Tryptophan, a neurotransmitter used in homeopathy to control seizures. A medication that is given to us three times a week. Figures. How were suppose to become perfect if were flawed. I haven't experienced any seizures or shaking. A gut feeling telling me that the pills the doctors issue me aren't Tryptophan pills. Just some other harmless pills to make everybody figure that I'm taking them. The question is.why? I thought Lydecker would be proud to have a perfect soldier, than a flawed soldier. Or maybe somebody doesn't want Lydecker to know at all. A strange feeling that John, Vince and Dan have a sense about it too but doesn't have enough courage to tell anybody.and I won't either.

Jack, my dearest brother. He was never up on our standards of being a soldier. He was a failure at most things. Like field missions, water training, obstacle course exercise, anything physically but was a brain wizard just like us. He was the first to show seizures in the squad at my age and got them bad. Manticore knew he was a disappointment, even in Lydecker eyes but he was only six. Probably why they keep him around, to see if he'll grow out of it. It's a 50, 50 chance that will happen and I'm gonna make sure that he'll become the best. Zack was a poor leader if he allowed this to carry. All leaders are responsible for there whole entire unit, not a portion of it. It's a team effort to become great soldiers. Even though Zack is still learning to become one, I'm somehow two steps ahead of him.

Most of the time Jack and I stay up at night, until midnight, going over next day mission simulations that they give us. They always tell us ahead to prepare ourselves of plenty of sleep because most missions last for two days with nearly no sleep. Some carry to five days with one full hour of sleep each day, nearly deprived of food and water as this teaches us to survive in the wilderness, if engaged in long battles or separated from the squad. We mostly go over his mistake in missions. Letting him state them out as I clear them up, of what he should of done with positioning his soldiers in enemy territory and to execute his performs level as command leader of his team, so he can infiltrate the enemies base. His big flaw in his mission is the element of surprise. Jack jumps the gun too quick because afraid of failure as it brings consequences in Manticore.

He smiles at me as I look at him. "Thanks you. For helping me."

"Your welcome."

Showing more of my kind side. Only showed it when I have too. Max comes over sitting next to me, with her legs press against her chest wanting to be in our study group on becoming a good soldier. Her curiosity made her closer to me because I always said things that they didn't understand. I was more of an information bank in the squad then Zack, as he suppose to have all the answers.

"Will we ever leave here?" Jack asked, afraid he might not make it in the curliness that Manticore put us through.

"Of course when we get deployed in the field."

"You'll be with me, right?"

Hesitation comes over me. Knowing Manticore, no. The only time will be together is when were doing teamed missions. "I'll try." Never like making any promises that I can't keep, especially to my family.

"Me too." Max adding her two-cent.

They both giggle but my eyes direct at Zack, knowing he been watching me like a hawk from his bed the whole time. I devilishly smile at him, just to arrogate him. Had more fun teasing him then the others. A challenge as Zack and me go through. Lydecker always told us.

"The enemy of my enemy is my friend. Never let your enemy have a better advantage over you. You do that, your mission have already become a failure. Deception is a weapon, as you will turn it on them, making you superior over your enemy of any situation."

Max start to cough as they come out nasty. I look at her concerned. "Are you ok?"

She nods her head and smile to not worry me.