Penned by Rhea Lee Tanardawen

First DADA, Year Four

I don't know if I'll be able to stop shaking - Gran said we wouldn't be doing Unforgiveable Curses at Hogwarts until NEWTs leve, I thought I'd be out of there by then, but then Professor Moody . . . Does Harry feel the same way? He looked shaken after class, but he said he was all right, Professor Moody only had to invite me in for tea . . .

I thought I'd be able to handle it on a spider, because it's not them, they're not human, but still. Imagination makes it worse.

I hate this. Hate never saying anything to anyone, hate the feeling I get whenever anyone mentions the Lestranges or Azkaban or the Unforgiveable Curses, hate how I cant even stand up for myself. That was a fluke first year, winning those points, no matter what anyone says.

I'm sick of thinking of this, I'm going to bed.
Neville