A/N - WOW! Almost died of shock when I read my reviews! There was no one
telling me I was sick! Sorry semi-rant over. Thank you so so so so so so
much to those of you who did review (nicely!) you restored my faith in
humanity. On with the show! OK well this is chapter 11 and there will
probably be about 3 more chapters because this has been dragging on for
longer than I expected! I have written an epilogue which if there is enough
demand, I will post after I finish this. OK this is where the ending starts
to come together and some of you might guess what's gonna happen by the end
of this chapter so I wont keep you waiting . . .
Chapter 11 - Pain
"C'mon El! Push!" David encouraged squeezing Eloise's hand gently, "I know you can do this!!"
"I can't!" she yelled panting. "I can't do this anymore David!"
David didn't speak, he held her hand and wished he could take this pain away from her.
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David looked down at his daughter. She was so tiny he couldn't believe it. The way she sat in Eloise's arms, with her fist's clenched he couldn't help but fall in love with her. Everything in that moment was perfect. It was only when he moved his head and looked around that he got his reality check. They weren't in a nice maternity ward. They were still in the squat, sitting on a sheet on the floor, his daughter wrapped in stolen towels. Her umbilical cord had been cut using a shoelace and a pair of scissors. As much as he wanted to give her the world he knew that he never would. He looked up at Eloise and her eyes met his,
"It was worth it wasn't it?" she asked breathless
"Definitely" he replied kissing her forehead, "So worth it"
They both continued to sit in silence, neither one wanting to stop looking at their little bundle. Eventually Eloise spoke, asking a question that she couldn't believe she hadn't asked before,
"So what's her name?"
David laughed a little, in that moment he felt like every other new parent in the world. Concerned with his child's name and nothing else. He sat and thought for a minute before a name came to mind,
"Marie" he stated, "Remember when we used to talk about running away and I always said I'd call our first daughter Marie, even though you wanted her to be called Amelia?"
Eloise smiled, "Yeah I do"
"So you like Marie?"
Again Eloise nodded, but then the perfect name sprung into her head, "Hope"
David looked confused so she continued, "Call her Hope, cos that's what she is. She's our hope, our strength, our reason to carry on"
David smiled and looked at his new daughter, "Hi Hope. Hope Marie Bing" he whispered as he gently kissed his new daughter on her forehead.
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Later that night as both David and Hope slept Eloise found herself looking around the small room they called a home. There was no furniture in this room, and the only light came from three candles placed around the tiny space. At the moment there was only one lit. David didn't like a lot of light when he was sleeping. As her eyes rested on him, and then Hope. Asleep in a homemade cot she wanted to cry. She loved them both so much but she knew, they both knew things were never going to get any better than this. She gently shook David awake. He looked at her groggily, questioning her silently,
"We need to talk" she began, "We can't go on like this. We both know we can't"
"I know" he said regretfully, "but what can we do?"
She starred into his eyes and found herself telling him something she had tried to hide for the past 6 months, "You know there were times when I thought about ending it all. I didn't think there was anything left for me here"
David pulled her into a hug, the love he felt for her shining through, "Me too" he whispered, "Me to"
Eloise lost herself in his arms, in the gentle rocking motion, she went over his last sentence over and over again, 'me too. . . me too' After about 10 seconds she actually listened to the sentence and sat up so quickly she almost knocked him over.
"So why don't we do it?" she asked quietly,
"Do what?" he asked slowly, dreading the answer.
"Take an overdose, slit our wrists, whatever it takes. If we can't be together in this life then we can be together in the next one"
David looked shocked and for an instant Eloise regretted her words, "But what about Hope?"
Eloise slowly walked over to her daughter and picked her up, careful as to not disturb her. As she looked down at her tiny face, a face that she helped to create, a face that she should be able to see grow up. But she knew no matter what she did that would never happen. Even if she and David didn't do something Hope would be taken into care. They'd probably never see her again. It would be better for everyone if they just went now, before she could really get attached.
"What kind of life would she have with us anyway?"
David nodded and walked over to his family, holding them in his arms until they were both sure. This was what they had to do.
Silently Eloise handed Hope to David and walked over to the cardboard box on the other side of the room. She sat down and reached for the sheet of paper and old biro that were on top of the box. Slowly she began to write.
When Hope began to stir David walked over to Eloise and placed their daughter in her arms, taking the letter from her at the same time.
"Is it finished?"
Eloise nodded, "now all we need to do is deliver it and we can be free"
David looked at Hope and whispered to himself, "Free from what?"
Eloise whispered back, "Pain"
A/N - OK I know this is a LUDICRUSLY short chapter and I'm sorry but blah blah blah sort stuff out blah blah blah. Lol. Anyway did anyone see Bad Girls last night? I can't believe that a drama that has such far fetched storylines (kidnapping Christopher Biggin's and brewing their own beer in the greenhouse for example) can still stay so, well just ACE!! And I'm sorry but to anyone out there who watches BB 4. Fed has GOT to go! So's Cameron I'm sorry but frankly the man scares me! Plus if you watch Graham Norton doing his impression of Cameron (5000 years old!) you'll understand! Lol Hope you all enjoyed. Harry Potter's out tomorrow so I might not update then!
~*Nina*~
Chapter 11 - Pain
"C'mon El! Push!" David encouraged squeezing Eloise's hand gently, "I know you can do this!!"
"I can't!" she yelled panting. "I can't do this anymore David!"
David didn't speak, he held her hand and wished he could take this pain away from her.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
David looked down at his daughter. She was so tiny he couldn't believe it. The way she sat in Eloise's arms, with her fist's clenched he couldn't help but fall in love with her. Everything in that moment was perfect. It was only when he moved his head and looked around that he got his reality check. They weren't in a nice maternity ward. They were still in the squat, sitting on a sheet on the floor, his daughter wrapped in stolen towels. Her umbilical cord had been cut using a shoelace and a pair of scissors. As much as he wanted to give her the world he knew that he never would. He looked up at Eloise and her eyes met his,
"It was worth it wasn't it?" she asked breathless
"Definitely" he replied kissing her forehead, "So worth it"
They both continued to sit in silence, neither one wanting to stop looking at their little bundle. Eventually Eloise spoke, asking a question that she couldn't believe she hadn't asked before,
"So what's her name?"
David laughed a little, in that moment he felt like every other new parent in the world. Concerned with his child's name and nothing else. He sat and thought for a minute before a name came to mind,
"Marie" he stated, "Remember when we used to talk about running away and I always said I'd call our first daughter Marie, even though you wanted her to be called Amelia?"
Eloise smiled, "Yeah I do"
"So you like Marie?"
Again Eloise nodded, but then the perfect name sprung into her head, "Hope"
David looked confused so she continued, "Call her Hope, cos that's what she is. She's our hope, our strength, our reason to carry on"
David smiled and looked at his new daughter, "Hi Hope. Hope Marie Bing" he whispered as he gently kissed his new daughter on her forehead.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Later that night as both David and Hope slept Eloise found herself looking around the small room they called a home. There was no furniture in this room, and the only light came from three candles placed around the tiny space. At the moment there was only one lit. David didn't like a lot of light when he was sleeping. As her eyes rested on him, and then Hope. Asleep in a homemade cot she wanted to cry. She loved them both so much but she knew, they both knew things were never going to get any better than this. She gently shook David awake. He looked at her groggily, questioning her silently,
"We need to talk" she began, "We can't go on like this. We both know we can't"
"I know" he said regretfully, "but what can we do?"
She starred into his eyes and found herself telling him something she had tried to hide for the past 6 months, "You know there were times when I thought about ending it all. I didn't think there was anything left for me here"
David pulled her into a hug, the love he felt for her shining through, "Me too" he whispered, "Me to"
Eloise lost herself in his arms, in the gentle rocking motion, she went over his last sentence over and over again, 'me too. . . me too' After about 10 seconds she actually listened to the sentence and sat up so quickly she almost knocked him over.
"So why don't we do it?" she asked quietly,
"Do what?" he asked slowly, dreading the answer.
"Take an overdose, slit our wrists, whatever it takes. If we can't be together in this life then we can be together in the next one"
David looked shocked and for an instant Eloise regretted her words, "But what about Hope?"
Eloise slowly walked over to her daughter and picked her up, careful as to not disturb her. As she looked down at her tiny face, a face that she helped to create, a face that she should be able to see grow up. But she knew no matter what she did that would never happen. Even if she and David didn't do something Hope would be taken into care. They'd probably never see her again. It would be better for everyone if they just went now, before she could really get attached.
"What kind of life would she have with us anyway?"
David nodded and walked over to his family, holding them in his arms until they were both sure. This was what they had to do.
Silently Eloise handed Hope to David and walked over to the cardboard box on the other side of the room. She sat down and reached for the sheet of paper and old biro that were on top of the box. Slowly she began to write.
When Hope began to stir David walked over to Eloise and placed their daughter in her arms, taking the letter from her at the same time.
"Is it finished?"
Eloise nodded, "now all we need to do is deliver it and we can be free"
David looked at Hope and whispered to himself, "Free from what?"
Eloise whispered back, "Pain"
A/N - OK I know this is a LUDICRUSLY short chapter and I'm sorry but blah blah blah sort stuff out blah blah blah. Lol. Anyway did anyone see Bad Girls last night? I can't believe that a drama that has such far fetched storylines (kidnapping Christopher Biggin's and brewing their own beer in the greenhouse for example) can still stay so, well just ACE!! And I'm sorry but to anyone out there who watches BB 4. Fed has GOT to go! So's Cameron I'm sorry but frankly the man scares me! Plus if you watch Graham Norton doing his impression of Cameron (5000 years old!) you'll understand! Lol Hope you all enjoyed. Harry Potter's out tomorrow so I might not update then!
~*Nina*~
