~~~
Kaiba looked over at Joey, his head down. It had been exactly 10 minutes from paying off his debt and neither had said a word. Finally, he said, "I won't be there to bail you out next time. I was only doing this for Yugi. So if you for some stupid reason want to keep taking drugs, at least make sure you only buy what you have the money for."
"Did you guys break up over me?"
"What?! How did you--?"
"I over heard you guys talking the other day. And this morning Yugi kept shooting you dirty looks. So is it my fault?"
"Among other things, yes. Mostly you."
"Why me?"
"Because I can't stand you and Yugi is in love with you. But, opps, you're not even suppose to know he's gay," Kaiba spat out angrily.
"Yugi's in love with me?"
"You think?! God, Joey, you can't even fucking notice that this great guy right in front of you is head over heels in love with you and would do *anything* for you?"
"No, can't say I have. I thought we were friends." He looked down. "Besides," he said softly, "I like you."
Kaiba nearly fell out of his seat. "What?!"
Joey stood up quick and shoved his hands into his pockets. "I have class. I'll see you later."
Kaiba shook his head, then held it in his hands. Fuck...
~~~
"Mmmmmm....."
Duke looked up from his text book and smiled. "I think someone's having a nice dream."
Yugi boredly looked over at Kaiba, sleeping. "What?"
"Oh yeah...mmphh..."
Duke smiled at Yugi devilishly. "I wonder if he's thinking about you."
Joey slammed the door. "Of course he's having a nut over Yugi."
Yugi looked up and smiled. "Joey, hey...how are you?"
Joey stared at them, bored. "Get the fuck off my bed."
Yugi slide off onto the floor, feeling betrayed. "Duke, come on...lets go to the library."
Duke began gathering his books together. "Nah...I have a date, anyway. I'll see you later, Yugi." He shot a dirty look at Joey.
Yugi looked uncomfortable at Joey. "Is everything okay?"
"I fucking need some coke..." he whined.
Yugi looked down at his book. Joey laid down on his bed and began to moan, holding his head in his hands. He noticed Yugi wipe at his eye several times and sniffed.
"Yugi," Joey said softly.
Yugi held his head in his hands. "Yes, Joey?"
"Don't cry. Please?"
"I'm not," he said, his voice getting even softer.
Joey pulled Yugi close and got him onto the bed. They laid in the spoon position, listening to their irregular heart beats and Kaiba's moans.
Yugi began to softly sob, his small frame shaking against Joey. "Shh...shh...shhhhh..." Joey whispered, shaking. "Don't...don't cry. Everything's going to be okay. We'll get through this...together...I promise...I love...I love you, Yugi..."
Yugi placed his hand on Joey's arms. "I love you, too, Joey." He ran his fingers over Joey's cut up arm. "Please don't kill yourself."
"Please always be here, Yugi. Forever."
"Forever...I promise."
~~~
Kaiba groaned and took a shower, then changed his sheets. His glance kept wondering over to Yugi and Joey, but tried not to feel too bad. He sat at his desk and began to read by his small lamp light.
Suddenly, someone began pounding at the door. "Yugi, open up, open up! Yugi!"
Kaiba jumped up and opened the door. "Duke, what's--?"
Duke fell into Kaiba's arms sobbing. "Oh my God...Kaiba..." was all he could get out.
Kaiba led Duke to his bed. "Are you okay? What happened?"
"I...I had a date..." Duke took a deep breath and slowly let it out. "And...he showed up to my dorm with a couple of other guys..."
Kaiba stroked Duke's cheek. "Are you okay?"
"They held me down and took turns rapping me. And you know what Blake said as they were leaving? I asked him why. And he said, 'Cause guys like you are easy.'" Duke looked into Kaiba's eyes. "Am I really easy? That easy? Do I invite people to do stuff like that to me?"
Kaiba tried to say something, but failed. He finally said, "Duke, you don't deserve that."
"But I invite it, right? I know I do. I'm an easy fag and guys like me deserve to be treated the way we are." Duke looked down. "But you know? I was wrong. It's not about the moments. Moments hurt. It's about...finding someone who wants...the time together...to be more than just a moment."
Kaiba hugged Duke close. "You don't deserve this, Duke. You're a wonderful person and if I could do anything it would to make sure you got your happiness."
Duke smiled and shook his head. "Whatever...I know that wouldn't be your first wish. Just...just do me a...two favors..."
"Yes?" Kaiba asked concerned.
"Just...don't tell Yugi. He's still innocent. And I don't want him knocked out of that state of mind. Just...please...between you and me..."
Kaiba nodded. "I understand...but I'm concerned about you. What else do you need?"
"Can I sleep in here? My roommate isn't here tonight. Please?"
Kaiba smiled and lightly touched Duke's cheek. "Yeah...go ahead...you can have the bed."
Duke shook his head. "Yugi's bed is free. I'll take that one." Kaiba's eyes wondered to Joey and Yugi. Duke kissed Kaiba on the cheek. "I'm working as hard as I can with Yugi. I know you love him."
Kaiba shook his head. "Maybe I do. But we're in a love triangle and I just assume not get involved. I want Yugi happy...and it won't be with me."
~~~
Duke pocked Kaiba. "Kaiba, wake up."
Kaiba moaned and turned over. He picked up his alarm clock and moaned. "Duke? It's 4 in the morning."
Duke sat on the edge of the bed. "Kaiba? Am I attractive?"
Kaiba stared at Duke. "What?" he whispered in disbelief. "You woke me up for this?"
"Please just answer, Kaiba," Duke begged softly.
"Yeah, you're very attractive. Since when don't you notice that?"
"I..." Duke wiped at his eyes. "How come no one likes me?"
Kaiba placed his hand on Duke's knee. "I like you."
Duke turned away. "You know what I mean. No one likes me that way. Why?"
Kaiba sat up and wrapped his arms around Duke, leaned in and whispered, "Maybe because you're too unapproachable. You're hot and everyone knows that. Including you. No one likes a person like that."
Duke sucked in a shaky breath. "Kaiba? Why do you like Yugi?"
Kaiba pressed himself harder against Duke and said even more breathlessly. "I don't know anymore." He began to softly kiss at Duke's neck.
"Kaiba?" Duke said, trying to ignore the hand that was wondering up his shirt.
Kaiba began to suck at Duke's neck.
Duke rolled his shoulder, trying to get Kaiba off him. "What are you doing?" Duke stood up. "Stop it, Kaiba. I'm not a sex toy. You can forget about calling me a friend. I just fucking bawled out to you and all you can think about is getting into my pants! Well fuck you, Kaiba. I'm not a slut!"
Kaiba turned away. "I never said you were. Sorry I offended you."
"What's that suppose to mean?" Duke put his hands on his hips.
"I like you, Duke. Jesus. I thought...fuck it, I don't know what I thought. I'm never going to get Yugi back. I've realized that. And it fucking hurts! I feel my mind clawing at itself to get rid of any ounce of happiness I've ever had because it was with HIM. I've been alone practically my entire life! And I'm going to die alone! So why not buy into it? Why not act on physical attraction alone? Because...the minute I let someone in, they smack me in the face and tell me I don't matter. I don't matter to anyone. All I've ever had gets taken away from me. I had a mom, she died giving birth to the brother I cherished so much who's now dead. I had a dad, he died. I had an adopted father who abused me and an adopted brother who only wanted revenge on me since I was the heir to his father's estate. So why not stop caring? No one cares about me so I might as well fucking LIVE IN THE MOMENT. You were right, Duke. Moments hurt, but there's no way in hell any of us are ever going to find anything that lasts longer except hurt and pain!"
Yugi tightened his fists, but kept silent. He didn't want Kaiba to know he was listening.
"My life is shit but hey, I'm a genius and I own a multi-billion dollar business. What more could I ask for? To be happy? I should fucking be happy with what I got. So I am! Listen to me, I'm happy!" Kaiba narrowed his eyes at Duke. "Thanks for rejecting me. It's what I needed." He stood up, pulling on a pair of pants, and left.
Duke fell onto the bed hard and began to sob.
Yugi moved in closer to Joey and closed his eyes.
Kaiba looked over at Joey, his head down. It had been exactly 10 minutes from paying off his debt and neither had said a word. Finally, he said, "I won't be there to bail you out next time. I was only doing this for Yugi. So if you for some stupid reason want to keep taking drugs, at least make sure you only buy what you have the money for."
"Did you guys break up over me?"
"What?! How did you--?"
"I over heard you guys talking the other day. And this morning Yugi kept shooting you dirty looks. So is it my fault?"
"Among other things, yes. Mostly you."
"Why me?"
"Because I can't stand you and Yugi is in love with you. But, opps, you're not even suppose to know he's gay," Kaiba spat out angrily.
"Yugi's in love with me?"
"You think?! God, Joey, you can't even fucking notice that this great guy right in front of you is head over heels in love with you and would do *anything* for you?"
"No, can't say I have. I thought we were friends." He looked down. "Besides," he said softly, "I like you."
Kaiba nearly fell out of his seat. "What?!"
Joey stood up quick and shoved his hands into his pockets. "I have class. I'll see you later."
Kaiba shook his head, then held it in his hands. Fuck...
~~~
"Mmmmmm....."
Duke looked up from his text book and smiled. "I think someone's having a nice dream."
Yugi boredly looked over at Kaiba, sleeping. "What?"
"Oh yeah...mmphh..."
Duke smiled at Yugi devilishly. "I wonder if he's thinking about you."
Joey slammed the door. "Of course he's having a nut over Yugi."
Yugi looked up and smiled. "Joey, hey...how are you?"
Joey stared at them, bored. "Get the fuck off my bed."
Yugi slide off onto the floor, feeling betrayed. "Duke, come on...lets go to the library."
Duke began gathering his books together. "Nah...I have a date, anyway. I'll see you later, Yugi." He shot a dirty look at Joey.
Yugi looked uncomfortable at Joey. "Is everything okay?"
"I fucking need some coke..." he whined.
Yugi looked down at his book. Joey laid down on his bed and began to moan, holding his head in his hands. He noticed Yugi wipe at his eye several times and sniffed.
"Yugi," Joey said softly.
Yugi held his head in his hands. "Yes, Joey?"
"Don't cry. Please?"
"I'm not," he said, his voice getting even softer.
Joey pulled Yugi close and got him onto the bed. They laid in the spoon position, listening to their irregular heart beats and Kaiba's moans.
Yugi began to softly sob, his small frame shaking against Joey. "Shh...shh...shhhhh..." Joey whispered, shaking. "Don't...don't cry. Everything's going to be okay. We'll get through this...together...I promise...I love...I love you, Yugi..."
Yugi placed his hand on Joey's arms. "I love you, too, Joey." He ran his fingers over Joey's cut up arm. "Please don't kill yourself."
"Please always be here, Yugi. Forever."
"Forever...I promise."
~~~
Kaiba groaned and took a shower, then changed his sheets. His glance kept wondering over to Yugi and Joey, but tried not to feel too bad. He sat at his desk and began to read by his small lamp light.
Suddenly, someone began pounding at the door. "Yugi, open up, open up! Yugi!"
Kaiba jumped up and opened the door. "Duke, what's--?"
Duke fell into Kaiba's arms sobbing. "Oh my God...Kaiba..." was all he could get out.
Kaiba led Duke to his bed. "Are you okay? What happened?"
"I...I had a date..." Duke took a deep breath and slowly let it out. "And...he showed up to my dorm with a couple of other guys..."
Kaiba stroked Duke's cheek. "Are you okay?"
"They held me down and took turns rapping me. And you know what Blake said as they were leaving? I asked him why. And he said, 'Cause guys like you are easy.'" Duke looked into Kaiba's eyes. "Am I really easy? That easy? Do I invite people to do stuff like that to me?"
Kaiba tried to say something, but failed. He finally said, "Duke, you don't deserve that."
"But I invite it, right? I know I do. I'm an easy fag and guys like me deserve to be treated the way we are." Duke looked down. "But you know? I was wrong. It's not about the moments. Moments hurt. It's about...finding someone who wants...the time together...to be more than just a moment."
Kaiba hugged Duke close. "You don't deserve this, Duke. You're a wonderful person and if I could do anything it would to make sure you got your happiness."
Duke smiled and shook his head. "Whatever...I know that wouldn't be your first wish. Just...just do me a...two favors..."
"Yes?" Kaiba asked concerned.
"Just...don't tell Yugi. He's still innocent. And I don't want him knocked out of that state of mind. Just...please...between you and me..."
Kaiba nodded. "I understand...but I'm concerned about you. What else do you need?"
"Can I sleep in here? My roommate isn't here tonight. Please?"
Kaiba smiled and lightly touched Duke's cheek. "Yeah...go ahead...you can have the bed."
Duke shook his head. "Yugi's bed is free. I'll take that one." Kaiba's eyes wondered to Joey and Yugi. Duke kissed Kaiba on the cheek. "I'm working as hard as I can with Yugi. I know you love him."
Kaiba shook his head. "Maybe I do. But we're in a love triangle and I just assume not get involved. I want Yugi happy...and it won't be with me."
~~~
Duke pocked Kaiba. "Kaiba, wake up."
Kaiba moaned and turned over. He picked up his alarm clock and moaned. "Duke? It's 4 in the morning."
Duke sat on the edge of the bed. "Kaiba? Am I attractive?"
Kaiba stared at Duke. "What?" he whispered in disbelief. "You woke me up for this?"
"Please just answer, Kaiba," Duke begged softly.
"Yeah, you're very attractive. Since when don't you notice that?"
"I..." Duke wiped at his eyes. "How come no one likes me?"
Kaiba placed his hand on Duke's knee. "I like you."
Duke turned away. "You know what I mean. No one likes me that way. Why?"
Kaiba sat up and wrapped his arms around Duke, leaned in and whispered, "Maybe because you're too unapproachable. You're hot and everyone knows that. Including you. No one likes a person like that."
Duke sucked in a shaky breath. "Kaiba? Why do you like Yugi?"
Kaiba pressed himself harder against Duke and said even more breathlessly. "I don't know anymore." He began to softly kiss at Duke's neck.
"Kaiba?" Duke said, trying to ignore the hand that was wondering up his shirt.
Kaiba began to suck at Duke's neck.
Duke rolled his shoulder, trying to get Kaiba off him. "What are you doing?" Duke stood up. "Stop it, Kaiba. I'm not a sex toy. You can forget about calling me a friend. I just fucking bawled out to you and all you can think about is getting into my pants! Well fuck you, Kaiba. I'm not a slut!"
Kaiba turned away. "I never said you were. Sorry I offended you."
"What's that suppose to mean?" Duke put his hands on his hips.
"I like you, Duke. Jesus. I thought...fuck it, I don't know what I thought. I'm never going to get Yugi back. I've realized that. And it fucking hurts! I feel my mind clawing at itself to get rid of any ounce of happiness I've ever had because it was with HIM. I've been alone practically my entire life! And I'm going to die alone! So why not buy into it? Why not act on physical attraction alone? Because...the minute I let someone in, they smack me in the face and tell me I don't matter. I don't matter to anyone. All I've ever had gets taken away from me. I had a mom, she died giving birth to the brother I cherished so much who's now dead. I had a dad, he died. I had an adopted father who abused me and an adopted brother who only wanted revenge on me since I was the heir to his father's estate. So why not stop caring? No one cares about me so I might as well fucking LIVE IN THE MOMENT. You were right, Duke. Moments hurt, but there's no way in hell any of us are ever going to find anything that lasts longer except hurt and pain!"
Yugi tightened his fists, but kept silent. He didn't want Kaiba to know he was listening.
"My life is shit but hey, I'm a genius and I own a multi-billion dollar business. What more could I ask for? To be happy? I should fucking be happy with what I got. So I am! Listen to me, I'm happy!" Kaiba narrowed his eyes at Duke. "Thanks for rejecting me. It's what I needed." He stood up, pulling on a pair of pants, and left.
Duke fell onto the bed hard and began to sob.
Yugi moved in closer to Joey and closed his eyes.
