaaaani?"

"Kagome looks like Kikyou, so I figure, if I go out with Kagome, it'll be like being with Kikyou."

"Are you really that stupid? Kagome will never be Kikyou. Kagome is very different from your dead, miko lover. Kagome is lively, she's nice, she enjoys having fun--"

"She's annoying, retarded, and stupid!"

"Then don't date her, you baka!"

"I can't! If I dump Kagome, it'll be like dumping Kikyou! Last night, Kagome almost died. I felt like I was losing Kikyou again!"

Miroku stood up, totally leveled with Inuyasha now, "You baka! You yarou! Get over the fact that Kikyou is dead, she's gone, no more! She's fucking six feet under! For Budda's sake, can't you see that Kagome is so much better than Kikyou? Kikyou was boring and way too mature for her age! She never had fun or broke out of her hard shell! Kagome, she has fun, she laughs, she smiles, she cares about you for Budda's sake!"

"Ursai..."

"I won't, Inuyasha! You're throwing Kagome away to the fish! I can't just let you do that, damnit! Kagome is fucking good person, you can't just treat her like she's crap!"

"She is crap, that's the problem! She's a fucking replica of the woman I actually love! I'm not just gonna let her go like that!"

"Inuyasha, listen to yourself! You're saying that Kagome is boring, not wild, too mature, doesn't smile, and doesn't have fun! You're still hooked on Kikyou after two damn years, two years, Inuyasha. Kikyou's long gone, she's passed on, she's dead, she's deceased, she's six feet under, she's prancing around in Heaven; she's pushing up the daisies, her metabolical processes have ceased, she's wearing a fucking haylo, she's decomposing, her funeral has past--"

"Ursai! I get the fucking picture!"

"Then realize that Kagome is better for you. Now, go home before I punch you..."

"But--"

"Now, yarou!"

Inuyasha took his keys and slammed the door. He muttered curses under his breath as he went and drove off on his motorcycle back to his house.

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Monday came along and Kagome was wearing a pair of jeans and a white tank top. At Kagome's school, monday was the day when you could wear whatever you wanted, as long as it was appropriate. She slipping on her socks and sneakers, walking out into the kitchen to get some breakfeast. On the back of her door was Inuyasha's red haori. Kagome loved it so much and was glad Inuyasha gave it to her to wear.

Sango walked out, wearing an outfit different from Kagome's. Sango wore a white t-shirt that had very light, pink flowers on her shirt--the flowers almost blended in completely with the white. To go with her shirt, she wore a skirt that came down to her knees. Sango slipped on a pair of sandles that were sitting beside the entrance to the kitchen and poured herself some coffee.

"So, are you satisfied with your clothes," Sango asked, looking at her new outfit.

"Very much, arigatou, Sango," Kagome replied, taking out some cooked oatmeal out of the microwave.

"Good, I'm sure Inuyasha will like the new shirts, especially since most of them are kind of low cut..."

"Ursai... I'm just trying to impress Inuyasha."

"You don't need to impress him, honey. He already was too affectionate the night before," Sango pointed out the hicky on Kagome's neck.

"Leave me alone, I didn't know he was doing that to me while I was sleeping!"

"Mm-hm, sure."

Kagome rolled her eyes and finished up the little oatmeal she had. Kagome went into the bathroom to brush her hair and Sango was nearing the end of her coffee.

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Inuyasha grabbed his backpack and left the house, grabbing an apple. He snarved it down on the way outside and threw it in the garden as "vertilizer." Inuyasha saw Miroku in his car waiting, fixing his dragon tail.

"Let's go," Inuyasha said, geting in the car.

"Yosh," Miroku simply replied, starting the engine.

The two boys drove off to school, both thinking something about one girl. Miroku thought about groping Sango's butt, while Inuyasha thought about what Miroku said about Kagome yesterday, and comparing what he said to Kikyou.

The two arrived at school five minutes later, parking the car, and getting out to wait for the girls by the entrance to the school grounds. Inuyasha was still comparing, looking a little worried. He discovered what Miroku said was true, but he wasn't going to let that etchi ruin his plan.

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Kagome arrived at school with Sango, wearing Inuyasha's red haori. Kagome enjoyed the haori too much to even take it off. When Sango and Kagome had reached the school ground entrance, Inuyasha and Miroku were standing there.

"Hey, ladies," Miroku said, winking at Sango. "What's up, good looking?"

"I'm fine, ariga--" Sango was interrupted by the feeling of Miroku's hand, rubbing her butt. She smacked him across the face and screamed, "Etchi!"

"I was just making sure your skirt was going to stay up... I was worried."

"You worry too much!"

Miroku grinned at Sango and she turned a little red at this. She hid her redness by looking at Kagome and Inuyasha.

"Hey, Inuyasha," Kagome said, hugging him.

"Konichi'wa, utskushii," Inuyasha replied, hugging Kagome back.

Kagome moved away a little, her arms still around his neck, "I love this haori."

"Good," Inuyasha grinned, giving her a quick kiss. "Because you look great in it."

Kagome smiled and gave him a kiss. They began to deepen it until Miroku cleared his thorat and pointed at the clock above the main doors, "Bell is about to ring."

"Damn you, Hoshi," Inuyasha cursed.

"Come on, let's go," Kagome smiled, walking with Inuyasha. He held her hand as they walked inside, Sango and Miroku following beside them.

People began to whisper and point a little at Inuyasha and Kagome. Inuyasha could make some out. Some said, "Is that Kikyou...? No, it isn't..." And others said: "Kagome is going out with that hanyou," and "Is she wearing his haori?!" There was one that stuck out most that said, "Kagome is with Inuyasha! I didn't dump her so she could date a hanyou..."

Inuyasha grinned at Hojo's comment and he put his arm around her waist. The bell rang as everyone walked inside. Kagome went to her locker, Inuyasha tagging along.

"You better go, your classroom is on the other side of the school," Kagome said, grabbing her books.

"It wouldn't hurt to be a little late..." Inuyasha smirked.

Kagome looked at him and he began to kiss her as Hojo walked by. Hojo grunted with frustration a little and stormed off to his class. Inuyasha grinned widely in his head. He continued to kiss Kagome for a minute when they broke it.

"Ja ne, 'Yasha," Kagome smiled.

"Bye, babe," Inuyasha replied, walking in the other direction.

Kagome walked off to glass, the biggest smile on her face. She entered her history class and sat in her desk, still smiling. Two of her friends, Taimika and Rai, sat in there seats, one in front of her, the other on her right.

"What are you so happy about," Taimika asked.

"Did you get back together with Hojo," Rai asked as wel.

"No, I didn't get back together with Hobo," Kagome replied, still smiling, taking out a notebook and pen.

"Hobo?"

"My nickname for Hojo..."

"Oh," the two girls said in unison when Rai asked, "You found someone else?!"

"Hai," Kagome sighed deeply. "He's sweet, cute, maybe a little stubborn at times, but he's wonderful..."

"Who is he," Taimika perked up.

"Inuyasha..."

"The junior hanyou, Inuyasha," Rai shrieked.

"Hai... That's him all right..."

"Are you sick again," Rai and Taimika asked, observing Kagome.

"Iie... Just... Really, really, really enjoying Inuyasha..."

"You mean you... Him?!"

"Kami, no! I just met him on Friday, for Budda's sake!"

"Yet you're smiling so much," Taimika eyed Kagome.

"It's just, he's so... Ano, I mean, sugoi, he's amazing..." Kagome slumped down into her seat, hugging the haori... Her haori to be pacific.

"Are you mental," Rai exclaimed. "He's so violent! I mean, have you heard the things about him?!"

"You mean the thing with the police record? Achohal, drugs, parties, trepassing, and shoplifting... Mm-hm..."

"Well, I knew nothing about the trepassing and shoplifting, but yeah! You know about this and you're still dating him?!"

"Onegai, a guy as sweet as Inuyasha has been lately could never be an achohalic and a druggie..."

"She's got it bad," Taimika added.

"I've got what?"

"You've got struck by cupid so badly. You can totally tell, you're smiling so much, sighing," Taimika noticed Kagome wasn't paying attention, so she rose her voice, "Day dreaming!"

"Nani?"

Rai shook her head, "Oh yeah, she's got it bad, all right. Have you ever seen her this happy?"

"I'd have to say no," Taimika replied.

"You guys, calm down, I know what I'm doing," Kagome said.

"Hai, whatever..."

"I maybe a little toshiwakai, but I'm not stupid."

"People in love can't see things in front of their eyes sometimes, and you certainly don't realize that Inuyasha is a jealous, selfish, stubborn, violent jerk!"

Rai stared at Kagome for a moment, "Are you wearing his haori?!"

"Hai," Kagome sighed, snuggling into her haori.

"She's got it more than bad, she's got it the worse!"

"Will you get off my back, onegai? I'm just trying to enjoy myself. Hojo dumped me because I have feelings for hanyous and youkai more than humans. I just can't go crawling back to him. Besides, we dated for almost two months and he didn't kiss me once. Not even on the cheek! How pathetic is that? Inuyasha kissed me on Saturday, right before we actually went out on our date. And I'll tell you, he is an amazing kisser..."

"Fine, fine," Taimika rolled her eyes. "But if you get into any terrible trouble and Inuyasha breaks your heart and stomps all over the pieces, don't tell us we didn't warn you..."

Kagome sighed and the bell rang. Everyone sat in their seats as class began. Kagome couldn't pay attention, she just could only think about Inuyasha. His ears, his eyes, his lips, his body, everything about him...

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Later on through out the day, Inuyasha went from class to class, waiting for school to end so he could see Kagome again. He remembered that Kagome had wanted to hear his "band" play a song. He couldn't even think of something to write. That's when it clicked. Inuyasha pulled out a piece of paper and began to write. He scribbled out a few parts and replace them with something else.

Inuyasha was glad that it was his grammar class and that he sat in the back corner of the room. Every now and then, Inuyasha would mutter to himself and think. Then he would nod and write on. Inuyasha was guarenteed that this would satisfy Kagome, or should he say Kikyou... He didn't want to think of it as writing for Kikyou, more for writing for Kagome.

Miroku glanced over at Inuyasha's paper and whispered, "Nanimokamo... Everything?"

"Hai," Inuyasha whispered, hiding the paper from Miroku.

"Is the new song for Kagome?"

"Keh, it's for Kikyou."

"Inuyasha, you can hide it, but you can't deny it. That song is for Kagome, I know it and you know it. I saw the way you looked this morning, you know what I said was true. It's going to stay that way too... What I said is the truth, you love Kagome now."

"Ursai, Hoshi before you end up with a black eye..."

Miroku grinned and began to work on his homework. Inuyasha continued to fix the song until it was perfect. The bell rang and Inuyasha gathered up his papers, shoved them in his notebook, folded up the song, and put it in his back pocket. He grabbed his books and left.

One more period left until he would see Kagome again. She would make music to the song and give it to Miroku and Sango. He was going to show her that he did actually like her. Take that, Sango... Ha!

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Kagome "went to the bathroom" in the middle of her last class. She was going to leave a message on Miroku's machine to tell Inuyasha that she was thinking of going out tonight to the park.

Kagome took out some change, put them in the phone, and dialed Miroku's number. The phone rang four times, until the message came up. She began to listen, it didn't sound like an answering machine.

"My plan isn't working so great..." Kagome heard Inuyasha say.

"Plan," Miroku replied in the message

"I'm dating Kagome, so I can be with Kikyou."

"Naaaaaaaaani?"

"Kagome looks like Kikyou, so I figure, if I go out with Kagome, it'll be like being with Kikyou."

"Are you really that stupid? Kagome will never be Kikyou. Kagome is very different from your dead, miko lover. Kagome is lively, she's nice, she enjoys having fun--"

"She's annoying, retarded, and stupid!"

"Then don't date her, you baka!"

"I can't! If I dump Kagome, it'll be like dumping Kikyou! Last night, Kagome almost died. I felt like I was losing Kikyou again!"

Kagome gaped, she was speechless. Inuyasha said this all about her. She couldn't believe it... I knew this was going to happen, I just knew it! I'm so stupid to fall for Inuyasha, especially what I heard about Kikyou from Sango! Baka, baka, baka, baka!

Kagome hung up the phone and when she turned around, she saw Inuyasha. Kagome felt herself cry, how could he do this to her? Inuyasha looked at her face and asked, "What's wrong?"

"You... You," Kagome cried. "You... You fucking cruel, selfish baka! You're such a god damn liar, you fucking yarou!"

"W-What are you talking about?!"

"Listen yourself..." Kagome took the phone off the hook, put in some change, and dialed Miroku's number. The phone rang four times, the message coming up of Miroku's and Inuyasha's conversation. "You see?"

Inuyasha listened, ready to break the phone in his hand, "Kagome, I didn't mean it!"

"Sure as hell sounded like it to me!"

"I didn't want his to happen! I fell in love with you, Kagome!"

"No, you fell in love with a replica of Kikyou, right? I'm just annoying, retarded, and stupid, eh? Am I right?!"

"Iie! You're everything to me!"

"That's fucking bullshit..."

"Kagome, onegai--"

"Inuyasha, go fucking burn in jigoku." Kagome stormed off back to her class, holding back tears. She was so angry at Inuyasha. Through out her final class, Kagome spent it squeezing her pen, almost breaking it. She bit on it to, so she broke a hole in the cap.

When the bell rang, Kagome grabbed her books, and went to her locker. She grabbed her yellow backpack and swung it over her shoulder. Inuyasha came up to her and said, "Kagome, onegai, I even wrote--"

Before Inuyasha could finished, Kagome purposely hit him with her locker door and said, "Oh, this stupid locker door always gets in my way." Kagome slammed it shut, catching a little of Inuyasha's hair. He yelped in pain and Kagome went to open her locker again, "I forgot my math book! How stupid of me!"

"Kagome, will you stop and listen to me," Inuyasha exclaimed, pulling out his hair once she opened the door.

"Let's see, here it is," Kagome grabbed her math book and left.

Inuyasha followed her closely, "Kagome, what about I said about you?! I didn't lie to you!"

Kagome turned around and glared at Inuyasha. The two were outside now. "Inuyasha, you're nothing, but one of those filthy hanyous that only care about themselves and hoping one day that you'll be a full youkai. You're really pathetic."

"Kagome, I--"

"Inuyasha, ursai now!"

Everyone glared at the two and Kagome dragged him to the baseball field. Kagome continued, "You're so fucking selfish you know that?! Treating me like I'm Kikyou?! Kami, even I'm not that thick headed. You act like you actually care about me and I tell you about my parents disowning me! I haven't even told Taimika or Rai that! I thought you actually gave a fuck about me when you kissed me, now I know I was wrong."

"Onegai, Kagome, listen to me."

"I've heard enough from you from Miroku's fucking answering machine... I don't need to hear anymore of it." Kagome began to walk away, but then she took off the haori, "By the way, here's your fucking haori back." She threw it at Inuyasha and he caught it.

"Onegai, onegai, Kagome... Don't do this!"

"You're the one who fucking said that and got caught. Now, go back home to your mommy and daddy! Oops, gomen, they're dead, you can't!" Kagome stormed off, when she was a very far distance from Inuyasha, she muttered, "That was cold, but he deserved it."

Kagome sighed and approached Sango. The two drove off together when Sango finally said, "What happened? Every was muttering about Inuyasha and you fighting and why aren't you wearing the haori?"

"I'll show you when we get home," Kagome said, turning away. She looked out the window, tears falling down her cheeks. I want Okaa-san... She would know what to do... He calls me utskushii... He calls me fucking beautiful and then he causes me all this god damn itai! God, why'd he have to give me all this fucking pain? Itai... Pain... Utskushii... Beautiful... Kami, I really was blind...