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At Yòύŗ §ïĐέ  by BlACkCAt

A/N: This is going to be the second last chapter or so. Or maybe there's the Epilogue and the Thank You list. And I changed my name yet again! =) Just can't help it. So grab some popcorn, coke and such if you really want to tune in. Okay! Here it comes…

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Chapter 14: I See It in Your Eyes [Part 1]

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Words were not exchanged when they climbed back into the apartment. Pei Fen was a handful with her struggling. Syaoran glared at her so much that his eyes were turning red on the whites. Sakura in the meantime kept her eyes everywhere but at the Little Wolf and the Bitch Witch. Her cheeks were so pale they were nearly transparent. "Eriol!" Syaoran yelled for his best friend. Eriol didn't reply. "Ass…" Syaoran muttered. Sakura kept the Move carrying Pei Fen. It took quite a lot of energy out of her since she was already tired and Move was only able to carry lighter objects and non living objects.

"You won't get away with this, Kinomoto. Watch your back! I'll be after you once I'm freed," Pei Fen was muttering. 'You'll never be freed you ass,' Sakura ignored her. "Lost your tongue?" she scorned maliciously. Sakura controlled her anger, clenching her fist. She would be very violent if she was insulted once more. "Tongue tied?"…patience… "Dumb founded?" …a little left… "Pathetic weakling. Your mother is probably a prostitute. Your father, a play boy. You're probably an illegitimate child as well as all your siblings if you have any. All of poor blood, such pathetic morons. Which bank did you rob to get into this college? Must have been a lot. I wonder why the police haven't found you yet…"

Sakura turned around and kicked her in the shins as well as landed a square box on her right eye and jaw line. Blood trickled out of the girl's lips. Sakura's fist shook so much, she was in danger of having a fit.

"Sakura!" Syaoran gasped, "Shut up your damn mouth Pei Fen. You have no right to say that about Sakura's family."

"Do I care? NO!!" Pei Fen was definitely losing it. She grinned through her bloody mouth, her purple eye accessory, crinkled painfully. "I'll win. Just you watch. I'll have the whole world bow down to me! And first on my revenge list would be you Kinomoto, you'll die a slow painful death. Oh and Syaoran, you'll be the most important guest at her torturing party. First Class. By then of course, your senses would be lost."

Sakura couldn't believe how someone can be so vindictive and still think she could still come on top. It wasn't any use cursing her or anything like that. It was hopeless now. Hopeless and disgusting. She pointed her finger at Pei Fen's mouth, it gagged. The Silent was working on her. Now she'll watch her trying to speak with satisfaction.

"Syaoran?" a voice entered the room. "Meilin? You're here?" Syaoran turned around. The girl was lying on the couch. "What's happened? Who's that girl?" she rushed up to her cousin. Syaoran told her to sit down and rest.

Sakura went into her room with a silent gesture that she wanted to change into her normal clothes. She had been holding all her tears that they were stinging her eyes. Climbing onto her bed. She took out her pen knife…looking at her wrist… she wondered…lowered down the blade…a thin slice of blood seeped out through the cut…then it crossed…continually in a crisscross pattern…down her smooth satin-skinned arm…

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[A/N: I'm not going to tell you how Meilin beat the hell out of Pei Fen 'cause I'm not so good at that and it would be pointless. Just imagine her(Pei Fen) looking real bloody or something]

"Can you check on Eriol? What the hell is he doing now?" Meilin said roughly. Pei Fen was unconscious. "Okay," Syaoran made his way to the boy's room. On the way there, he passed by Sakura's room. There was nothing to be heard inside. No pattering of feet or anything. He frowned but relaxed a little when he concluded that she could be sleeping.

Eriol came out, Tomoyo and him, both looking a little messy and disgruntled. But when they saw Pei Fen captured, unconscious and bound tightly. "Sakura did it all," Syaoran added, looking proud at the thought of it.

"You have the one, Syaoran," Meilin said softly, happy for her cousin. "What are you going to do to this one now Eriol?" Tomoyo asked nodding towards Pei Fen. "A permanent memory spell and banished into emptiness. She's too dangerous too leave her here," Eriol replied grimly. "For the banished world, I think I'll need Sakura's help. Fetch her will you, Tomoyo?" he asked the girl, smiling.

Tomoyo nodded and knocked on Sakura's door. "Sakura?" Tomoyo called out in her sweet voice. The girl inside didn't answer. In fact, there was no sound of movement inside at all. Tomoyo opened the door slowly, so slowly that the hinges creaked with the friction. Then she gasped.

"SAKURA?! NANI?!"

The rest rushed at her. Then, they saw a horrible sight.

The girl was silently cutting herself still. Not even wincing at the pain rushing all over her body. The blood was staining her soft pink bed sheets. Her hair was wet, her cheeks marked with dried tears.

Cuts were inflicted upon one another, deepening into the flesh, the raw flesh was already showing. She looked up at the sound. Her startling bright emerald green eyes were filled with tears, bloodshot from previous crying. Her bangs stuck on her forehead. Tomoyo rushed up, only to be flung back by the invisible force of the Shield. Eriol, fortunately caught her in time.

"Sakura…please…don't torture yourself this way please," Tomoyo pleaded at her, crying herself. She got to her knees on the floor, begging hopelessly. Syaoran was motionless, staring at Sakura. "Why are you doing this to yourself? Sakura…please…" Tomoyo began beating the floor.

'I love you,' Sakura mouthed out slowly, 'Ashiteru…Wo Ai Ni…' Then ice froze over the bed area, Sakura inside it. "No, no, no!" Tomoyo screamed. "SaaKuuRaa…" she wailed, howling her heart out. But the ice stayed frozen. The room got cold rapidly, probably Sakura's doing, so that her friends would go away. They had to finally, the temperature going well below -35°C.

.:|| Sakura's POV ||:.

I felt bad doing this. But I also felt it was right. Nobody would be able to understand my emotions now. I don't want them staying inside the room, so I made it considerably colder. It meant that I was also iced up.

My breath came in small white ringlets. They were pretty so I had fun a little, breathing out the little fogs. The blood all over my arm had chilled. I picked off the strips, ignoring the pain. I saw my hands turning blue. In fact, I saw my bed turning sapphire, with the eerie blue glow.

"Wow…" I breathed out. Not emitting a sound literally but a rasping breathe out. It was beautiful, cold perhaps, but beautiful. I could see the ice crystals, forming right before my eyes.

.:|| Syaoran's POV ||:.

I went into Sakura's room. The cold was stinging up my nose, my eyes and inside my mouth. But I didn't care. I had to get to her. I cannot live if she weren't here with me.

"Sakura?" I spoke with difficulty. The room got colder. It was a good sign even though I froze even more. She was at least listening.

.:|| Viewer's POV ||:.

Syaoran rubbed his hands for some warmth. He reached into his pocket and took out a crumpled piece of paper. Straightening it out, he cleared his throat. Then he hit his head. Cursing he ran out of the room.

A few seconds later he came back, carrying a guitar. He cleared his throat again. Sat down on the ice cold floor and started to strum.

.:|| Sakura's POV ||:.

I heard him coming in. Don't they ever stop trying? I'm trying to be depressed and miserable here! He cleared his throat. What was he trying to do?? Tell me that he's going to say something? What else can I do? Fine I'll listen.

Dull slap. Probably on his head.

Cursing. Honestly I don't know.

Pattering of feet. Finally he's gone.

Silence. Good.

Pattering of feet. He's back.

Clearing of throat. I'm listening already!

Strum of guitar. Huh?

Then I heard it. He started singing! SINGING!! Oh. My. Gosh.

·   When the daylight's gone, And you're on you own   ·   And you need a friend, Just to be around   ·   I will comfort you, I will take you hand   ·   And I'll pull you through, I will understand   ·

[A/N: Sweet ain't it? Did I tell you guys this was actually a song fic?]

I don't believe this. He singing my favorite song. For me. A gaki doing it. Not something you hear everyday.

·    I'll be at your side  ·   There's no need to worry  ·   Together, we'll survive ·   Through the haste & hurry  ·   I'll be at your side, if you feel like you're alone   ·   And you've nowhere to turn  ·    I'll be at your side  ·

Does he really mean it all? I felt the tears coming to my eyes. He is so sweet.

·    If life's standing still, and your soul's confused   ·    And you cannot find what road to choose   ·    If you make mistakes (make mistakes)   ·

Hey, who's that singing? Tomoyo? Eriol? Meilin? And who was playing the violin?
·    You can't let me down (let me down)   ·
It's them! They're singing too. I feel so bad now.

·    I will still believe (still believe)   ·    I will turn around   ·    And you know that   ·    I'll be at your side   ·   There's no need to worry   ·   Together we'll survive   ·   Through the haste & hurry   ·    I'll be at your side   ·    If you feel like you're alone   ·    And you've nowhere to turn   ·    I'll be at your side   ·    I'll be at your side   ·    I'll be at your side  ·

The guitar was slowing down now…tears were pouring down my cheeks. My icy heart was melting.

·    You know that   ·    I'll be at your side   ·    There's no need to worry   ·    Together we'll survive   ·    Through the haste & hurry  ·

His voice was so gentle…I can't believe it really I can't.

·    I'll be at your side, if you feel like you're alone   ·    You've got somewhere to go   ·    'coz I'm right there   ·    I'll be at your side   ·    I'll be right there for you   ·   Together we'll survive   ·   Through the haste & hurry   ·    I'll be at your side, if you feel like you're alone   ·    You've got somewhere to go   ·   'coz I'm at your side   ·   Yeeeah, I'll be right there for you   ·   I'll be right there for you yeah   ·   I'm right at your side   ·

I huddled to myself. The song was nice and all. But what was this nagging feeling in me that something was amiss? [A/N: I'm a girl. And I know that you can't really please a woman. 'Cause we want more! Yea! Hehe]

"Sakura?" he called after a moment. I guess he was waiting for me to melt all the ice. But I wasn't ready. No, not yet. I noticed that it was already warm enough that my breath didn't come in fogs anymore. So I lowered down the temperature, deliberately. More ice wrapped around the current layer.

.:|| Syaoran's POV ||:. [A/N: Poor guy, really. But I can't resist to make him suffer. Hehe]

More ice covered the ice dome. The temperature was reduced. What's wrong with her? What more can she want? I nodded towards the others by the door that they should go. Meilin put down her violin, rather put down. They left in any case. But I lay down beside the enclosure. So I may die of frostbite. But at least I die beside my one and only. [A/N: Awww… so cute. No I'm not going to make him die. NO WAY!!]

.:|| Eriol, Tomoyo & Meilin ||:.

"Poor thing," Tomoyo said. "He's staying in with her. I wonder why Sakura is still stubborn. But she has always been a hard head," she sighed.

"If only I could shake her common sense out of her. She must be living in her dream world right now," Meilin shook her fist fiercely. "Syaoran loves her. What else does she want?"

Eriol looked at them, "Love could be everything to some of us. But to a certain few, love must be accompanied by commitment, trust and assurance. Sakura is in that few, exceptional perhaps, but very hard at times like this. But that's true love for you."

The two girls fell silent. Tomoyo wrapped her hands around Eriol, hugging him tight, "I'm always here for you. You know that." "Of course," Eriol replied, hugging her back.

Meilin smiled and turned away from the couple. Then she spotted a coil of vines and chains on the floor. Her heart stood still. Where was the bitch now?!

"Eriol… Eriol…she's…she's gone…" Meilin panicked. [A/N: It's like talking about a murderer here. Hehe…I remembered a scene like that in one of the Scream movies. Or actually all the three…Hehe] "What? The daughter of a bastard," Eriol cursed. He waved his hand. The door slammed close. Everyone jumped. They all in danger now. If Pei Fen was even in the apartment.

"She's in here, somewhere. I can still see her magic glowing from the vines," Eriol assured them. "Where could she be?" they all wondered aloud at the same time. Then it dawned upon them.

"Sakura!"

.:|| Sakura's POV ||:.

I listened patiently. My breath falling heavy at the edge. I could hear him. He was breathing just as heavily as me. The cold was getting to him. Maybe I should…

What's that sound? Footsteps…

"You!" I heard him shout. Then I heard the clash of swords. And I heard her. Her voice made my hair stand, "Be mine Syaoran. I can offer you more. More than the Kinomoto girl can ever. Together we'll be powerful. Reign the world! You and me. Queen and King."

"Shut your useless crap, Pei Fen. You mean you. In my veins run the blood of Clow Reed. I belong to the GOOD side," he replied just as determined. "Ah, but do you want to belong?" Pei Fen asked. Stupid question, I thought.

But Syaoran paused. Was he kidding me?? Evil? Him? Yeah, he maybe my enemy but at least he's on the right side.

.:|| Viewer's POV ||:.

"Let me think…" he replied. "NO!" "Then I shall force you. Whether you want it or not. Now let me through. I must kill the worthless piece of magic. She is all that stands in my way," Pei Fen hissed. "You're such a dork, you know that Pei Fen? I always knew you were. Ever since we were small. Buck-teethed. You looked like a rabbit. And your whinny voice. I wonder how I ever put up with you until I was seven. Now you think just because you look nicer than before, you can reign over us all. Bullshit! What do you want me for then? You play thing? Hah! I'd rather die," Syaoran spat at her. They swung the swords over each other. Blocking and thrusting until Pei Fen had a chance to speak.

"Don't you get it? I love you! YOU! I just want your love that's all," Pei Fen replied, sobbing. Syaoran's heart hardened, "Too late. My heart belongs to someone else already. If you didn't push it by force, I might have changed my mind."

Sakura inside the ice stared, unable to believe what she heard. 'He could've changed his mind? WHAT? If she hadn't forced him? CHANGE? CHANGE? I HATE YOU, YOU ASSHOLE!!' Sakura pounded on her bed angrily. 'GAKI. BAKA. I HATE YOU!!! You big liar. I hate you! You made me believe that you actually loved me. Now you're telling that witch that you could've loved her if she didn't force you?! I HATE THE SIGHT OF YOU AND I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN!!!' she screamed, going crazy. She crashed against the wall of the ice.

The swords clashed, sparks sent around the room. [A/N: No fire starting. I'm dramatic but not that much]

Sakura slammed herself on her bed. Hammering on it.

Pei Fen was slashed on the arms. Blood flowed out.

Crying…crying…gritting her teeth…(Sakura) [A/N: Its alternately. Imagine the scenes switching from Sakura torturing herself and the battle outside the ice. I like action movies like that…Hehe…make me dizzy but the action is there]

Syaoran was stabbed at the leg.

Grime and blood filled her mouth. Bitter-tasting.

The swords clashed once more, reflecting the lights.

'Why…why are you giving me so much pain?' Sakura cried in her head. 'All I ever did was love you.'

The door slammed. "Syaoran! Pei Fen! Sakura!" Eriol and the rest came up. "Open the door!!" But the door hold still.

Bleeding from the back of her head, Pei Fen did a feeble thrust.

Sakura rocked to and fro inside the ice. She was sitting, curled up into a ball, thinking hard and crying.

Syaoran grinned through his bloody mouth, giving a plunge at Pei Fen's heart.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" Sakura burst out screaming. She started glowing.

Pei Fen's body started glowing.

The ice confinement broke up. The shards were flying everywhere, hitting Syaoran at the head. He hurtled onto the wall. In the last few moments that he was awake, he saw a dark orb float out of Pei Fen's heart, turned red and flew into Sakura, who was glowing yellow, pink and a mixture of others herself. They clashed and a blinding light filled the room. His heart, at peace, slowed down and he fell into deep sleep in the softening radiance. [A/N: He's not dead, don't worry. 'Cause the play haven't started yet.]

.:|| ??? POV ||:.

"Syaoran…"

No…no…

"Syaoran…"

I'm trying to be dead here…

"Syaoran… wake up…"

Don't I have peace even when I'm dead??

"SYAORAN!!"

Fine…fine…

I opened my eyes, mumbling, "Am I dead?" "No silly," Meilin came into focus. Eriol was on my other side. "No? Oh…too bad…" I muttered. Sakura! "Saku—"

Meilin moved and I saw behind her, Sakura, lying on a bed. She looked stern, serious, her mouth was set. It was amazing that they could smile so warmly. "Dead?" I asked, hoping she wasn't. "Do you want her to be?" Meilin asked sarcastically. "No…no…" I tried to shake my head. I sat back. At least she was still safe…

~A day later~ .:|| Viewer's POV ||:.

Syaoran sat beside Sakura's bed. She hadn't awoke yet and her face was still stubborn and fierce. Holding her hand between his own, he made a silent vow, "Sakura, please wake up. I promised I won't hurt you anymore. Promise."

Her hand slid away. She had awoken.

But she turned her head away. "I don't want your false promises," she muttered softly. Her voice was scratchy and strange. Her voice had returned.

"You can talk…" Syaoran said.

"Never again to you," she finished.

"Please…forgive me…" Syaoran pleaded. But she didn't answer, her face turned away from him.

"Sakura!" Tomoyo came in. Sakura sat herself up. Syaoran tried to help her but she pushed his hands away, not even giving him a glance. His heart fell.

She set on her best friend, smiled. "I can talk again, Tomoyo," she rasped. Tomoyo hugged her. "Good, now you can act in the play," Tomoyo told her. Sakura sweat-dropped, her smile a bit lop-sided. "Especially since you have the main part along with Syaoran," Tomoyo said, giving her a 'look'.

But Sakura put on a confused look, "Who?" "He's beside you Sakura!" Tomoyo exclaimed, frowning, puzzled. What's up with Sakura? She can't have amnesia again. Sakura turned to Syaoran, "I can't see anyone there…not anyone important anyway."

"Sakura…" Tomoyo trailed. Then she saw Syaoran's crestfallen look and she understood. "You'd better get some more rest, Sakura, I'll see you again in the afternoon for lunch," she said. Sakura nodded and snuggled under the covers.

Syaoran wheeled himself out of the room. [A/N: He got hit at the leg remember?]

"She hates me," Syaoran said quietly when they were out of earshot. "Well, you're not going to give up are you?" Tomoyo asked ardently. Syaoran stayed silent. "Well?" Tomoyo gripped his shoulders, shaking him slightly.

"I don't know. Maybe she'll keep on pretending she doesn't know me or can't see me. It'll be hopeless like that," Syaoran replied. "She can't pretend forever!" Tomoyo replied confidently. "Well, she won't talk to me then," Syaoran said. "Two words: watch me," she told him.

~Two days later~ [From the day Pei Fen crossed over]

Sakura was up and about again. Fresh and as though restarted, she was looking radiant when she came out of her room for breakfast. Her clothes were crisp and light, pale blue sleeveless top and a white skirt over leggings. Her hair was in a loose ponytail, the strands framed her face perfectly.

"Ohayo Tomoyo-chan, Hiiragizawa-san, Li-san," she greeted. [A/N: I watched this show and you're supposed to greet everyone individually in Japan. Like Ohayo John, Ohayo Kim…dunno…I'll cut it short…too lazy to type it all anyway] She said only one Li-san and Syaoran knew she meant it only for Meilin. "Ohayo Sakura-chan," they all chorused. After saying that, Syaoran looked back at his plate of pancakes.

The others had deliberately sat in such away that Sakura was left to sit facing Syaoran. She sat down and helped herself to the toast and egg. All the while she didn't once look up. When she finished, she got up to leave the table. "Aren't you going to  try the pancakes, Sakura-chan?" Tomoyo asked. "You love pancakes, don't you?" "No thanks, I'm too full," Sakura replied, smiling. 'I'm never going to eat what ever that jerk is eating…we'll have nothing in common…ever' she thought grimly. [A/N: I have this habit too…stupid perhaps…but you can't help it when you have it…I hate green because my enemy loves it…and he's in the green sports house in our school…]

"I'm off for a walk at the park! Ja Mata," Sakura announced pulling on her blades. The others watch her sadly, their gaze switching from her to Syaoran who was dejected. 'Sakura…' Tomoyo drifted…

.:|| Sakura's POV ||:.

It was a cool morning. So I grabbed my cardigan on the way out. It was autumn. And leaves were colored and falling gracefully from the branches.

I stretched out my arms, breathing in the fresh air. The walks were scattered with few people. I turned back, heading to the pleasant market stalls. Living here for a year or so, the stall holders were rather familiar with 'the auburn-haired, emerald-eyed Japanese girl'. I got a couple of apples and a bouquet of daisies free. Asides from cherry blossoms, I love daisies. They were always so cheerful-looking. I blade down to the park and sat on a bench.

The apples were so red and crunchy, my mouth was full of sweet juice. I took out a book, Rainy Day [A/N: One of my upcoming fics! =)]. I had it for sometime but didn't have the chance to finish it. Maybe I could finish it by today if I have no interruptions. Oh golly! Look I've only a little more to go.

.:|| Viewer's POV ||:.

Syaoran limped out of the apartment a quarter of an hour later. His leg was still weak even though Eriol had already close the wound. "Perhaps it's the impact it had, you leg could still be in a state of shock," he laughed. Syaoran hadn't laughed though. The scar on the leg was what Pei Fen had left him.

He hadn't realize it but he hadn't been smoking for quite sometime now. Ever since Sakura had taken the cigarette from his fingers that night. She was influential, it seemed. She should work in a rehabilitation center.

Walking down the streets, he stopped by the café beside the park for a cup of coffee. Sipping his coffee, he walked out and decided to stroll in the park. He had all day to burn. Better start now.

He took out a book from his knapsack, Rainy Day. One of his ex-s had given it to him. He rarely had a chance to read and though it was more than three years ago, he hadn't finished it. But with little excerpts read at a time, he nearly finished it. It was only a chapter surplus.

Strolling down the trail, surrounded by the colorful array of trees and peace, he read and drank consecutively. The last passage he read aloud in relief. Murmuring, "He…" and he heard the similar words whispered by someone on his left.

The someone seemed to have heard him too because she stopped and looked up. Amber met emerald. Their eyes widened when they realized that they had been reading the same book and finished at the same time. Coincidence or fate? Neither could decide. And they ended the last few words, softly as if in a trance, "...on a rainy day." eyes still on each other.

The stupor broke seconds later, Sakura shutting her book, standing up and walking away without so much a glance back. Watching her pacing away, Syaoran fought the impulse to chase after her. She wouldn't talk to him anyway even if he did manage to catch up with her.

.:|| Sakura's POV ||:.

My heart, the muscle, was palpating so hard I could hardly breathe. He was reading the same book? And we completed… My cheeks burned. Why was everything so hard on me now?

He looked so lost and disheartened…all thanks to me. But I can't…its much too soon. I sighed and skated away, not knowing where I was heading. My heart, the spirit, is still torn.

.:|| Apartment(Tomoyo, Eriol & Meilin) ||:.

"I wonder what each of them is doing now…?" Tomoyo sighed dreamily. "Maybe they met up and apologized?"

"Dream on…" Meilin said, flipping through a magazine.

"Don't be such a pessimist," Tomoyo replied. "There's still hope in my plan."

"What is your plan, Tomoyo?" Eriol looked up from his spell book.

"Its purely simple. The play's coming up right–?"

The others nodded.

"I'm in charge of the cast right–?"

More nods.

"So–"

Meilin leaned on her arm waiting for her to continue.

"I'll just pair them up together and when Syaoran has to say the–"

Meilin slapped her hands, "Now I get it! He says from his heart and unless Sakura is denser than I think she is, she will know…"

"I dunno…the plan's too risky…" Eriol said quietly. "Come on…what've we got to lose?" Tomoyo folded her arms.

"Sakura's trust from us?" Eriol replied coolly. Tomoyo pressed her lips together, thinking, "Well, we can't stay stagnant can we? Its all or nothing."

"Yeah!" Meilin cheered on.

"I still think it's best to leave things to work out for themselves," Eriol said doubtfully, still not looking up from his book.

"Alright! I'll bet you, if the plan succeeds, you owe me–" Tomoyo paused to think for a moment what reward she should get. "A week full of kissing?" Eriol suggested hopefully. "Yeah, it sounds good," Tomoyo said eagerly. "Vice versa if it doesn't work."

"That's stupid, you guys smooch anyhow," Meilin retorted, rolling her eyes. "Okay, we'll be each other's servants for a month how the plan goes, okay?" Eriol said. "I guess…hey, I'm not included in this so I don't care…as long as the two get together," Meilin turned back to her magazine. "Of course," Tomoyo had the last say to the conversation.

~ End of Part 1 ~

A/N: Okay, that's the end of part 1. Thought I'd stop here for a moment…Part 2's up, anyways. Would you like to review for this chapter? Hehe…press da blue button if you want to. Or you can proceed to Part 2 straight away! See you there!