I Don't Want To Be Alone Anymore
By AnimaeChina
Chapter 1
"It's a raining, but the weatherman said it was going to be sunny." Midii Une thought looking for refuge. "The weatherman is usually right, but why is he wrong today? Does it mean that something bad is going to happen?" Midii caught sight of a circus tent and went inside. "I hope the owners don't mind me walking in like this. I think they'll understand, anyway it's temporary."
Midii looked around the tent; animals inside cages surrounded her. Not faraway she heard cheering and applauding.
"Someone is performing right now." Midii said softly. She walked around a little bit more amazed at the collection of animals. One animal however, made her walk to its cage, the lion. Something about the lion reminded her of something.
"Why do you seem so familiar? It's seems like I met you before or I met someone like you." She muttered. The lion walked up to her, Midii wasn't afraid she was transfixed but it's eyes.
"Your eyes...." She began but then shut her mouth and automatically she began stroking the lion. The lion in response growled softly.
Midii smiled at the lion, "Yeah, you like that don't you, boy." The lion growled a little louder. Midii giggled at the lion and sneezed.
"Heh, the stupid rain made me sick." Midii murmured. "That what keep me from petting you though." She told the lion cheerfully and sneezed again.
"Excuse me miss, what are you doing here?" A deep soft voice said making Midii jump. Midii pushed some strands of pale blond hair out of her face and started walking away slowly, backwards shivering in her light blue cotton dress and cardigan.
"I'm really sorry, sir. It's raining and I need to find a place to keep myself from getting wet." Midii explained slowly turning her head toward the voice. Before she was going to talk anymore she was staring wide eyed at a young man in a clown costume wearing half a mask.
There was silence between them for a couple of minutes. They both looked like they've seen some kind of ghost from their past coming back to haunt them.
"Nanashi." She said slowly breaking the silence.
"Midii." Nanashi said softly. Midii began to wobble and her eyes were getting hazy.
"Nanashi~~" She said again hoarsely and fainted.
"Midii!" Nanashi cried in alarm. Midii blacked out when Nanashi caught her.
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A couple of hours later....
Midii woke up in a room unfamiliar to her and looked around groggily. She saw a woman with wavy red hair sitting on a couch watching TV.
"How long have I been sleeping?" Midii asked.
The redhead turned around and said for a couple of hours.
"I hope if you don't mind me asking but what is your name?" Midii asked.
"My name is Catherine Bloom." Catherine answered, "Could you tell me yours?" She asked right after.
"Midii Une." Midii replied. "Um.... could you tell me where Nanashi went?"
"Nanashi?" Catherine said puzzled. After some thought it hit her, "You must mean Trowa! I`ll call him over here."
"Y-you really don't have to do that." Midii protested but she was too late.
"Trowa! Midii has woken up!" Catherine yelled and walked out the door. Midii's heart began to beat wildly and she tightened the grip on the blanket. While waiting for Trowa she stared at the entrance and began thinking.
"Nanashi--no Trowa it's been eight years since we've seen each other. Do you want to see me as much as I want to see you? I hope you don't think that I hate when I really do love you. I still love you and it has made my heart ache for eight years because I didn't know where you went." Midii brought her right hand to heart. "I wanted to see your face everyday and wanted you hold me in a long embrace. The most important thing is that I wanted you to smile at me with love." Then she brought both of her hands with to her face trying not to cry. "My one true wish is not to be alone anymore. After I came home I slowly began to get lonely seeing my family die slowly one by one. I wondered if you survived somehow during the war. Now I know you did survive and you have people surrounding you. Isn't it ironic you said before you left that I had somewhere to go back to but now I don't. I'm so lonely without you it's been so hard not to cry everyday. I now understand why you wear a mask." Midii brought her knees to her chest and looked down at the sheet.
When Trowa was walking to Midii's room he was also thinking.
"This is strange, I'm finally going to see Midii after eight years. I wonder if she felt lonely the way I did for so long. I envy her in a way, she knows who she is and I still don't. I guess she was right and I was wrong, we aren't the same after all." Trowa finally entered the room and was surprised to see her in the position that she was in.
"Midii?" He said concerned. Midii turned her head slowly and looked at Trowa with sad eyes and a small smile. Trowa not effected by this walked to her and put his right hand to her forehead. "Do you feel better?" He asked.
"A little." Midii lied.
"You feel really hot though. Are you sure you're alright?" Trowa questioned.
"Actually I feel really cold." Midii shivered putting her arms around her trying to warm herself up.
Trowa leaned forward concerned staring intently at her with his dark emerald green eyes. He took the sheet and made lean against the wall and covered her with it. Midii stared at Trowa directly in his eyes.
"C-could you please hold me?" Midii asked timidly shivering harder. Trowa immediately embraced her without any question. Midii relaxed her head and most of her upper body against Trowa's chest. Midii put her ear directly on the spot where Trowa's hert was and listened to his steady heart beat. Each time she heard his heart beat she became warmer. "I don't want this moment to ever end." Midii thought happily.
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Then the inevitable happened Catherine knocked on the door frame and said cheerfully, "I brought some soup!" Trowa and Midii both stiffened and broke the embrace. Catherine left the soup and thermomether on a table, "I'll just leave this here to leave you two alone." As soon as Catherine left Trowa picked the bowl up immediately and brought it over to Midii.
"Let me feed you."
"Okay."
After feeding a couple of spoonfulls of soup to Midii he asked, "So what have you been doing?"
"I'm going to college now and I work part time at a resturant."
After a couple of more spoonfulls she asked curiously, "How did you end up working in this circus?"
Trowa told her everything from when he left her to the part about working with the Preventers with the other Gundam Pilots. Midii listened to every single word while eating soup. Trowa sort of surprised at himself for telling her so much.
"You must be really greatful to have a family now and friends like the Gundam Pilots." Midii commented. "You really deserve it after all the work you've done."
"Did you still continue to become a spy for the Alliance?" Trowa asked. Midii nodded at him shamefully.
"That was the only way I could help support my family." She mumbled. "I stopped after the Eve Wars because that's when my whole family died."
"I'm sorry."
"That's okay, it's not your fault. However I did cry very hard each time they died."
Trowa put the bowl away and held one of her hands. Midii gripped on to Trowa's hand very tightly but not enough to hurt.
"I think I did deserve to be sad after what I did to you." Midii said in a low voice trembling. "I have no family right now but you have a family and friends." Midii then began to break down. Trowa embraced her again trying to calm her down by stroking her hair.
"Shh." He whispered. "It's alright, go ahead and cry." he crooned holding Midii's body racking with sobs.
About twenty or thirty minutes later Midii stopped and Trowa slowly let go of her.
"I'm sorry that I cried. I didn't want you to see me again like this. I thank you, though for comforting me, from the bottom of my heart." Midii said thoughtfully. Trowa gave Midii a small smile in return and Midii smiled back.
"Go back to bed. You'll probably be better tomorrow." Midii did what he was told and fell asleep right away. Trowa smiled again and felt her forehead again before walking away, tentatively kissed her forhead. Trowa picked up the bowl and looked at the thermomether.
"Hn, I forgot to check her temperature. I'll do it later."
Author's Notes: So how do you like the first chapter of I Don't Want To Be Alone Anymore? I know the name is long but I couldn't really think of anything else. This is my first New Mobile Suit Gundam Wing fanfic. If you feel like e-mailing me e-mail me at SailorPeace_musi@hotmail.com I know the address is weird too but I couldn't think of anything else at that time either. *sigh* I feel like I could of done better on this fic. Chapter 2 will come soon!
