Sorry this had taken so long, I'm halfway through my g.c.s.e' so I don't
really have much time. I think this maybe a little rushed and I'm very
sorry, okay?
Lubeana isn't easy okay (in bloke terms)
*For those that are interested I have updated my site so go have a look for me and make the rest of the SH team happy, Yuri and Albert have been driving me mad. Plz help I think I'm going mad. AHHHHHHH*
Chapter 3 The horrible pain within my heart
Slowly Lubeana got up and walked clumsily to her chest of draws, not really thinking of what to put on she shoved on her purple velvet skirt with her black corset.
(I never knew I could hurt so much, oh what do I look like?... Ahhh I have a scar!! Ooh I quite like it. ohhh..I cant go out like this)
Lubeana brushed her hazel hair, and put her black and white stripy stockings on. She wasn't dressing up, well not much and anyway they had visitors she couldn't go round looking like a vagrant. Lubeana put her boots on and looked in the mirror.
She saw a fairly slim girl with piercing blue eyes, her hair fell straight until it reached her shoulders where it twisted and curled, to her it looked a right and total mess but really it was full of body and life. Many would have killed for hair like hers.
She was moderately tall, though not to excess. She was not dazzling but there was a mysterious air about her, this drew people to her warmth, though she would never totally let anyone close enough to her heart, maybe it was her way to keep out her hurt.
It didn't help that all her feelings that she had buried so deep were unearthed with the appearance of her protagonist, Yuri her saviour and the cause of her grief. Her mind wandered and she was left standing silent not staring at any thing.
An owl hooted and Lubeana shook herself jolting her eyes back onto the mirror. She stared at herself again, trying to regain the sense of normal life.
(That's better, I like my boots I look taller)
She flattened the layers of petticoats underneath her skirt, it was rather short but she had the figure so why not? She pulled her stockings up and clipped them to the elastic belt around her waist beneath her clothes.
(Do I look good or what?! He he he I don't look to cheap do I?)
The reflection gave a cheeky smile and she decided no.
(Righty I better go into the other room and say hello properly)
Lubeana took a deep breath, turned the handle and walked into the next room. She wanted to make a grand entrance but she tripped slightly, luckily for her no-one noticed.
Unfortunately just as she was regaining her sense of balance, the overpowering urge to yawn squeezed her and before she could stop it, it had escaped. It came out loud and clumsily making her go bright red as she covered her mouth to try and stifle it.
'Ooops 'scuse me. It just came out.' She smiled weakly, she saw the group turn around to face her and their eyes bulged.
What a change she had undergone, she looked calm, sophisticated, mature but she still looked young from the pink of her cheeks that were stained with her blushing. Yuri's eyes were blinking continuously fast to try and focus what he was seeing in front of him, he couldn't believe his eyes. Was this the child that he had saved all those years ago?
Zhuzhen smiled proudly at her, she really knew how to impress. He wondered whether she had got it off Yuri, strange as it sounded he was sure that the man next to him was the reason for her strength. She had only known him for a week or so but that was still enough time to catch on and take parts of his personality and weave it into her own. It was Yuri who broke the silence as well as the adept's thoughts.
'WOW.you.you've changed.' He gazed at her mesmerised, he still couldn't believe it was her. Zhuzhen chuckled quietly at him, (typical.) He thought. (Always playing the fool)
'I do have clothes other than the ones from the last time you saw me, besides they would amazingly not fit me any more. I think.I'm not too sure but I think its called growing up.'
Yuri exchanged a sarcastic smile with her and laughed. After that point she lost all the apprehension of saying the wrong thing and she relaxed.
She looked over at the person who was sitting next to him, she faintly recognised her and as she was figuring this out, the woman rose out of her chair and introduced herself.
'It's been a long time, I am glad you are well again. We were very worried about you.' At once the voice triggered her memory, the motherly, tender voice that she recalled from after her misfortune. Alice.
Lubeana smiled broadly yet shyly and embraced her, Alice was not expecting this but welcomed it affectionately. Alice grinned snugly and stroked the girls soft and silky hair, for Alice it felt as if the hole that was left empty all those years ago was again full, she believed herself to be very certainly delighted.
Lubeana withdrew blushing. 'Thank you for everything, your help: it is most appreciated.' Alice waved this comment away.
'I didn't do much but it is a pleasure to see you again.' Lubeana nodded and looked at the men who gazed blankly at them, not quite sure what to make of the action that had been taken nor the bond that had had formed so strongly in the moments that passed.
Alice whispered in her ear. 'Never expect men to understand these things, its way above their level of comprehension.' She giggled quietly.
'But I have to say you have a very strange aura about you, it's puzzling in a way, I can't apprehend it, do you sense it?' Alice turned to the others, Zhuzhen nodded soundlessly. As usual Yuri threw the proverbial stone into the water, sending ripples in the tranquil and calm quiet.
'I can't say I have..' Alice was amazed that he hadn't said anything stupid, maybe she should have waited. '..Apart from that she's not dead.' Alice sighed and shook her head, the younger girl laughed slightly and beamed at the people around her.
'Well, I'm back, so what now?' This roused Yuri from his obviously deepening thoughts on what idiotic thing he had said this time round and he proceeded.
'Ahh. yes I remember.. now.' Alice gave him a look silently saying (how the hell could you forget?)'I want you to meet someone.'
Yuri walked over to the room next to where she had been deeply slumbering, Lubeana was confused and it showed. He opened the door to the room and said something to the occupant, Lubeana didn't know what he was saying as he had said it too quietly for her to hear. Yuri turned and smiled broadly.
'Lu, I would like you to meet my son.' The stranger emerged from the room, Lubeana nearly gasped but held it in not showing her surprise. 'Lu this is Ben, Ben this is...' Yuri stopped what he was saying when he saw the look on their faces.
'What's the matter? You two look as if you've seen a ghost.' They didn't answer him, their faces pale but red from embarrassment.
Lubeana stared at Ben for it seemed forever, no thoughts passed through her mind, and it was just blank. At last Alice broke the silence talking with her quiet and gentle voice.
'Yuri, do you think we should go and get the supper? I am rather hungry.' The two men got the gist straight away and hurried to the kitchen. Lubeana didn't feel relieved, or comfortable. In fact she felt more awkward than ever, she smiled resignedly and sat down.
'Erm.Hi.' She didn't half feel stupid. She didn't even look at him in the eyes because she didn't know how she would react or want to see the expression on his face.
'Lu.why do you not look at me?' His voice was taking a very cautious tone, yet it had a certain authority about it. 'You are acting very strangely.' He sat down next to her. She blushed violently but stayed quiet, she lifted her eyes slightly and made eye contact, she was lost in the calm blue pools that stared at her.
A great sadness welled in her which was accompanied by a tear that quivered by her eye and danced down her cheek, the boys expression changed to that of worry. Gently he wiped her eyes with his fingers, his touch made her shiver. The only thing that she was pleased about was that the uneasiness had passed but it had been replaced with a grief that wrenched at her insides.
'Would.you.you mind if I went for a walk.alone?' Ben looked sympathetic but really he was confused and felt a little dejected. He wanted to get to know Lu as he had been in her mind long enough but she seemed to be shutting him out. He bowed his head and nodded. Slowly she went to the door, walked through and closed it quietly behind her.
The air was cool and soothing, Lubeana's mind raced like the gushing of a waterfall. She felt guilty about leaving Ben on his own but she needed space, surely he couldn't deny her that. The tears overwhelmed her again as they streamed down her face, when a distant dream came to her. It was an old dream, one that she had not had in a long time, why had she remembered it now?
Quickly Lubeana sat down and rested on a tree, she didn't want to lose this dream. It seemed important to her to find out what it was about. She closed her eyes and let her mind wander to where it was pulling her.
She was by the sea, it gently washed over her ankles and she could feel the sand under her feet. This was like her dream but it had a different perspective to it. When she was younger she used to play in the sand for hours but now Lubeana felt the urge just to walk and to just keep on walking and never stop.
She walked lethargically. Lu looked down she was wearing a white and lilac chiffon dress that draped around her showing the curves in her shape, the bottom of the skirt was wet from the water but to be honest she couldn't really care less.
The sun was still red, but becoming more yellowed as it rose. She still had no idea what was really happening, she may have had the dream before, but it was quite hard to remember what she had dreamed ten or so years ago. Lu felt an emotion she wasn't quite used to, it was sorrowful, lonely yet full of malice but what made her more puzzled than anything was the emotion wasn't hers.
She turned round and saw someone along the beach, the individual was sitting motionless. Lu began to worry. Were they dead? She ran in haste, emotions flooding her, mostly in concern. As she reached the stranger she saw he was still breathing which relieved her slightly. It was a man, dressed in ripped clothing, she kneeled down beside him and spoke to him quietly.
'Are you all right? Are you hurt?' There was no reply but Lu wasn't really expecting one. She touched his hair gently pushing it out of his eyes. They were half closed, but lifeless.
(I am not getting anywhere fast like this, why do I bother?)
Another voice sounded in her head
[I'm sorry I did not answer but I am too weak to converse physically]
Lu was so surprised she fell back off her knees and sat beside him, a little shaken. He moved slightly and raised his head, his eyes were brilliant green and they stared at her fascinated.
(How can I help you? You cant stay like that, you're almost dead)
Lu already knew what to do, the training that Zhuzhen had given her was all that she needed to help him. She concentrated intensely and murmured the old tongue confidently. A refreshing light beamed and glowed around the man and the colour came back into his skin, hair but most of all his eyes which glittered like emeralds.
He stood up slowly still a little weak while the spell was furthermore healing him. He smiled kindly but there was something about him that made Lu apprehensive, maybe it was the devilish glint in his eyes or the twist at the end of his smile that seemed malevolent.
'I thank you, you have been most gracious.' He had an overpowering aura, his spirit was so dark and she couldn't keep away from him. It was like she was drawn to him, she was unwilling but it was too strong to resist. He slid his hand around her waist and held her firmly.
'You are a black rose, beautiful but deadly. And because of this I must help you.' He passed a hand over her forehead, Lu became weaker and weaker until her legs couldn't hold her anymore. She fell to the ground resting on her hands and breathing deeply.
'I thank you again, you have helped me so much in these past moments.' His strength seemed to have become powerful by taking her life force. 'One thing I have to say is your kindness is your own weakness, you will fail if you do not learn that.'
'Who are you?' Lubeana spoke breathlessly
'A figment of your living nightmare.' He laughed menacingly and Lubeana opened her eyes.
*For those that are interested I have updated my site so go have a look for me and make the rest of the SH team happy, Yuri and Albert have been driving me mad. Plz help I think I'm going mad. AHHHHHHH*
Chapter 3 The horrible pain within my heart
Slowly Lubeana got up and walked clumsily to her chest of draws, not really thinking of what to put on she shoved on her purple velvet skirt with her black corset.
(I never knew I could hurt so much, oh what do I look like?... Ahhh I have a scar!! Ooh I quite like it. ohhh..I cant go out like this)
Lubeana brushed her hazel hair, and put her black and white stripy stockings on. She wasn't dressing up, well not much and anyway they had visitors she couldn't go round looking like a vagrant. Lubeana put her boots on and looked in the mirror.
She saw a fairly slim girl with piercing blue eyes, her hair fell straight until it reached her shoulders where it twisted and curled, to her it looked a right and total mess but really it was full of body and life. Many would have killed for hair like hers.
She was moderately tall, though not to excess. She was not dazzling but there was a mysterious air about her, this drew people to her warmth, though she would never totally let anyone close enough to her heart, maybe it was her way to keep out her hurt.
It didn't help that all her feelings that she had buried so deep were unearthed with the appearance of her protagonist, Yuri her saviour and the cause of her grief. Her mind wandered and she was left standing silent not staring at any thing.
An owl hooted and Lubeana shook herself jolting her eyes back onto the mirror. She stared at herself again, trying to regain the sense of normal life.
(That's better, I like my boots I look taller)
She flattened the layers of petticoats underneath her skirt, it was rather short but she had the figure so why not? She pulled her stockings up and clipped them to the elastic belt around her waist beneath her clothes.
(Do I look good or what?! He he he I don't look to cheap do I?)
The reflection gave a cheeky smile and she decided no.
(Righty I better go into the other room and say hello properly)
Lubeana took a deep breath, turned the handle and walked into the next room. She wanted to make a grand entrance but she tripped slightly, luckily for her no-one noticed.
Unfortunately just as she was regaining her sense of balance, the overpowering urge to yawn squeezed her and before she could stop it, it had escaped. It came out loud and clumsily making her go bright red as she covered her mouth to try and stifle it.
'Ooops 'scuse me. It just came out.' She smiled weakly, she saw the group turn around to face her and their eyes bulged.
What a change she had undergone, she looked calm, sophisticated, mature but she still looked young from the pink of her cheeks that were stained with her blushing. Yuri's eyes were blinking continuously fast to try and focus what he was seeing in front of him, he couldn't believe his eyes. Was this the child that he had saved all those years ago?
Zhuzhen smiled proudly at her, she really knew how to impress. He wondered whether she had got it off Yuri, strange as it sounded he was sure that the man next to him was the reason for her strength. She had only known him for a week or so but that was still enough time to catch on and take parts of his personality and weave it into her own. It was Yuri who broke the silence as well as the adept's thoughts.
'WOW.you.you've changed.' He gazed at her mesmerised, he still couldn't believe it was her. Zhuzhen chuckled quietly at him, (typical.) He thought. (Always playing the fool)
'I do have clothes other than the ones from the last time you saw me, besides they would amazingly not fit me any more. I think.I'm not too sure but I think its called growing up.'
Yuri exchanged a sarcastic smile with her and laughed. After that point she lost all the apprehension of saying the wrong thing and she relaxed.
She looked over at the person who was sitting next to him, she faintly recognised her and as she was figuring this out, the woman rose out of her chair and introduced herself.
'It's been a long time, I am glad you are well again. We were very worried about you.' At once the voice triggered her memory, the motherly, tender voice that she recalled from after her misfortune. Alice.
Lubeana smiled broadly yet shyly and embraced her, Alice was not expecting this but welcomed it affectionately. Alice grinned snugly and stroked the girls soft and silky hair, for Alice it felt as if the hole that was left empty all those years ago was again full, she believed herself to be very certainly delighted.
Lubeana withdrew blushing. 'Thank you for everything, your help: it is most appreciated.' Alice waved this comment away.
'I didn't do much but it is a pleasure to see you again.' Lubeana nodded and looked at the men who gazed blankly at them, not quite sure what to make of the action that had been taken nor the bond that had had formed so strongly in the moments that passed.
Alice whispered in her ear. 'Never expect men to understand these things, its way above their level of comprehension.' She giggled quietly.
'But I have to say you have a very strange aura about you, it's puzzling in a way, I can't apprehend it, do you sense it?' Alice turned to the others, Zhuzhen nodded soundlessly. As usual Yuri threw the proverbial stone into the water, sending ripples in the tranquil and calm quiet.
'I can't say I have..' Alice was amazed that he hadn't said anything stupid, maybe she should have waited. '..Apart from that she's not dead.' Alice sighed and shook her head, the younger girl laughed slightly and beamed at the people around her.
'Well, I'm back, so what now?' This roused Yuri from his obviously deepening thoughts on what idiotic thing he had said this time round and he proceeded.
'Ahh. yes I remember.. now.' Alice gave him a look silently saying (how the hell could you forget?)'I want you to meet someone.'
Yuri walked over to the room next to where she had been deeply slumbering, Lubeana was confused and it showed. He opened the door to the room and said something to the occupant, Lubeana didn't know what he was saying as he had said it too quietly for her to hear. Yuri turned and smiled broadly.
'Lu, I would like you to meet my son.' The stranger emerged from the room, Lubeana nearly gasped but held it in not showing her surprise. 'Lu this is Ben, Ben this is...' Yuri stopped what he was saying when he saw the look on their faces.
'What's the matter? You two look as if you've seen a ghost.' They didn't answer him, their faces pale but red from embarrassment.
Lubeana stared at Ben for it seemed forever, no thoughts passed through her mind, and it was just blank. At last Alice broke the silence talking with her quiet and gentle voice.
'Yuri, do you think we should go and get the supper? I am rather hungry.' The two men got the gist straight away and hurried to the kitchen. Lubeana didn't feel relieved, or comfortable. In fact she felt more awkward than ever, she smiled resignedly and sat down.
'Erm.Hi.' She didn't half feel stupid. She didn't even look at him in the eyes because she didn't know how she would react or want to see the expression on his face.
'Lu.why do you not look at me?' His voice was taking a very cautious tone, yet it had a certain authority about it. 'You are acting very strangely.' He sat down next to her. She blushed violently but stayed quiet, she lifted her eyes slightly and made eye contact, she was lost in the calm blue pools that stared at her.
A great sadness welled in her which was accompanied by a tear that quivered by her eye and danced down her cheek, the boys expression changed to that of worry. Gently he wiped her eyes with his fingers, his touch made her shiver. The only thing that she was pleased about was that the uneasiness had passed but it had been replaced with a grief that wrenched at her insides.
'Would.you.you mind if I went for a walk.alone?' Ben looked sympathetic but really he was confused and felt a little dejected. He wanted to get to know Lu as he had been in her mind long enough but she seemed to be shutting him out. He bowed his head and nodded. Slowly she went to the door, walked through and closed it quietly behind her.
The air was cool and soothing, Lubeana's mind raced like the gushing of a waterfall. She felt guilty about leaving Ben on his own but she needed space, surely he couldn't deny her that. The tears overwhelmed her again as they streamed down her face, when a distant dream came to her. It was an old dream, one that she had not had in a long time, why had she remembered it now?
Quickly Lubeana sat down and rested on a tree, she didn't want to lose this dream. It seemed important to her to find out what it was about. She closed her eyes and let her mind wander to where it was pulling her.
She was by the sea, it gently washed over her ankles and she could feel the sand under her feet. This was like her dream but it had a different perspective to it. When she was younger she used to play in the sand for hours but now Lubeana felt the urge just to walk and to just keep on walking and never stop.
She walked lethargically. Lu looked down she was wearing a white and lilac chiffon dress that draped around her showing the curves in her shape, the bottom of the skirt was wet from the water but to be honest she couldn't really care less.
The sun was still red, but becoming more yellowed as it rose. She still had no idea what was really happening, she may have had the dream before, but it was quite hard to remember what she had dreamed ten or so years ago. Lu felt an emotion she wasn't quite used to, it was sorrowful, lonely yet full of malice but what made her more puzzled than anything was the emotion wasn't hers.
She turned round and saw someone along the beach, the individual was sitting motionless. Lu began to worry. Were they dead? She ran in haste, emotions flooding her, mostly in concern. As she reached the stranger she saw he was still breathing which relieved her slightly. It was a man, dressed in ripped clothing, she kneeled down beside him and spoke to him quietly.
'Are you all right? Are you hurt?' There was no reply but Lu wasn't really expecting one. She touched his hair gently pushing it out of his eyes. They were half closed, but lifeless.
(I am not getting anywhere fast like this, why do I bother?)
Another voice sounded in her head
[I'm sorry I did not answer but I am too weak to converse physically]
Lu was so surprised she fell back off her knees and sat beside him, a little shaken. He moved slightly and raised his head, his eyes were brilliant green and they stared at her fascinated.
(How can I help you? You cant stay like that, you're almost dead)
Lu already knew what to do, the training that Zhuzhen had given her was all that she needed to help him. She concentrated intensely and murmured the old tongue confidently. A refreshing light beamed and glowed around the man and the colour came back into his skin, hair but most of all his eyes which glittered like emeralds.
He stood up slowly still a little weak while the spell was furthermore healing him. He smiled kindly but there was something about him that made Lu apprehensive, maybe it was the devilish glint in his eyes or the twist at the end of his smile that seemed malevolent.
'I thank you, you have been most gracious.' He had an overpowering aura, his spirit was so dark and she couldn't keep away from him. It was like she was drawn to him, she was unwilling but it was too strong to resist. He slid his hand around her waist and held her firmly.
'You are a black rose, beautiful but deadly. And because of this I must help you.' He passed a hand over her forehead, Lu became weaker and weaker until her legs couldn't hold her anymore. She fell to the ground resting on her hands and breathing deeply.
'I thank you again, you have helped me so much in these past moments.' His strength seemed to have become powerful by taking her life force. 'One thing I have to say is your kindness is your own weakness, you will fail if you do not learn that.'
'Who are you?' Lubeana spoke breathlessly
'A figment of your living nightmare.' He laughed menacingly and Lubeana opened her eyes.
