Youkai Heart

"What is going on...

Inuyasha's mind is completely different to earlier...No sadness, nor fear nor uncertainty, not even anger. There's only joy.

Joy at being able to kill me."

-Goshinki

Chapter One:

Awoken

"Are you okay Kagome?" a voice called and a hand reached out by an old well. Inuyasha, hanyou of the Sengoku Jidai helped Kagome climb out of the old well she used frequently to travel from one time and the other; her home in present time and to the past, the Sengoku Jidai. The teenage school girl grabbed onto Inuyasha's offering hand and pulled herself up. Her green school uniform skirt and shirt was a little dirty after being against the wooden walls of the well.

"Yes, thank you," Kagome responded after getting herself to the ground and brushing off some of the dirt she could that plastered on her uniform. She smiled after he work finished and started to look around the landscape, "I wonder where Sango-chan, Miroku-sama, and Shippou-chan are?"

Inuyasha jumped from the border of the well to stand beside Kagome, towering over her, "Last I know of, Miroku said that they were going to try and find any sign of Naraku around here," the half dog demon looked at Kagome who was searching. "I am sure they will be at Kaeda-babaa's. They wouldn't wonder around too far if they knew we were coming back," he told her after watching her actions and headed towards the small path to the Kaeda's village.

"You're right," Kagome nodded and followed in suit of Inuyasha. It had almost been a year since she had come here, the Sengoku Jidai. And ever since then, she refused to leave Inuyasha's side, no matter what difficulties came between them. Kikyou, Kouga, Naraku. Neither one of them mattered, as long as she could stand by his side, to see him happy, to see him live. What more could she do? She loved him. And being here just to walk by him and even for one minute, one second maybe believe they were together, in love and happy. That was enough to make her happy.

And of course, Inuyasha thought almost similarly about Kagome. He would never want her to leave him. Ever.

"Inuyasha..." Kagome started to speak, wanting to ask him a serious question. A question she needed answered from him.

"We're here." Inuyasha interrupted, almost as if he knew that kind of question was going to come and he didn't want to answer. At least not yet.

Kagome sighed, she must as well not ask him now and wait for a more appropriate setting and time. But she had to tell him soon, she had to tell him. No matter what. She watched as he walked into the village and to Kaeda's little wooden shack with not even a remark or hand gesture to her or anything. But he is always like that. That's Inuyasha.

"Hey, Kaeda-babaa," Inuyasha shouted as he lifted the wooden-flap door, "Have you seen Miroku and the others?"

Kaeda was sitting down, mixing different leaves and herbs to patches and medicine for any of the sicken villagers or the injured. Once she heard that voice she looked up, "Houshi-sama and the others? They stopped by a little while ago."

"They did?" Kagome entered the room after hearing the news, "Where did they go?"

Kaeda put down a bottle of water after taking a long drink, "They went to find more tracking of Naraku. There have been rumors of Naraku being around here lately."

"Here?" Inuyasha budged at those words, "Why would Naraku be around here?"

Kaeda shook her head. It was hard to believe. Why would Naraku want to attack here? This villager and the people are dying, but he probably would just want to cause darkness and sorrow into peoples hearts just for amusement. "Seems he hasn't changed. Inuyasha, Kagome," she looked up at the two youths, "I think it would be wise if you went to go after the others, just in case. Who knows what may happen to them."

"Right," Kagome noticed the possibility of them all getting hurt and went to grab her bow and package of arrows, "Let's go, Inuyasha."

Inuyasha ran out the door after Kagome had climbed onto his back and got steady and well hanged onto his shirt. He ran with massive speed out of the village and towards the open, jumping to gain more distance and running as fast as he could. His nose tickled the air as he tried to get the scent of Naraku or either one of his partners to lead the way for him, "Damn it. Where's Naraku!?" he shouted in tensed anger as he pounced off of a steady limb and sprawled into the air to get a good overlook of the clearing.

No sign of any of them...

"Everyone..." Kagome looked around, "Where is everyone? I hope they are okay," it seemed as Kagome was gaining doubts.

Inuyasha twitched at her words, "Idiot!" he landed down on a rock surface of the ground, "Of course they are okay! They wouldn't be easily defeated by Naraku, I know they wo-" Inuyasha turned his head to the far right as he caught the smell of something.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome asked as he began to growl.

Inuyasha cracked his knuckles, giving his claws some free movement, "It's Naraku. I smell him.." and he had no time to waste and darted off towards the direction the scent was coming from.

"Really? What about everyone else?" Kagome asked as she tried to keep the hair out of her face because of the harsh wind at Inuyasha's speed.

Inuyasha was determined to get to Naraku, to see if everyone was okay. To tear Naraku apart, "Yeah. I can smell them, too." he jumped over a stream of water and dashed into a giant field. "He's here... I know it..." he jumped over the tall grassed field and landed to a clear meadow to see Naraku, in his true form, made up of numerous demon parts and all, towering over Sango.

"Sango-chan!!" Kagome shouted from Inuyasha's back, which caught a little too much attention.

"Kagome-chan?!" Sango looked over surprised to see her two friends coming at this time, and much relieved. "Kagome-chan, Inuyasha..."

Inuyasha ran up to Sango and Kagome jumped off his back, "Sango, where's Miroku?"

"Houshi-sama is..." Sango started and began to tear up, "Houshi-sama..."

Kagome almost looked shocked herself, it's couldn't be... "Sango-chan... what happened to Miroku-sama?" she felt herself also to began to cry, worried about what she was going to tell her.

Sango walked over to a laying Miroku, who seemed unconscious. Sweat was running down his forehead and neck as he lay there, almost looking pained. "He was stung by the Saimyoushou when he sucked them in with his Kazaana."

"He did it to save us," Shippou continued, "But he has been laying there for awhile now. Miroku..." he turned to him.

Kagome knelt down to the poisoned monk, "Don't worry, I will give him some antidote. He should be fine." and she took out a First Aid kit.

"Kukuku..." Naraku laughed maniacally at the sight, "The poor Houshi, to think he would just take the fate of being sucked up by the Kazaana. But it seems he was in a more rush to die then I had excepted. Who's next?" he grinned.

Inuyasha drew out his Tetsusaiga, the small battered sword transformed into a large fang of his fathers, "Naraku you bastard!" Inuyasha growled at his arch enemy, "You are the one who's next to fall to the ground!" he pointed Tetsusaiga at his large body, "So your fucking prayers, here I come!" he placed his right foot in front of him to get enough balance to rush towards him.

"I would think twice, Inuyasha." Naraku chuckled, "What about your partners? Do you really think they can be safe as they cower by that Houshi, powerless?"

Inuyasha thought it was his turn to grin, "Fool, I am protecting them. I won't let them get hurt!!"

"Is that so?" came a female voice from behind the hanyou, "I wouldn't take those words to heart.. Inuyasha."

Inuyasha turned around, "Kagura!" the detachment of Naraku chuckled, her red eyes beaming as she sat on her large feather, watching the group. Kanna was with her, holding her mirror at them. The Saimyoushou were swarming beside them.

"You see Inuyasha," Naraku looked towards them, "If you attack me it is a matter of time that the Saimyoushou will attack the others of your group, condemning them powerless and close to death. Or, maybe Kagura will kill them and make them puppets to kill you? Or do you just prefer Kanna to suck out their souls, one by one into her mirror?"

Inuyasha was cornered, he started to shake. What should he do? He couldn't bare to attack Naraku as he friends were on the line of dying but he couldn't just let Naraku get away again as he done numerous of time. "Naraku..." he growled.

"What's wrong Inuyasha?" Naraku had gotten him, he was a scared pup with nowhere to run, "Choose their fate as you choose your own."

Inuyasha glanced down at his Tetsusaiga, "Keh. Don't make me laugh Naraku." he tossed the Tetsusaiga behind him. The sword implanted into the ground next to Kagome and turned back to skinny, battered sword as it used to be.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome glanced up at him. What was he doing? He knows he shouldn't fight without the Tetsusaiga!

Inuyasha growled and looked back at Kagome from the corner of his eyes, "Take Tetsusaiga!" he lowered his voice to almost a small whisper, hoping that his plan works, "It should be able to protect you and the others with the small amount of barrier it has as you guys escape."

"B-But-"

"Do it!" Inuyasha yelled at Kagome, not wanting her to tell him otherwise. This was the only way. He didn't want them to be put in danger, he didn't want them hurt. He would rather die then them even getting in the scrap, especially if the person getting them hurt is Naraku.

Kagome hesitated at first but picked up Tetsusaiga, and turned to Sango, "Sango-chan, you carry Miroku-sama."

"Right." Sango nodded and put her arms around Miroku, "Kirara.." she said to the large cat beside her and they sat up on her, followed by Shippou. Kagome got on also, knowing with her holding Tetsusaiga that they would be all right.

Kagome looked over at Inuyasha. What was going to happen to him? She didn't want to just leave him there and what about Tetsusaiga? He knows what will happen if he doesn't have the Tetsusaiga in possession when fighting. What was going to happen to, "Inuyasha..."

"GO!" Inuyasha snarled at them. Kirara took to the sky at his words with them on her back. Inuyasha sighed of relief, knowing they would be okay now. Naraku. Now it was Naraku and him, about to fight. He turned to him, "Naraku. I will not let you play with peoples emotions no more! I will gain my revenge!" he dashed toward him, his claws shining, "DIE BASTARD! SANKON TETSUSOU!"

!" He leaped up in the air, his right arm up with his claws sharp and swung his arms at him, hoping to claw him into little bits. His claws fell to tear up a tentacle of him that instantly formed back to his regular body.

"Hmph," Naraku smiled, "Pitiful attempt for an attack Inuyasha."

Inuyasha got back in a fighting stance, "Shut up!" he leaped at his larger body and got his aim for his thigh, his swung his arm back and brought it done to hit,

"Fuujin no Mai!" Kagura shouted with a turn of her fan and blades of wind soared out. The blades interfered Inuyasha attacking by going right in front of him and his target, Naraku. They didn't hit either one of them, but just stopped Inuyasha from attacking.

"Kagura, you bitch!" Inuyasha spitted out as he landed on the ground in front of Naraku. The detachment said nothing in response.

Naraku laughed, "Inuyasha, maybe it would be much better if you just dropped dead instead." his face gone straight and he glared as large tentacles from his body went straight towards Inuyasha, "Die."

"Don't make me laugh!" Inuyasha snarled, cutting up the tentacles that came at him, although they formed back together he still cut them to avoid from getting hurt. A tentacle came from the right, the left, underneath. Inuyasha slashed them all from getting hit. "UGH!" Inuyasha choked as he felt something like a large spear go straight through him. Naraku got him. One of his tentacles hit him, it went straight through him. It came from the back of him and he failed to slash it, too. "Damn it..."

"Kukuku," Naraku laughed, "No matter what Inuyasha, you attempts are useless against me." he pound his tentacle far more into Inuyasha.

Inuyasha gulped, a streak of blood running out of his mouth as he could feel the blood from his back dripping down his body, "N-Naraku.." he tried to say, but almost came out as a murmur. His sight was beginning to grow fuzzy, his body heated and his mind was spinning. And then, darkness. He just saw black. Nothing more.

"Inuyasha died?" Kagura smirked and Kanna remained silent.

Blood. The smell, He could smell it. He could feel it running all over him. He could taste it in his mouth, the very taste of it. He just couldn't see it. He couldn't see anything but darkness. It's almost as if he lingered to see the blood with all his sensations. He didn't want to die. He would rather see his blood in agony then die, "I don't want to die..."

Not yet. He wanted to kill Naraku so he couldn't die. He couldn't die. He body started to feel warm, his mind went blank. He wanted to kill Naraku at all costs. His one desire excited him, to kill. He felt happiness and enjoyment from the thought, he wanted to experience it. His body was burning and his mind couldn't think of anything. But to kill. "Naraku!" he said with a snarl, in a demonic voice.

"Still alive?" Naraku smirked.

Inuyasha jolted his eyes open. Red. His eyes were red with a blue pupil. His eyes showed his joy for the thing he wanted most. His body was too hot, he needed to stop the heat. Killing was the only option. It would help stop the heat and take his mind off the spinning of his thought, the blankness of his mind. One purple demon streak were on each cheek of his face, wildly put on his face. It almost showed his wild nature. His fangs grew, overlapping his lip and sharper then a dagger. "I'll kill you!!!" he growled, his claws that have grown to a very long size clutched the tentacle and ripped it apart, setting him free.

"What's this?!" Naraku jolted back ad the figure landed before him.

Inuyasha landed and turned to face him. He had turned Youkai once more, "Naraku, you said no matter what my attempts were useless against you." he cracked his knuckles and smirked evilly, "What happened?"

"Inuyasha has turned youkai?" Kagura panted.

Naraku couldn't believe it. But he had to cover it up and use it for his own will, "Inuyasha, this makes it even easier for me. In the youkai state you are in now, you will kill everything and everyone you can get around. Including your partners. It will be fun to watch."

"Rawr!" Inuyasha had no time to lose and dashed toward Naraku. He had to kill.

Naraku smirked, "Farewell, Inuyasha." the miasma exploded from Naraku as he took off into the sky.

"I'll kill you!" Inuyasha growled and jumped up after Naraku. He slashed down with his sharp claws and slashed off half on Naraku's body. His blood splurged everywhere, covering Inuyasha and himself. Naraku winced at this and got away with Kagura, Kanna and the Saimyoushou close behind.

"Kill.." Inuyasha thought in silence as he stared at the blood on his hand, feeling nothing but pure enjoyment of what he had done. He didn't feel anger at Naraku, anyone. He didn't feel fear of what may happen to him or anything. He didn't feel saddened by the fact Naraku got away, he didn't feel sad for anything, nor did have any worries, uncertainties. Just the joy of being able to cut something, to even get close to killing it. The joy by just feeling the blood, seeing it. It felt good. But... he needed to kill, "I must kill..." he looked around.

Nothing. Not even the scent of one demon in the vastness of the long, tall plain even crept from the ground, sky or trees. But Inuyasha couldn't stand it. He needed to kill something, to tear something up. He felt as if he didn't even destroy some body of someone or something he would explode, his mind heated and felt like it would explode if he didn't kill. He main desire controlled his body, "I must kill..." he snarled and cracked his knuckles. He jumped up and slashed at the grass plain, tearing up the grass and leaving large, long claw marks into the ground, "I must kill!!" he ran as he clawed anything insight. The grass, trees, birds, and demons. Every time he slashed at something, every time he killed another thing he didn't feel satisfied. He needed to kill more and more. The only way to maybe fully satisfy himself was to kill more, so he did. But he needed to kill more still, the more he killed the more his desire grew.

"I must kill more!!!"

Kagome and the others finally arrived at Kaeda's village after treating some herbs to Miroku, "Kaeda-baachan!" Kagome shouted as she and Sango carried Miroku into the house.

"What happened?" Kaeda saw the sight and rushed over, "Is this Naraku's doing?"

Sango nodded, "Yes. We already gave him so antidote and I am sure he just needs to rest now."

"Put him here." Kaeda directed to a small futon and they laid him down. Her head looked around the group, "Huh? Where is Inuyasha? Isn't he supposed to be with you?"

"Inuyasha stayed to fight Naraku!" Shippou whined as he hung off of Kagome's shoulder, worrying about him.

Kaeda seemed to be a taken back, "What?"

"Yes..." Kagome looked down to the wooden floor, and clutched onto Tetsusaiga, the only thing to remind her of Inuyasha at the moment, "But Inuyasha doesn't have Tetsusaiga with him. He might..." she lowered her head as she started to tear up.

"What may happen?" Kaeda rubbed her back, comforting her.

Sango sighed as she placed a wet rag over Miroku's forehead, "If Inuyasha comes close to death and doesn't have Tetsusaiga in possession, he turns full demon. The Tetsusaiga is also a sword to seal up his demon blood."

Kagome breathed, a tear running down her cheek, "He will keep on fighting and killing until he gets killed himself," she shook her head, tears falling from her eyes to the ground,

"Inuyasha... Inuyasha... I wanted to tell you something... will I ever get to? Oh, Inuyasha..."

AN:

Explaining time. I am a huge fan of Youkai Inuyasha and needed to do a fanfiction containing him as a huge part. Because, well, how can you not love the guy? Sure he is a killing machine and whatnot but he is a very interesting side to Inuyasha, maybe even the most interesting, to me anyway.

Now, everyone probably skipped through this because it is boring and kind of long, kind of short. The next chapters will be more interesting and along the line we will find out what Kagome wanted to tell Inuyasha. So, please stay tuned. I am going to work on the next chapter right now.