Episode Thirty Four
What Gwen wouldn't do for a pair of headphones and some Pearl Jam right about now. Something about Eddie Vedder put her at ease, his low, rough voice crooning her to sleep. She missed those times at college when she could just listen to him all night curled up with Harry Potter.
But that was when Harry Potter didn't really exist. He was just a character in a book with a really screwed up life and Gwen was a fan. Now she had Harry in her life, even more screwed up. She wiped away her tears.
Everything be damned. If she was going to fuck this up she was going to fuck this up right. She stormed upstairs to the boys dormitory after Harry, threw open the door and stopped to look.
Harry sat on the edge of the bed, his head in his hands. He'd been crying too.
"Harry." She said, her courage beginning to quail. No, she said to herself, I'm doing this. "Harry, I love you."
He looked up and blinked slowly at her. The tears were fresh on his cheeks and he looked no worse for the salt tracks. "I know Gwen." He said quietly
"No. You don't. So I'm going to tell you." She looked so determined, her face screwed up in a half frown- half smile hands on her hips. "I've been in love with you since that very first time you touched my hand. I fell into a trance and I fell in love. And I don't know why Harry, but you scare the shit out of me quite frankly. I want to know why, but it's not anything I can just figure out. And I thought that if you scared me so then maybe it would be better to be with Corwin. He doesn't scare me like you do. But now I think I scare him. So I guess we're all in the same boat. And when it boils right down to it you're the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. I know we're young and we have our whole lives ahead of us, but I really love you. Really and deeply." She stopped. One of her favorite Jimmy Eat World songs popped into her head and she finished on some of their lyrics. "If I don't let myself be happy now then when? If not now, when?"
Harry gazed at her dumbstruck. He had no words to describe the entire gamut of emotions he was running.
