Chapter 1
I don't know how I managed to get home but I did. My eyes were blurry from the rain and from my own tears that I can't see anything ahead of me. My brain was officially not functioning while I was running home. All that I was aware of was my thundering heart and the buzz in my head.
After locking the door behind me, I kicked off my shoes and undressed. Not wanting to catch a cold and thinking of relieving some stress, I immediately went to the bathroom to have a long soak in a warm bath.
I watched the steam float lazily in front of me while thinking of tonight's events. I put a hand to my chin thoughtfully. Tsuzuki looked really devastated about me being angry at him. But why shouldn't I be? I thought indignantly as I kicked some bubbles around, releasing some rage in the process.
In the first place, if he really does love me then he should've given me some time to think about it. It's just the gentleman thing to do right? I thought confused. Oh well, what do I know about love in the first place? I didn't even experience parental love much less romance.
The closest thing I had someone feel anything for me at all is lust. I shivered involuntarily. And Tsuzuki's actions tonight were much less the same from that... That.. Muraki. I spat the name angrily.
His actions were unforgivable though, drunk or not. When he's gone sober I'll expect some apology from him. I deserve it really. I went with him just to make sure he got home alright and that's the thanks I get? Come on. Don't I command any respect at all?
I sighed and I closed my eyes, trying to enjoy the warm water. I think Tsuzuki will get over it. And I doubt if he really meant what he said. He's drunk after all. But still.... I pictured him in my mind when he confessed. His eyes were radiating with so much passion and love. And his aura was telling me that he's saying the truth about..... I'm sure of that.
But I don't feel anything for him. I thought reflectively. Okay, so I do. Just a little. But it's all platonic. I think. I blinked a couple of times thinking hard. Ahhhh. Whatever. My head is aching and I don't want to think about it anymore. I rose from the water and wrapped myself in a fluffy green towel.
Besides I'll find out tomorrow if Tsuzuki really meant it. Or he just said it because he's drunk. Tomorrow, I'll find out.
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I went to the office in a very bad mood. I didn't get enough sleep last night. I kept tossing and turning but sleep just won't get to me. Maybe because I kept thinking of what happened that night.
"Bon! You look terrible!" Watari commented as he peered at my face closely.
"Don't remind me." I said grumpily as I whipped a cup to get some coffee.
"Aha! No sleep right? Here I've got some new invention that will make you feel like you slept through the night!" He produced a clear pink pill and inside it was what looked like a worm. I looked at it doubtfully.
"No thanks Watari. I'd prefer to feel like hell than be your guinea pig." I turned away from him sipping the coffee.
"Ouch. So harsh Bon!" He clutched his heart to show how hurt he was. I rolled my eyes. He laughed.
"Hmmmm.. Can't I really persuade you bon?" I shook my head and pursed my lips.
"So cruel...." Watari looked sad for a moment but then he spotted Tatsumi.
"Tatsumi! You look tired!!! Why don't you try....." He bounded to Tatsumi and prepared to pounce on him. I shook my head in annoyance and wonder. How could Watari be so genky all the time? I went to my desk and shuffled some papers.
All my paper work was done and I don't really have any new job to work on. I glanced at Tsuzuki's table to see if he finished his. I really can't tell by looking at it since it's all clustered and messy. I proceeded to his table to see if he's finished something.
I can't pass my report to Kachou since half of the report must come from Tsuzuki, so I have to find his half. Now if it's only possible to do that... I thought to myself as I shifted mounds of papers aside.
After I had sifted through the papers at his desk and didn't find what I was looking for, I opened his drawer. My mouth dropped open when I saw what was inside. Inside was neatly stacked pictures of me could be found. And lots of doodle drawings of me too! What the hell is that baka thinking?!
I was seething to myself when someone tapped my shoulder. I must've jumped at least four feet in the air from the surprise.
"Ka-Kachou!" I gurgled incoherently as I jammed Tsuzuki's drawer closed.
"Are you alright Kurosaki-kun?" He asked me, concern filling his voice. I nodded weakly.
"Hai. I was just surprised that's all." He looked doubtful but nodded all the same.
"Come to my office. There's a new mission for you to handle."
"Tsuzuki's not yet here. If there'll be a briefing..." Kachou put up a hand to stop me.
"We'll talk about that in my office." He said silencing me. I just shrugged and followed him to his office. Once inside he offered me a chair.
"What's the matter, Kachou?" I asked him intrigued.
"You'll have a new partner." I blinked.
"What?" I asked Kachou. It seems I heard wrong.
"Kurosaki-kun, Watari will be your partner for a while. He'll brief you with your next assignment."
"But.. But... Kachou! What about Tsuzuki?! Does he know about this?" I ask Kachou confused. He looked back at me, sympathy in his dark eyes.
"Tsuzuki was the one who asked me to cancel your partnership." He said sadly as he went out of the office, claiming he needed some coffee. I doubt it. He just wanted to be away from me, that's all. But I'm thankful.
I fell back in his seat, dizzy with my swirling emotions. What was that all about? And what the hell is Tsuzuki thinking? Why did he cancel our partnership? Was it because of last night? Did he not want to be with me anymore? I thought angrily.
Then a sudden realization made me weak. And why did I feel violent about not being partners with him anymore? This is what I want right? To be fucking away from that damn lazy, perverted Tsuzuki. But why do I feel so....incomplete? Why? I asked myself over and again.
t.b.c
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I don't know how I managed to get home but I did. My eyes were blurry from the rain and from my own tears that I can't see anything ahead of me. My brain was officially not functioning while I was running home. All that I was aware of was my thundering heart and the buzz in my head.
After locking the door behind me, I kicked off my shoes and undressed. Not wanting to catch a cold and thinking of relieving some stress, I immediately went to the bathroom to have a long soak in a warm bath.
I watched the steam float lazily in front of me while thinking of tonight's events. I put a hand to my chin thoughtfully. Tsuzuki looked really devastated about me being angry at him. But why shouldn't I be? I thought indignantly as I kicked some bubbles around, releasing some rage in the process.
In the first place, if he really does love me then he should've given me some time to think about it. It's just the gentleman thing to do right? I thought confused. Oh well, what do I know about love in the first place? I didn't even experience parental love much less romance.
The closest thing I had someone feel anything for me at all is lust. I shivered involuntarily. And Tsuzuki's actions tonight were much less the same from that... That.. Muraki. I spat the name angrily.
His actions were unforgivable though, drunk or not. When he's gone sober I'll expect some apology from him. I deserve it really. I went with him just to make sure he got home alright and that's the thanks I get? Come on. Don't I command any respect at all?
I sighed and I closed my eyes, trying to enjoy the warm water. I think Tsuzuki will get over it. And I doubt if he really meant what he said. He's drunk after all. But still.... I pictured him in my mind when he confessed. His eyes were radiating with so much passion and love. And his aura was telling me that he's saying the truth about..... I'm sure of that.
But I don't feel anything for him. I thought reflectively. Okay, so I do. Just a little. But it's all platonic. I think. I blinked a couple of times thinking hard. Ahhhh. Whatever. My head is aching and I don't want to think about it anymore. I rose from the water and wrapped myself in a fluffy green towel.
Besides I'll find out tomorrow if Tsuzuki really meant it. Or he just said it because he's drunk. Tomorrow, I'll find out.
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I went to the office in a very bad mood. I didn't get enough sleep last night. I kept tossing and turning but sleep just won't get to me. Maybe because I kept thinking of what happened that night.
"Bon! You look terrible!" Watari commented as he peered at my face closely.
"Don't remind me." I said grumpily as I whipped a cup to get some coffee.
"Aha! No sleep right? Here I've got some new invention that will make you feel like you slept through the night!" He produced a clear pink pill and inside it was what looked like a worm. I looked at it doubtfully.
"No thanks Watari. I'd prefer to feel like hell than be your guinea pig." I turned away from him sipping the coffee.
"Ouch. So harsh Bon!" He clutched his heart to show how hurt he was. I rolled my eyes. He laughed.
"Hmmmm.. Can't I really persuade you bon?" I shook my head and pursed my lips.
"So cruel...." Watari looked sad for a moment but then he spotted Tatsumi.
"Tatsumi! You look tired!!! Why don't you try....." He bounded to Tatsumi and prepared to pounce on him. I shook my head in annoyance and wonder. How could Watari be so genky all the time? I went to my desk and shuffled some papers.
All my paper work was done and I don't really have any new job to work on. I glanced at Tsuzuki's table to see if he finished his. I really can't tell by looking at it since it's all clustered and messy. I proceeded to his table to see if he's finished something.
I can't pass my report to Kachou since half of the report must come from Tsuzuki, so I have to find his half. Now if it's only possible to do that... I thought to myself as I shifted mounds of papers aside.
After I had sifted through the papers at his desk and didn't find what I was looking for, I opened his drawer. My mouth dropped open when I saw what was inside. Inside was neatly stacked pictures of me could be found. And lots of doodle drawings of me too! What the hell is that baka thinking?!
I was seething to myself when someone tapped my shoulder. I must've jumped at least four feet in the air from the surprise.
"Ka-Kachou!" I gurgled incoherently as I jammed Tsuzuki's drawer closed.
"Are you alright Kurosaki-kun?" He asked me, concern filling his voice. I nodded weakly.
"Hai. I was just surprised that's all." He looked doubtful but nodded all the same.
"Come to my office. There's a new mission for you to handle."
"Tsuzuki's not yet here. If there'll be a briefing..." Kachou put up a hand to stop me.
"We'll talk about that in my office." He said silencing me. I just shrugged and followed him to his office. Once inside he offered me a chair.
"What's the matter, Kachou?" I asked him intrigued.
"You'll have a new partner." I blinked.
"What?" I asked Kachou. It seems I heard wrong.
"Kurosaki-kun, Watari will be your partner for a while. He'll brief you with your next assignment."
"But.. But... Kachou! What about Tsuzuki?! Does he know about this?" I ask Kachou confused. He looked back at me, sympathy in his dark eyes.
"Tsuzuki was the one who asked me to cancel your partnership." He said sadly as he went out of the office, claiming he needed some coffee. I doubt it. He just wanted to be away from me, that's all. But I'm thankful.
I fell back in his seat, dizzy with my swirling emotions. What was that all about? And what the hell is Tsuzuki thinking? Why did he cancel our partnership? Was it because of last night? Did he not want to be with me anymore? I thought angrily.
Then a sudden realization made me weak. And why did I feel violent about not being partners with him anymore? This is what I want right? To be fucking away from that damn lazy, perverted Tsuzuki. But why do I feel so....incomplete? Why? I asked myself over and again.
t.b.c
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