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LOVE IN VIOLENCE
By: Cool Kid
Chapter 2
Seifer was mad. Fuck. He was annoyed by Zell's refusal. He didn't care if someone finds out or someone gets hurt. All he cared about was fulfilling his own egocentric desires. He was determined to get everything he wanted, as he always did. However, Seifer knew that getting Zell would be a challenge. Zell's refusal made Seifer want him even more. Seifer thought it was very sexy, arousing and hardening. Keeping him at the edge by the boy he craved made his knees weak, even though he knew he should keep the arrogant façade so not to lose face. The boy he teased, the boy he wanted would be the boy who would fulfill his hunger, his craving and his lust.
Zell's sky-blue eyes, rich blond hair and fine succulent lips excite him. His masculine, voluptuous hard body made Seifer drool like a dog. Every time he saw Zell walked down the corridor from afar, his gaze at him, without blinking and faltering, stayed until he could no longer see him. But every time Zell saw Seifer staring at him, Seifer could only tease him as if Zell was wearing something ridiculous. Though, he always wanted to get Zell's attention, and he knew that the only way he could achieve that was to annoy him, to torment him, so that Zell would never forget him – even if Zell were remembering him as a pain in the ass.
But the more he thought about the conversation they had, the more he felt guilty. God, why should I? He questioned himself. He knew from the beginning that he would hurt some people he cared for, or even the people he didn't even give a damn. But no matter what, it was inevitable. What he wasn't sure about was the exact time and place where things will be revealed. Seifer decided to wait, as he thought everything would unfold itself in its appropriate environment. He then lied down on his bed smilingly, but what happened still hurt.
***
Zell was distressed. He didn't know what to do. He didn't know if he should do the right thing or do what he desired. The former would lead to the conformity of the majority while the latter would lead to a satisfying stance - but would consequently lead to suffering.
Seifer wanted him, he knew that perfectly well. Seifer made him sure, from the conversation they had that afternoon, that he understood what he wanted – a fuck buddy, someone who will fulfill his hunger of sex. Zell knew that the guy had been staring at him for almost a month. He knew that Seifer wanted him. But all he could do was to smile at him and make Seifer lust after him even more. What scared him to death was that he wanted that pompous Seifer as well. Seifer knew that, but what Seifer did not know was that Zell was afraid to commit himself to Seifer.
Zell knew that Seifer only wanted someone to have sex with, someone to kiss and someone he could own. But Zell wanted more; he wanted an emotional relationship and not just pure physical bonding. Zell was afraid that Seifer would not play that role, and that he would not share his feelings.
But Zell also lusted after Seifer. The tall, green-eyed, wide-shouldered man wore a charisma that made him a feast to Zell's eyes. The elegance Seifer had made Zell chilled to the bones. But Zell could not risk having sex with him. He knew that Seifer was not ready for an emotional relationship. Zell was not willing to risk everything yet, his virginity, his emotion, and his soul. He wanted to develop an emotional attachment with Seifer before he could offer his body to him.
Moreover, Zell didn't want to hurt anyone, but at the same time, he wanted to satisfy his craving. What's worse was that he suspected that Squall was suspecting something for the past week. He knew that Squall would be shattered if he gave Seifer as chance, not because of the profanity of homosexuality, he didn't even know that Squall was gay, but because Seifer was Squall's mortal enemy. He knew that every time Squall saw Seifer, it made his blood boil. And for Squall to see his best friend together with his enemy would only destroy him.
Zell knew that Squall was improving as person. He knew that Squall was growing, trying to be open and trying to socialize. If Zell fulfill his desire with Seifer, Squall might go back to his slumber – to a deeper turmoil. Zell didn't want that to happen, as he'd feel guilty for being the one to push Squall back into darkness. He didn't want Squall to go back to that darkness because he really cared for Squall and considered him as his best friend and mentor. Zell even idolized Squall for his elegance in fighting. In addition to Squall's silence and imposing attitude.
Sexy, he thought. But he didn't want to go to that kind of thinking.
Zell focused back on what happened yesterday. Seifer had finally cornered him in his own home. Ma Dincht went for the supermarket to get their groceries. Seifer took the chance and went inside. Zell was surprised to see Seifer who was six-foot away from where he was standing. He did not know that Seifer had followed him.
Both men's eyes were fixed on one another, oblivious about the sounds around them. They didn't need to speak, as they both understood what their eyes were telling them. Both of them stopped breathing, Zell couldn't handle it anymore. He gave in when Seifer wet his lip with his tongue. Damn, he's hot, said Zell to himself while almost all of his blood went down to his lower body. He was aroused.
Zell didn't wait any longer and suddenly grab Seifer face and place his lips on him. Seifer was satisfied to feel Zell's touch. Seifer returned the kiss and open his mouth to put his tongue in Zell's. Zell complied as he let his own tongue to experience pleasure with Seifer's.
But as if a lighting bold hit Zell, he suddenly pulled away and punched Seifer on his left cheek. Zell thought about Squall. Seifer was taken aback. He thought that Zell was only teasing him, playing kinky. But after a few seconds, Zell sat down on a nearest chair and put his hands on his face, a tear falling down his cheek.
"Sorry, I can't. " said Zell as his voice cracked. "I just can't."
"Please, do it for me," responded Seifer.
"I can't. I really can't."
"Why?" asked Seifer almost pleadingly.
"Someone will get mad."
"COME ON!" said Seifer who was really annoyed by that time. "I don't care if he finds out!"
Zell was surprised. Did he mean Squall? How did he know?
"I meant Ma," lied Zell.
"I know who you meant," glared Seifer. "I don't care if he's your best friend."
"But I do," Zell finally admitted. He didn't want to hurt Squall. "He'd be crushed if he finds out that I'm sleeping with his enemy."
"No you DON'T! I know you want me as much as I want you."
"I just can't."
And with that last line, Zell broke down into tears and went for the door. He wanted to run as fast as he could to escape the pain of trying to decide.
While he was leaving his house that afternoon, leaving Seifer alone in his house, he saw a human shadow moving towards another building. He thought it was a burglar, but it was too early. What if someone heard our conversation? thought Zell. Though still torn apart in trying to decide between his best friend and his soon-to-be lover, he still worried about that someone who was outside his house. Worried that it was Squall. No matter how hard he tried to calm himself, he just couldn't. He knew he was being paranoid.
***
That night Squall couldn't sleep, and when he did, he dreamt things he wished were real…
Zell was running in a dark forest under the moonlight, he was lost. Squall saw him and ran after him. "Why are you running so fast?" hollered Squall, finally catching up with Zell. When Zell saw him, he stopped.
"I'm running because…because I'm afraid. I am afraid of the masked man who was following me," answered Zell in Squall's dream. In that dream, Zell was glowing as the color of that bright moon. And he seemed shaken with fear. He was trembling and gasping for breath.
Squall saw Zell crying, and he felt that it was his duty to comfort him. Squall then put his arms around Zell's shoulder.
"Is this okay?" asked Squall as he started to move his hands around Zell's back. Zell didn't answer. All he did was look deep into Squall's grey eyes. After several minutes that seemed eternal, Zell calmed down. He then hesitantly touched Squall's lips with his index finger. Squall then took hold of Zell's finger with his hand and slowly moved it across his face. Squall carefully pulled Zell's finger into his mouth and swallowed it hungrily while sucking it harshly. Zell was aroused.
"Is that good?" Squall said after he took Zell's finger out of his mouth. Zell nodded as he decided to slowly lay his own lips to Squall. He sucked Squall's lower lip, while Squall started to move his hands towards Zell's behind. Zell opened his mouth and let Squall discovered his tongue with his own.
Squall grabbed Zell's rear and squeeze it with much excitement. Nice, thought Squall. Both felt each other's hard cock as they got closer and closer to each other until their crotches were pressed against one another tightly. Zell moved his lips down to Squall's neck – nibbling Squall's Adam's apple. Zell started to unbutton Squall's pants while making his succulent kisses way down to Squall's chest.
After Zell unbuttoned Squall's pants. Zell pulled away. Squall was confused but only to find out that Zell just wanted to unbutton his own pants. While doing so, Squall ran his one hand on Zell's muscular chest while the other on Zell's back neck.
"Holy shit!" said Squall. He was impressed and got more excited as he saw that Zell wasn't wearing any underwear. Zell only grinned almost wickedly.
Squall bent down to Zell only to suck Zell's aroused nipple. Squall continued to suck it hungrily while Zell put his hands on top of Squall's head while he bent up his head – blissful of Squall's touch.
Squall finally went to Zell's crotch but avoiding the most pleasurable part of Zell's body. Zell knew that Squall was teasing him, as Squall only played around his genital, only kissing Zell's abdomen and thigh.
"Pleasssseee," said Zell whisperingly and Squall finally decided to touch Zell's cock with his hand. Squall hold Zell's huge instrument tightly and started pulling it – up and down.
"Ohhhh" was Zell's only response to this. But Squall even made it more pleasurable as he slowly put his mouth on Zell's hardened part. Squall licked the head of Zell's pecker while he succulently swallowed it.
Zell was in deep cloud nine; thinking he was in heaven as he felt Squall's warm mouth sucking his sexual organ. Squall took Zell in from tip to base.
"Squallllll, I'm gonna cum," muttered Zell. But Squall realized this as he suddenly pulled his mouth away from Zell's hardened organ…
"Squall, Squall, SQUALL."
Squall bolted right up, feeling his shorts wet with semen, and suddenly realized that he was out of the dream. Damn, it ended. Zell was looking down at him, grinning.
Squall was about to speak when he found out that his thumb was inside his mouth.
"So, ya missing your baby bottle milk," joked Zell.
Squall only looked at him almost angrily, but he was happy nevertheless to see the smile on Zell's face.
"I'm just kidding," said Zell as he sat down on Squall's bed, only to leave the room seconds later. "So, where you having a wonderful dream?"
"You could say that," was Squall could only mutter.
"Oh well, see ya later," as Zell went for the door.
Squall looked at the clock, it was a quarter before eight.
"Shit, I have fifteen minutes to get ready for class," said Squall to himself smilingly as the thought of Quistis wondering why he was late, as he was never late before in his life.
While getting ready for class, he realized that that idea of a seventeen-year –old guy with his thumb in his mouth was, unfortunately, hilarious.
He thought about the dream, he was sucking Zell's dick, but he was actually sucking his thumb. Ha. Laughed Squall. But what bothered him was the fact that he was the masked man Zell was running away from in that dream. It didn't make sense. Nevertheless, the dream was satisfying, and it even made Squall's desire stronger to profess his love to Zell.
***
"I'm late. I'm late. I'm freaking late," muttered Squall while trying to get to the classroom on time. He didn't really care if Quistis scold him for being late, much less what others thought. But it was more for him – he takes pride and honour in doing something appropriate and good. He was trying to attend classes and get good grades for his own self, not for anybody unlike others who tried to do good things because they were afraid of their parents and of the law.
But Squall was not the only one who was late. Seifer Almassy, the no-good Disciplinary prick that brought sufferings to his life was also walking towards the classroom. Though he wasn't in a hurry like Squall.
"Watch it, bitch!" yelled Seifer when Squall almost knocked him down, as Squall didn't see him coming from the adjacent hallway.
Squall's happiness in that morning due to the pleasant dream he had last night, was then ruined by his enemy's presence. He then remembered the conversation he heard yesterday from Zell and Seifer.
"Fuck off Almassy!" retorted Squall.
"My, my, my. Watch your language Leonheart. You do realize that I'm still the head of the Disciplinary Committee. Don't you?" smiled Seifer wickedly.
"Get lost!" said Squall as he distanced himself from Seifer.
Seifer, who Squall never considered as an authority, was not surprised by Squall's tone of voice. Though, he never got bored insulting his partner in combat.
"Speaking of getting lost, I heard you lost your way in Balamb Town yesterday," commented Squall strategically, wanting to find out what really happened between Seifer and Zell. Though he said that sentence as though he was insulting Seifer's ability to navigate. Squall wanted to know what Seifer was doing in Zell's house in the first place, when he knew that Zell, like him, was mad as hell at Seifer.
"None of your goddam business!" growled Seifer, who was obviously surprised by this, and still mad at Zell's refusal. He made sure that no one saw him that day, but he was mistaken.
Squall was pleased with himself that Seifer took the bait. That got his attention, he said to himself.
"The great and mighty Almassy lost his way in a little town," Squall teased, trying to play his cards correctly so he could get information from Seifer. "Ah, the little kid lost his way. I must say that you disappointed me Almassy."
"SHUT YOUR HOLE LEONHEART," screamed Seifer who was then at the top of his anger. "Or else!"
"Or else what? I know where you went! Faggot!" snapped Squall with a great emphasis on the last word. Though, he didn't know if Seifer was really a faggot. He didn't even know where that came from. But he was gambling, and he still suspected the worst.
"WHY…YOU…" screamed Seifer with his eyes popping out while blowing a punch on Squall's left cheek. But Squall didn't flinch.
"You COCK SUCKER!" screamed Squall on top of his lungs. But he did not know if he should be happy that his suspicion was true, but one thing he knew, he was sure mad as hell that a faggot like Seifer had something to do with his love. "What did you do to Zell? Huh! Tell me!"
"Not your fucking business!"
"Tell ME! You horny bastard!"
With this line, Seifer tried to punch Squall again, but Squall was prepared for it. Squall dodged it by ducking. While he was underneath the tall man, he threw an uppercut that hit Seifer's chin and jaw.
"TELL ME!" demanded Squall again. But by the time Seifer could punch back. Zell screamed.
"STOP."
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Ooh, what will Zell do? What will happen?
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