I don't own Beyblade or any of the characters, but I'm sure you knew that.
I also don't own "Bring Me to Life", by Evanescence.
This is dedicated to C.L.A.Y. (an anonymous reviewer), who specifically requested this song in Kai's POV. Thanks for your review. I'd also like to thank all my reviewers for chapter 4. You guys are the best!
Bring Me to LifeHow
can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
Without
a soul, my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
It's been awhile since Rei and I confessed our love for each other, and life just keeps getting better for me. It's strange, I ever thought I could be this…happy. Rei awakens something inside of me that I thought died long ago. I hope this never ends.
(Wake
me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
No. I shouldn't have thought that everything was alright. I knew that it couldn't last.
Boris…he reappeared today. He knows. He knows about Rei, and threatened to hurt him if I was seen with him again.
I should have known better than to think I was out of Biovolt's reach. I should've planned ahead. I've been stupid, and now the one I care about the most is in danger because of my idiocy. I've got to stay away from Rei.
Now
that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Gods, this is hard. I've avoided Rei for a week now. Just like before, when I was trying to figure out that I loved him. I just want to run back to him. He's my safe haven from the hell that is my life. I need him to live.
This hurts him too. Damn it all. I never wanted to hurt him, not again. It seems that it's all I can do; hurt people. He might be—he would be—better off without me.
(Wake
me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
Unfortunately, selflessness is never something I've done well. Rei is mine. I've never been one to give up what is mine.
…And as
much as I try to deny it, I belong to him too, body, heart, mind, and soul. I
miss him. And the nightmares and everything that happened before we got
together are coming back. They're worse, actually, probably because of the
guilt that plagues me.
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie)
(There's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
I was about to talk to Rei today when I saw a flash of red. Tala appeared before me, looked at me, held his gun up and disappeared again. I know he's sorry for what's going on, but he has to follow orders. I can't blame him, because that is the only life he's ever known, one of duty and order and servitude.
That would have been my life too. But living with the Bladebreakers makes me aware of the truth of life: that you have to enjoy it and make your own path. And Rei, he is my path. He opens my eyes to everything I've scorned, and I like it, and love him.
And now I can truly say I pity Tala and my other brothers—for that's what they are, my brothers—back at the Abbey, because with Boris constantly dominating their lives, they will never experience what I have. They will never love, or hope, or have friends like I do.
They will never truly be alive. They remain shells of the humans they could have been.
Frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling
Only
you are the life among the dead
If I can free them now, it won't be too late for them to find what I have—true happiness amongst the ruins of my life.
That's what makes me call Mr. Dickinson. Normally, even now, I would have scorned all help, but I would rather swallow my pride than see Rei look at me with that wounded gaze in his eyes for another day.
All
this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life
The Abbey kept me from the light, but I'm in it now. I would've died all alone, but Rei saved me. He still saves me every day by just being there and loving me. I owe him more than he'll ever know.
(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
I watch in satisfaction as the Russian police swarm the Abbey. It's cold, and I would rather be inside, preferably with Rei and a fire, but I have to see this through.
Boris is led outside with handcuffs, and he glares at me. And being me, of course I have to rub it in by smirking and flashing a victory sign. This is the perfect conclusion to the darkest chapters in the story of my life.
Tala, Bryan, Ian, and Spencer are leading the other kids outside. "Why?", asks Tala, curious. "Because I can", I reply. "Good luck". And then I walk away. They'll be fine; after all, we were all trained to survive anything. I don't know if I'll see them again, but I honestly do hope they can find their own peace, as I have found my own.
Bring
me to life
(I've been living a lie)
(There's
nothing inside)
Bring me to life
At home, Rei is waiting, sitting outside on our porch. It's nighttime, and it seems oddly appropriate, for everything important between us has happened at this time, at this spot.
"I saw the newscast", he says softly, gazing at me as I sit next to him. "I know. I called and asked Tyson to turn it on", I reply, looking back at him. Gods, he's gorgeous.
"You could've told me. You had me worried sick!" he says, punching me lightly on the arm. "I'm sorry. I was avoiding you for your own safety. I thought you would be better off without me", I say honestly.
I'm surprised when you glare at me and punch my arm again, harder. "Kai", you say patiently, "You are so thick-headed sometimes!". I'm really confused now, and I'm sure my face shows it, because you continue.
"First of all", you start, still glaring at me, "I can take care of myself. Don't underestimate me". Don't worry, I won't. You are actually very intimidating when you're angry. Especially when your eyes slit and you bare your fangs. But I won't admit that to anyone, because I'm supposed to be fearless.
"Second of all, not being with you would hurt me more than being with you", you say.
And now I just want to melt. Damn, I am so soft and so incredibly whipped. But this is almost as good as hearing you say those three little words. The ones that mean everything to me.
You curl into my arms and order, "Next time, you will tell me when something's wrong. Am I understood?". Okay, now see, that's scary. Rei angry is not a good thing. "I will", I promise, hugging you. Then you smile. Good. No more angry Rei. "Alright. Now, I think we've got a lot of lost time to make up for, don't you?", you ask mischievously, grinning at me. I smirk back and tilt my head down.
Now this is life, and I am truly alive and loving it.
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