"Becoming..."

By: Sesen ObsidianMoon

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Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi, or any of the characters.

A/N: If you are not comfertable with slah, get out. NOW. This fic revolves around Ashley/Ellie, with a Spinner/Marco subplot.

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I heard the doorbell ring. Toby was at JT's, probably looking at porn, and my Mom and Jeff were out. I had been watching old "Lizzie McGuire" epsides, not even paying attention. I just couldn't help but think about how I was going to tell him. I opened the door.

"Hey, ash, what's up? You sounded serious..."

"Um, hi, Marco. I really need to talk to you. This could take a while to explain, so do you have time?"

Marco smiled at me. "Yeah, I told my mom I was coming over here."

I stepped aside. "Okay, so, come on in."

"So, Ellie told me that she told you... about, well, about me, and how..."

"Yes, Marco. I know you're gay. Embrace it. Don't hide from it. I'm not." I said, and handed him a can of Diet Coke.

"Wait... you mean... you're..."

I smiled at him. He looked like a dead fish. Eyes wide, mouth open. "Are you gonna take the soda or not?" Marco almost fell out of his chair. He stood from his place at the island, knocking the stool to the floor. He didn't even notice. He just ran over to my side of the island, and hugged me. Hard. "MARCO! CAN'T- BRE-ATHE!"

"Oh my God, Ashley! So I'm not the only one?"

"Of course not! You should've known! I mean, there's tons of people at Degrassi!"

Marco suddenly pulled away from the me. "Wait. Who?"

I sank to the floor, my back sliding against the cabinets. My vertabrae came in contact with the handle, one by one. The pain didn't bother me. I was used to it. I'd been through a lot, and had slid down the same cabinet door each time. I couldn't tell him. At least, not first. "You first."

Marco sat on the floor, oppisite me, and smirked. "I asked you first."

I lowered my head. "Yeah, but you've known that you're... for a lot longer then I have."

"Ash? It's gay, not '...'. And Spinner."

My head shot up at that. SPINNER?! "SPINNER?! HOW?!"

"No idea. I just, do, ya know?" He shook his head slightly. "Names now, questions later. Your turn."

I took a deep breath. Here goes. "Ellie." I whispered.

"ELLIE?! THAT IS SO GREAT!"

I looked up at him, confusion written on my face. This was Marco, right? Marco, congratulationg me on loving Ellie? "Excuse me?"

Marco rolled his eyes. "It's obvious. You look at her as if... as if she's the only person in the world. As if... you're in love with her." It wasn't a question. I knew that. I just looked at him. "You are!"

I laughed. "Yeah, pretty much... so, what about you, Mr. I'm-in-love-with-Spinner-Mason?"

He smiled, somewhat dreamily. "Yeah. I am."

His smile was contagious. "Thank you so much, Marco. It's really, REALLY nice being able to talk to someone about this."

He grinned back. "Same here. I mean, I have Ellie, but she isn't gay, so she doesn't quite get it. Thanks, Ashley."

"No, thank YOU. Because at least you had Ellie. All I had were feelings for Ellie."

Marco smiled. "Okay, you win."

"Haha." I replied sarcastically. "I'm just SO lucky. What do I win?"

Marco scratched his head, and then handed me his unopened soda can. "Here!"

"Gee, thanks, Marco!"

"No problem."

There was a pause, though it wasn't really awkward. "So, um, what should I do about Ellie?"

"Oh, man, Ashley... that's tough. What do you think she'd do if you told her?"

I hung my head again. "I don't know. I wanna believe that she'll just let me down gently, but I don't know... God, I hate this!!!" I exclaimed, as I hit my head against the cabinet.

"I think she would. I mean, if she isn't interested." I smiled at him.

"Thanks."

"No problem. So, what should I do about Spinner?"

"Honestly? I've always thought he was gay. I mean, this is just my opinion, but he teases you about it way too much, and he was never REALLY interested in one girl. And he's 15! I just think he is, but afraid of it. But, don't do anything rash on my account. I couldn't take it if I was wrong, and embarassed you."

Marco smiled, weakly. "It's okay. I've never acted on a crush before, why should I now?"

I reached over, and squeezed his arm lightly. "I know. I'm never telling Ellie." My hand retreated, and I sat on my kitchen floor, with Marco, picking at my light blue nail polish, in silence.

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There was Chapter 5. What did you think? It's a lot of dialouge, but they were saying all their thoughts out loud, and there wasn't much action. Plus, I just wanted everything layed out on the table. I'm already writing the next chapter. I was gonna do a short ficlet of Marco's crush on Spinner, and post it seperate, but I decided I wanted it to become a part of the story. Next chapter soon!

Coming up: Spinner deals with knowing Marco's gay, and... what's with the lack of freaking he's doing? Plus, will Ashley EVER tell Ellie?! R&R!!!