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Diary: Neville Longbottom TL Hess







August 7, 1990

Dear Diary,

I really don't think that I should call you that. I may get made fun of if someone finds this and reads it. My Gran bought you for me so that I will have something to write all my memories down in . That way I can remember what to tell mom and dad when I go visit them. I think you even came from the store down the street from St. Mongo's . I just hope I don't lose you, or forget to write things down. I have a really bad memory. Well I have to get my books and things in the morning. I will try to write tomorrow.

NL



August 30,1990

I have been looking all over for you. I can't believe that I packed you and didn't write first. I leave for school in the morning. According to Gran and every one else I should be ready to go and excited, but I am really not. I am not cut out for this stuff. For the longest time they thought that I was switched with a Muggle child at birth. I hope its all everyone is saying it is, cause it would be nice to have some friends that are my age and to be away from Gran for awhile.

NL



September 2, 1990

I met this girl on the train. She seemed really nice. Her name is Hermione Granger. We were looking for Trevor, my new pet frog, and you will never guess who I ran into. Harry Potter. He is really nice too. We were sorted into the same house. The hat made a mistake putting me in Gryffindor. I would have rather been a Hufflepuff, butt oh well. I also Met a rather nasty boy named Draco Malfoy. I don't think that I have ever met a nastier person in my life. I am so nervous about class in the morning. I am going to mess things up so bad.

NL

September 3,1990

I take it all back. Hermione is the bossiest person and she thinks she knows everything. She is worse than my Gran. I would really like to kick her but, sadly I can't. I think that she would hurt me if I tried. What makes it worse she is my only friend here. I mean Ron and Harry talk to me but not like in a 'I want to be your friend ' sort of way. Its more of a 'I live with you so what ever'. Hermione is only friendly with me cause I am to scared of her to tell her to leave me alone. Oh well, at least its better than nothing. Oh, he is down stairs talking about Hogwarts A history again. It's only the nine millionth time today. I don't think she knows just how annoying she is being.

NL

September 4, 1990

I couldn't sleep and remembered(that's a first) that I didn't write about the worst part of my first day. Professor Snape. He is the potions master. He hates me, and I think that he may be related to Satan. Maybe even Satan him self. I think he may hate Harry Potter more than me but not much more. I may be dead by the end of the year, cause if I mess up any more he might kill me or Trevor. Speaking of Trevor where did he go?

NL



4TH cont.

Harry made the Quidditch team thanks to me. He was getting my Rememberall back from Malfoy. I had dropped it when I fell off my broom and broke my arm. I really am bad at everything. I was on my way back to the tower and I forgot the pass word. The pitcher wouldn't let me in so I was stuck out in the hall with the Bloody Baron. I had some how fallen a sleep when Harry, Ron , and 'Mione came out. I followed them to what was going to be a duel with Malfoy. He didn't show. Any one surprised. Filch was there I got scared and almost got us caught. We had almost got away when Peeves showed up. We got around him and into a room that was locked and with good reason. There was a giant dog in the room. It had three heads. Luckily no one was eaten and we made it back to the tower with out getting in trouble. I don't think that I will be hanging around them for a while . It seems be bad for your health.

NL

October 3, 1990

Its been one month. I am still alive. I am so good. I can go home now right? Nothing has changed much. Ron and Harry are the best of friends. 'Mione is still telling me what to do. Snape has a special snarl reserved just for me. I cried in his class several times, just because he came near me. I wish I wasn't so scared of him. Halloween is coming up and Dumbledore has a big party planned. I have to get back to my homework.

NL

October 31,1990

'Mione disappeared early this morning and I had the best day until a couple of hours ago. It was nice to have a day with out her telling me everything that I was doing wrong. I was even enjoying the dinner that the Headmaster called a party. Then Quirrell the DADA Professor showed up and yelled Troll. We all had to go back our houses and let the teachers take care of things. I had come in and gone to sleep so I could pretend that it hadn't happened. Ron and Harry came in and were whispering very loudly about what had happened to the other boys in the dorm. Apparently they went looking for 'Mione and found a troll that they beat up and they think that Snape was the one that had let it in. I am kind of glad they are okay, but they could have been a little quieter I cant get back to sleep now and they are all snoring.

NL

November 6, 1990

Today was the start of the Ouidditch season. Harry is the best seeker that I have ever seen. Not that I saw much I had to hide my eyes for a while. His broom went crazy and Ron said that it was Snape's fault. We won and there is the biggest party going on in the common room. I am not much for partying. So, I was going to write you and hang out with Trevor. I wish I had more interesting things to write about so I could write more often. Shoot Trevor just hopped out the door.

NL

November 20, 1990 Its time to decided if we are going to stay or go home for break. I want to stay but Gran expects me to come home. We always go see mom and dad on holidays. I love my mom and dad but I hate going to see them. I cant under sand why they had to go through all of this. It may sound a little harsh but some times I wish that the death eater would have killed them. I think it would have made everything easier on every one, especially them. I hate seeing them so miserable. I need to stop before I start crying.

NL

January 2.1990

I would say that leaving you here was something that I cant believe that I would do, but its me so what can say. I am just a forgetful stupid person. Well I have a lot to write about, if a can remember it all. I went and saw mom and dad. We stayed at a hotel near St. Mongo's and Gran was taking trips to see them two or three times a day. Christmas is always so hard on her. It must have a special time for the three of them. The doctors said that they don't think that mom and dad have a chance of improving. Seeing as how it they have been this way for so long and haven't changed at all. What a fun filled experience, we went back to stay at the Leaky Cauldron. Gran was so busy with planning the trip to see my parents that she had forgotten to buy my presents. I was given money and told to buy what ever I wanted. I just stuck it in my vault. I don't really want anything. I opened a vault at Gringotts when I was like eight or so so I would have a place to put my money and not lose it, I have a lot more now than I ever thought that I would. I only wasn't enough to move out after my seventh year. I spent the rest of my time in the bar area of the Leaky Cauldron staring out the window at the clueless muggles walking by. There was this one that I wish I had the guts to have run out and started a conversation with. She had long blond hair, blue eyes, and well she was just really pretty. I only saw her once but that was enough I guess, she has been stuck in my head and won't go away. Not that I am complaining or anything. Well I have to get some sleep. I need to be ready for thinks to go back to the way they of snarls and jokes directed at me. Oh what fun I have here.

NL

January 4, 1991

I hate Draco Malfoy. Actually I don't think that the word hate is strong enough. I was leaving the library and ran into Malfoy. He felt that it was a good time to practice his leg- locking curse on me. I crawled all the way back to the common room. What was even more humiliating was the response that I got when I got back.. 'Mione was there to fix me and everyone had to "aww poor baby" the pathetic loser that cant take up for himself. I was told by everyone how ' I am to stand up to him ' and ' your worth more than Malfoy' and then there is 'Mione with the ever popular 'tell McGonagall'. Harry gave me candy and that was all he was going to do to make me fill better. I didn't want to be made to feel better. I wanted them to leave me alone. I really didn't want to have every one to feel sorry for the poor stupid kid that can't do any thing write.

NL

January 22 1991

Nothing in school has changed too much. I still get teased, Snape still hates me, and I still get the pity looks from every one else. So, the usual everyday crap that I got through. I have been ready for sleep before everyone else, and with good reason I have been having these dreams. They have that girl from the break. They are not dirty at all. They are just me and her sitting around talking and doing normal things. I wonder if I will ever see her again.

NL



January 30, 1991

I am to the point where I hate being awake. Why couldn't I have been muggle. It would have been so nice to be where ever she is. Did you get the hint that I an still dreaming. Between that and homework I haven't ahd much of a chance to write. Not like anything has happened to me at all. I have the most boring life of any one I know. Crap Trevor is not in his cage. I think I want to get a new pet.

NL



February 1,1991

June looks so close to being here and I cant wait. I want this to all be over with and the sooner the better. My dreams have started getting weird and I don't like them any more. I was talking t my blond and 'Mione came and ran her away. Told her every thing about me and being a wizard and all. She ran and 'Mione just acted like she did me the biggest favor in the world. I hope that this doesn't mean that I like 'Mione. Maybe I am just being realistic and know in my mind that I will end up with her because on one else will want me. She already tells me what to do anyways. I am really beginning to hate my life.

NL



February 14, 1991

It's Valentines Day. All the older kids are acting like Cupid just hit them with all his arrows. The first years are not worrying about that at all they are more concerned with the final exams. I am about half way with both. Can you guess where my mind is? It's just as well that I am stuck thinking about her. Even if she was here I wouldn't be able to talk to her and she would more than likely be interested in Malfoy or Harry. I am stuck with Trevor for my Valentine for the rest of my life.

NL



March 9 1991

Do you have any idea how strange it is to have a journal be your best and at times your only friend? I wish I was more like Harry. Every one likes him and they all want to be friends with him. Me on the other hand I just have people that feel sorry for me. It would be nice to have someone to just sit and talk to, joke with, and well just to hang around with out there being any pity involved. Till I find some one that I can be friends with like that I guess that I will just keep you around.

NL



March 19, 1991

I think that I am failing potions. Snape has invented an entirely new look from that of the first of the year. This one is more evil and disgusted and filled with hate. He yells at me more too. I do call attention to my self that I don't want. I mean it is hard to ignore a melting cauldron and students with swelling red boils. How did I become such a guff -up. What's more frightening than the look and the yelling is the fact that I think that he enjoys my mishaps. I was trying to clean up my mess and heard him talking to Dumbledore and he was telling him about class. He was laughing. It was more of a cackle than a laugh, but it was still frightening.

NL

March 24, 1991

If any one ever read this then they would think I was a real boring person. I lost you and went looking all over the room. I found a journal that looked a lot like this one. I as looking and it and found out that it was Dean's. He writes and sometimes he draws too. He is really good. I didn't think he was the type to do something like this. Well, all his stuff is so exciting and fun sounding, my stuff after I went back and read it is all boring and pathetic. I bet when he comes in at night and closes the curtains around his bed that he is writing or drawing. I may need to put it back before anyone comes back.

NL



April 10, 1991

I overheard Malfoy talking to some people in the hall outside the library. He said that he had a note that belonged to like Ron or Harry and it was all about how the were going to be freeing a dragon or something like that. He has telling them that he was going to catch Harry and his friend and get them all expelled. I went to try and find them to tell them what was going on. Well I got caught and so did Malfoy. McGonagall was dealing with him when I was brought in. I was told so sit and wait in her office. She came back and asked me why I was out of bed. I told her what I heard. Then in walks Harry and Hermione they had been found coming back from the astronomy towers. She asked them if they thought it was funny that not only did Malfoy fall for there little joke but poor Neville too. They said nothing to me or her Harry just looked at me. I couldn't believe that he they would want to play a joke like this on me. I now have detention because of them. I am going to be in so much trouble when Gran finds out.

NL



April 12, 1991

I haven't had any one speak to me in several days. I kind of enjoy that. In total Harry, Mione and myself lost one hundred and fifty points. That put our house in last place in the house cup. I also have detention some time this week, thank you Potter. I have a strage urge to hit him right in the nose. He feels sorry for what has happened to me in all of this and now is acting like he is my friend. Right what a friend. An now I hear him and Ron coming up the stairs to talk to me. I don't see how they think that this is going to cheer me up. They are going to drive me crazy. I like the alone time. I had it before and I enjoyed it too. Oh why cant they just leave me alone.

NL



April 13, 1991

Well its about three in the morning and I have just got back from detention. I hope I never have to go do that again. It was horrible but there were its enjoyable parts. We had to help Hagrid find what was killing some unicorns. It was so great to see the look on Malfoy's face. He was so scared to hear that he had to go into the forest. I had never felt so much like giggling in al my life. Until I was told that I had to be his partner in the whole search. That didn't go so well. He had snuck up behind me when we were searching and I got a little scared I didn't know what it was until I turned around. Hagrid came running and switched me and Harry. Harry was so up set. He thought that something bad had happened and it was all his fault. I really don't like him all that much. Harry and Draco are on my list of people that bug me a lot and the would be at the top if 'Mione wasn't more annoying than the both of them. They all think that the are so perfect and that they know every thing. I need to sleep before breakfast.

NL



May 3, 1991

Exams are next month and 'Mione has nominated me and the other two to be her study partner. I don't want to study with them or at all. I just want to be alone. I am going to fail no matter how much I study I cant take tests. They come with to much pressure. I don't handle pressure very well. She is screaming to me from the common room. I don't want to go.

NL

May 7, 1991

I left the study group. I actually got up and left. Nobody tried to stop me. They just sat there and watched as I left. It was great. I just got so fed up with her and Harry that I couldn't take it any more. When I got here no one else was. I took Dean's journal again. He is a great artist. I guess I needed to escape my life is why I took it again. I hope he doesn't find out what I have been doing. I would be mad if any one read mine so I would assume that he would feel the same way. My dreams of the blond have changed into dreams of pushing Malfoy into a man eating plant and after him goes Potter.

NL

June 1,1991

You know what I think that Harry might be worse than Malfoy. He has for that past several nights woke me up to talk to him. He cant sleep like I care why, but he thinks that I do. I thought Ron was his friend. Why cant he wake him up? I will think to myself ' go away, just go away' and then sit there and listen. He expected me and everyone else to do that. Lets all pity the poor boy with out parents.

NL

June 5, 1991

Between all of the class and studying , not to mention the chat sessions with Harry at three in the morning, I am surprised that I even had a chance to write anything at all. Not like I had ant thing to write any ways. We start the exams to marrow and well other than that I have nothing to write. I have the most boring life. I will also be the oldest first year next year. I am going to fail so badly.

NL



June 20, 1991

Its over!! Thank you God! No more Snape or any other teacher for a whole week. Its such a nice day and every body is out side, so I have the whole room to my self. I enjoy all of the silence. Wow, I have all this free time and no one is here to tell me what to do. I think this will be the best week of my life.

NL

June 23, 1991

Well that was a short week. It seems to have lasted all of three days. I got a letter from Gran. She really knows how to kill a mood. She went to see mom and dad.. Mom had no idea who she was. I know that must have killed Gran, but what am I going to do. All I can do is sit here and watch them get worse like her.

NL



June 24, 1991

Have you ever had the feeling that some one is up to something not good ? Harry and the other two have been acting strange. They have been whispering and I saw 'Mione follow waiting outside of the teachers lounge for at least an hour. They are now back to the whispering. The last time this happened the house lost over a hundred points. I think I need to try and find out what all this is about.

NL







June 27, 1991

I made it to the end of the first year. Even more amazing is that I, Neville Longbottom, passed Potions. Can you believe that one, I still cant. I also found out what potter and his gang were up to. They had planned to sneak out to find out what that three headed dog was guarding. I got the bright idea that I was going to stop them. I watched them walk over me and out the door. They told me that I was not to stand up to them but the other people that were picking on me. After that 'Mione put me in a full body bind and they left. But hey I tried. Dumbledore was so impressed by the fact that I stood up to my "friends" that he gave me enough points to have Gryffindor win. Like he wasn't cheating by awarding points to the house after the winner was announced. Everyone is just so impressed with me for standing up to them and trying to save the house from losing anymore points that they are all now acting like the have known me for years. People are so stupid. Now I have a long train ride and a "wonderful" summer to look forward to. Well at least I have you to keep me company.

Neville Longbottom