Miyumi
I Wasn't There
A Daria fic
A/N: A short, sort of dark Jane contemplation. She wasn't happy to see Daria and Tom together that night. Takes place after Die, Die My Darling.
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- I Wasn't There -
By: Miyumi
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You think I wasn't there.
But I was.
I saw you two kissing in the car. That beat up, rusting piece of blue crap that crawls along on wheels, supposedly called a car.
Shamelessly, like nothing else in the world mattered. Like our friendship didn't matter, like my love didn't make a difference, or that I finally thought I had everything sorted out in this screwed up life of mine.
Die.
D-I-E.
Poison.
P-O-I-S-O-N.
Death.
D-E-A-T-H.
Mourn.
M-O-U-R-N.
Happiness.
H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S.
I was a spelling bee champion, you know.
And so I stand here, with a bottle full of pills in my hand, ready to end it all. But do you really deserve it? Are you two both worth my life?
Could you look me in the eye and say that you cared? Tell it to my face and tell me that it's true. Without all the lies and farces that you'll show me later. Could you do that? Could you look me in the eye and tell me the truth?
Are you happy together?
Wasn't I good enough?
I thought we were happy. Maybe she didn't like being the third wheel, but she can't just pick up and steal my boyfriend. Tom, you can't steal my best friend. I thought I had everything I wanted. A twisted school, a best friend, parents who were never home, an irresponsible brother, and a boyfriend. Everything was coming together like a messy puzzle.
But then you met Daria. And everything changed.
Will I be the third wheel now? Is that how you always wanted it? You dated me to get close to Daria, and then when you were able to find the perfect excuse, dump me? Is that what you wanted, Tom?
Should I tag along on the dates? Come to the wedding? Watch the kids and silently wish for your deaths?
You don't think I saw you together.
But I did.
Are you happy now?
I Wasn't There
A Daria fic
A/N: A short, sort of dark Jane contemplation. She wasn't happy to see Daria and Tom together that night. Takes place after Die, Die My Darling.
~*~
- I Wasn't There -
By: Miyumi
~*~
You think I wasn't there.
But I was.
I saw you two kissing in the car. That beat up, rusting piece of blue crap that crawls along on wheels, supposedly called a car.
Shamelessly, like nothing else in the world mattered. Like our friendship didn't matter, like my love didn't make a difference, or that I finally thought I had everything sorted out in this screwed up life of mine.
Die.
D-I-E.
Poison.
P-O-I-S-O-N.
Death.
D-E-A-T-H.
Mourn.
M-O-U-R-N.
Happiness.
H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S.
I was a spelling bee champion, you know.
And so I stand here, with a bottle full of pills in my hand, ready to end it all. But do you really deserve it? Are you two both worth my life?
Could you look me in the eye and say that you cared? Tell it to my face and tell me that it's true. Without all the lies and farces that you'll show me later. Could you do that? Could you look me in the eye and tell me the truth?
Are you happy together?
Wasn't I good enough?
I thought we were happy. Maybe she didn't like being the third wheel, but she can't just pick up and steal my boyfriend. Tom, you can't steal my best friend. I thought I had everything I wanted. A twisted school, a best friend, parents who were never home, an irresponsible brother, and a boyfriend. Everything was coming together like a messy puzzle.
But then you met Daria. And everything changed.
Will I be the third wheel now? Is that how you always wanted it? You dated me to get close to Daria, and then when you were able to find the perfect excuse, dump me? Is that what you wanted, Tom?
Should I tag along on the dates? Come to the wedding? Watch the kids and silently wish for your deaths?
You don't think I saw you together.
But I did.
Are you happy now?
