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Summary: Here's the skinny. Sabretooth attacked Kitty, Gambit saved Kitty but got hurt. Kitty got him to the mansion. Storm knew Gambit from years ago. Gambit now teaches some weapons classes to some of the students. Rogue and Gambit have become quite close. Sinister got the marauders to kidnap Jean Grey. Gambit told them he knew Sinister did it. Scott yelled at him, Gambit flipped out and his power went haywire. In an attempt to control the power, Rogue kissed Gambit, but she didn't absorb him, the power that Gambit couldn't control came under control, now on with the story.
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Gambit walked into Professor Xavier's study followed closely by Hank McCoy and Rogue. Professor Xavier, Storm, and Logan were already there. Hank took a seat next to Ororo, Logan stood next to a window, and Rogue took a seat on another vacant couch. The Professor sat behind his desk and Gambit leaned up against the wall, "Well, if dat wasn' one of de most un-enjoyable 'xperiences of Remy's life den I don't know what is."
"Come now Remy, I trust the visit to Hank's lab wasn't too unpleasant." Storm said in a sympathetic tone.
"Oh, non Stormy, dis here Cajun just loves getting poked and prodded, pictures taken on every level. Dat just great y' know, and for some t'ing I already new about." Gambit replied sarcastically.
"Rogue, I had thought we decided that only the teachers would be present at this meeting?" The professor interrupted Remy's rant, and questioned the young goth about her presence.
"Um, ah…Remy asked meh tah come…" Rogue answered a wee bit embarrassed for being singled out.
"Oui, if I gone 'xplain every ting t' y', den I only doing it once." Remy replied a bit regretful.
"Ok, I understand, Hank how is Remy's health." The Professor questioned their resident physician.
"Our young Cajun comrade is in quite fine health, I could not find any side effects, or injuries from his sudden power flare up. And as to Remy's immunity to Rogue's own absorption power, I would point that to a kind of energy that envelops his body." Dr. Hank McCoy responded.
"It's called m' Biokinetic Skin. Y' see when I charged some t'ing for some odd reason I lose heat. It's like m' own body heat changes de make up in an objects potential energy. As far as I know, de biokentic skin has been dere since m' powers manifested. Y' see when I charge some ting, the field gives way and let's m' body heat charge de object. If I didn't have the 'shield' I would freeze t' death from loss of body heat." Remy explained the best he could.
"And where did you learn this Remy?" the Professor asked.
"De first time m' powers flared to its 'second' stage, I accidentally ignited de ground m' girlfriend's brother was standing on. I was in an emotional rage; he was saying I was nothing but mutie garbage…I lost it. Dat's when I left home. Banished more or less, t' keep de guilds from going nuts. I tried t' control it, but I blew up a theater in Seattle, lotta people died dat night. Dat's when Sinister found m' said he could give m' something t' take m' powers away." Gambit said as his eyes focused on the ceiling, as if he was living the memory right then and there.
"The inhibitor collar, isn't that what you called it in the med lab. Was that what he gave you." Hank asked in a very curious tone.
"Oui, he said I could use it t' negate m' powers. But dere was a price. I had to free an associate of his from a military prison." Remy said as he started to pace the room. Surprisingly as he passed in front of Rogue, she reached out and grabbed his hand. He looked at her questioningly, and then she pulled him down next to her, keeping his hand in hers. She squeezed it reassuringly.
"Sabretooth." Wolverine growled from his position in the room, now looking at Gambit instead of focusing out the window.
"Oui Logan, he was de one I freed…" Remy started but was hastily interrupted by Wolverine again.
"You stupid kid. I was the one who put him there! I chased him for years, and when finally I was able to beat him, and get him locked up, you break him out weeks later. How stupid are you!" Wolverine growled, his anger flaring.
"Y' t'ink I new it was him! Y' have any idea what dat monster put me through. He dropped m' cousins off a roof. Made me choose who t' save, and when I couldn't save dem both! He laughed. I had no choice. I couldn't control m' powers. Some of us mutants don' have it as easy as y'!" Remy screamed at him as he stood abruptly.
Logan looked at him shocked. The he raged out his own question. "As easy as me…what do you mean Gumbo? You think I have it easy!"
Remy responded by producing three playing cards. One in between each of his fingers in on his left hand. They took on, a semi-look of Logan's claws protruding from his knuckles. "Look at me! I'm de Wolverine, I slash and I dice. My own wounds heal dem selves, and I can smell y' a mile away!" Remy said as he mimicked slashing the fake card claws through the air. Rogue stood and placed her hand on his shoulder and calmed him down by whispering something in his ear.
"Logan please, try to control yourself. Remy you also, we do not want a repeat of what happened a couple hours ago." The Professor stated to defuse the situation.
Remy turned and whispered into Rogue's ear so that only her, and maybe Logan could here. "Non, maybe dis Cajun gentleman wanna repeat dat kiss, heh chere?"
Rogue blushed and Logan growled. Finally Rogue said, "Maybe later swamp rat, if yah can keep yah self calm." Remy smiled and nodded, even at the sound of Logan's claws unsheathing.
"Logan, put those away!" Storm stated sternly. Than she turned to Remy, "Was there anything else between you and this Sinister?" Storm asked, as Hank and the Professor looked on, hoping to continue the meeting in a more civilized matter
"Oui, after I got Creed back t' Sinister's lab, m' deal was done. I guess I coulda welched on de deal, but if y' seen de man, y' wouldn't want t' be breaking no bonds t' him. I went on m' way wit de collar. It did every ting it was suppose t' do. No longer blowing tings up, had no one else's emotions burdening m' could no longer feel de movement of kinetic energy around m' It was like I was human…except…" Remy lowered his sunglasses at pointed to his eyes. "M' eyes stayed dis horrible color, dey been dis way since birth, so I guess it b' to well integrated in t' m' t' change." Remy said as he leaned back into the couch, Rogue's hand has sense moved to his thigh stroking it gently. Logan had since calmed down, but kept a weary eye on Remy. He couldn't believe the things the kid had been through and done. But should he be so hard on him he thought, it was in the past, Remy had told him that they were horrible things in his past, but never had he thought they were so closely tied to his own life, or that it would come back to bite the X-Men in the ass.
"I take it, that caused problems Remy?" The professor asked when he noticed Remy had fallen into some kind of trance, and was just staring at the floor.
"Oui, it was a couple weeks after I broke Creed out, I was doing a job, and handing over de score, m' glasses fell of m' face, and de people dat highered m' dey saw m' eyes, dere was five or six of dem. Now I woulda been able t' handle dem no problem, but…m' agility, it wasn' as good as b' fore. And wit m' kinetic sense gone…I didn' have de advantage of anticipating dere moves. M' own skills were enough to take out t'ree of dem, but de others…dey beat me…de damaged de collar. In m' rage…dere emotions hit m' I lost it…dey all got a kinetic blast dat killed dem. But I was beatin' t' badly; all I could do was lay dere. Dat's when he came f'r me…again." Remy said as he spoke very remorseful. Knowing that the next part of the story was going to be hard, and that they all might look at him differently, especially Rogue, he stood up, ignoring her hand trying to pull him back down. He began to pace again.
"Sinister you mean?" Storm asked, trying to get this meeting over with, also hoping to get some information, as to how to find Jean.
Remy nodded his head. He stared up at the ceiling once again and began talking. At first very quietly, then more and more boldly, as if he was reading his past out of a book. "He negated m' powers again, but dis time offered m' something more. He said he could help m' build power barriers in m' mind. Power caps dat would forever keep dat power locked away. The 'second stage' stage of m' power. Y' see I guess de homme examined m' poked and prodded m' as I was recoverin' I woke up on a table. Dat's when I learned bout m' Biokinetic skin. Dis way, I could b' back de way I was b' fore m' powers evolved. First he taught m' t' lock way m' empathy away. He said dat when I lost control of m' emotions…that my full power shot out, as if t' keep harm away. He entered m' mind and did dat, some other stuff t'. He had some kinda machine dat let him in dere. Like cerebo I t'ink. He said dat no one would ever be able to breach m' shields. My charm, dat's all dat was left over from de empathy. It's back now. I don' know why. Maybe de barriers weren't indestructible. But wit de empathy out, my kinetic power, she's going haywire. I can't control it."
"But you were able to control it tonight, you called it back upon yourself. How did you do that?" Hank asked just before the Professor was able to.
Remy looked down at Rogue, with a small smile playing on his lips. "Cuz o' Rogue, de only t'ing I could t'ink of, was dat I didn' want her t' get hurt. I felt calm…I felt in control. And de Kiss…dat cleared m' mind some ting quick." Remy said as he winked at Rogue she in turn looked down and blushed.
"So what was the price this time Gumbo?" Logan asked, calming a bit down now. He heard what the kid was going through. He didn't know if he would have done any different if his powers couldn't be controlled. Or his powers were that destructive.
"Lead Sabretooth in t' a small underground society of mutants, in Los Angeles, to retrieve some genetic samples. Lil did I know dat meant slaughter everyone else. I tried t' stop him when I saw what was going on. I never knew one mutant could take out almost fifty ot'ers. I did though, I did try t' stop him. As I grabbed some o' de petite enfantes, t' save dem. He clawed down' m' back. I sat laid up in a hosipital f'r five months after dat. When I finally got out, I went back t' de place I caused so many deaths, dere bodies still rotting, I did dey only ting I could. I buried dem, and vowed dere vengeance. Sabretooth, I almost took him once, but he got away, den de day I saved Kitty dat was de other time. Some day dis stupid Cajun gonna get Sinister. But he b' very powerful…he's not a mutant, but a human dat was gifted wit something, it grants him longevity, and power. I don' know if I'm strong 'nough. t' face 'im." Remy said as he walked towards the wall, he placed his hand against it and stared down, he felt very ashamed. He knew they would for surely kick him out, Logan would no longer be his drinking buddy, and Stormy wouldn't consider herself, his big sister. Rogue would shun him, and take back those words she spoke to him at the dance earlier that night.
"Do you remember where the lab was, that Sinister brought you too?" The professor asked. He was completely shocked by Remy's story. He had never expected it to be so horrifying. He also kicked himself; he should have been able to find him, himself. Like he had done so many other times…for so many other students.
"Oui, it was in Nebraska…but it's not dere no more. He moved it shortly after m' last visit. I'm guessing he got a lab here though…in New York. I once heard him mention dat." Remy said solemnly because he had no information that could help them find Jean.
"Storm, Logan why don't you two visit the store that Jean was abducted at. See if you can find any trace of clues. Beast, why don't you take a more thorough look at that inhibitor collar, that may come in handy? Rogue and Remy, why don't you two go get some rest." The Professor said as he realized the emotional toll this meeting was taking on young Remy.
"Y'r not kicking m' out Professor…even after what Scott said about m' leading Sinister t' Jean?" Remy turned abruptly and said to the Professor in a very confused voice. Rogue and Beast had already left. Beast couldn't wait to lose himself in the work on the collar, if at least to speed up the time till more offensive action could be taken against Sinister. Rogue was heading to her room, where she could sort out all this new information that had flooded her mind.
"Of course not Remy. It doesn't take a genius to see you were young and desperate. All that I ask of you now, is that you let me help you to control your powers. I know you have only been here for about seven weeks, but I still consider you a member of the X-Men, and that makes you family. I do not turn out family who merely want a chance to make things right." The Professor said very genuinely.
Storm approached Remy and enveloped him in a hug. "Remy…you should have told me, this burden is to great for you to bear. And do not worry about the other students. I am sure the professor will put them all at ease with out divulging too much to them. Also, I am sure he will have a word with young Scott. Now you go get some rest." Storm said very sincerely, and big sisterly.
Logan stalked over to Remy before joining Storm in the hall, "Gumbo, you got some nasty things in your past. But that's where they are. Lets keep em there. After this is all over, I'll buy you a round at Harry's. Oh yeah and one more thing…" Logan said as he turned his head back and raised his hand in the air. Three claws sprung from it, "Better keep your hands to yourself. Stripes is a lady, and you best treat her like one."
And with that, Logan and Storm strolled down the hall.
"You know Logan, perhaps you should have that talk with Rogue, judging by how responsive she was to Remy before they new they could touch, imagine how she's going to be now." Storm said with a small chuckle, as Logan growled his response.
"Professor, I just wanted t' say…Merci…for everything y' have done f'r me." Remy said, as he now stood alone in the Professor's study.
"There is no need to thank me Remy, I am just glad that I am here for you now. Now why don't you go get some rest, I'm going to brief the remaining X-Men and students on the situation." The Professor said, he noticed Remy's panicked look all for about a second before it was gone, covered by a brilliant poker face. "Do not worry, I well only tell them the necessary facts, no details about the things you did for Sinister. That is hardly mine, Storm, Logan and Hanks right to have it." Remy nodded his thanks to the Professor and left for his room, as Xavier telepathically called everyone else to his study.
Remy had been in his room long enough to change from his cowboy apparel, to a pair of pajama bottoms, and to smoke half a cigarette by his window, before their was a knock at his door. "Whose dere?" He called out to it.
The door creaked open as Rogue peaked her head through. "It's meh, Ah just wanted tah talk tah ya, sugah…" Rogue said somewhat nervous about what was to come.
"Come in den chere, Remy figured y' wouldn' wanna talk t' m'" Remy said as he flicked his cigarette out the window and watched it explode. He then turned to see Rogue closing his door. She was adorned in a robe.
"Why wouldja yah think that Swamp Rat?" She said as she seated herself on the edge of his bed. She patted the spot next to her, motioning for him to sit down.
"Y' heard every ting in de study. Y' don' tink I'm a monster f'r de tings I've done?" Remy asked as he seated himself next to Rogue. Rogue had taken off her gloves and tossed them on the floor. She picked his hand up in hers, enjoying the feeling of flesh upon flesh.
"Remy sugah, ah could nevah think yah be a monster. If anything, I now see yah as more human den evah." Rogue said very heartfelt. She leaned into kiss his cheek. "And what ah said earlier, at tha dance. That hasn't changed. I still care for yah. Ah'm still falling in love with yah."
"Chere, y' just convinced m' of what Remy always t'ought…" Remy said as he brushed her cheek, she once again shivered at the contact,
"And what's that, swampy?" Rogue asked as she leaned him down on the bed.
"Dat y' b' de fille f'r dis here charming Cajun." Remy said suavely. Rogue rolled her eyes as she untied her robe; she let it fall to the floor revealing a pair of boxers, and a tank top. Remy quirked his eye at her and she blushed heavily.
"See something ya like swamp rat?" Rogue said as she ran her hands up and down his bare chest. She playfully kissed his stomach, then climbed up next to him.
"Non chere, I see some t'ing dat I love." Remy said as he pulled her close to him. He leaned back onto his pillow as she draped her head onto his chest. He rubbed his hands up and down her arms as she traced her fingers around his well-toned stomach. "What we doing here Roguey?" Remy finally asked wondering where she was leading this.
"Ah want yah to hold me Remy, and not like yah usually do, but I wanna feel y' skin on mine. Ah just want yah tah embrace meh; caress meh. Ah want tah feel like a normal girl…" Rogue said with tears forming in her eyes as she looked up at Remy. Remy smiled and stared into her bright green eyes.
"Y' just want Remy t' hold y'…y' just want t' be held by y'r…boyfriend?" Remy asked in a very unusual tone of nervousness that rarely anyone on the planet had ever heard escape his lips.
"Yah, ah guess that's what ah want, ah want meh 'boyfriend' tah hold me, while ah hold him." Rogue said as she closed her eyes, reveling in the sensation. Remy looked down upon her, and said very softly into her ear.
"Den holding you is all Remy's gonna do chere…" and with that, a declaration of love was admitted. Both Remy and Rogue knew, they both knew at that moment…'this just felt right.'
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A/N Ok, there it is, the rest of my "Gambit's" secret past. Don't worry to much about Jean, if anyone is, I have plans for her, and I don't think they match up with Sinister's. Also, I hope Logan and Ororo find some clues, if anything, at least it got Logan out of the mansion. It was also nice of the Professor to call that meeting for the rest of the X-Men to give Remy and Rogue a little alone time. And if anyone out there is disappointed in what Remy and Rogue decided to do with that 'alone' time, give them a break, did you really expect them to jump each others bones, I have to save something for the next chapter. Please to all that read this, I'd like to know what your thinking. Please click 'de lil blue box.'
Shameless Plug: I also have another story, Remy Essex Lebeau: The Road to Forgiveness, I am splitting time between, I have two chapters over there, and would love for you all to read and review that one also. It's in the X-Men: Comics section.
And to those who reviewed.
Sabrin: Empathic blasts…kinetic blasts. Wouldn't that hurt Sinister though. Maybe even kill him, I don't want to kill him…do I?
Flitz: I have big plans for Remy's powers. You see this isn't the same Sinister we all know and loathe. He's my official Evolution version, and he has a secret, and guess who knows it. I also enjoyed the verbal beat down on Scott. For those who like Scott, the only people you have to blame for my treatment of him, are they authors of those Scott/Rogue fics. Of course I've never read them, so I don't know if they're any good.
P.S. Flitz, any plans to bring Rogue into Distraught…also eagerly waiting for update to said fic.
Bunny Angel: So maybe I should go back and take out the kiss? Then will you type all the little things in the review box?
Trunksgirl: Kill Jean? Kill Scott? I don't know, that seems kind of mean…besides I think I have a fate worse then that for Scott. That fate includes Jean though…
Ishandahalf: Like I said, pretty much anything Metallica had made in the past five years, I don't listen to. Was that really the best chapter yet, it didn't get many reviews. I think I shunned some of my other reviews with that chapter. I liked it, and sure am glad you did. So I didn't answer all those questions, but that just means the story isn't done. Does the stick that is up the stick's ass that is up Scott's also have a stick their, if not than I think by the end of my story it might.
Anyways, thanks you guys for your reviews.
