Chapter 4: Let me go, please let me go
The tree is casting shadows, so many shadows across the
sunny lawn,
dark, twisting arms reaching out to save me from the prison
of my room,
with just one more look out the window, I am drawn.
There is nothing here for me in this room,
nothing but more tears, more nightmares, and more gentle
knocks on the door,
I wipe my eyes, grab my cloak, and leave my tomb.
I pull my hood up and don't look back as I stagger across
the common room,
no one says a word, but the silence and the stares say more
than words could say,
the green and silver of the dorm swirl as I stumble outside
the common room.
I slide against the closed door down to the dungeon floor,
everything feels hot, I can't breathe, and the hall keeps
getting darker and darker,
I press my cheek against the cool stone wall and wheeze
until my chest is too sore.
My chest hurts with each breath, and my heart aches, and my
head pounds,
feverish spots cloud my vision and make the hall like a
ballroom, dizzy,
I slowly rise and the dance floor is spinning, twirling
without a sound.
I run up the stairs to the main entrance tripping, blinded
by more tears.
My tears are hot and I can feel them trickling down my neck,
tears must be the sweat of the heartbroken, each tear a new
fear.
I close my eyes and tear across the entrance hall,
I run blind and hope to god that no one tries to stop me,
just let me go, please let me go,
and I throw my body, my heart, my pain against those giant
front doors and - fall.
The tree is casting shadows, so many shadows across the
sunny lawn,
dark, twisting arms reaching out to save me from the prison
of my room,
with just one more look out the window, I am drawn.
There is nothing here for me in this room,
nothing but more tears, more nightmares, and more gentle
knocks on the door,
I wipe my eyes, grab my cloak, and leave my tomb.
I pull my hood up and don't look back as I stagger across
the common room,
no one says a word, but the silence and the stares say more
than words could say,
the green and silver of the dorm swirl as I stumble outside
the common room.
I slide against the closed door down to the dungeon floor,
everything feels hot, I can't breathe, and the hall keeps
getting darker and darker,
I press my cheek against the cool stone wall and wheeze
until my chest is too sore.
My chest hurts with each breath, and my heart aches, and my
head pounds,
feverish spots cloud my vision and make the hall like a
ballroom, dizzy,
I slowly rise and the dance floor is spinning, twirling
without a sound.
I run up the stairs to the main entrance tripping, blinded
by more tears.
My tears are hot and I can feel them trickling down my neck,
tears must be the sweat of the heartbroken, each tear a new
fear.
I close my eyes and tear across the entrance hall,
I run blind and hope to god that no one tries to stop me,
just let me go, please let me go,
and I throw my body, my heart, my pain against those giant
front doors and - fall.
