Title: Love? Soul? Conscience?

Author: Insane Vamp

Rating: PG

Summary: Lilah gives some thoughts about her life after she's dead.

Disclaimer: Joss and affiliates own the show and characters.

Author's Note: Sorry, but I just felt like writing something short, so this is it.

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I saw this coming.

I knew someday, Wolfram & Hart wouldn't save me from my tragic end. They just use us until we're dead...or they kill us before that.

At least Wesley can get what he wants now. Love? No such thing. I disillusioned myself into believing all that crap existed. Said I loved Wes...that was stupid. Now I'm dead...but where's hell?

Shouldn't I be in hell 'cause of that evil soul thing. Soul? Like *I'd* have a *soul*... What do you need a soul for anyway? To love? I've already said I don't believe *that* exists. Souls must exist though, or else why would Angel become Angelus by losing his. Maybe that was his conscience.

Wait...

Conscience? I've always thought of that as a soul. No soul, but a conscience? Is that possible? Maybe they're a package deal. Or maybe having a conscience is part of having a soul...that's confusing.

Damn, being dead gives you *way* too much free time to think.

Think I can't go haunt Wes? Nah, he already has enough to deal with.

~The End~