Chapter One, Meatball Head:
Meatball head-that was what everyone called her. How
could they know that an intelligent, strong, thoughtful person
lay beyond the exterior? *Maybe if someone actually bothered to
look at me, really listen to me,* Serena thought in vexation.
But no one ever did.
She knew she was luckier than most. She had grown up
with two parents who never abused one another or her. Two
parents that made enough money for them all to live comfortably.
She had a fun though annoying younger brother, Sammy. Still
there was always that ache, that empty hole inside her soul.
Some of it had been filled by her love, Darien. Some of it had
been filled by her friends as well, but she had been forced to
grow up at a young age. Not even fourteen years old when she
fought her first Negaverse monster, and every day from then on
more of her died with each next evil monster she was obligated
to obliterate. Killing was not in her blood, not even killing
evil monsters, and it never failed to kill a little part of her
each time she had to kill one.
There was another reason for the ache inside. Inside
she yearned for her real mother, Serenity. It's not that she
had bad parents, but they were not wonderful either. She
couldn't have real, in-depth conversations with them like she
vaguely remembered having with her original Lunarian mother.
She had always seemed spacy and shallow to others. That was
because she had been brought up in an environment that
was shallow-filled with talk of the weather, shows, hairstyles,
etc. She seemed spacy because she was lost in her own deep
reflections.
She looked at her watch and rushed out the door upon
seeing that she was going to be late for the sailor scout
meeting. She entered the room after running up the million
flights of stairs up to the temple. She was gasping for breath,
apologizing between gasps for her tardiness. Luna was annoyed
to say the least. "Serena you need to start taking your
responsibilities more seriously," she said in a commanding
tone of voice. Serena tried to block her out while inside she
felt a pierce in her heart, like a needle was poking it, but
she knew it came from Luna's harsh words. "In fact you all
need to take your responsibilities more seriously," Luna added.
"Aw come on Luna we just want to have some fun," Mina
said.
"Yeah," Serena added in the same light tone of voice.
Mina and Serena grinned and giggled together.
Luna shook her head. "Queen Serenity made wishes for
all of you so you would all have better lives, and you're all
wasting your opportunity," she said sadly, walking out of the
door to be by herself. Artemis looked at them all in distaste
then followed Luna out the door to give her company and
comfort.
Amy was looking down in guilt. Raye was also pondering
the words of Luna. Mina and Serena got Lita up to dance with
them and try to forget the harsh words of the cat who never
let them have any fun.
They walked along the sidewalk. "We're going to the
arcade, the arcade, arcade, arcade, arcaaade," sung Mina
happily. Serena skipped along with her as Lita trailed behind,
walking normally but watching her two best friends in
amusement.
"What's so funny Lita??" Serena questioned in a joking
manner, popping up in front of her.
Lita caught her breath in her throat. "Geez don't ever
scare me like that again Serena." She closed her eyes for a
few moments and regained her composure as she took deep
breaths.
"Last one to the arcade is a rotten sailor!" exclaimed
Mina. Lita ran off at top speed.
"No fairrrrrr," Serena whined. "You guys got a head
start. I don't wannaaaa run."
Lita and Mina giggled and waited up for her. She was
with her friends, but she still felt alone and lonely inside.
Sometimes people were right that even among a crowd of
friends, one could feel so alone inside.
The next day she went shopping with Mina, Lita, and
Raye. "How does this outfit look?" Mina asked, coming out of
the dressing room of her favorite shop with a new red outfit
on.
"Wow," Raye said as Lita and Serena's mouths hung
open.
"You look gorgeous girl!" Lita exclaimed.
"Thank you," she said happily.
They all continued to search for the perfect outfits
and tried various clothings as well as accessories on. Some met
with approval, some were maybes, and some got a look that said
they definitely needed to be trashed by the other three
friends. When all four were done they decided to go try to
meet Amy at the museum to head to a movie.
Later that evening the inners were all having a
sleepover with Hotaru. "Take that!" Lita exclaimed as she
threw a pillow straight at Raye's head.
"oh you're gonna be soo sorry you did that!"
exclaimed Raye, hitting Lita with a pillow full force. Lita
grunted, and they all laughed at the funny expression on Lita's
face.
"How about we play Truth or Dare?" Raye suggested.
"Yeah!" Mina agreed.
"No way," Serena said.
"Let's not play that," Hotaru requested.
"Oh all right," Raye said, giving into Serena and
Hotaru. An unusual occurrence that they both were thankful
for.
They all sat down in their sleeping bags and ate some
milk and cookies while they were each lost in their own
thoughts before Hotaru finally suggested they watch a movie,
and everyone else agreed. There was much debating as to which
movie to watch, but eventually they settled on watching a
romantic and dramatic action/comedy to give everyone a taste
of what they liked best in a movie.
On the next day she was grounded while everyone else
got to go ice skating. Serena sighed as she looked at the
walls of her room in complete boredom. She had Only been
twenty minutes late after curfew, but it didn't stop her
parents from grounding her. It wasn't fair.
The others were probably having a great time ice skating
without her she thought miserably.
Serena ran into the meeting the next day right on
time. She was glad. She didn't want another one of Raye's
temper tantrums or Luna's lectures. She was already feeling
really crappy about herself. She took a seat and focused her
attention on Luna. "We call this meeting to order!" Luna
announced as all the sailor soldiers sat down in their
respective chairs in human form.
"Really LUna, things have been quiet for awhile. Is
it actually necessary to continue to have all these weekly
meetings?" Mina asked.
"I suppose bimonthly would be enough now," she
reluctantly conceded.
Mina smiled and Serena shouted "Yippee."
"It's nice to finally have some peace," Hotaru
commented. The others nodded their heads in agreement.
Seeing as there were no new events or fears, the
meeting was quickly over.
Later that day she got the luxury of seeing her love
Darien at Darien's apartment.
"Darien," she purred, hanging onto his arm as her
long blond pigtails almost got in the way of his mouth
moving towards hers. They kissed passionately, and she lay
in his arms on the couch in bliss. They relished every moment
alone together.
Her mother knocked on her door and entered. "Serena,
you need to clean your room," she said in aggravation.
Serena sighed and complied rather than go through the
drudgery of her usual whining routine. Her mother was always
nitpicking her to keep her room clean and insisted on a clean
house. Strange the way parents are. Strange the way people
are-nitpicking on their studies, talents, appearances,
cleaning, running, cooking, and entire self. When in the end
what did that all matter? When all was said and done, and one
was at the end of life, did one remember how clean one's
appearance or house was or how well one played the violin or
how well one did in school? No. One remembered the love and
closeness of friends and family. So why did humans constantly
nitpick and criticize themselvews and others so much when in
the end it didn't even matter? Would one remain behind known
as the one with the clean house or the one with the
compassionate, kind heart and giving soul? She knew
compassion was what would last on in people's hearts and
memories long after accomplishments and appearances had
faded. She strived to be a sympathetic, caring person because
she knew how rare and important those qualities were. Life
was hard. She hoped to be remembered as one who lent a
helping hand when others had fallen. She knew that was how
she would always remember the sailor soldiers, Darien, and
Molly. Still the deaths she caused haunted her day and night.
What if that was how she was remembered? As the cold-hearted
killer of evil monsters rather than the girl with the big
heart? She did not sleep much at night with the guilt and the
fear.
To Be Continued...
Meatball head-that was what everyone called her. How
could they know that an intelligent, strong, thoughtful person
lay beyond the exterior? *Maybe if someone actually bothered to
look at me, really listen to me,* Serena thought in vexation.
But no one ever did.
She knew she was luckier than most. She had grown up
with two parents who never abused one another or her. Two
parents that made enough money for them all to live comfortably.
She had a fun though annoying younger brother, Sammy. Still
there was always that ache, that empty hole inside her soul.
Some of it had been filled by her love, Darien. Some of it had
been filled by her friends as well, but she had been forced to
grow up at a young age. Not even fourteen years old when she
fought her first Negaverse monster, and every day from then on
more of her died with each next evil monster she was obligated
to obliterate. Killing was not in her blood, not even killing
evil monsters, and it never failed to kill a little part of her
each time she had to kill one.
There was another reason for the ache inside. Inside
she yearned for her real mother, Serenity. It's not that she
had bad parents, but they were not wonderful either. She
couldn't have real, in-depth conversations with them like she
vaguely remembered having with her original Lunarian mother.
She had always seemed spacy and shallow to others. That was
because she had been brought up in an environment that
was shallow-filled with talk of the weather, shows, hairstyles,
etc. She seemed spacy because she was lost in her own deep
reflections.
She looked at her watch and rushed out the door upon
seeing that she was going to be late for the sailor scout
meeting. She entered the room after running up the million
flights of stairs up to the temple. She was gasping for breath,
apologizing between gasps for her tardiness. Luna was annoyed
to say the least. "Serena you need to start taking your
responsibilities more seriously," she said in a commanding
tone of voice. Serena tried to block her out while inside she
felt a pierce in her heart, like a needle was poking it, but
she knew it came from Luna's harsh words. "In fact you all
need to take your responsibilities more seriously," Luna added.
"Aw come on Luna we just want to have some fun," Mina
said.
"Yeah," Serena added in the same light tone of voice.
Mina and Serena grinned and giggled together.
Luna shook her head. "Queen Serenity made wishes for
all of you so you would all have better lives, and you're all
wasting your opportunity," she said sadly, walking out of the
door to be by herself. Artemis looked at them all in distaste
then followed Luna out the door to give her company and
comfort.
Amy was looking down in guilt. Raye was also pondering
the words of Luna. Mina and Serena got Lita up to dance with
them and try to forget the harsh words of the cat who never
let them have any fun.
They walked along the sidewalk. "We're going to the
arcade, the arcade, arcade, arcade, arcaaade," sung Mina
happily. Serena skipped along with her as Lita trailed behind,
walking normally but watching her two best friends in
amusement.
"What's so funny Lita??" Serena questioned in a joking
manner, popping up in front of her.
Lita caught her breath in her throat. "Geez don't ever
scare me like that again Serena." She closed her eyes for a
few moments and regained her composure as she took deep
breaths.
"Last one to the arcade is a rotten sailor!" exclaimed
Mina. Lita ran off at top speed.
"No fairrrrrr," Serena whined. "You guys got a head
start. I don't wannaaaa run."
Lita and Mina giggled and waited up for her. She was
with her friends, but she still felt alone and lonely inside.
Sometimes people were right that even among a crowd of
friends, one could feel so alone inside.
The next day she went shopping with Mina, Lita, and
Raye. "How does this outfit look?" Mina asked, coming out of
the dressing room of her favorite shop with a new red outfit
on.
"Wow," Raye said as Lita and Serena's mouths hung
open.
"You look gorgeous girl!" Lita exclaimed.
"Thank you," she said happily.
They all continued to search for the perfect outfits
and tried various clothings as well as accessories on. Some met
with approval, some were maybes, and some got a look that said
they definitely needed to be trashed by the other three
friends. When all four were done they decided to go try to
meet Amy at the museum to head to a movie.
Later that evening the inners were all having a
sleepover with Hotaru. "Take that!" Lita exclaimed as she
threw a pillow straight at Raye's head.
"oh you're gonna be soo sorry you did that!"
exclaimed Raye, hitting Lita with a pillow full force. Lita
grunted, and they all laughed at the funny expression on Lita's
face.
"How about we play Truth or Dare?" Raye suggested.
"Yeah!" Mina agreed.
"No way," Serena said.
"Let's not play that," Hotaru requested.
"Oh all right," Raye said, giving into Serena and
Hotaru. An unusual occurrence that they both were thankful
for.
They all sat down in their sleeping bags and ate some
milk and cookies while they were each lost in their own
thoughts before Hotaru finally suggested they watch a movie,
and everyone else agreed. There was much debating as to which
movie to watch, but eventually they settled on watching a
romantic and dramatic action/comedy to give everyone a taste
of what they liked best in a movie.
On the next day she was grounded while everyone else
got to go ice skating. Serena sighed as she looked at the
walls of her room in complete boredom. She had Only been
twenty minutes late after curfew, but it didn't stop her
parents from grounding her. It wasn't fair.
The others were probably having a great time ice skating
without her she thought miserably.
Serena ran into the meeting the next day right on
time. She was glad. She didn't want another one of Raye's
temper tantrums or Luna's lectures. She was already feeling
really crappy about herself. She took a seat and focused her
attention on Luna. "We call this meeting to order!" Luna
announced as all the sailor soldiers sat down in their
respective chairs in human form.
"Really LUna, things have been quiet for awhile. Is
it actually necessary to continue to have all these weekly
meetings?" Mina asked.
"I suppose bimonthly would be enough now," she
reluctantly conceded.
Mina smiled and Serena shouted "Yippee."
"It's nice to finally have some peace," Hotaru
commented. The others nodded their heads in agreement.
Seeing as there were no new events or fears, the
meeting was quickly over.
Later that day she got the luxury of seeing her love
Darien at Darien's apartment.
"Darien," she purred, hanging onto his arm as her
long blond pigtails almost got in the way of his mouth
moving towards hers. They kissed passionately, and she lay
in his arms on the couch in bliss. They relished every moment
alone together.
Her mother knocked on her door and entered. "Serena,
you need to clean your room," she said in aggravation.
Serena sighed and complied rather than go through the
drudgery of her usual whining routine. Her mother was always
nitpicking her to keep her room clean and insisted on a clean
house. Strange the way parents are. Strange the way people
are-nitpicking on their studies, talents, appearances,
cleaning, running, cooking, and entire self. When in the end
what did that all matter? When all was said and done, and one
was at the end of life, did one remember how clean one's
appearance or house was or how well one played the violin or
how well one did in school? No. One remembered the love and
closeness of friends and family. So why did humans constantly
nitpick and criticize themselvews and others so much when in
the end it didn't even matter? Would one remain behind known
as the one with the clean house or the one with the
compassionate, kind heart and giving soul? She knew
compassion was what would last on in people's hearts and
memories long after accomplishments and appearances had
faded. She strived to be a sympathetic, caring person because
she knew how rare and important those qualities were. Life
was hard. She hoped to be remembered as one who lent a
helping hand when others had fallen. She knew that was how
she would always remember the sailor soldiers, Darien, and
Molly. Still the deaths she caused haunted her day and night.
What if that was how she was remembered? As the cold-hearted
killer of evil monsters rather than the girl with the big
heart? She did not sleep much at night with the guilt and the
fear.
To Be Continued...
