Chapter 7-Im Sorry
"Paul.I love you so much, I cant live without you even though we hadn't really gone out, and we didn't know each other that great.I felt like I knew you all my life..like we were soul mates.I know you probably hate me, I really had no reason to be mad at you for still living with Chyna.we weren't, as I said before, going out really, and you didn't even spend anytime there.I don't expect you to love me again, if you really ever did, or even like me.I just want you to know from the bottom of my heart I am sorry" Stephanie lightly sobbed. Now if only she could actually say this to Paul. She had been practicing it for about 2 weeks. It was about a month or 2 since she remembered how much she still loved him. But she still had to sort everything out.
*Ok that's it, I have to tell Stephanie I still think about her and miss her, and how truly and deeply sorry I am for being a jerk, she needs to know. Even if she just slaps me and walks off at least I will have said it.* Paul had been contemplating this for weeks, ever since he remembered when he hurt her so badly at the club, and about not moving out with Chyna. He wanted her back, he always felt safe when he was with her, not bodyguard safe, but love safe, that she would do anything for him, for their undying love.
The love really truly was shown it was undying for both of them the night they remembered they still, even though all of the mess and sorrow loved each other.
They couldn't believe it was already Stephanie's and Triple H's 1 year on screen wedding. It seemed like just yesterday they were 'married'. Vince decided he needed to hold off the divorce for a bit longer, the ratings were doing great. He talked to Stephanie about it and she said it was ok as long as they would divorce with in the year if she wanted. Vince agreed. Then he talked to Paul, Paul said it was up to Stephanie, he didn't care one way or the other, as long as Steph was ok and the ratings were good he was happy. Although he knew better then to tell Vince about the Stephanie part. They both were thinking *tonight is the night, I'm going to apologize*
The show was going to start in just 2 hours, and they needed to be ready and practice a little. Paul was about to leave his dressing room to go to the gorilla and wait to go out. He hadn't seen Stephanie all day *would she just not show up.no she would never do that* Then he heard a knock on his door.
"Paul? It's Steph..can I come in..I need to talk to you." Stephanie said in a quiet voice, almost as if she was scared or nervous.
Paul ran to open the door, finally it was his chance. "Come in" he said with a hand jester escorting her to the sofa when he opened the door. "Have a seat" Then Paul thought *wait maybe she is going to say she really wants this divorce...I better talk first.* "Steph, I need to say something to you too before you say anything."
Stephanie was nervous *is he going to say he really wants us to stop working together.oh god, I need to let him know how I feel.but he said it in a kind voice.it cant be that.*
Paul saw the worried look on Stephanie's face "Its really important, and nothing mean, don't worry just something you need to know.whatever I say to you I want you to tell me exactly what you were going to tell me.not matter what.ok?"
Stephanie was pleased with Paul reassuring her. "Yes, of course"
"Ok well.here goes nothing..Stephanie I am sorry from the bottom of my heart. I am sorry I hurt you. I am sorry I never moved at of the house with Chyna. I am sorry I hurt you at the club. I am sorry for ANY pain I have EVER caused you. I never EVER wanted to hurt you. No matter what you do to me I don't ever want you to hurt.that kills me. I am sorry for anything and everything I have ever done wrong. I love you Stephanie, I always will. No matter what..always and forever I will love you. I will still love you when you are married and have children. I will still love you when you hate me. I don't know why but I love you. The whole time I have always loved you. You have latched on to me, and I don't want you to unlatch." By this point Stephanie was really crying. Paul didn't know if it was good or bad tears...but it seemed like good ones. "Stephanie it would mean the world to me if you would forgive me. I don't care if you hate me or love me after it, as long as you forgive me.no you don't even have to forgive me, I just want to make sure you are not hurting.you are probably not though because you have moved on and could care less about me, but I really need to say that." Paul finished getting a little teary-eyed himself. He held Stephanie who collapsed in his arms. "Now what did you want to tell me sweetie?" Stephanie couldn't make herself speak, so Paul just held her.
About 5 minutes of just them holding each other and Stephanie crying she stopped, but didn't pull away. "Paul?" Stephanie said in a sweet soft voice.
"Yes.oh boy here comes what I am dreading you turning me down and telling me you hate me.and whatever else you were going to tell me before I spoke"
Stephanie let out a little laugh. "No Paul, I am going to tell you exactly what I wanted to, I was going to say this before you said any of this to me." Stephanie recited everything she had practiced she would say, but added on a few more mushy loving you stuff and about how she was hurting, but not because of him. Because of how she was hurting him.and she even mentioned how she was jealous and selfish. All of their emotions were letting loose. They let everything they were feeling go to each other. Nothing was left unsaid. They had no more secrets.
They held each other a bit more when Paul finally said "Steph, where does this put us?"
"Paul I'm not sure. We both know we love each other but we are going to have to start fresh again, with no regrets, and no secrets with anyone." "Does this mean we are a couple?"
"If you want it"
"Oh Stephy baby, you know I do"
"Then we are a couple, and we can't hide it from anyone this time. We are going to be open. People can either deal with it or not. It doesn't matter, what matters is us and what we are happy."
"But what about your father."
"He can deal with it, if he can't accept that I am madly in love with you then he just wont. There is nothing he can do. You are the best, he won't fire you, he knows how to keep his business like and his personal life separate. You won't even be punished. We are adults and can live our own life and make our own choices. And my choice is to be with the man I love, you, Paul Levesque"
"Oh Stephanie I love you too" And Paul pulled her into a deep passionate kiss. It had been the first kiss they could enjoy; they tried to keep the kissing to a minimum on screen when they were split up. It felt great. Then they sat on the couch just hugging each other and not wanting to let go.
"After the show we will tell everyone about us" Stephanie said to Paul who nodded his head and agreement. He didn't want to let Stephanie go. Not this time.
They heard a knock at the door and a man told them the show would start in 5 minutes and that everyone was looking for Stephanie. Apparently they had knocked on the door of Paul's room when they were confessing everything to each other, a man walked in and saw them hugging so he told everyone they were practicing their lines, even If he did know he they weren't and that it was personal. Stephanie and Paul thanked the man.
Stephanie was getting up to retouch her make up because it was everywhere with her crying. "I'm never going to let you go again Steph" Paul said as he grabbed Stephanie back down to him and held her.
"And I will never let you let me go!" Stephanie reassured him. "But I have to get ready. It's a big night for us. Our on screen marriage's 1 year anniversary. And our off screen reuniting you could call it!"
After a few more kisses Paul finally let Steph get up and fix her make-up but held her hand until she needed it to do her eyeliner. Then he just held her waist, as long as he was touching her she was fine. "Stephy, you don't need make-up you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen"
Stephanie turned around and hugged Paul and gave him a kiss "You make me feel so good about myself Paul.thank you.I love you so much"
"I can not tell a lie!" Paul said and kissed Steph's shoulder. He really liked the red leather tank top and black leather pants she was wearing. It reminded him of the time they went shopping and she got a red shirt and black leather pants because he loved the look on her so much. Then again he loved anything she was in. Stephanie was happy she remembered that perfect day with him.that's why she wore the outfit *maybe Paul will pick up on it*
It was time to go out and give their promo. And celebrate their anniversary. The fans felt something different with the chemistry between them, like they had finally figured out they still loved each other.
The show when on smoothly and every felt the love in the air! Although they didn't really know why.
Paul and Stephanie went back to their dressing room.
"So Steph.you didn't wear that outfit just because its like the one I picked out for you about a year ago is it?"
"Why yes it is! I'm so happy you noticed!!!"
Paul and Stephanie kissed some more and talked about how great the show was and about all their love for each other and how they would never split up again. There was an after show party in the lobby. They had to go there and tell everyone about them being a couple.
When they got there they stood up on the platform and called for everyone's attention. Thank god everyone was there, so they didn't have to do this again. "We have an announcement" Stephanie beamed. She looked at Paul and he took her hand. Everyone saw this and guessed what it was about.
"We are a couple, and are madly in love. So deal with it or don't that's how it is going to be like it or not. We hope you will be happy for us. We are the happiest when we are together. This is good for us. If you care about us please realize this." Stephanie and Paul took turns saying this, either starting the next sentence or by finishing the last sentence. Everyone was happy for them and could tell they were in love. Even Vince saw this.
After Paul and Steph explained their love for each other and what not a little longer every cheered and went back to what they were doing before, but also taking time to congratulate them.
Vince then came up to them. This was what they most dreaded, but at the same time wanted it.
"Paul I see how you treat my daughter, like the Princess she is. You make her the happiest she has been in a long time. You both have my blessing for this relationship. But I swear Paul, you hurt her, mentally or physically I will hurt you 10 times worse, and THAT is a PROMISE." Then Vince hugged his daughter and shook Paul's hand and left them 2 alone.
"Wow, I can't believe he just said that.he really is happy for us! And you know if you hurt me mentally or physically I will hurt you 10 times worse too!!" Stephanie joked.
"I know I can't believe that! Guess Vince does really care about his daughter's happiness more then the business. He didn't even talk about how wrong it was! Its no problem I will NEVER EVER hurt you mentally or physically. And THAT is a PROMISE!" Paul mocked Vince, but in a friendly way.
Paul and Stephanie headed up to their room to spend the night together. The first of many happy nights together.
They fell asleep in each other arms. They both felt safe and more in love then ever. It was perfect. In their sleep though along with thinking about their perfect future off screen together what if Vince divorces them on screen. It wouldn't be so bad, but hard to bear. They also knew Vince would make it dirty. What was going to happen to their relationship if this happened. Would they make it work, its just a role they play. Or would it break them up off screen too?
"Paul.I love you so much, I cant live without you even though we hadn't really gone out, and we didn't know each other that great.I felt like I knew you all my life..like we were soul mates.I know you probably hate me, I really had no reason to be mad at you for still living with Chyna.we weren't, as I said before, going out really, and you didn't even spend anytime there.I don't expect you to love me again, if you really ever did, or even like me.I just want you to know from the bottom of my heart I am sorry" Stephanie lightly sobbed. Now if only she could actually say this to Paul. She had been practicing it for about 2 weeks. It was about a month or 2 since she remembered how much she still loved him. But she still had to sort everything out.
*Ok that's it, I have to tell Stephanie I still think about her and miss her, and how truly and deeply sorry I am for being a jerk, she needs to know. Even if she just slaps me and walks off at least I will have said it.* Paul had been contemplating this for weeks, ever since he remembered when he hurt her so badly at the club, and about not moving out with Chyna. He wanted her back, he always felt safe when he was with her, not bodyguard safe, but love safe, that she would do anything for him, for their undying love.
The love really truly was shown it was undying for both of them the night they remembered they still, even though all of the mess and sorrow loved each other.
They couldn't believe it was already Stephanie's and Triple H's 1 year on screen wedding. It seemed like just yesterday they were 'married'. Vince decided he needed to hold off the divorce for a bit longer, the ratings were doing great. He talked to Stephanie about it and she said it was ok as long as they would divorce with in the year if she wanted. Vince agreed. Then he talked to Paul, Paul said it was up to Stephanie, he didn't care one way or the other, as long as Steph was ok and the ratings were good he was happy. Although he knew better then to tell Vince about the Stephanie part. They both were thinking *tonight is the night, I'm going to apologize*
The show was going to start in just 2 hours, and they needed to be ready and practice a little. Paul was about to leave his dressing room to go to the gorilla and wait to go out. He hadn't seen Stephanie all day *would she just not show up.no she would never do that* Then he heard a knock on his door.
"Paul? It's Steph..can I come in..I need to talk to you." Stephanie said in a quiet voice, almost as if she was scared or nervous.
Paul ran to open the door, finally it was his chance. "Come in" he said with a hand jester escorting her to the sofa when he opened the door. "Have a seat" Then Paul thought *wait maybe she is going to say she really wants this divorce...I better talk first.* "Steph, I need to say something to you too before you say anything."
Stephanie was nervous *is he going to say he really wants us to stop working together.oh god, I need to let him know how I feel.but he said it in a kind voice.it cant be that.*
Paul saw the worried look on Stephanie's face "Its really important, and nothing mean, don't worry just something you need to know.whatever I say to you I want you to tell me exactly what you were going to tell me.not matter what.ok?"
Stephanie was pleased with Paul reassuring her. "Yes, of course"
"Ok well.here goes nothing..Stephanie I am sorry from the bottom of my heart. I am sorry I hurt you. I am sorry I never moved at of the house with Chyna. I am sorry I hurt you at the club. I am sorry for ANY pain I have EVER caused you. I never EVER wanted to hurt you. No matter what you do to me I don't ever want you to hurt.that kills me. I am sorry for anything and everything I have ever done wrong. I love you Stephanie, I always will. No matter what..always and forever I will love you. I will still love you when you are married and have children. I will still love you when you hate me. I don't know why but I love you. The whole time I have always loved you. You have latched on to me, and I don't want you to unlatch." By this point Stephanie was really crying. Paul didn't know if it was good or bad tears...but it seemed like good ones. "Stephanie it would mean the world to me if you would forgive me. I don't care if you hate me or love me after it, as long as you forgive me.no you don't even have to forgive me, I just want to make sure you are not hurting.you are probably not though because you have moved on and could care less about me, but I really need to say that." Paul finished getting a little teary-eyed himself. He held Stephanie who collapsed in his arms. "Now what did you want to tell me sweetie?" Stephanie couldn't make herself speak, so Paul just held her.
About 5 minutes of just them holding each other and Stephanie crying she stopped, but didn't pull away. "Paul?" Stephanie said in a sweet soft voice.
"Yes.oh boy here comes what I am dreading you turning me down and telling me you hate me.and whatever else you were going to tell me before I spoke"
Stephanie let out a little laugh. "No Paul, I am going to tell you exactly what I wanted to, I was going to say this before you said any of this to me." Stephanie recited everything she had practiced she would say, but added on a few more mushy loving you stuff and about how she was hurting, but not because of him. Because of how she was hurting him.and she even mentioned how she was jealous and selfish. All of their emotions were letting loose. They let everything they were feeling go to each other. Nothing was left unsaid. They had no more secrets.
They held each other a bit more when Paul finally said "Steph, where does this put us?"
"Paul I'm not sure. We both know we love each other but we are going to have to start fresh again, with no regrets, and no secrets with anyone." "Does this mean we are a couple?"
"If you want it"
"Oh Stephy baby, you know I do"
"Then we are a couple, and we can't hide it from anyone this time. We are going to be open. People can either deal with it or not. It doesn't matter, what matters is us and what we are happy."
"But what about your father."
"He can deal with it, if he can't accept that I am madly in love with you then he just wont. There is nothing he can do. You are the best, he won't fire you, he knows how to keep his business like and his personal life separate. You won't even be punished. We are adults and can live our own life and make our own choices. And my choice is to be with the man I love, you, Paul Levesque"
"Oh Stephanie I love you too" And Paul pulled her into a deep passionate kiss. It had been the first kiss they could enjoy; they tried to keep the kissing to a minimum on screen when they were split up. It felt great. Then they sat on the couch just hugging each other and not wanting to let go.
"After the show we will tell everyone about us" Stephanie said to Paul who nodded his head and agreement. He didn't want to let Stephanie go. Not this time.
They heard a knock at the door and a man told them the show would start in 5 minutes and that everyone was looking for Stephanie. Apparently they had knocked on the door of Paul's room when they were confessing everything to each other, a man walked in and saw them hugging so he told everyone they were practicing their lines, even If he did know he they weren't and that it was personal. Stephanie and Paul thanked the man.
Stephanie was getting up to retouch her make up because it was everywhere with her crying. "I'm never going to let you go again Steph" Paul said as he grabbed Stephanie back down to him and held her.
"And I will never let you let me go!" Stephanie reassured him. "But I have to get ready. It's a big night for us. Our on screen marriage's 1 year anniversary. And our off screen reuniting you could call it!"
After a few more kisses Paul finally let Steph get up and fix her make-up but held her hand until she needed it to do her eyeliner. Then he just held her waist, as long as he was touching her she was fine. "Stephy, you don't need make-up you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen"
Stephanie turned around and hugged Paul and gave him a kiss "You make me feel so good about myself Paul.thank you.I love you so much"
"I can not tell a lie!" Paul said and kissed Steph's shoulder. He really liked the red leather tank top and black leather pants she was wearing. It reminded him of the time they went shopping and she got a red shirt and black leather pants because he loved the look on her so much. Then again he loved anything she was in. Stephanie was happy she remembered that perfect day with him.that's why she wore the outfit *maybe Paul will pick up on it*
It was time to go out and give their promo. And celebrate their anniversary. The fans felt something different with the chemistry between them, like they had finally figured out they still loved each other.
The show when on smoothly and every felt the love in the air! Although they didn't really know why.
Paul and Stephanie went back to their dressing room.
"So Steph.you didn't wear that outfit just because its like the one I picked out for you about a year ago is it?"
"Why yes it is! I'm so happy you noticed!!!"
Paul and Stephanie kissed some more and talked about how great the show was and about all their love for each other and how they would never split up again. There was an after show party in the lobby. They had to go there and tell everyone about them being a couple.
When they got there they stood up on the platform and called for everyone's attention. Thank god everyone was there, so they didn't have to do this again. "We have an announcement" Stephanie beamed. She looked at Paul and he took her hand. Everyone saw this and guessed what it was about.
"We are a couple, and are madly in love. So deal with it or don't that's how it is going to be like it or not. We hope you will be happy for us. We are the happiest when we are together. This is good for us. If you care about us please realize this." Stephanie and Paul took turns saying this, either starting the next sentence or by finishing the last sentence. Everyone was happy for them and could tell they were in love. Even Vince saw this.
After Paul and Steph explained their love for each other and what not a little longer every cheered and went back to what they were doing before, but also taking time to congratulate them.
Vince then came up to them. This was what they most dreaded, but at the same time wanted it.
"Paul I see how you treat my daughter, like the Princess she is. You make her the happiest she has been in a long time. You both have my blessing for this relationship. But I swear Paul, you hurt her, mentally or physically I will hurt you 10 times worse, and THAT is a PROMISE." Then Vince hugged his daughter and shook Paul's hand and left them 2 alone.
"Wow, I can't believe he just said that.he really is happy for us! And you know if you hurt me mentally or physically I will hurt you 10 times worse too!!" Stephanie joked.
"I know I can't believe that! Guess Vince does really care about his daughter's happiness more then the business. He didn't even talk about how wrong it was! Its no problem I will NEVER EVER hurt you mentally or physically. And THAT is a PROMISE!" Paul mocked Vince, but in a friendly way.
Paul and Stephanie headed up to their room to spend the night together. The first of many happy nights together.
They fell asleep in each other arms. They both felt safe and more in love then ever. It was perfect. In their sleep though along with thinking about their perfect future off screen together what if Vince divorces them on screen. It wouldn't be so bad, but hard to bear. They also knew Vince would make it dirty. What was going to happen to their relationship if this happened. Would they make it work, its just a role they play. Or would it break them up off screen too?
