Closing the door behind her, Relena walked towards the bed in the center of the room. The form on the bed had been still, but now her lover lifted up the blankets welcoming her inside. She climbed in, and moved as close as she could next to him. They didn¡¦t need words, their love was enough. For a moment they looked into each others eyes, and then hers closed as he leaned over and drew her in to a loving kiss. Reluctantly pulling away, she laid her head underneath his. Sleep came easily to her that night, with his arms around her making her feel safe.

The tears, they just would not stop. Now she had no one to go to, no one to comfort her this night. She should have known that a place like that could not exist. She just missed him so much, and she had never expected that he would never return. How had this happened? It was her fault; she should have stopped him from going, she should be able to stop the war as the vice foreign minister. However, she failed and it leaded to her love one¡¦s death. She wanted to go find Duo right now, like she had that night, but this time she wanted to find the answers.

"Duo! How did this happen?" Relena asked franticly, tears already beginning to fall. Heero was lying peacefully on the floor, his blood still in a puddle on the ground. The pilot did not answer her, but she too desperate to find out anything. Grasping his shoulders desperately, she said in a fierce voice, "What happened to him Duo? Tell me now before I do something we both will regret."

He only shook his head and said sadly, "Relena please, calm yourself. I was right here when he died, but could do nothing except watch. I know you are feeling grief, and would very much like to tell you what came to pass here earlier, but I don¡¦t think you are ready to hear such a thing."

His voice was calm and soft, and made her realize how right he was. She shook her head, "I'm- I'm sorry Duo. I don¡¦t know what is going on with me."

"Don¡¦t apologize Relena, I understand. Heero was the best friend I have ever had. He was a perfect soldier that brought peace to the Earth and sacrificed himself without a second thought. He will be missed greatly"

She could only shake her head and cry, then turn and run back to her room. The room where they had slept with each other numerous times. The room that Relena found her love. The room that once she treated as the best place in the world.

Would these tears ever stop falling? 'Oh Heero, how could you leave? How did this happen? How will I go on without you?' Her crying got worse as she rose from her bed and went out to the hall. She had to find someone to stay with that night, but whom? Duo came to her mind first, but he could offer her little comfort. Then she thought of her brother, and realized he was the only one left. Quietly she made her way to his room. Her heart was totally broken. Was this the way of you to kill me, Heero?

"I will kill you." This was the first thing Heero said to Relena. It did not just shock her but hurt her. People called it love at the first sight. Was it? When she first met him at the beach, she thought she saw the most angelic face that she had never seen. Which attracted her more later on was those beautiful Prussian blue eyes...although it was just filled with hatred. At first, she thought it was just plainly silly to have a crush on someone she didn¡¦t even know his name...and apparently, he didn¡¦t show any liking towards her. A crush...she thought she would forget him soon. But then she saw him at the school again, wearing the school uniform, handsome than ever. She knew clearly that she was trapped in the game of love.

Relena would never be able to see him again. She would never be able to talk to him, or hold his hand, or ride with him on the horse, or take walks around the peaceful Earth with him. She could never again feel his arms wrap around her and she would never touch her lips to his. They would never be wed, and they would never live as married couple. She could never look into his beautiful Prussian blue eyes. Never again, would she love anyone, she wouldn¡¦t allow herself. Her brother¡K.how could he give comfort to her? But she was going to find her anyway

"I'll beat Zechs, and then Treize. That will end the war, and if you live on peace will come. That's the only thing I can do for you... I promised that I would protect you. The only path to protect you and Earth is for me to fight." This was the last thing he said to her before going to beat Zechs. Although Relena was not happy with his decision, her heart melted when he said he promised to protect her. She then made a decision to declare her love for him after the war. She believed in him and he finally did not disappoint her.

However, this time Heero has failed. He had broken the promise. And Relena had nothing left. He had protected her though, always and forever..

She knocked softly on her brother¡¦s door. "Brother, it is Relena. Please let me-" she was interrupted by the door being opened by Milliardo, and seeing his look sadden when he saw her, saddened her. Tears she thought had stopped kept streaming and she collapsed into her brother¡¦s arms. "Oh brother! What am I to do with myself now that he is gone? What am I to do without him? I shall never be happy again!" She cried desperately into his shoulder, and he put his arms around her as any brother would.

"Oh Relena, don't say such things. We all will miss Heero, but he will not be forgotten. It is a new thing Relena; just give yourself time to recover from it." This comment only made things worse, but there was little anyone could say to console her now.

"How could this have happened in brother? I should have prevented it! I should have prevented this war! Oh it is entirely my fault that he is gone!" she cried. She didn¡¦t know where those words had come from.

"Relena, have sense! We both know that isn¡¦t true. You have tried your best to prevent this from happening. Heero knew that danger could lurk anywhere. He was the best soldier the world has never had" After that followed a long silence, broken only by Relena¡¦s never ending tears.

She hated the quiet more than the painful words. "I'm sorry brother. I didn¡¦t mean to wake you in the mid of night."

"It is fine. Come, lay in my bed and I will find a chair to stay in over the rest of the night." She started to protest, but her brother knew what would be best. Her tears had not stopped, but had at least slowed. Tiredly she said in a soft whisper, "thank you bro." and she lay down and finally slept. But her dreams were not pleasant ones. She did not visit Heero like she had earlier in the night.

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