Author's Note: Ficlet written for the LJ sunday100 drabble challenge. May 11's subject: firsts. SPOILERS FOR "DIRTY GIRLS."

Lost and Never Found

By Trisana McGraw

As years passed, Xander lost bits of himself as he grew from boy to man:

His baby teeth, some lost by unnatural causes.

His fear; though he wasn't exactly sure when, it was after he met Buffy.

His virginity, to Faith.

His immaturity, once he decided to get off his ass and get a job and a life.

His bachelor-status when he proposed to Anya. Even though he didn't go through with it, he was never single after that.

He wasn't sorry to lose any of those. But his eye – ripped out by Caleb – was the first thing he missed.