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*~~~*~~~*~~~* Chapter 6 She shut the world out! *~~~*~~~*~~~*
"Lily?" the shadow said "Are you awake? Lily?" The shadow came forward. It lit it's wand.
"James?' I croaked, it was still almost impossible to talk.
He walked over and kissed me. Then he sat down in the chair next to my bed.
"I was kinda hoping you forgot about the stag thing, but I guess you didn't. I'm going to tell you everything, but you can't tell anyone."
I nodded and he began to tell the whole story.
"It all started with Remus, and his disappearances. I'm sure you've noticed them. Remus is er ummmm he's a werewolf. We found out around middle of second year. We also promised not to tell. That's why I didn't tell you." I nodded. My thoughts went back to the conversation I over heard "Then Sirius had the brilliant idea to help Remus, we would transform with him, we would become Animagi. That's why we were in the library so much. We finally figured out how to do it this year. I did it first. I can transform into a stag whenever I want."
He transformed just a McGonagall had done on our first day of classes. He ran around the room, and then changed back.
"It didn't take Sirius long after I figured out, but Peter was another story. It took him a full two months extra to learn. I'm a stag, Sirius is a dog and Peter is a rat. So now when Madam Pomfrey takes Remus out to the whomping willow we fallow. He goes inside it, and then takes the path to the shrieking shack where he transforms. Then we transform and go into the shrieking shack after him. And we keep him company. Are you o.k. with this? Can I trust you not to tell anyone? Even Elizabeth and Layla?"
I nodded three times. He smiled and said
"Don't mention to the guys that I told you, they'd kill me." I nodded once more. "I've got to get back, Madam Pomfrey would throw a hissy fit if she knew I was up here." He kissed me and left.
So now I knew everything. Remus was a good guy, I would have never guessed he was a werewolf, but I was o.k. with it. I would keep my promise and not tell. I wondered if Sirius had told Elizabeth?
I was in the hospital wing until lunch the next day. When Madam Pomfrey let me out, I could talk again! I went down to the great hall and took a seat next to James. I smiled and began to talk to Elizabeth and Layla completely staying off the subject of anything related to what had happened. They weren't very interested in it anyway James had already told them the fake story. I didn't want to confuse them.
The rest of my forth year was uneventful. I went home during the summer and stayed the whole time. Mom loved the magic candy I sent her. Petunia had refused to eat any. She hated anything to do with magic. My mother and I were now closer. Petunia and I were growing farther apart.
On my 15th birthday I received a lot of owls from all my friends. Petunia had locked herself in her room in fear of them. James's present was once again by far the best. I was a picture frame outlined with hearts. When you touched the big heart at the top it changed the picture inside. Most of them were of James and I but there were a couple group pictures. The pictures made me homesick. Even though this was my home, Hogwarts was my true home.
When I got my Hogwarts letter this year, there was a package enclosed. They had made me a prefect. I pulled out my new and shiny prefect badge, and pinned it on my Hogwarts robes. I would get to use the prefect bathroom! Supposedly the bath tub was the size of a pool!
I was back at Hogwarts, I was back at home. On the train James's had scared me to death! I walked up kissed me and then I noticed a shiny silver prefect badge on his robes!
"James go give it back now!"
"But Lily....."
"James if it had been mine I'd be mad"
"But Lily it's mine!"
I started to laugh! "Dumbledore made you a prefect? Why? Your always causing trouble and in detention! Why in the world would he make you a prefect!"
"Well thanks a lot!"
"James I didn't mean it like that!"
"I know you didn't, Sirius thought it was funny too! I personally don't know why he did it either. The guys are
really happy though they think they'll get away with practically everything now."
I laughed and we walked into the prefect car on the train.
Fifth year was going fast! I had O.W.L.S. coming up and I was studying like crazy. I decided to stay at Hogwarts for Christmas to get some extra studying done. James and Elizabeth were staying too. Everyone else was going home. On Christmas I woke up everything was perfect there was a pile of presents under the tree, from James, Elizabeth, Mom, Sirius and my other friends. I had opened my package from home and was about to start on James's present when Professor McGonagall came into our dorm. "Girls you better come with me." Elizabeth and I obediently followed her. She walked us out into the common room where James was. James smiled at me but McGonagall kept walking so I walked to. She led us to Dumbledore's office. Dumbledore was sitting in his chair behind his desk.
"Merry Christmas Professor" I said
"I wish it was, girls I'm afraid I have some bad news. Voldermort has attacked again. This time it was the Davy house. I'm afraid Ms. Dawn was in the house at the time of the attack, she her brother and her parents are, er dead."
I looked at Elizabeth my eyes were filling with tears. Layla was dead. Layla was sweet, shy, kind and even a pureblood. She was dead. Elizabeth was sobbing, I was crying harder than I ever had. I didn't believe Layla was dead! Layla couldn't be dead! No! This is a dream! Layla isn't dead she can't be dead!
Professor McGonagall walked us back to our room. I stayed in there all day. I didn't want to come out! I could never come out! Elizabeth jumped into her bed and pulled the covers over her head and sobbed all day. With tears pouring down my face I walked over to my pile of presents and pulled out the one from Layla. I giant tear fell down my face as I unwrapped it. It was a picture of us at her house last summer. She was dead, and I was here. I walked over to my bed hugged the picture and cried myself to sleep.
When I woke up, I figured it was all a nightmare. Then I looked down at the picture. It was real! It was awful. Layla was dead. Elizabeth was still asleep. I couldn't sleep anymore, one of my very best friends was dead! Her cute and adorable brother Bryan was dead. Mr. and Mrs. Dawn had been so nice to me and now they were gone too. Next to my bed was a pile of letters. Rosie must have been here, I recognized James's, Sirius's, Joann's, and Nicole's handwritings. They were probably sympathy cards, or whatever wizards sent people who had lost someone. Layla was only 15 she didn't deserve to die. She had so much more to do. It was Voldermort's fault that Layla was gone and Voldemort's fault that James's parents were dead. Voldemort was the scum of the earth.
I looked over at Elizabeth, she was moving. She pulled the covers off of her head and spoke
"What are we going to do without her?"
Then she burst into tears and went under the covers again. I went over to my table and put the picture of Layla and me on it. This was where I kept all my pictures even the muggle ones. There was the heart framed "change a picture" that James had given me, a few of my dad and me, and some picture of my muggle friends who I rarely spoke to. I touched the heart on the frame until it came to a group picture; Layla was standing next to me laughing her head off. I smiled. That was the first time I had smiled in a while, but then the thought that she was dead came rushing back into me, and I started to cry.
Our meals were brought up to us. I guess they figured we didn't want to come out. They looked delicious, but I wasn't hungry. I don't think Elizabeth was either. Both meals went untouched.
I came out for her funeral which was three days after Christmas. Elizabeth and I got out of bed, did our hair, and put on black dress robes. I was going to my best friend's funeral. I hadn't done anything so hard since my father's. We walked out of the dorm. James was there, he look relieved to see me. He began to walk out of the common room I couldn't move.
"I can't do this"
"Lily you can" he said
"James I can't"
He frowned.
"Lily I couldn't bring myself to go to my parents funeral, remember? I shut myself up in that room for a week! I regret not going. I don't want you to regret not to this. You need to say good-bye."
He was right, he was always right. I nodded and walked out the door.
I caught up with Elizabeth, she was stalled in front of the door.
"I can't go in" she mumbled
"If I can you can" I mumbled back
I walked in. I immediately saw Joann, Nicole, Sirius, and Remus. They came up to me, but I didn't want to talk to them. So I dogded then and made my way to Layla's coffin. She had a look of pure terror on her face. When people die from illness or old age they have a look of peace, but since she was murdered by Voldemort her look was terror.
Dumbledore preformed the ceremony for the Dawns. I cried the whole time. Elizabeth did too. Most everyone did. After the ceremony I went back up to my room and cried and cried and cried.
I stayed in my room until the end of Christmas break. When I came out, I still wasn't myself and I wouldn't be for awhile. I buried myself in my studies. I didn't talk to anyone. I blocked everyone out of my life, even Elizabeth and James. James took this very hard. To him it was like being dumped. I guess I did dump him, although it was never official. He started pulling more pranks and getting into more trouble, he was getting careless with his pranks too, he was getting caught. Elizabeth was doing the exact opposite of me. She was becoming closer with Nikki and Joann. She was smart and didn't cut herself off from the world. At the time I had the strange idea that if I didn't get close to anyone , I wouldn't go through the pain if and when they died. I didn't realize what I was doing to myself. Even more odd, I didn't know I was miserable.
James started dating other girls. He didn't really hit it off with any of them except for Lisa Habinaro. She was a Ravenclaw perfect. She had long blond hair and a temper. How he put up with her I never knew, but I couldn't stand her.
It wasn't until that May after I took my O.W.L.S. That I snapped out of it. I had walked over to my picture table and began putting the the pictures face down. I stopped at the picture Layla had given me for Christmas. I couldn't put it down. There we were smiling and waving. Layla wouldn't want me to be like this. Layla would want me to be happy. She would want James and I in love, not apart. She knew from the beginning that James liked me. Maybe James even loved me at one point. I had thrown it all away. I was an Idiot. I had to fix it, but James didn't need me anymore he had Lisa. Lisa, Lisa, Lisa! O.k. so maybe I couldn't get James back, but maybe Elizabeth?
I started eating lunch with the girls again instead of off by myself. Elizabeth was happy to have me back. She was skeptical at first, but she eventually grew to trust me again. She was lucky. Sirius and Elizabeth were in love. Elizabeth was constantly floating on a cloud and I was jealous. She had what I had thrown away. She had love.
By the time my fifth year was over Elizabeth and I were just as close as before, maybe even closer. James and I on the other hand were still distant.
I went home for the summer. Elizabeth was constantly sending owls, and I was grateful! My mother was sick and wasn't much company, and I could barely stand to stay in the same room as Petunia let alone carry an interesting conversation with her.
I went to Diagon Alley to pick up the things I would need for my sixth year. I needed new robes, and a few books. In the robe shop I ran into the last person I would ever want to talk to, Lisa. The lady sat me in the chair next Lisa, and Lisa began to talk.
"Oh, Hi Lily! Jamesi and I were just talking about you the other day. You are such an idiot you know. James is cute, sweet, funny. I don't see why you ever let him go!"
She babbled on for a while about how much they were in love and other things. She called me an idiot a few more times, and like an idiot I stood there and took it. When I had my new robes I left, and headed to Flourish and Blots. I saw Nikki and Joann they were getting their books too. I needed the Standard book of spells level six, and advanced tranfigureation. I got my books, and then Nikki, Joann, and I decided we wanted Ice Cream. We went to the ice Cream shop, where we ran into Elizabeth and Sirius. I wanted to go over so bad, but I couldn't. Sirius hated me. He still hadn't forgiven me for what I put James through. None of James's friends liked me anymore. Elizabeth waved us over so I thought I was o.k. Then I saw the look of disgust Sirius had on his face. I started to turn around but Joann stopped me. She was right. I had to try.
"Hi Elizabeth, Hi Sirius"
"Hello Lily Pad, done anything stupid lately?" Sirius practically growled it. I knew I wasn't welcome so I got up to leave. Joann and Nikki followed. As I walked away I heard Elizabeth yelling at Sirius.
"Oh my God! Why in the world, she's trying to make up for what she did and all you can do is................." I couldn't hear anymore after that.
We started walking down Diagon Alley, when I saw something that made me sick! Lisa and James were making-out on a bench in front of flourish and Blotts. My heart shattered into a thousand pieces. I still loved James, but it was obvious that he didn't love me. If he did he wouldn't be making out with that slut. We shopped around for awhile, and then I entered back into the muggle world.
END OF CHAPTER 6!!!!
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Love always!
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Dedication- This is dedicated to my fellow angels! Who will never see this!
*~~~*~~~*~~~* Chapter 6 She shut the world out! *~~~*~~~*~~~*
"Lily?" the shadow said "Are you awake? Lily?" The shadow came forward. It lit it's wand.
"James?' I croaked, it was still almost impossible to talk.
He walked over and kissed me. Then he sat down in the chair next to my bed.
"I was kinda hoping you forgot about the stag thing, but I guess you didn't. I'm going to tell you everything, but you can't tell anyone."
I nodded and he began to tell the whole story.
"It all started with Remus, and his disappearances. I'm sure you've noticed them. Remus is er ummmm he's a werewolf. We found out around middle of second year. We also promised not to tell. That's why I didn't tell you." I nodded. My thoughts went back to the conversation I over heard "Then Sirius had the brilliant idea to help Remus, we would transform with him, we would become Animagi. That's why we were in the library so much. We finally figured out how to do it this year. I did it first. I can transform into a stag whenever I want."
He transformed just a McGonagall had done on our first day of classes. He ran around the room, and then changed back.
"It didn't take Sirius long after I figured out, but Peter was another story. It took him a full two months extra to learn. I'm a stag, Sirius is a dog and Peter is a rat. So now when Madam Pomfrey takes Remus out to the whomping willow we fallow. He goes inside it, and then takes the path to the shrieking shack where he transforms. Then we transform and go into the shrieking shack after him. And we keep him company. Are you o.k. with this? Can I trust you not to tell anyone? Even Elizabeth and Layla?"
I nodded three times. He smiled and said
"Don't mention to the guys that I told you, they'd kill me." I nodded once more. "I've got to get back, Madam Pomfrey would throw a hissy fit if she knew I was up here." He kissed me and left.
So now I knew everything. Remus was a good guy, I would have never guessed he was a werewolf, but I was o.k. with it. I would keep my promise and not tell. I wondered if Sirius had told Elizabeth?
I was in the hospital wing until lunch the next day. When Madam Pomfrey let me out, I could talk again! I went down to the great hall and took a seat next to James. I smiled and began to talk to Elizabeth and Layla completely staying off the subject of anything related to what had happened. They weren't very interested in it anyway James had already told them the fake story. I didn't want to confuse them.
The rest of my forth year was uneventful. I went home during the summer and stayed the whole time. Mom loved the magic candy I sent her. Petunia had refused to eat any. She hated anything to do with magic. My mother and I were now closer. Petunia and I were growing farther apart.
On my 15th birthday I received a lot of owls from all my friends. Petunia had locked herself in her room in fear of them. James's present was once again by far the best. I was a picture frame outlined with hearts. When you touched the big heart at the top it changed the picture inside. Most of them were of James and I but there were a couple group pictures. The pictures made me homesick. Even though this was my home, Hogwarts was my true home.
When I got my Hogwarts letter this year, there was a package enclosed. They had made me a prefect. I pulled out my new and shiny prefect badge, and pinned it on my Hogwarts robes. I would get to use the prefect bathroom! Supposedly the bath tub was the size of a pool!
I was back at Hogwarts, I was back at home. On the train James's had scared me to death! I walked up kissed me and then I noticed a shiny silver prefect badge on his robes!
"James go give it back now!"
"But Lily....."
"James if it had been mine I'd be mad"
"But Lily it's mine!"
I started to laugh! "Dumbledore made you a prefect? Why? Your always causing trouble and in detention! Why in the world would he make you a prefect!"
"Well thanks a lot!"
"James I didn't mean it like that!"
"I know you didn't, Sirius thought it was funny too! I personally don't know why he did it either. The guys are
really happy though they think they'll get away with practically everything now."
I laughed and we walked into the prefect car on the train.
Fifth year was going fast! I had O.W.L.S. coming up and I was studying like crazy. I decided to stay at Hogwarts for Christmas to get some extra studying done. James and Elizabeth were staying too. Everyone else was going home. On Christmas I woke up everything was perfect there was a pile of presents under the tree, from James, Elizabeth, Mom, Sirius and my other friends. I had opened my package from home and was about to start on James's present when Professor McGonagall came into our dorm. "Girls you better come with me." Elizabeth and I obediently followed her. She walked us out into the common room where James was. James smiled at me but McGonagall kept walking so I walked to. She led us to Dumbledore's office. Dumbledore was sitting in his chair behind his desk.
"Merry Christmas Professor" I said
"I wish it was, girls I'm afraid I have some bad news. Voldermort has attacked again. This time it was the Davy house. I'm afraid Ms. Dawn was in the house at the time of the attack, she her brother and her parents are, er dead."
I looked at Elizabeth my eyes were filling with tears. Layla was dead. Layla was sweet, shy, kind and even a pureblood. She was dead. Elizabeth was sobbing, I was crying harder than I ever had. I didn't believe Layla was dead! Layla couldn't be dead! No! This is a dream! Layla isn't dead she can't be dead!
Professor McGonagall walked us back to our room. I stayed in there all day. I didn't want to come out! I could never come out! Elizabeth jumped into her bed and pulled the covers over her head and sobbed all day. With tears pouring down my face I walked over to my pile of presents and pulled out the one from Layla. I giant tear fell down my face as I unwrapped it. It was a picture of us at her house last summer. She was dead, and I was here. I walked over to my bed hugged the picture and cried myself to sleep.
When I woke up, I figured it was all a nightmare. Then I looked down at the picture. It was real! It was awful. Layla was dead. Elizabeth was still asleep. I couldn't sleep anymore, one of my very best friends was dead! Her cute and adorable brother Bryan was dead. Mr. and Mrs. Dawn had been so nice to me and now they were gone too. Next to my bed was a pile of letters. Rosie must have been here, I recognized James's, Sirius's, Joann's, and Nicole's handwritings. They were probably sympathy cards, or whatever wizards sent people who had lost someone. Layla was only 15 she didn't deserve to die. She had so much more to do. It was Voldermort's fault that Layla was gone and Voldemort's fault that James's parents were dead. Voldemort was the scum of the earth.
I looked over at Elizabeth, she was moving. She pulled the covers off of her head and spoke
"What are we going to do without her?"
Then she burst into tears and went under the covers again. I went over to my table and put the picture of Layla and me on it. This was where I kept all my pictures even the muggle ones. There was the heart framed "change a picture" that James had given me, a few of my dad and me, and some picture of my muggle friends who I rarely spoke to. I touched the heart on the frame until it came to a group picture; Layla was standing next to me laughing her head off. I smiled. That was the first time I had smiled in a while, but then the thought that she was dead came rushing back into me, and I started to cry.
Our meals were brought up to us. I guess they figured we didn't want to come out. They looked delicious, but I wasn't hungry. I don't think Elizabeth was either. Both meals went untouched.
I came out for her funeral which was three days after Christmas. Elizabeth and I got out of bed, did our hair, and put on black dress robes. I was going to my best friend's funeral. I hadn't done anything so hard since my father's. We walked out of the dorm. James was there, he look relieved to see me. He began to walk out of the common room I couldn't move.
"I can't do this"
"Lily you can" he said
"James I can't"
He frowned.
"Lily I couldn't bring myself to go to my parents funeral, remember? I shut myself up in that room for a week! I regret not going. I don't want you to regret not to this. You need to say good-bye."
He was right, he was always right. I nodded and walked out the door.
I caught up with Elizabeth, she was stalled in front of the door.
"I can't go in" she mumbled
"If I can you can" I mumbled back
I walked in. I immediately saw Joann, Nicole, Sirius, and Remus. They came up to me, but I didn't want to talk to them. So I dogded then and made my way to Layla's coffin. She had a look of pure terror on her face. When people die from illness or old age they have a look of peace, but since she was murdered by Voldemort her look was terror.
Dumbledore preformed the ceremony for the Dawns. I cried the whole time. Elizabeth did too. Most everyone did. After the ceremony I went back up to my room and cried and cried and cried.
I stayed in my room until the end of Christmas break. When I came out, I still wasn't myself and I wouldn't be for awhile. I buried myself in my studies. I didn't talk to anyone. I blocked everyone out of my life, even Elizabeth and James. James took this very hard. To him it was like being dumped. I guess I did dump him, although it was never official. He started pulling more pranks and getting into more trouble, he was getting careless with his pranks too, he was getting caught. Elizabeth was doing the exact opposite of me. She was becoming closer with Nikki and Joann. She was smart and didn't cut herself off from the world. At the time I had the strange idea that if I didn't get close to anyone , I wouldn't go through the pain if and when they died. I didn't realize what I was doing to myself. Even more odd, I didn't know I was miserable.
James started dating other girls. He didn't really hit it off with any of them except for Lisa Habinaro. She was a Ravenclaw perfect. She had long blond hair and a temper. How he put up with her I never knew, but I couldn't stand her.
It wasn't until that May after I took my O.W.L.S. That I snapped out of it. I had walked over to my picture table and began putting the the pictures face down. I stopped at the picture Layla had given me for Christmas. I couldn't put it down. There we were smiling and waving. Layla wouldn't want me to be like this. Layla would want me to be happy. She would want James and I in love, not apart. She knew from the beginning that James liked me. Maybe James even loved me at one point. I had thrown it all away. I was an Idiot. I had to fix it, but James didn't need me anymore he had Lisa. Lisa, Lisa, Lisa! O.k. so maybe I couldn't get James back, but maybe Elizabeth?
I started eating lunch with the girls again instead of off by myself. Elizabeth was happy to have me back. She was skeptical at first, but she eventually grew to trust me again. She was lucky. Sirius and Elizabeth were in love. Elizabeth was constantly floating on a cloud and I was jealous. She had what I had thrown away. She had love.
By the time my fifth year was over Elizabeth and I were just as close as before, maybe even closer. James and I on the other hand were still distant.
I went home for the summer. Elizabeth was constantly sending owls, and I was grateful! My mother was sick and wasn't much company, and I could barely stand to stay in the same room as Petunia let alone carry an interesting conversation with her.
I went to Diagon Alley to pick up the things I would need for my sixth year. I needed new robes, and a few books. In the robe shop I ran into the last person I would ever want to talk to, Lisa. The lady sat me in the chair next Lisa, and Lisa began to talk.
"Oh, Hi Lily! Jamesi and I were just talking about you the other day. You are such an idiot you know. James is cute, sweet, funny. I don't see why you ever let him go!"
She babbled on for a while about how much they were in love and other things. She called me an idiot a few more times, and like an idiot I stood there and took it. When I had my new robes I left, and headed to Flourish and Blots. I saw Nikki and Joann they were getting their books too. I needed the Standard book of spells level six, and advanced tranfigureation. I got my books, and then Nikki, Joann, and I decided we wanted Ice Cream. We went to the ice Cream shop, where we ran into Elizabeth and Sirius. I wanted to go over so bad, but I couldn't. Sirius hated me. He still hadn't forgiven me for what I put James through. None of James's friends liked me anymore. Elizabeth waved us over so I thought I was o.k. Then I saw the look of disgust Sirius had on his face. I started to turn around but Joann stopped me. She was right. I had to try.
"Hi Elizabeth, Hi Sirius"
"Hello Lily Pad, done anything stupid lately?" Sirius practically growled it. I knew I wasn't welcome so I got up to leave. Joann and Nikki followed. As I walked away I heard Elizabeth yelling at Sirius.
"Oh my God! Why in the world, she's trying to make up for what she did and all you can do is................." I couldn't hear anymore after that.
We started walking down Diagon Alley, when I saw something that made me sick! Lisa and James were making-out on a bench in front of flourish and Blotts. My heart shattered into a thousand pieces. I still loved James, but it was obvious that he didn't love me. If he did he wouldn't be making out with that slut. We shopped around for awhile, and then I entered back into the muggle world.
END OF CHAPTER 6!!!!
*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*
Alrighty then! How'd I do? Please tell me! My friend Kayla has informed me that Lisa has made this story interesting! Lisa Habinaro! Well tell me what you think in a REVIEW!!! PLEASE MAKE ME FEEL LOVED AND REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you to! ~Angelxd14
~ShdwfxLover
~and Krissy!
Love always!
~SJangel!
