Emma's POV
Diary,
I'm sitting here in the hospital waiting room, praying for a miracle. Just praying. I went to see Sean today; he was still in a coma. It was just as I pictured. Sean, beautiful Sean was lying in a bed with every sort of machine you can imagine hooked up to his body. He looks.horrible, yet in a strange morbid way he looks beautiful. I wish his eyes were open, he has such pretty eyes. Oh Gosh, I feel like Poe, writing about how beautiful my love looks even though he's dying.
You heard me.dying. The doctors are trying EVERYTHING they can, but there looks like there is no hope left for Sean. He's in surgery now as I write this; they are trying to stop the bleeding. He was in surgery yesterday (I found out today) they were working on his spinal cord. The doctors said they will try their hardest to help him but it doesn't look good. when a doctor says it doesn't look good, I think its over.
His brother was in tears today. Tracker had his head in his mother's lap crying like a child, as his mother held a tissue to her face and sobbed. Sean's mother is beautiful, but knowing how much she has screwed up Sean's life makes her unbeautiful. Of course maybe she feels the same about me, I'm not sure if she knows I'm the reason Sean was hit with a car. my stomach is churning 24/7 I cant eat without throwing up, I cant talk to anyone without sobbing. I love him! I love him so much I feel as if I could die for him, I wish I were dead! I wish the car had hit me! Sean wouldn't be in so much pain, oh gosh I hadn't even thought of that. I wonder what Sean is going through now; I wonder if he knows what's going on, I want to know!
Well anyways back to visiting Sean today. I talked to him, I apologized, I sobbed as I held his hand. I told him I loved him, his face just stayed the same, his face just stood still, his eyes shut, the respirator breathing for him. I kneeled on the ground and leaned my head against the bar of the bed holding his hands and cried like a child. I told him how much I loved him and how sorry I was as I sobbed. Finally my Mom and a doctor came in and took me away because they had to prep him for surgery.
Mom and I have been sitting here for five hours now, I've eaten so many candy bars and I've drank so many ice teas it's unbelievable. I wont go to the cafeteria in case the doctor comes out with some news. So the two vending machines here in the waiting room are my source of food.
Someone is over talking to Tracker and his Mom, it looks like a doctor. I just asked Mom, she told me it is a doctor. I'm watching them intently, and trying to write this.
Tracker just smiled, his face beamed, so did Sean's mother. Oh no, Sean's Mom is crying. Tracker just motioned me over, I don't want to go over, they are sobbing, oh no, what if Sean is dead? Oh no. Mom nudged me. I have to go. please don't let Sean be dead.
Quick Love,
Emma
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Just thought you all should know that there will be about two more chapters. I still don't know what I'm going to do with Sean's fate. So, inadvance, don't hate me if Sean dies. please? Lol. Even though I still have no idea what will happen. But even though this story is ending, I will be writing more fics for Degrassi and I hope you read!
REVIEW REPLIES-
indecisivepunk- Thank you. I'm glad you like it.
Dark stranger- Thanks! I'll see if I can leave you a thread? K? Thanks for telling me and thanks for reviewing!
Starlight4u- Ah! Don't cry! I'll feel bad! Lucky you being able to read a great fic like mine (haha, yeah right) during school hours. Half the sites on the Internet I cant get on to from my school. URGH! So, what's your avatar name?
Elissa- Lucky you! I wrote more! Lol. jk. Thanks for reading, I'm glad you enjoy my story!
Diary,
I'm sitting here in the hospital waiting room, praying for a miracle. Just praying. I went to see Sean today; he was still in a coma. It was just as I pictured. Sean, beautiful Sean was lying in a bed with every sort of machine you can imagine hooked up to his body. He looks.horrible, yet in a strange morbid way he looks beautiful. I wish his eyes were open, he has such pretty eyes. Oh Gosh, I feel like Poe, writing about how beautiful my love looks even though he's dying.
You heard me.dying. The doctors are trying EVERYTHING they can, but there looks like there is no hope left for Sean. He's in surgery now as I write this; they are trying to stop the bleeding. He was in surgery yesterday (I found out today) they were working on his spinal cord. The doctors said they will try their hardest to help him but it doesn't look good. when a doctor says it doesn't look good, I think its over.
His brother was in tears today. Tracker had his head in his mother's lap crying like a child, as his mother held a tissue to her face and sobbed. Sean's mother is beautiful, but knowing how much she has screwed up Sean's life makes her unbeautiful. Of course maybe she feels the same about me, I'm not sure if she knows I'm the reason Sean was hit with a car. my stomach is churning 24/7 I cant eat without throwing up, I cant talk to anyone without sobbing. I love him! I love him so much I feel as if I could die for him, I wish I were dead! I wish the car had hit me! Sean wouldn't be in so much pain, oh gosh I hadn't even thought of that. I wonder what Sean is going through now; I wonder if he knows what's going on, I want to know!
Well anyways back to visiting Sean today. I talked to him, I apologized, I sobbed as I held his hand. I told him I loved him, his face just stayed the same, his face just stood still, his eyes shut, the respirator breathing for him. I kneeled on the ground and leaned my head against the bar of the bed holding his hands and cried like a child. I told him how much I loved him and how sorry I was as I sobbed. Finally my Mom and a doctor came in and took me away because they had to prep him for surgery.
Mom and I have been sitting here for five hours now, I've eaten so many candy bars and I've drank so many ice teas it's unbelievable. I wont go to the cafeteria in case the doctor comes out with some news. So the two vending machines here in the waiting room are my source of food.
Someone is over talking to Tracker and his Mom, it looks like a doctor. I just asked Mom, she told me it is a doctor. I'm watching them intently, and trying to write this.
Tracker just smiled, his face beamed, so did Sean's mother. Oh no, Sean's Mom is crying. Tracker just motioned me over, I don't want to go over, they are sobbing, oh no, what if Sean is dead? Oh no. Mom nudged me. I have to go. please don't let Sean be dead.
Quick Love,
Emma
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Just thought you all should know that there will be about two more chapters. I still don't know what I'm going to do with Sean's fate. So, inadvance, don't hate me if Sean dies. please? Lol. Even though I still have no idea what will happen. But even though this story is ending, I will be writing more fics for Degrassi and I hope you read!
REVIEW REPLIES-
indecisivepunk- Thank you. I'm glad you like it.
Dark stranger- Thanks! I'll see if I can leave you a thread? K? Thanks for telling me and thanks for reviewing!
Starlight4u- Ah! Don't cry! I'll feel bad! Lucky you being able to read a great fic like mine (haha, yeah right) during school hours. Half the sites on the Internet I cant get on to from my school. URGH! So, what's your avatar name?
Elissa- Lucky you! I wrote more! Lol. jk. Thanks for reading, I'm glad you enjoy my story!
