Emma's POV

I'm sitting here twirling my hair with a pencil thinking of the right words to say, nothing is coming out right. I want to make it sound like my talk with Sean, was a pleasant talk, and that we're best friends again, but truthfully I don't know if that will ever happen. As much as I'm wishing I could, I can't forgive him. Everything he does, makes me flip out. He must be truly sorry, he has to be! Why can't I believe him? Why? I just wish I could, I mean, seriously, I don't know what to do. I miss him, yet I feel like I hate him.

I think I'm going to talk to Mom, she might know the answer, doubt it; I don't think anyone has the answers for me. I talked to Craig tonight, I was sitting out, thinking and he came up to me.

" Emma, can you forgive me?" He asked quietly and sat down next to me.

" I should be asking the same thing." I said. He smiled.

" Nah," Craig said and laughed. "But hey, we need to talk."

" Oh no, I don't think I can handle talking anymore." I said.

" And it's about you and Sean." Craig hinted at me. I remember my stomach aching, because I knew Craig knew something was up.

" Like what?" I innocently asked.

" Like you two fighting." Craig said and looked over at me, I started getting lost in his eyes.

" Kiss me." I blurted out. Craig looked at me shocked.

" Em, that isn't such a great idea. I mean, Sean is my best friend and likes you, Manny is your best friend and she likes me, and I kind of like her." Craig started. I don't know what got into me, I leaned in and kissed Craig on the lips. It was so out of character for me, but I couldn't help it. He was just sitting there, looking so cute, and I couldn't handle it anymore. I pulled away quickly after kissing him.

" I'm so sorry." I said stumbling over my words.

" No, no, it's okay." Craig mumbled, he put his hand around the back of my head and gently pulled me in, kissing me. He pulled away that time, like he was really indecisive about the whole thing. "You know Sean should be here soon."

" Why?" I asked.

" Because, I was suppose to talk to you, and then he'd come to apologize. I can't let him catch me kissing you." Craig said.

" You are so sweet." I said my heart fluttering. "You took Joey's car out for a ride, you should know how to take a risk."

" Emma, what has gotten into you?" Craig asked in disbelief.

" I don't know," I shamefully admitted.

" Don't be ashamed, I like it." Craig said with a smile and leaned in and kissed me. We stayed kissing for what seemed like forever, my palms were sweating, I was shaking, and my heart was pounding.

"Craig, Emma?" I heard someone say. I broke away, and saw Sean standing there, looking so hurt.

" Dude, Sean." Was all Craig could get out of his mouth,

" What the hell are you two doing? I ask you for a favor and you make out with Emma?" Sean asked shouting and moving his arms around. He was flipping out. "Emma, I may have pushed you. I may have been rude this morning, but I never once kissed your damn best friend!"

" We're not going out Sean." I said, I wanted to cry, I felt so horrible, how could I do something like this to Sean? I stilled liked him, but I couldn't help it if I liked Craig too? What was I suppose to do?

" You know what?" Sean asked laughing. He was laughing like he was using every muscle in his body not to cry. "You're right! Do you want to know another thing Emma?"

" What?' I asked, feeling hot tears run down my face. I couldn't believe what I had just done. I had ripped Sean's whole heart in half, all because I couldn't resist Craig and kissing him.

" We'll never go out, never, ever, ever. Because I'm through with all this shit! I'm through! Bye Emma, bye Craig." Sean shouted, his face was bright red, and he went storming away. I looked over at Craig. His face was in shock. I stood up and went running inside.

Yep, that's what happened tonight. I don't know what's been wrong with me. I've been so edgy lately. who knows? Well, I've ruined my relationship with Sean, I might have ruined it with Craig, and for all I know, I ruined it with Manny if she ever finds out. Also in this whole night, I've turned my life into a daytime soap opera. What is wrong with me? I think I'm going to re-name this journal to, The Days of Emma's Life. That's sounds like it should fit me perfectly.

And now, I'm going to wallow to my Mom, think of what to say to Craig tomorrow. And figure out the best way to apologize to Sean.

*sigh*

Goodnight from The Days of Emma's Life

Emma



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Sorry I haven't updated since forever, I don't know why, but I've been SO busy. Lol, once again a sorry ass excuse, but it's true. Plus, December 3, 4, 5, 7, 8, and 9 I'll be in Rhode Island, (it's funny, I'll be home the 6th and then go back up the next day, lol) cuz the 4 my Dad has testing, and the 9 my Dad is having surgery. Lol. I know Emma is so OOC, sorry!

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