A/N: well this is one of some of the poems that I have written about buffy. This one is about xander and anya though. Im taking a change. This one is after xander left anya at the alter but before the end of the 6th season. Basically xanders telling anya why he left her at the alter in my own way. I know it kind of sounds confusing but just read and review. Oh and read my other poems ( love always faith

Forever gone

By the time you get this

I'll be gone

I didn't mean to leave you

But it couldn't work out

I know you think that it's my entire fault

And it is

But

If I ended up

Being like my father

Hitting you

Hurting you

I wouldn't be able to live

I know I hurt you

And you should be angry

I'm a better person

With you in my life

I made a hole

In both of our hearts

And I'm the idiot

Who dug it out

I love you

I always will

We should be together

Forever and ever

But we won't be

And that's all because of me

I hope that you are happy

Wherever you are

And just remember

I love you Anya

Till the day that I die