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~Baby, I never gave my heart to anyone oh no
I used to think that love was a game
I used to make it just for fun, oh yea~

~When we spent the night together
It didn't mean that it ment that much
Now I just can't live without your touch~

Its so bitterly ironic really.

I've gained everything I strived for. Everything I spent centeries planing for is mine. The world lays in the palm of my hand, every pathatic being on it is bended to my very will. The power I've thirsted for is at last my own. And yet...i'm not satisfied. It was a game, a simple game and I've won yet the prize isn't completely in my likeing.

I've twisted the world into what i've wanted, shaped it into my very desires. Yet...i'm not happy. And its all *HIS* fault, damnit. Everything was fine untill his compassionet soul stumbled upon me. I hate his sweet smile, I hate his innocently sexy eyes, I hate his--oh, who am I trying to fool now?

I didn't want this.

I didn't want to care about him beyond needing him as a vessle to acomplish what I needed.

Ra, why in the hell did you have to make sure the Ring fell into my Hikari reincarnation? Of all bloody people in the world WHY him? Why not some snivileing evil being that I could use guiltlessly for my own whims? I growled in frustration, throwing the silken covers off me and riseing from the warm bed.

I couldn't sleep. But then, sleep has often eluded me since this began. This obsession. This...feeling deep down. Standing up I looked around the room with sharp unfeeling eyes. The rooms a golden yellow mixed with reds and blacks, each and every part of it worthy of the Pharaoh I've become. I've trumped them all and yet everything...everything i've obtained means less then nothing anymore.

What are material possesions when he's not here?

Not at my side where he belongs.

He's mine, just as everything eles in this Realm is my own.

Yet, the one thing I have...the one thing I desire above all...isn't here anymore. And even if he was, I couldn't have him. The mere rememberence stung and began to pace around the room. My feet sinking warmly into the plush carpets strung about. I'd re-modeled the world into a more or less Ancient Egypt theme from my time before I recieved the Ring those many years ago.

Ironic that now it is I that sits upon the throne.

The throne that is rightfully mine that is.

Everything in this damnable world that I want and I'm not pleased. Far from it.

I ran my fingers across the coldness of the Sennen Ring. Lately I can't stop touching it, can't stop reliveing the memories of my Hikari who released me from my eternele damnation within it. So innocent, so infiently kind...so weak was he. But he was, and still is, my spinless little weakling. And if anyone in this Realm has *dared* to harm in any way then they'll be faceing my wrath for the next decade or so.

Still, I wonder whats happened to him over these long years. He's not dead, I know that. I'd of felt his life being snuffed out...I know I would have. We're still two halves of the same soul. We're one, and can never be other wise. No matter how much power I've obtained he's still my Hikari...and I'm still his Yami. Nothing can change that. Ever.

I curled my fingers around the edge of the Sennen Ring and turned to stand by the balcony. Its funny really, how I fought so hard just to get away from him and now all I want is for him to be back. At my side, in my arms...where he belongs. Where he will always belong. I feared him back then, something I wouldn't every admit to anyone no matter what. Not that many would belive that, and I'm sure if the Pharaoh ever heard it he'd laugh his arrogent ass off.

Its true though, I did fear him. He saw everything with such unblemished purity. Always saw light in a world that is as corrupted cesspull of insanity. Saw light in even *me* of all people. He feared me, Ra yes he did. But he also cared about me. Loved me even back then with an unconditional sort of grasp.

It frightened me.

Scared me that such a boy would dare even to have such feelings for me. Any other would have tried to fight back, would have loathed me with every fiber in their being--but not him. Never Ryou, hate wasn't a sort of emotion that sung through his veins like carelessly spilled blood. It wasn't a sort of feeling that he embraced, and most likely he never would feel such a thing.

He was part of the reason I tried so hard to gather all the Items. Not just so I could conquest the world and defeat the vows of the hypocracy that had damned me to five thousand years in the darkness. I wanted to protect him, if I controled all then of course I'd be able to protect him from anything and anyone. None would dare stand against me now. Fearing my wrath that would fall merclessly upon them should they dare to try.

I suppose I failed at that as well.

I don't even know where he is really. Oh, I know he's close. I can feel the pure white waves of his aura tingling against my senses. It drives me mad to feel him so close, the haunting touch of his soul so near...yet so far away at the same time. Frustrating really.

I never cared about anyone before I meet him. Back in Ancient Egypt Ishtal had been my comrade in raiding Tombs becouse together we were unstopable, apart we were formidable but together none could catch us. Overconfidense had been or folly when we were captured by the Pharaoh's Gaurds. I suppose our robbing Yugioh's father's Tomb was a more personal insult to him.

I sighed and rested my hands on the stone banister of my balcony. So many things changed that night. Me and Ishtal's entrance into the Shadow Games as we'd stolen two of the Sennen Items and half-way mastered their powers and so many other things that set the uncontrollable powers of destiny into play.

Maybe it was almost worth it if it brought me here, almost.

I'd almost give all this up if I could simply touch him again. Run my fingers across his satin skin one more time, smell the sweet scent that had always clung to him...

I shook my head slightly.

I must be going soft after all this time.

I don't know really, its hard to know much of anything any more.

~I didn't want to need you, oh no
I didn't want you like I do
I didn't mean to fall
I didn't want to care at all
I didn't want to need you, no no
Like I need you now~

~Oh, I can't get no sleep
'Cause I keep thinkin' about you
All through the night, oh yea~

It shouldn't matter really, he shouldn't matter a whit to me. But he does though, maybe he always will. Damn emotions, I thought I'd lost them after all this time. Pushed them back so far that they could never rise again. A foolish hope I suppose. Even an Immortal God has feelings. An unfortuent slight really.

Back when Ryou had been at my side there had been nights when I'd given into temptation and simply held him in my arms, tasted his lips with a gentle frenzy that out of place with my demenor. Easily I can recall the tangy tast of him, the feel of his skin against mine as he'd gifted me with pleasures reserved for saints and not sinners.

I'm no angel, and I never will be such--never claimed to be one either. I'm a damned soul and I never believed a thing would change that. But looking in his eyes dureing those moments...he looked at me with a look of pure open love really. A cleanseing, deep, perfectly unblemished feeling really.

My arms ache to hold him again...to feel his soft form pressed against my own once more...I shook my head wildly, grabbing a glass trinket from a nearby table I threw it at the wall. Glass exploaded every where, but the minor form of destruction failed to sedate the burning anger that had ignited within me.

I hate this.

I really do. I don't think I've ever hated anything as much as I hate this feeling. I'm so helpless against it...and theres nothing I despise more then not being in conrol of something about myself. I've never truely meet my match at anything. I was the best Tomb Raider in the history of Egypt, I was notories of my cut-throat tendancy. I struck fear in the hearts of thousands by simply hearing my name.

The Shadow Games I tormented Yugioh back then were exactly that: A game. A simple, tiny game that I felt so very confident that I would win. That I could finaly get the high n' mighty bastard to step down off his high-horse and accept the fact that just becouse he held the power of a god, he wasn't as all-powerful as he thought he was.

I never thought Yugioh would go so far as to seal up the Shadow Games though. Never thought he'd have the balls to do it really. After all, such a thing would require his own life. Something I thought he would be too cowardly to do. Foolish of me, I should have known that just to spite me he'd do it.

And he did. Sealed Ishtal, himself, and me within the Items for five thousand years. Ironic that he intened for incarceration to be eternal that it was trumped by a simple, weak, boy...my Hikari. My other half. The only one in this world or the next that can ever complete me. Ever.

That some sort of beautiful irony to that really.

That Yugioh was so smug about my "defeat" only to have the other me destroy his curse some five thousand years later.

Deliciousely sweet.

Just like revenge.

Just like my rein.

Almost.

It could be better...if Aibou was here that is...Abruptly I felt it. A simple, twinge of pain in the back of my mind. A cold stab of agony, the echoeing crys of hope forever lost. Of insanty slowly caveing in. A pure white aura sootheingly close...acheingly near....

~My eyes can't wait to see you again
And my arms can't wait to hold you tight, oh yea~
And when your layin' here beside me
I never thought this could ever be~

~I didn't want to need you, oh no
I didn't want to want you like I do
I didn't mean to fall
I didn't want to care at all
I didn't want to need you, no no
Like I need you now~

My heart lept into my throat, my blood pounded feverishly in my veins. Without a thought I threw myself gracefuly over the ledge of the balcony and landed soundlessly on the stone ground. Desite my resolve not to, I could feel a stubburn burning of hope and happiness riseing in me...I hadn't felt this good in a long time really...

I felt a smile tugging at my lips as I hurried down the cement floor out into the open of my courtyard. The moon was full and high in the sky, burning down with a liquid silver light that glowed my pathway as bright as the sun would have. Suddenly my ears pricked up at the sound of soft cries riveting through the air. Broken, heart-wrenching...they cried out to a world of malic who didn't give a damn.

I walked softly forward, my eyes narrowing on a large tower that streatched high toward the star-lit sky. I heard some light scrapping above, the cries halting abruptly as a flash of white appeared on the edge of it. Ryou...My Hikari.

I could feel his conisness on the edge of my own. Feel the panic that sweeping through the young one at being so near to me. Blinding, skittish fear. And also...something eles...was that relife I felt from my other half? A fleeting happiness perhapes? Smirking slightly I turned and made sure to make my footsteps heavy as I went back the way I'd come.

I wasn't leaveing him, of course. I was merely trying to...hide my precence for the moment so he wouldn't run away--and if he knew I what I was planning that is exactly what he would do. I know my Hikari's nature, better perhapes then he himself does. Flating myself against the far wall I turned around and crept back toward the tower, sheltering my form in the few shadows that filled my courtyard.

My blood pumped firm and steady through my veins, excitement surgeing through me at the fact that I was so close to a reunion with my other half and the fact that this was so remensisnt of robbing Tombs back when the Pharaoh was haveing his rein. Enough of that though, all that mattered was that in a matter of secouds my Hikari would be back in my arms...where he belonged.

I ran deftly over to the tower and began to climb up it useing the foot-holds in the large stones to aid me. I heard the sounds of harsh breathing above....I was *so* close....

I pulled myself up ontop to find..........

Nothing...

He wasn't there. I stood in the center of the tower, tears of betrayle burning in my eyes. How *dare* he run away. How could he leave me? How could he taunt me with his precence only to vanish?

~I've always been free
To leave when I wanted to leave
But not any more~

~I didn't want to need you, no no
I didn't want to want you like I do
I didn't mean to fall
I didn't want to care at all
I didn't want to need you, no no~

~I didn't wanna want you like I do
I didn't mean to fall
I didn't wanna care at all
I didn't want to need you, no no~

I looked around the courtyard below me blindly, searching for *something* eles so show me he was close. To prove that he hadn't gone away...nothing. Not even a footprint in the ground to show he'd been there. This was so unfair. So blindingly unfair. I dropped down to my knees, hiting the harsh stone with my fist repeatedly.

The pain was dull, barely there really. My breath entered and left my lungs harshly, breathing out into the night air with ragged gasps. Why did this have to happen to me? No one has ever ment this much to me...ever. I've never been caged my this sort of desire in my life. And if it ever did touch me it always left after a few sun rises and sets. Why did this remain?

Why did the mere feeling of his precence haunt me so? Why did it have to *hurt* like this? How could he, a mere mortal, do this to me? HOW?

I forced myself to my feet and jumped down off the tower and made my way back to my room. Once there I collapsed on the soft bed and curled into a fetal position.

I hate him for this.

I truely do.

Because if I don't hate him....then maybe I....

No! No, I can't....not that emotion...that would be the fatal kiss of death for me. I can't feel *that* for him...I...I'll forget him eventually. He's no different from my lovers in a past blown away by the passage of time.

I closed my eyes, cringing as I felt tears fall down my cheeks.

If only I was as good at decieveing myself as I was at games.

~But I need you now
I need you now
I need you now
I need you baby~

~I didn't want to need you, no no
I didn't want to need you, no no
I didn't want to need you, no no
I didn't want to need you, no no~

~I didn't want to need you, no no~








A.n.-I know, I know...very very short....I tried to make it as long as I could though. Sorry if this chappie sucked...I re-wrote it a few times and I'm still not completely satisfied with this chappie, however it is better then the rough-drafts before it...If its *really* that bad I'll take it down n' re-write it...Review onegai:)

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