A/N: This it'll be kind of a long chap. And it's the *beginning* for a wrap up of this story. But remember, not done yet. Keep reading. ************************************************************************'

Kathryn left home due to an empty house. She was going shopping. She felt the pain in her head and stomach; it had been gnawing away at her all day. A constant soar feeling surrounded her.

And it was all Sebastian's fault. She didn't understand what was wrong with him. Why he was spending all this time with that blonde little virgin Annette.

A bet was a bet, she understood that better then anyone, but this was too much. He ... he actually liked that girl.

She sat down on a chair in a store since she was feeling dizzy. Sebastian was going to leave her. She didn't know if she could take it.

"Coffee miss?" Someone asked and she tried to shake her head but she wasn't sure if it was visible. The guy stood by her side awfully long and eventually she turned her head at him but looked at him with distant eyes.

"No...thank you." She mumbled and stood up to get away from him. She started to stroll around the store with zero interest.

What did anything matter now? If Sebastian ... God she couldn't even think about the possibility. If Sebastian fell for that little twit ...he'd always been one to follow his emotions. Only thing was the until now he's emotions had been for her.

She'd always told herself that she and Sebastian were two of a kind. She'd made plenty of speeches to make him realise that. That same day actually.

She'd also told herself that Sebastian was like her - he couldn't change. He was who he was and he was proud of it. Now she started to doubt it. He was like others, weak and needy. He needed love and affection - it was disgusting.

She put a dress back on the rack with the sudden need for air. She left the store without any purchase and the store clerk looked surprised after her. Kathryn Merteuil was not famous for leaving a store without buying anything.

Kathryn walked down the street. Everything felt so different. She had always been afraid that Sebastian would leave but she'd also always hoped and wished that he wouldn't.

'Why did we make that stupid bet? If we hadn't Sebastian still would've loved me.'

She thought of how things had developed since Annette came into the picture. She hadn't been that worried. Not until she'd seen him spying at the twit through the window, then he'd gone out and kissed her and argued and left. The worst part was that Kathryn had seen that he'd been upset. He wasn't supposed to get worked up by others; she was the one who could push his buttons. All other girls were just ...girls.

'Why am I getting so worked up over this?' She wondered and at that moment she remembered the pain she'd felt when she'd seen them kiss goodbye the other night. He'd been so gentle and sweet to that Annette girl.

He didn't want or need her anymore.

'Well maybe I don't need him either. That stupid...' Kathryn couldn't even think of something mean. She closed her eyes and walked into another store just to avoid the people on the street.

Earlier that day she'd paid Sebastian a little visit in his room. She'd given him a speech, her last hope to reach out to him before he was all gone in Annette. She thought she'd reached through to him but as she'd looked into his eyes when he'd left she'd seen the hurt and pain.

He was in love.

If he broke up with Annette it didn't matter coz he still would love her. He wasn't like her at all. It had all been a lie and deep down she was sure that she'd already know this was how it was going to go some day.

She held a dress in front of her and directly wondered what Sebastian would think about her in it. Probably that she was hot but that didn't matter anymore when he didn't want her. When he was going to strut around holding hands with little miss Perky headmaster daughter.

She couldn't let that happen to him. It was just wrong, Sebastian was one of the best players of their time and school. He couldn't throw all that away. He couldn't be satisfied with Annette could he?

She decided to buy the dress. Hopefully it'd turn his head in the right direction. Unless 'love' was all over his mind and heart. Disgusting.

She walked to the counter and paid for the dress and some new lacy underwear. Sebastian would love it and maybe he'd get the chance to see it.

As she walked out of the store she gasped. What was this? What was wrong with her? Why was she obsessing over him?

So he wanted to get it on with a prude virgin, that was his problems and his mistakes. But still it hurt in her and that was bad. That proved she was weak and she wasn't weak. She wasn't.

She felt that she was breathing harder when she felt worried. She wasn't weak. Damn him, damn him and his stupid feelings and getting under her skin.

She had to get him out of her head. She had to get him out of her skin. She had to get him out of her heart.

She picked up her cell phone and called Ronald. She'd prove to Sebastian that she didn't need or want him.

*******'

Sebastian was wiping his eyes. What was wrong with him? Why was he shaking and all upset over this. He didn't really love Annette.

Sure she was sweet and innocent but that wasn't his ride. He was a 'bad boy' so to speak. And as Kathryn earlier had pointed out - he had a reputation to look after.

If he didn't break Annette's heart now he would later on and then she'd take it even harder. Not that he really cared, he just kind of wanted to spare her feelings.

'What's wrong you puss? You care and you know it' He thought but shook his head. 'I don't care, I don't care about anybody' another part of his brain told him.

He felt so torn. Torn in his head but also torn between Kathryn and Annette. He loved them both, and he didn't know whom to choose.

Kathryn was all he'd ever wanted, but she'd also been in his life several years and off what he'd seen so far she'd never give herself to him. She was like a block of ice most days but with a fire burning on the inside. Yet he hadn't been able to melt the blocks of ice surrounding her yet and who knew if he ever would.

Annette was sweet and would stay faithful. Although she'd probably expect the same from him. And she probably was more vanilla then kinks. Boring thought. But the only thing that surrounded her heart was love for him.

The choice should be simple but it wasn't. It was anything but.

He sat down on a bench in Central Park. He just realised that he'd already made his choice. He'd broke Annette's heart. And all those tears, God it hadn't been fun to watch.

He sighed and rubbed his hands over his face. He could hardly get it but she was out of his life now. She would never come back.

He straightened his back. He didn't feel so bad about it even. She was out of his system and now he could go home and fuck Kathryn's brains out. He grinned a little. She'd probably set up some sort of obstacle but he would take care of that.

It was probably Ronald. He picked up his cell phone and started to dial the guy's number. Tonight he'd get Kathryn.

********'

Kathryn walked into her room with self assured steps and walked directly over to the phone to call Ronald. She flinched when she saw a dark figure in the corner. Then she saw it was Sebastian and put down the receiver.

"Jesus...a little over dramatic, don't you think?"

"I thought you'd like to know what happened between Annette and I." Her step brother replied gloomy.

Kathryn didn't say anything. But her whole body language screamed: 'yes! I do want to know'

Sebastian took off his sunglasses. "It's over."

"Really?" Kathryn wasn't sure whether to believe him or not.

"You were right." Sebastian admitted. "I can't change. You and I are two of a kind" He held up a champagne bottle. "I thought we should celebrate."

Kathryn paced over to her bed, her arms folded across her chest. She didn't want to want him - but she did.

"I'd love to. But unfortunately I'm expecting someone." She said cold.

Sebastian's jaw tensed up. "Who? Ronald?"

Kathryn was satisfied when she saw his jealous eyes. "Not that it's any of your business but - yes."

Sebastian pulled out a letter from his pocket with a quick smile.

"From Ronald." He stated. "I haven't had a chance to read it yet but I'm pretty sure it goes something yadi yadi yada... you mean a lot to me, let's just be friends." He started to pour champagne in glasses. "See I expected your little bullshit and I took the liberty and arranged a little get together between Cecile and Ronald. You're right, you do get dumped for the innocent little twits."

Kathryn swallowed hard. "Well done." She said. She had to be strong now, she'd have to do this. If she didn't do it know she never would. She had to be strong, she had to do it.

"Thank you." Sebastian said completely unaware of what was running through her mind. He walked over to her with the glasses in his hands. "Now where were we? Oh yes, the celebration." He gave Kathryn a glass and she took it fixating him with her eyes.

"What should we toast to?" Sebastian asked with a smile.

"My triumph."

He looked surprised. "Not my choice of toast but it's up to you. To your triumph over Annette." He said and swept the content of his glass.

Kathryn started to giggle. It was now or never.

"What's so funny?" Sebastian asked as he swallowed his champagne.

"You silly rabbit. My triumph isn't over Annette." Kathryn said as she walked over to a couch and sat down looking unattainable. "It's over you."

Sebastian didn't understand. "Come again?"

Kathryn began her speech. "You were very much in love with her. And you still are. But it amused me to make you ashamed of it. You gave up the first person you ever loved because I threatened your reputation. Don't you get it?" She asked like he was stupid. "You're just a toy Sebastian."

Her stepbrother swallowed hard and she continued. "A little toy I like to play with. And now you've completely blown it with her. I think it's the saddest thing I've ever heard." She looked at her glass and then him. "Cheers." She said and sipped some champagne.

"Tastes good." She stood up and walked closer to Sebastian as a tear appeared in his eye. "So I assume you've come here to make some arrangements but unfortunately ...I don't fuck losers."

Sebastian took some seconds to gather himself before he just left her room without a word. Kathryn felt it like the edge of a knife went right through her when the door slammed behind him.

"Goodbye Sebastian." She whispered and wondered if she'd done the right thing. Now he couldn't get into her heart ever again. He wouldn't want to. She wasn't weak and she'd proved it to them both.

*******'

Sebastian was in rage, anger and sadness all at once. He didn't know what to do with himself. He tried to call Annette several times but he never but his heart in it really. But he kept trying. He hoped that Kathryn heard him try.

He wasn't a loser. He hadn't lost Annette, not yet. 'God damn Kathryn. Why did you do this to me?' He wondered when he opened yet another pack of cigarettes and lighted on before he decided he'd go to Annette's house.

She loved him, she'd take him back. He took his journal with him and hurried out. He felt like he was fighting time. Like it was a matter of life and death.

As he rushed through the streets of New York, they all went by in a blur; he suddenly stopped right on a sidewalk. A man bumped into him and cursed at him but Sebastian didn't care.

A light kind of appeared for him. Why hadn't he realised before? Kathryn, she was just playing her stupid mind games again. Thinking back he could remember the pain in her eyes.

She'd done the final thing to push him away. And she'd never go through that much trouble if she didn't really have feelings for him. He knew her. She thought feelings made her weak.

He quickly turned around and started to head back to her. Annette - what did he care? He could feel it in his hear, he belonged to Kathryn. They were two of a kind, and she'd said it herself.

He quickened his pace. That cold, cold bitch - he'd melt her down. He'd get her to admit that she truly loved him. He knew he could, if he couldn't then no one ever could.