PROLOGUE







"Ne, 'Soka-chan where are we going?" Tsuzuki asks me slurrily. For the nth time since I don't when, Tsuzuki's been drunk. I know its okay to drink and all that crap but doing it 24/7 is a very different matter.





I don't know what's happening to him, really. He seems so depressed these days but he won't talk about it. I casually ask him every now and then if he's okay but he answers me with a quick, fake smile and assures me that's everything's okay.





Irritating about the whole time he was depressed is the way he keeps staring at me. I mean it's so unnerving. I'm in the middle of reading a book or typing our report when I will suddenly feel the hairs of the back of my neck standing up. It's the feeling that's someone watching you.





Of course I'll turn around to see who it is and almost always finds Tsuzuki looking at me. Normally I would frown at him or if I'm in a bad mood he'd probably get a spank or a yell from me.





When he finally stops doing that, he decides to drink to his heart's content. We all know that Tsuzuki likes desserts and he just loves to stuff his face with lots and lots of chocolate or anything that's sweet. But these past few days he can't be seen with one. A can of beer or a bottle of sake is his favorite companion of the moment.





I sighed and shifted his weight around my shoulders. I'm supporting him because without me, he can't walk for no more than three steps. At first it was okay, I mean Tsuzuki getting a few more beers or glasses of sake than usual, because it wasn't really hindering our work or anything. But now.....





I stole a glance at him and sighed again. For me he's an added extra work. Look at me. I'm going around town practically carrying him when I could be at the comfort of my own home and could be doing something fruitful.





"'Soka-chan? Where are we going?" He asks this time pouting.





"Home." I answered uninterestedly.





"Yours?" He asks me getting all genky and excited. I frowned at him.





"Of course not. I'm bringing you home."





"Awww.... But you'll stay with me right?" He asks me, his eyes pleading. I shook my head.





"As soon as you're in, I'm out." I told him and looked around. Good, just one more hell block to walk.





"But....."





"Tsuzuki! Just shut up!" I snapped at him getting really irritated. He averts his gaze away from mine, but I'm fast enough to see the pained look in his eyes. Have I hurt him? I ask myself thoughtfully. Nah. He'll forget about it tomorrow.





We finally arrived at his house. He had a little difficulty getting the key from his pocket. When he finally produced it, he promptly dropped it.





"Kuso....." He mumbles as he tried to bend down and picks it. The moment his fingers grazed the keys his knees buckled, causing us to topple over.





"Tsuzuki!!! Give me that!" I gestured to the key and snatched it from his hands, angrily. He really is such a burden. I stood up, quickly disentangling myself from him.





But then our position was just so damn uncomfortable that I am just too happy to be out of it. I rammed the key into its lock and tossed Tsuzuki the keys.





"I'm out of here." I mumbled as I turned to walk away.





"'Soka I can't stand up." He whined. I whirled around and found him still immobile at his doorstep. I grumbled and went to his side to help him stand up. I took his arm and flung it around my shoulders. With immense difficulty I tried to support his weight and walked him in.





"This will be the last time Tsuzuki." I grumbled as we set foot at his living room. I quickly inspected the area. I think it's much tidier than the last time I've been here.





I grunted as I deposited Tsuzuki into his couch. I swear another more minute and I won't be able to walk. My shoulders and my back hurt. All thanks to Tsuzuki.





"See you tomorrow Tsuzuki." I said as I waved my hand goodbye. I turned to the exit. I was surprised when he held my wrist and prevented me from going out.





"What do you think you're doing Tsuzuki?!!" I screeched as I twisted my wrists from his grasp. He didn't budge.





"Stay with me tonight." He said. He suddenly sobered up because he stood and embraced me.





"Let go, Tsuzuki!!! Let me go!!" I said as I struggled to free from his hold.





"Hisoka, please...."





"What?!" I finally freed myself from him and distanced from him. As far as possible. He closed the distance between us in a few strides. He took my hands in his.





"I just want to tell you something." He said as he still held firm on me. I winced, his emotional vibes is starting to flow on me and it's too much that I started to fell dizzy.





"Please let go. You're hurting me."





"Not until you listen to what I say." I happen to look into his eyes and it was full of passion that I was taken aback. I merely nodded, not trusting myself to speak.





"I... I..." He stammered, as he took a few steps back.





"What?! Damn it Tsuzuki! Spit it out! I don't have all night!" I screamed, getting fed up. He looked hurt, but still I could see he really wanted to tell whatever it is, now.





"Suki da." He whispered as he averted his eyes away from me.





"What?!" I asked incredously. I heard wrong right? Tsuzuki looks at me earnestly.





"I love you! I always have....." He advanced on me, his eyes pleading.





"Please Hisoka.... I just want...." My head was spinning, and I was ready to faint. Tsuzuki's emotions were too damn strong it was making my vision hazy. He made things worse when he closed the distance between us again. He put his hands on my shoulders. I swatted it away.





"You don't know what you're saying." I said groggily.





"I've never been more sure in my life, Hisoka." He looks really desperate now. But I'm getting desperate too.





"Tsuzuki... Let' just forget about this. You're sure to forget this tomorrow." I said as I made my way to the door. He stopped me and turned me to face him.





"I will never forget about this Hisoka! And I really love you! Why won't you listen to me?" I stubbornly freed myself from his grasp, although I was getting weaker by the minute.





"Just leave me alone, will you?!!! Do me a favor and don't bug me anymore!" I practically screamed at his face. He backed down and fisted his hands at his sides, his gaze cast downwards. I took this time to flee.





I was about to step into the streets when I realized it was raining, and my house was far from his place! I thought gloomily. I hesitated for a while, but then plunged myself into the rain. Better wet than with Tsuzuki.





A hand clamped onto my arm and I turned just in time to see Tsuzuki bend down to kiss me. I couldn't react at first. But then his surge of emotions passes through me again and I feel like drowning. Everything went hazy. Then I felt his urgency... his fingers going under the fabric of my shirt, his tongue delving deeper in my mouth.





That's when I snapped. I slapped him hard. So hard that his cheek has an angry red mark. I breathed in deeply, my eyes blazing with anger. He had crossed what he shouldn't.





"I hate you." I said loathingly. He reaches out to me.





"Hisoka, I'm sorry....." I ducked his hands.





"Don't ever touch me. I won't forget this..." I looked at him one more time, despaired and lost. He sank to his knees and I ran as fast as I could away from him.







t.b.c





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A/N: this is my first yami fic so please be gentle.... ^____^