Anything for the one you love

CHAPTER FIVE

As soon as I closed the door I went back to the living room. Relena was still there and still crying. I made her get up and we started walking upstairs to the room she used whenever she stayed with us.

"Have a shower and put on your pyjama. In the mean time I'll get you some warm milk"

"Ok. Thanks Lucrezia."

"You're welcome sweetie"


I watched as my sister in law left the room. I looked around and decided that Lucrezia's suggestion was the best one. A shower would help me relax. I took off my clothes and went to the en-suite bathroom. I made the water run and I stepped into the shower. I really loved the sensation the running water over my head. It helped clearing out all the thoughts I had in it. I also loved the vanilla scented gel that Lucrezia kept here for me. After that, I washed my hair and I just let the water run over me for a while. When I stepped out from the shower I heard Lucrezia coming back to the room. I put on the bathrobe and I started towel drying my long hair. After brushing it I just let it fall on my shoulders. I went back into the room to find her standing by the vanity.

"Come here. I'll help you drying your hair"

I sat and Lucrezia started brushing my hair while drying it with the hairdryer. My hair, although it was very long, didn't take long to dry so within a few minutes I was already dressed with my pyjama.

"Are you going to be ok?"

"Sure"

"Ok. Then I'll go back to your brother"

"Ok. Thanks again Lucrezia"

"Would you do me a favour?"

"Sure…"

"Well, please do as your brother does and call me Lulu. I prefer it."

"Ok. Lulu. It sounds good"

"I know. Better than Lucrezia. I'll keep that for when I'll have grey hair! Good night Relena"

She said that smiling. Gosh. I really liked my sister in law. She was one of the kindest people I had ever met.

"Good night Lulu."


I felt really sorry for Relena. I knew she had to make a very tough decision. Unfortunately I just couldn't help her. I was not going to take a position. I had to be totally impartial with this. I closed the door behind me and I went to our room. My love was there waiting for me looking through the window.

"How's she doing?"

"She's a bit better. I made her have a shower and I guess she is feeling slightly better. The hardest is still to come though. She has to make a decision that isn't easy. I wouldn't like at all being in her place now. Deciding which guy you love more is almost mission impossible. Specially if the two guys are Quatre and Heero. They are as opposed as two people can get."

"I know. If you ask me the choice but be rather easy. I would pick Quatre for my sister. He's so much better for her."

"Milliardo! Would you really want Relena to marry Quatre just because he is a better match? I think that if you really love your sister you would like her to marry whoever she loved for real. That is the only way she will ever be happy."

"I know. I'm sorry. Is just that Heero…"

"I know you don't like Heero too much. But just because he was not as fortunate as Quatre was doesn't that make him a worse person. Personally I think that Heero deserves, at least for once, some happiness of his own. He has had enough suffering. How would you feel if you didn't have a real name, you didn't even know who your real parents are, where you came from and you hadn't had a proper childhood? Heero has had an incredibly tough life. It's almost a miracle that your sister got him to have some human emotions after all…"

"Well, my sister is a very special person…"

"I know. She is the strongest of us all. That's why it hurts me so much seeing her like that. Today, for the first time, I have seen her for what she truly is: just a teenager with teenage problems."

"What the hell…"

"Milliardo?"

"Those two are not leaving. I think they have every intention of staying here. See? Quatre is preparing himself to sleep in his car…"

I walked towards the window where Milliardo was standing. I looked through it. It was true. I could see Quatre lowering the driver's sit to a lying position and getting some blanket over him. Heero was doing pretty much the same.

"Well. Just leave them to do whatever they want. As long as they leave Relena alone for a while…Now, honey, let's go to bed, is almost daylight…"

"Ok"


I turned the lights off and I got in bed. I hugged Lulu and kissed her goodnight. I almost immediately fell asleep wondering if it would be that easy for my little sis.
After drinking the milk I tried to go to sleep. Yeah right. Like if it was that easy. I had four million thoughts in my head and I just couldn't shut down my brain so I could get some sleep. After a few minutes turning around myself on the bed I decided to get up. I went to the desk and got a piece of paper and a pen. I started doing something that I usually did when I had to make difficult decisions. If it worked for diplomatic affairs, I couldn't see how it wouldn't work for this. I started writing a list of reasons why to marry Quatre and reasons why to be with Heero.
Gosh, this was uncomfortable. Ok. Probably I was too used to the luxury of my own bed and this car had not been designed to be used as a bedroom. In any case I was really uncomfortable. The problem is that I didn't want to leave. I refused to give up. I knew that Heero would not leave. I looked at his car and I could see him lying perfectly still on the driver seat. He looked almost comfortable. He was probably used to sleep in the most various places. I had to admit that when it came to training, no one could beat Heero. He was the best soldier on ESUN. No one could match his skills and his abilities in combat. If I put aside the jealousy I felt towards him, I admired him. I also pitied him sometimes. No one had ever loved him. Before meeting us, and before knowing Relena, Heero had such a loveless existence that he didn't even think twice before committing suicide. He used to think his life was worthless. I think that even now he still thought so. That made me sad. Again, I couldn't forget the fact that he was my rival now. Like I said, I love Relena too much to let her go. Of course, I wouldn't stop her if she left me but I would fight for her as long as I had a chance.
I pretended to sleep. I just didn't want Quatre to come and bother me. How on earth had he found me anyway? I really wanted to know but somehow I thought that wasn't important. I was trying to ignore my rational side for it was telling me to just let go. Relena was engaged to him. I knew that Quatre had a better chance of making her happy. Unfortunately he had everything I didn't have. I felt so jealous. Not only because Quatre had managed to convince Relena to marry him, but also because he just had too much. Too much money, too much power, too much influence in the world affairs. I had nothing. I hated that feeling. The first time I had it was with Relena. I've always thought that my life was worthless. When I met her I wouldn't hesitate one second before autodestruct myself. Then, when I saw her courage, her dreams and how much she fought, peacefully, of course, to achieve them, I started feeling empty. My fight was useless. She was stronger than me. Even Treize had realised that. I just didn't see the point of fighting anymore. Then I realised how much Relena mattered to me and that gave me a new strength and a new reason to fight. I had a new mission. I had to protect Relena. Now, my mission was getting her attention back. I needed her in my life to give it sense. Without her I just didn't feel like living anymore. If only that Quatre hadn't found us…
This was useless. It was a match that was doomed to end in a draw. I looked at the list I had just made and I just couldn't make the decision. Both looked at the same level. I read the list again:

Reasons to marry Quatre:

We share the same views and goals.

He will always be here for me.

He's a true friend.

We complement each other.

He's sweet natured.

He's attached to his beliefs.

He's trustworthy.

Reasons to be with Heero:

I've known him longer.

He's got a fascinating personality.

He will always protect me.

He gives me hope.

He's passionate.

He believes in himself and is sure of himself.

He's strong.

Gosh. This was mission impossible! They were both perfect just in different ways. Why did I have to choose? For a crazy moment I thought of the possibility of keeping them both. I, of course, told myself off. I needed to get some sleep before I went completely nuts. Yes, that was it. I needed to sleep. Maybe the pillow would be the best advisor. If only I could actually fall asleep…

It was almost daytime when I finally gave myself up to the dream world. It was probably sheer exhaustion that had made me fall asleep.


I got up and I went to Relena's room. Thankfully she was asleep. I looked at my watch and I saw it was past ten in the morning. I went to the kitchen where Lulu was already having breakfast. It was Saturday so didn't have to go to work. As Preventer officers we had the weekend off except when we were on call.

"Good morning honey. Did you sleep well?"

"Yes. Thanks. Is Relena still sleeping?"

"Yes. What about our other 'guests'?"

"They're in the conservatory having breakfast."

"Is that a good idea, I mean, what if Relena gets up?"

"Don't worry Milliardo. They have promised me that they will stay there. Just for safety I will bring breakfast to our little princess so she doesn't see them before she is ready to do so."


I got a tray with some coffee, toasts, butter and marmalade up to Relena's bedroom. She was awake now. Probably Milliardo had woken her up closing the door.

"Good morning Relena. Feeling better?"

"I think so. I've heard Quatre and Heero downstairs. Did they stay here overnight?"

"No. Well, yes. They slept in their cars…"

"Ah. Well. Lulu, after breakfast I will speak to them. I think I have reached a decision…"

To be continued...

(A/N: Ok. This is the penultimate chapter. In the next, the last, you'll finally know Relena's decision and her reason for it. Thanks to everyone for reading up to here and, for those kind enough to drop a line: THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU'RE A STAR!)