July 10, 1991
I love not having to go to class. I would love it even more if 'Mione would stop sending me owls. She keeps asking me if I have heard from Harry. Like I care enough to write his majesty Potter, or like he would bother to lift a quill and acknowledge my existence. Maybe if I stop writing back she will stop too. I cant, it would make her worry and write more and I don't think that I could write any thing to discourage her from writing back, or ever again. She is so annoying. In a week or so we are going back to St. Mingo's. Gran is up set by the reports that the doctor has been sending to her. They are doing pretty bad from what I hear. I really don't want to go. Do you think that she would buy that I am sick? I have been sleeping a lot. Hey look an owl is attacking my window.
July 12, 1991
I couldn't sleep. I have the worlds most boring life. My Gran is trying to get me to take Quidditch lessons from her friends grandson. He is like some kind of professional or something like that. I am refusing to do it. I don't want to get on a broom again after my near death experience last year. Oh, yeah look at the sun. I have to go and pack for my trip. Gran decided that we should leave early. She thinks that the more we are with them the better they will be. I hate the fact that she thinks that keeping me in that dark about things is going to help me. I am getting tired of having to be her source of positive energy. I don't want to pretend to be upbeat and happy all the time.
July 15.1991
Sleep. I like sleep. I wish I could sleep. I have been having to take potions to sleep. I wake up and I feel like I didn't sleep at all. I want to go back to school so I can get away from all of this. I went to see mom and dad once and I cant go back. My dad was screaming at on of the doctors when we got there, he had apparently interrupted him while he was directing the symphony. My mom wasn't allowed to have visitors she was so bad. Gran is so tore up by all of this. She hasn't stopped crying and is very bad at hiding it from me. She just says that her eyes are watering I know she is trying to protect me from all the hurt like a good grandma, but I just wish that she would realize that she cant make things better and that hiding it from me isn't going to make things better for me. She just came in, I need to go and see what she has to say about her visit.
July 21,1991
Gram Decided that we could go home because we weren't doing any good there. So, for the first time in a long time I got to sleep in my own bed. I slept for around 28 hours, and I am still sleepy. I have to stay awake for a while, I think that I scared Gran a little. I had started writing because I had this dream, but I cant remember it now. I have a billion or so letters to reply to from 'Mione. I am thinking that I should send them all back with a note saying that I no longer exist and that she should leave me alone, but that would be mean and I'm Neville.
July 22,1991
I wrote back to 'Mione and told her that I was on vacation and blah, blah, blah. Well she was upset with me because I didn't tell her that I was leaving on vacation and I only wrote back to all of her letters with only one. I was mad and wrote back, I never meant to send it. I told her that I didn't really care if Harry wasn't writing her and that if she was wanting to talk to some one who did then she should write Ron and leave me alone. The next thing I knew I was letting the owl out the window. I feel like doing a little dance. I should be moody more often. I should have told her exactly what I thought of her. Oh, that would have been great.
July 25,1991
She wrote back. Took her long enough. She said that she was sorry and would no longer be bugging me. I think she wanted me to feel bad and write back telling her how sorry I was for snapping at her, but I am not. I don't really care if she never speaks to me again. I know that will never happen, but it's a nice thought. Only one month till school starts. I cant wait till it dose. I want out of here so bad and I have missed Snape so much. I have a feeling that this will be a worse year than last year.
July 30, 1991
I have started my homework in the classes that I can do until I get my book list. I am really board. I have nothing to do and I am still grounded for not wanting to learn to play Quidditch with her friends son. So, unless I change my mind and get on a broom, I can't go anywhere. Hey, stuck in here isn't as bad as killing myself on a broom. I wonder who the DADA teacher is going to be. I think that Harry killed the last one. I hope that they find a better one that Harry cant kill. They should give Snape the job. Maybe then he would be happy. He would be good at the job. He looks like someone who would be good at the dark arts. I wonder if he can be happy?
August 3 1991
I had Gran write Dumbledore to ask for a list of my books and thing I need for next year. She was so happy that I wanted to get a head start on next years school work that she didn't write the letter she went personally to see him to ask and then went right to buy my things. I didn't have to go with her to shop for any thing. When she cane home with all of my things I almost started to cry. I want to do to another school. A man, well I think it is a man anyways, Named Gilderoy Lockhart is the new DADA teacher. That man is more annoying than 'Mione, and that's saying a lot. I have never met the man personally, but my Gran and her friends are obsessed with him. From what I have seen in his pictures on the books and things make me want to kick him. All of his book ( the grand total comes to 7) is on the list of required reading and text for his class. I read about two pages of the first book and well the man seems like a big fake. Gran thinks he is just the most wonderful person and that I will just love him. You know he kind of reminds me of a mix of Potter and 'Mione.
August 5 1991
Gran is up set about every thing these days. She started crying at dinner the other night because I have no friends. Okay, I have never had friends. She never lets me go any where and I cant do anything she doesn't think is appropriate. Which is any thing that involves me having fun. All I can do is stay in this house and keep her company. I don't really lie any one at school and she thinks that is just wrong. She says that I am not social enough and I need to be. Then the real reason for this whole feel bad for me because I am crying came out. She wants me to go with her to a party that her friend is having. She says that it will help me be more social and crap like that. 'Cause I want to have more strange people poor babying the little screw-up with the crazy parents. I get enough of that at home and school why dose she want to put me through more. Why cant people just leave me alone? I don't want friend and I don't want to be social. I like things the way they are. I can't believe that she went to all of the trouble of crying and everything to guilt me into going with her. Every one and their dog is going to be there. I hope I can find a nice empty corner to hide in.
August 12 1991
I fell asleep with you on my bed last night. Gran came in to check on me and read the last thing I wrote which was the 5th. She wants me to see a doctor like mom and dads. I am according to her angry and depressed and that's not normal and I need help. I was not allowed to write since she found it. She says that she doesn't want me to keep thing bottled up. She thinks that I should talk to her about what I am feeling. We went to the party and I left through a fire place in another room. I searched the house and couldn't find a thing. I got back just in time to come right back home. She had it in her purse the whole time. She wanted to keep an eye on it. She left this morning to see the doctor about me and left her purse on her bed. Thank god that she for got to take you with her. She said that she was going to have him read it. I have had to keep hiding you and only writing when she is not here I don't see what is the big deal. It's only a Journal . I mean it's not like a committed a crime or any thing. I was not told what they discussed and he is going to write her when he has tine to speak with me. I have tried to catch all of the owls coming into the house . We haven't said a word to each other since the whole thing started . I kind of like not having to hear he nagging at me all the time.
August 13 1991
I have to go tomorrow moaning. I don't want to go!!! He says that I should bring my journal and he wants to talk about the way I have been behaving lately. He says that he is concerned. He said in the letter that after our talk tomorrow he would have a better idea of what was going on in my head. I have several things going on in my head right now. I wonder if he really wants to know what I am thinking right now.
August 14 1991
Oh, it was funny!!! He wasn't wanting to deal with me at all. He wanted to talk about Gran. She still thinks it was all about me. He is worried that she is having a rough time dealing with what happened to mom and dad. He brought her in about an hour later and started to talk to he r. She was furious when he asked her "And how dose that make you feel". So, I am grounded. She thinks that I told him some horrible story about her and that's why he did that. She is so mad that he believed me and that it was just more proof that I have problems. I would rather be in Snape's class than here right now. I need to find a good place to hide you. She is on a mission to find you to prove that I am the one that needs the help and this book is her 'key'. She is really beginning to lose it.
August 19 1991
I have finished all of my home work. All but DADA, I cant stand to even look at those books. I really don't like that man. I cant stand being grounded. I am not allowed to leave the house at all. So, I was actually thinking about sneaking out or something. There is a Muggle town within walking distance of the house and I might just go there and see a movie or just walk around. Any thing sounds better that being here.
August 20 1991
Here is just a little bit of information that may come in useful to me in the future. If you are Neville Longbottom Don't Sneak Out!!! It is only a matter of time before you are caught. I did have fun until then though. I went to a movie and walked around the mall. I was the happiest that I had been in a long time. I was almost certain that I was going to get away with it. I crawled through the window to find a trashed room and my Grandmother sitting in a corner with my journal just staring almost Snape like. She threw the book at me then shut and sealed the window and door magically. Then she screamed at me from the other side "I hope you had fun." I am not allowed to leave at all. She brings me my food and I can only go to the bathroom or shower at certain times of the day. And even then she stands out side that door and waits. I cant wait to go to school.
August 23 1991
Well Gran took me back to the doctor. She told him about the "incident" a couple of days ago. She looked so smug when she cane to get me when it was time to go. I told him every thing that she has been doing to me and that didn't go over to well with her. He told her how it was unhealthy to have me locked up like that and it could be child abuse and all kinds of things that sounded really good and like they were going to get me out of trouble. I think to much. I am still locked in my room and nothing else has changed either. She has decided that I do not have to see him any more. He apparently had no right to tell her how she could and could not punish her grandson. Snape just keeps looking better and better.
September 1 1991
Its so nice to be out of that house. Harry and Ron were on the train and 'Mione was talking to me the whole time and all through dinner as well. There was a roomer going around that they took the Weasley's flying car and flew it to school. It was apparently flown in to the Womping willow in front of the school and was going to be expelled. I had the hardest time hiding my disappointment when I found out they only got detention or whatever. It must be nice to be him and not get in trouble for anything. I feel silly now I was down in the Common room telling them how brilliant it was, all the time wanting to do a little dance because he was going to have to go back home. I should have known better. Well I now need to sleep.
September 2 1991
Oh God must love me! This whole summer was only to make me appreciate school and the people hear. I had no idea that I was going to get the best news of my life when I got here. It just keeps getting better and better. She is here. The girl I saw over Christmas break. The one I was almost obsessed with. She is a first year Ravenclaw. I still don't know her name but that is not important now. I also got to watch Ron open a howler. That also made my day. My day was great then came DADA. We had to take a test to see how much we knew about him. He said that it was to see if we read the books over the summer. The man is so fake. He released a bunch of pixies in the class room. I was lifted by my ears and then hung from a chandelier while the bloody man ran from the room and left the kids to clean up his mess. Even after all of that I am still giggling about her being here.
September 11 1991
Its been So much fun watching Potter dodge Lockhart in the halls. Lock hart thinks that Harry is good for publicity. I still really want to kick the man. Ron from what I heard spent the day with slugs?! He had tried to curse Malfoy with a broken wand after he called 'Mione a mudblood. So the rest of his afternoon was spent spiting up slugs at Hagrids. I know that he shouldn't have said that and that he was more that likely just showing off the new word that he learned over the summer but, 'Mione Hun you are. I mean you are not exactly a 'pure' blood and she isn't half. So what left, But then again look at who is saying it. Now who wants to tell me that He is all wizard. I mean the hair says it all. I have to go and pretend to care about Ron and Harry's detention experience.
September 13 1991
Everyone in this school knows everything about every one else's business and no one knows who this girl is.. Crap Ron' s rat is attaching Trevor.
September 17 1991
Harry has avoided trouble once again. The ghosts are now helping him get out of trouble. He brags about things way too much. He is on my list of people to kick. That is a pretty long list.
October 1 1991
Snape hates me. I have had so much home work in potions lately. I still don't know her name. Ginny and 'Mione where talking to her and some other girls that were first years and 'Mione said something that was about some spell or something and she corrected her. So not only is she brave but she is smart. I have been wanting to walk up to her intro duce my self and ask her to study or eat with me some time. I have this lack of guts that has been preventing it.
October 4 1991
Well I did it. I walked up to her and Said something that sounded to me like her have my heart and dance on it. She said that she would think about the studying thing and she didn't know if we were allowed to eat at other tables. Which I was then told by the twins that meant " go away you loser and leave me alone." Oh why did I do that. And in front to the twins.
October 9 1991
The twins were wrong, imagine that. She came and asked me to study with her almost every night now since I had asked her. She is really nice. She thinks that I am funny, getting into those accident on purpose. I am trying to be more me with her that I usually am with people. Ron's little sister doesn't like her much She is as bad as 'Mione to me. I also thinks she likes me. Well that is what Ron told me any way. I think its more that she wants Harry but I don't seem as hard to work for.
October 12 1991
Emily is smartest person I have meet at this school. She is helping me with my work and well, she hasn't been wrong yet. She hates Herbology. Which is good, because I can do that stuff. We really don't do much home work when we get together in the library. We spend more time talking and things like that. I have told her about last year. She agrees with me about Harry. Its nice to have some one to talk to.
October 20 1991
I need to write more often. I have the worst memory and when I don't write I am so afraid that I will for get things. I am getting better at remembering thing though. 'Mione saw me and Emily in the library. She was helping me with a potions paper. Which in my opinion she is almost as good as Snape at potions. Oh, it was horrible. I was so embarrassed that I even know these people. Her and Ginny came over and sat down at the table and they began to talk to me about her. It was all roomers that have been going around about her. It was stuff like her cheating on things and her parents buying her grades in classes and that she has not got any friends that are actually her friends. It was all a bunch of crap that they more than likely started. 'Mione doesn't like her because Emily is showing her up grade wise. She got mad and left. I haven't been able to talk to her since. Every time I try some one rags me away. I was assigned to work with 'Mione on a project in charms and I refused to do anything. She also felt that she had to help me with an extra credit paper that Snape was forced to give me when I missed class because Ron's wand backfired and turned my quill into a lizard and it began to attack me. I had points taken for cheating on the bloody extra credit thing. It sounded to much like 'Mione for his taste.
October 23 1991
I wrote Emily and sent her an owl so that she would get it. The letter explained how sorry I was and that I really don't like those people. I tried to talk to her after breakfast but I was intercepted by Ron and she was gone. She did write back saying that she wasn't mad and that if we needed to say something that owling works until they find something to distract them from torture Neville.
October 27 1991
I hope that Harry and the rest of those idiots get turned into something small and squishy. They figured out that Emily was the one sending me not my Gran Like I was telling them. They went through my stuff. 'Mione and Ginny and kept me in the common room while Harry and Ron opened my trunk and threw my stuff all over the room to try and find the letters on 'that book that I am always writing in'. I think that's what Ron called it anyways. I have been keeping things with me that I think are important. What really got me was that after not being to find anything that they felt was important they left my stuff everywhere and they came and asked me where I kept it and then told me what they were doing . I think that they actually expected me to tell them what they wanted to know. Ginny had left the argument and was sitting in the corner and writing in an really old looking diary. She was acting real strange about it too. Like she was paranoid about anyone seeing the diary. I don't think any one else saw her.
October 31 1991
Dinner was the best ever. Harry and the others went to Nick's Death Day party. So, I walked over and sat with Emily, it was nice. Aw.but after was better. We were all heading back to our common rooms and on a wall was a creepy message about the Chamber of Secrets being opened and guess who was there first. Harry and the rest of the Potter gang. They were standing over a petrified Mrs. Norris. Emily was trying her best not to laugh while we watched the care taker almost kill Harry in front of the whole school. Then Malfoy saw what was going on and began to scream warnings out to all the Mudbloods that they would be next. I mumbled to Emily that I wonder if this Heir would take requests on who to get next. Laughing at something like this was something that I don't think that Malfoy expected to see me doing. He gave me the strangest look. He was standing in front of me and maybe he heard me. Either way it was a funny look.
November 3 1991
'Mione asked Binns about the Chamber in class today. He was so thrown by the interest of the kids in something he had to say that he broke his normal routine and told the story. Salazar Slytherin had made this chamber when the school was built and that it has some kind of monster inside. People have looked for this Chamber but no one can find it. Every thing at this school is so dramatic. The Potter gang is now trying to find the answers to the questions that Binns could not.
November 9 1991
We had our first Quiddich game today. Harry was attacked by a bludger. It is hard to write and laugh at that same time. He fell from his broom and broke his arm. Lockhart 'fixed' it by removing all the bones in his arm. Is it wrong to laugh at that? He has to stay in the hospital wing and regrow all of those bones. Which I have heard hurts like you would not believe. Oh this is too good.
November 10 1991
We were told about a dueling club that we are going to be starting. I signed up. Harry and Ron think that I am doing it because I am almost a Squid like Filch and they went after his cat. So, I guess that they think I am out to protect Trevor. Emily heard me talking to them about it. She doesn't think that I am a Squib. She thinks that I just have a problem focusing.
November 22 1991
Emily is going to go home for Christmas. I got the distinct feeling that she didn't want to do so. I was going to ask why, but she said that she didn't want to talk about it so I left it alone. I may ask her latter when she doesn't seen so mad about it. I am also thinking of asking her to come and visit me during the break.
November 26 1991
Oh, I think that I might drown in all of the homework that Snape has been giving. I think that he is mad about something. He has been grumpier that usual. I wonder what has made him so mad.?
November 30 1991
Why do teachers think that homework is a good idea? I mean I don't really want to think about their classes outside of class. I am also fairly sure that they don't want to think about the students outside of class either. I have 7 reports to write and they are due in the morning.
December 1 1991
We have the dueling club thing next week and I may die in there. Gran sent me a letter saying that we are going to go and see family over the break and not going to go to St. Mongo's. I don't know if this is good or bad. Ginny has been acting real strange lately. I don't really know how to describe it either. I would go and ask her if she is okay, but the last guy that went up and just talked to her. Well he ended up dating her with out even knowing he was. That whole family is off . Crap FredandGeorge have Trevor.
December 4 1991
Potter and his Gang are up to something. They are doing a lot of whispering, hiding in the common room, and in general just trying to be sneaker than they can be with out looking suspicious. They are all staying for break which makes me really glad that I am not.
December 5 1991
I was in the hall and some kids were trying to sale some things that are going to protect the people from the 'big evil' that is trying to kill off the students. I bought an onion that smelled bad and is this really ugly green, a pointy crystal thingy, and a newts tail that I think has gone rotten. Every one thinks that I would only buy these things so that I would not get attacked. That's just fine that they think that. I actually bought the pointy thing cause it was pretty I am going to give the onion and the newts tail to my Gran for Christmas. I couldn't just give her nothing. So I thought that it would be a good gift to give to someone that you, well, I have to go hide these things before the twins get the bright idea to make them do things other than smell.
December 8 1991
The dueling club thing was today. Oh, and I figured out why Snape has been in a bad mood for the past month. Lockhart was teaching the club. His assistant was Snape. I would have found it funny if Snape just killed him in front of every one. He looked like he could have if he was given a chance. We were paired off into groups of two and were told to practice. That was just a bad idea. Every one just starting fighting and it was, well, it was funny to watch 'Mione get thrown around. Me and Justin were asked to demonstrate how to disarm an opponent. Snape put a stop to that quickly and I do think him for it. Potter and Malfoy had to go instead. The only interesting thing that can say came out of this was that now every one know that potter can talk to snakes. Any one else surprised?!
December 10 1991
We have had three more attacks. Justin, Colin, and Nearly Headless Nick are all in the hospital wing. Everyone is now thinking that Harry is responsible. Peeves has a song and dance that he has started doing around the school. I like it. I think that he should have it played on the radio. Harry needs to learn to just stay with a group of people and not to wonder away. That way he will not be accused of being the Heir.
January 4 1992
Why does my family have to so strange? I didn't bring my journal on this trip. I didn't want to have my Gran trying to find itat. . I spent the whole break avoiding small children who wanted to know why i did not have a mommy or a daddy. they decided that they must not love me any more thats why i live with grandma. Ther had to be at least 50 people in that house. I had to sleep on the couch in the living room. which wasnt very plesent. I was where i could hear every thing that they said about me and my Gran. they thought that i was asleep. they think that Gran is crazy for keepung me and that she should have given me away to a nice family that was able to handle a child. I am aparently fat, stupid, and of no use to the wizarding world. I have the nicest family. my presants were all really expensive so hen i returned them i got back a ton of money. i really hope that we don't have to go back there next year. I think that I would have to kill a bunch of people if we did. I don't understand people. the train ride home was nice. I cot to talk to Emily. her family is about as bad as mine. they don't like her. her mom and dad were both from the wizarding world. they got a divorce and the dad got the kids because that mom didn't want them. she has to older brothers, that do to Drumstrags. he remarried a lady that is muglgle born and she resents Emily because she is a tinge more powerful than her . which isn't her fault, she is only working with the power she was given. even if it was bad things that I was hearing it was still nice to talk to some one. i have been thinking that I would ask Emily to be my girl friend, but I don't think that i am ready to handle that one just yet. January 6 1992 Potter has been walking around here like his puppy just died. 'Mione has been in the hospital for most of the break. All either of them will say is that she is sick. I also heard them talking to each other about break and how "If its not Draco than Who?" and " Can you believe that she turned into a cat." I wish I could have been here to take pictures of that. I could have used Collins camera, I mean he has no use for it right now, and I am sure that 'Mione would not want to forget the year that she turned her self into a cat.
January 12 1992
Snape is so mean. The sad thing is, I can under stand why. If I was him I would be too. I may act scared of him but he is really good at what he does. Know one seems to want to give him any respect for just that. I wish he didn't hate me so much. Gran said once that my dad had told her he had caught Snape more than once with Death Eaters and Dumbledore just let him go. My dad said he was a spy before it came out in his trial. If it is true I have more respect for the man than I did before. That's a very dangerous thing to be involved in and to have in come out in trial. I may need to start on the home work for his class now instead of writing about him in this.
January 17 1992
I got a C in potions. I think that he thinks that I cheated but just cant prove it. I don't really care I got a C. I wrote Gran and she sent me some candy and other snack things. Emily and I are going to go to the kitchens and get something to eat on the astronomy tower. I am so happy. I may actually make the D that I get in the class this year.
January 18 1992
Well I had a wonderful day and last night wasn't that bad either. I almost asked her out but didn't. I am only 12 I don't think that I need to worry about a girlfriend right now. I kind of like things the way they are now. 'Mione wont be out of the hospital wing till February so its been real nice. Ginny is getting strange all she does is sit and write in that diary. Sometimes she gets up and walks out of the tower in a daze and returns looking terrified. She is beginning to worry me.
January 20 1992
I was thinking of getting Emily something for Valentines Day, but I don't know what yet. Ginny is really beginning to scare me now. She acts like she is scared of that diary of hers. She wont let anyone touch it. Its real, I don't know but I wish some one else would notice it.
January 29 1992
I found this cute little necklace with a blue and bronze charm on it. I am going to give it to Emily for Valentines Day. Um. Okay Ginny just ran out of here with that diary. She has been sitting around staring at it nervously at the thing for a couple of days and she doesn't talk to any one anymore. I wonder what made her run off like that.
January 30 1992
Okay, I saw Ginny run out of here like a mad woman. She came back in like nothing had happened and she look relived, like some huge burden had been lifted from her. I then saw Potter and Ron come back from seeing 'Mione. They had Ginny's diary. It was all wet like it had been in the lake or something. I heard them whispering about a T. M. Riddle and how nothing was written in the diary at all. I really want to look at the diary. Ginny wrote in the thing every day and constantly there has to be something in that diary. I would think that maybe she had put a charm on it so that no one could read it. With out 'Mione there is no way that they would ever be able to figure out how to do any thing. But the person is Ginny and she isn't smart enough to know how to do any thing like that.
January 31 1992
I was talking to Emily about yesterday. She said that she saw Ron and Potter going into the girls bathroom that was flooding and they came out with a book. We both want to find this book and see what is in it. They are up to something. WE are now trying to find out every thing that we cam from what we know. Like who is this T. M. Riddle?
February 8 1992
'Mione has been back for a couple for days. They have been sitting around and trying to find out how to use that diary, and talking about what they know about Riddle. He is apparently like Percy, but Slytherin. Emily and I met in the library. Her grandma was a 6th year when the chamber of secrets was first opened. Tom Riddle was a 5th year and he was the one who caught the person responsible for the whole mess. Hagrid. He was with a monster when he was caught. Tom was a big hero and won all kinds of awards. We still want the diary but Harry keeps it locked in his trunk. The more I talk to Emily the more she reminds me of Malfoy. She knows more than a first year should know and there are times when she has that I am better that you because I am a pure blood attitude.
February 14 1992
I gave Emily her present. She gave me a new journal and some quills and this really colorful ink. She saw that my journal was almost full and thought that I needed a new one. Potter got all kinds of singing telegrams. Lockharts idea, he thought that it would be a good idea to have the day all about the holiday. He suggested that we ask Snape about a love potion. The look he gave the school was great. It was this try it and die a slow painful death look. I wish that I could give looks like that.
March 3 1992
Harry woke up Ron awhile ago to tell him about being sucked into the diary and how Hagrid was the one who was accused of being the one to open the chamber. My it took him a long time to figure that out. I hate him. I am awake now and cant go back to sleep.
March 10 1992
I have been trying to get that diary for over a month now. But I cant pick locks very well. The next Quiddich game is in a week or so and I am going to try and sneak Emily into the dorm so she can try and get it. I have to go and worry about classes now. ' Mione is trying to take every one of them at the same time. I have no idea how she thinks that she is going to pull that one off, But I don't think that I will mind seeing her die trying.
March 23 1992
I hate potions . I wish that I could drop it. He has made a new look for me. Its not as bad as the old one. I also hate when 'Mione tryes to help me. I know that I messed up the potion and I know I need to fix it but it's hard to think with her breathing down my neck. I am not as stupid as they all think.
March 28 1992
Well every thing went as it was planned to. Every one went to the game I let Emily in and then when we went up to Potters room. Well someone had got there first. The place was trashed and the diary was gone. Ginny had run passed us on they way up to the tower. We just thought that she was late to see her lover boy Potter play. 'Mione and Clearwater, Percy's girlfriend, have been petrified and the game was canceled. Emily left and I ran for Harry like a good roommate. He was so up set and I helped him clean every think up. I really should be mean to him. I wonder why 'Mione wasn't at the game?
March 29 1992
Harry and Ron have just left to tell Hagrid what they know. Needless to say it will be a short visit. I think I will stay up and see what this is all about. It could be interesting. Well they got back at around 3 or 4 this morning the talked about Hagrid being taken probably to Azkaban, and Dumbledore is gone and I hold Potter personally responsible for that one. Cause if he is than its all over. They also talked about following spiders. They didn't say to much about it . I think that Ron is scared of them.
March 30 1992
Well he is gone and every one knows it. Stupid Potter! Gran wanted to know if I wanted to come home. I should but I want to see how this all plays out. Mlafoy has been sucking up to Snape. Telling him how wonderful he is and how he should be the next Headmaster. Oh wouldn't that be fun. He would start executing students for fun. That might be good he would start with Potter.
April 1 1992
April fools day and there is no jokes. Not even from there twins. I miss the jokes. I want to have things to go on the way it did before this all happened. Even if the jokes are played on me.
April 12 1992
I have nothing to write about. Everything is so boring. We aren't allowed to do anything. Harry and Ron are up to the same old stuff but I really don't have the energy to care about them. I don't think that they have any idea what to do with out 'Mione there. My wand did "slip" out of my hand and the leg on my desk disappeared when they told us that we are going to have to take tests in June.
April 15 1992
Emily seems so restless. She seems to have all this built up energy and nothing to do with it. Peeves is the same way . I don't think he has broken anything in over a month. I think they may both explode if they don't do something soon. Poor things.
May 3 1992
The Mandrakes will be cut tonight. Ginny was trying to tell Ron and Harry something at dinner. Percy shut her up real fast like he thought what she had to say was about him. She ran away and no one went after her. I thought that maybe I should go after her but she wouldn't talk to me any ways. Poor thing, I wonder what's wrong.
May 5 1992
Potter convinced Lockhart that we could walk a corridor by our selves and they ran off. I was stupid and followed them. They were headed towards Myrtle's bathroom. I hid when McGonagall came out of no where and they told her that they wanted to tell 'Mione that she would be all better soon. I went and hid out side the door to wait for them this has to be the bravest thing that I have ever done. They came out with a piece of paper that said something about a Basilisk and the pipes in the school. They were going back to the bathroom when an announcement went out fro the students to return to their common rooms and that all teachers were to go to the break room. There was a new message and Ginny has gone missing. Poor Ron looked like he could have died right there. I went back to the common room to see what all was going on there. I had my fill of following Potter. Especially since I knew that he was now going after Ginny.
May 7 1992
I should have followed them. I "overheard" them telling 'Mione about what happened. Tom was preserved in the Diary and was feeding off of Ginny to bring himself back. Oh, and he is also "you know who". Hey look at that know one is surprised by that one. Lock Hart was exposed as a fake. The dope took Ron's wand to do a memory charm. He now remembers nothing. Every thing is back to normal here. Dumbledore has decided that all tests are to be suspended and I think that 'Mione cried when she heard that. Harry is also the hero of a small house elf named Dobby. We have nothing to do until time to go home. I may not write unless something interesting happens I have very little paper left in this book and I want to start with a new school year in that one.
June 17 1992
I have had nothing to do this whole time. Emily and I have been sitting around with her friends and watching the giant squid. I was wondering out loud if it was always that big or if the twins had something to do with it. So we have been trying to find out. The only person we haven't asked is Snape and I hope that he isn't the only one who knows the secret of the giant squid. Dumbledore just giggles and walks away maybe he did it. Wow, my life is boring. Harry has gone back to being the school golden boy and is once again become the butt of many jokes. Malfoy has been moping around like someone just killed his puppy. It's really sad. We are going to be allowed to go home earlier than we usually are. I think that the teachers are tired of having us around. I hope they get a good teacher for DADA. I really don't want another Lockhart. I have to go. I have to figure out this Giant squid thing before it drives me crazy. I have this theory that he is really "you know who" in disguise because all of the strange things that go on here are related to him or are him. For a school that is meant to be safe from all of this stuff because of our fearless leader Dumbledore, "you know who" sure shows up here a lot.
June 25 1992
I am headed home tomorrow morning and I am not too sure I want to do home. I kind of like it here. I don't want to have to talk to Gran. I don't want to go through what I did last summer. I did not find out what happened to the squid, but I will find out. If I have free time next year. Emily and I have agreed to write when we can and maybe do something over the summer. Its nice to have a friend. Well I have to go pack. You know I just realized that I haven't seem Trevor in about 2 months. I wonder where he is? Maybe he became snake food, or Fred and George did something to him.
I love not having to go to class. I would love it even more if 'Mione would stop sending me owls. She keeps asking me if I have heard from Harry. Like I care enough to write his majesty Potter, or like he would bother to lift a quill and acknowledge my existence. Maybe if I stop writing back she will stop too. I cant, it would make her worry and write more and I don't think that I could write any thing to discourage her from writing back, or ever again. She is so annoying. In a week or so we are going back to St. Mingo's. Gran is up set by the reports that the doctor has been sending to her. They are doing pretty bad from what I hear. I really don't want to go. Do you think that she would buy that I am sick? I have been sleeping a lot. Hey look an owl is attacking my window.
July 12, 1991
I couldn't sleep. I have the worlds most boring life. My Gran is trying to get me to take Quidditch lessons from her friends grandson. He is like some kind of professional or something like that. I am refusing to do it. I don't want to get on a broom again after my near death experience last year. Oh, yeah look at the sun. I have to go and pack for my trip. Gran decided that we should leave early. She thinks that the more we are with them the better they will be. I hate the fact that she thinks that keeping me in that dark about things is going to help me. I am getting tired of having to be her source of positive energy. I don't want to pretend to be upbeat and happy all the time.
July 15.1991
Sleep. I like sleep. I wish I could sleep. I have been having to take potions to sleep. I wake up and I feel like I didn't sleep at all. I want to go back to school so I can get away from all of this. I went to see mom and dad once and I cant go back. My dad was screaming at on of the doctors when we got there, he had apparently interrupted him while he was directing the symphony. My mom wasn't allowed to have visitors she was so bad. Gran is so tore up by all of this. She hasn't stopped crying and is very bad at hiding it from me. She just says that her eyes are watering I know she is trying to protect me from all the hurt like a good grandma, but I just wish that she would realize that she cant make things better and that hiding it from me isn't going to make things better for me. She just came in, I need to go and see what she has to say about her visit.
July 21,1991
Gram Decided that we could go home because we weren't doing any good there. So, for the first time in a long time I got to sleep in my own bed. I slept for around 28 hours, and I am still sleepy. I have to stay awake for a while, I think that I scared Gran a little. I had started writing because I had this dream, but I cant remember it now. I have a billion or so letters to reply to from 'Mione. I am thinking that I should send them all back with a note saying that I no longer exist and that she should leave me alone, but that would be mean and I'm Neville.
July 22,1991
I wrote back to 'Mione and told her that I was on vacation and blah, blah, blah. Well she was upset with me because I didn't tell her that I was leaving on vacation and I only wrote back to all of her letters with only one. I was mad and wrote back, I never meant to send it. I told her that I didn't really care if Harry wasn't writing her and that if she was wanting to talk to some one who did then she should write Ron and leave me alone. The next thing I knew I was letting the owl out the window. I feel like doing a little dance. I should be moody more often. I should have told her exactly what I thought of her. Oh, that would have been great.
July 25,1991
She wrote back. Took her long enough. She said that she was sorry and would no longer be bugging me. I think she wanted me to feel bad and write back telling her how sorry I was for snapping at her, but I am not. I don't really care if she never speaks to me again. I know that will never happen, but it's a nice thought. Only one month till school starts. I cant wait till it dose. I want out of here so bad and I have missed Snape so much. I have a feeling that this will be a worse year than last year.
July 30, 1991
I have started my homework in the classes that I can do until I get my book list. I am really board. I have nothing to do and I am still grounded for not wanting to learn to play Quidditch with her friends son. So, unless I change my mind and get on a broom, I can't go anywhere. Hey, stuck in here isn't as bad as killing myself on a broom. I wonder who the DADA teacher is going to be. I think that Harry killed the last one. I hope that they find a better one that Harry cant kill. They should give Snape the job. Maybe then he would be happy. He would be good at the job. He looks like someone who would be good at the dark arts. I wonder if he can be happy?
August 3 1991
I had Gran write Dumbledore to ask for a list of my books and thing I need for next year. She was so happy that I wanted to get a head start on next years school work that she didn't write the letter she went personally to see him to ask and then went right to buy my things. I didn't have to go with her to shop for any thing. When she cane home with all of my things I almost started to cry. I want to do to another school. A man, well I think it is a man anyways, Named Gilderoy Lockhart is the new DADA teacher. That man is more annoying than 'Mione, and that's saying a lot. I have never met the man personally, but my Gran and her friends are obsessed with him. From what I have seen in his pictures on the books and things make me want to kick him. All of his book ( the grand total comes to 7) is on the list of required reading and text for his class. I read about two pages of the first book and well the man seems like a big fake. Gran thinks he is just the most wonderful person and that I will just love him. You know he kind of reminds me of a mix of Potter and 'Mione.
August 5 1991
Gran is up set about every thing these days. She started crying at dinner the other night because I have no friends. Okay, I have never had friends. She never lets me go any where and I cant do anything she doesn't think is appropriate. Which is any thing that involves me having fun. All I can do is stay in this house and keep her company. I don't really lie any one at school and she thinks that is just wrong. She says that I am not social enough and I need to be. Then the real reason for this whole feel bad for me because I am crying came out. She wants me to go with her to a party that her friend is having. She says that it will help me be more social and crap like that. 'Cause I want to have more strange people poor babying the little screw-up with the crazy parents. I get enough of that at home and school why dose she want to put me through more. Why cant people just leave me alone? I don't want friend and I don't want to be social. I like things the way they are. I can't believe that she went to all of the trouble of crying and everything to guilt me into going with her. Every one and their dog is going to be there. I hope I can find a nice empty corner to hide in.
August 12 1991
I fell asleep with you on my bed last night. Gran came in to check on me and read the last thing I wrote which was the 5th. She wants me to see a doctor like mom and dads. I am according to her angry and depressed and that's not normal and I need help. I was not allowed to write since she found it. She says that she doesn't want me to keep thing bottled up. She thinks that I should talk to her about what I am feeling. We went to the party and I left through a fire place in another room. I searched the house and couldn't find a thing. I got back just in time to come right back home. She had it in her purse the whole time. She wanted to keep an eye on it. She left this morning to see the doctor about me and left her purse on her bed. Thank god that she for got to take you with her. She said that she was going to have him read it. I have had to keep hiding you and only writing when she is not here I don't see what is the big deal. It's only a Journal . I mean it's not like a committed a crime or any thing. I was not told what they discussed and he is going to write her when he has tine to speak with me. I have tried to catch all of the owls coming into the house . We haven't said a word to each other since the whole thing started . I kind of like not having to hear he nagging at me all the time.
August 13 1991
I have to go tomorrow moaning. I don't want to go!!! He says that I should bring my journal and he wants to talk about the way I have been behaving lately. He says that he is concerned. He said in the letter that after our talk tomorrow he would have a better idea of what was going on in my head. I have several things going on in my head right now. I wonder if he really wants to know what I am thinking right now.
August 14 1991
Oh, it was funny!!! He wasn't wanting to deal with me at all. He wanted to talk about Gran. She still thinks it was all about me. He is worried that she is having a rough time dealing with what happened to mom and dad. He brought her in about an hour later and started to talk to he r. She was furious when he asked her "And how dose that make you feel". So, I am grounded. She thinks that I told him some horrible story about her and that's why he did that. She is so mad that he believed me and that it was just more proof that I have problems. I would rather be in Snape's class than here right now. I need to find a good place to hide you. She is on a mission to find you to prove that I am the one that needs the help and this book is her 'key'. She is really beginning to lose it.
August 19 1991
I have finished all of my home work. All but DADA, I cant stand to even look at those books. I really don't like that man. I cant stand being grounded. I am not allowed to leave the house at all. So, I was actually thinking about sneaking out or something. There is a Muggle town within walking distance of the house and I might just go there and see a movie or just walk around. Any thing sounds better that being here.
August 20 1991
Here is just a little bit of information that may come in useful to me in the future. If you are Neville Longbottom Don't Sneak Out!!! It is only a matter of time before you are caught. I did have fun until then though. I went to a movie and walked around the mall. I was the happiest that I had been in a long time. I was almost certain that I was going to get away with it. I crawled through the window to find a trashed room and my Grandmother sitting in a corner with my journal just staring almost Snape like. She threw the book at me then shut and sealed the window and door magically. Then she screamed at me from the other side "I hope you had fun." I am not allowed to leave at all. She brings me my food and I can only go to the bathroom or shower at certain times of the day. And even then she stands out side that door and waits. I cant wait to go to school.
August 23 1991
Well Gran took me back to the doctor. She told him about the "incident" a couple of days ago. She looked so smug when she cane to get me when it was time to go. I told him every thing that she has been doing to me and that didn't go over to well with her. He told her how it was unhealthy to have me locked up like that and it could be child abuse and all kinds of things that sounded really good and like they were going to get me out of trouble. I think to much. I am still locked in my room and nothing else has changed either. She has decided that I do not have to see him any more. He apparently had no right to tell her how she could and could not punish her grandson. Snape just keeps looking better and better.
September 1 1991
Its so nice to be out of that house. Harry and Ron were on the train and 'Mione was talking to me the whole time and all through dinner as well. There was a roomer going around that they took the Weasley's flying car and flew it to school. It was apparently flown in to the Womping willow in front of the school and was going to be expelled. I had the hardest time hiding my disappointment when I found out they only got detention or whatever. It must be nice to be him and not get in trouble for anything. I feel silly now I was down in the Common room telling them how brilliant it was, all the time wanting to do a little dance because he was going to have to go back home. I should have known better. Well I now need to sleep.
September 2 1991
Oh God must love me! This whole summer was only to make me appreciate school and the people hear. I had no idea that I was going to get the best news of my life when I got here. It just keeps getting better and better. She is here. The girl I saw over Christmas break. The one I was almost obsessed with. She is a first year Ravenclaw. I still don't know her name but that is not important now. I also got to watch Ron open a howler. That also made my day. My day was great then came DADA. We had to take a test to see how much we knew about him. He said that it was to see if we read the books over the summer. The man is so fake. He released a bunch of pixies in the class room. I was lifted by my ears and then hung from a chandelier while the bloody man ran from the room and left the kids to clean up his mess. Even after all of that I am still giggling about her being here.
September 11 1991
Its been So much fun watching Potter dodge Lockhart in the halls. Lock hart thinks that Harry is good for publicity. I still really want to kick the man. Ron from what I heard spent the day with slugs?! He had tried to curse Malfoy with a broken wand after he called 'Mione a mudblood. So the rest of his afternoon was spent spiting up slugs at Hagrids. I know that he shouldn't have said that and that he was more that likely just showing off the new word that he learned over the summer but, 'Mione Hun you are. I mean you are not exactly a 'pure' blood and she isn't half. So what left, But then again look at who is saying it. Now who wants to tell me that He is all wizard. I mean the hair says it all. I have to go and pretend to care about Ron and Harry's detention experience.
September 13 1991
Everyone in this school knows everything about every one else's business and no one knows who this girl is.. Crap Ron' s rat is attaching Trevor.
September 17 1991
Harry has avoided trouble once again. The ghosts are now helping him get out of trouble. He brags about things way too much. He is on my list of people to kick. That is a pretty long list.
October 1 1991
Snape hates me. I have had so much home work in potions lately. I still don't know her name. Ginny and 'Mione where talking to her and some other girls that were first years and 'Mione said something that was about some spell or something and she corrected her. So not only is she brave but she is smart. I have been wanting to walk up to her intro duce my self and ask her to study or eat with me some time. I have this lack of guts that has been preventing it.
October 4 1991
Well I did it. I walked up to her and Said something that sounded to me like her have my heart and dance on it. She said that she would think about the studying thing and she didn't know if we were allowed to eat at other tables. Which I was then told by the twins that meant " go away you loser and leave me alone." Oh why did I do that. And in front to the twins.
October 9 1991
The twins were wrong, imagine that. She came and asked me to study with her almost every night now since I had asked her. She is really nice. She thinks that I am funny, getting into those accident on purpose. I am trying to be more me with her that I usually am with people. Ron's little sister doesn't like her much She is as bad as 'Mione to me. I also thinks she likes me. Well that is what Ron told me any way. I think its more that she wants Harry but I don't seem as hard to work for.
October 12 1991
Emily is smartest person I have meet at this school. She is helping me with my work and well, she hasn't been wrong yet. She hates Herbology. Which is good, because I can do that stuff. We really don't do much home work when we get together in the library. We spend more time talking and things like that. I have told her about last year. She agrees with me about Harry. Its nice to have some one to talk to.
October 20 1991
I need to write more often. I have the worst memory and when I don't write I am so afraid that I will for get things. I am getting better at remembering thing though. 'Mione saw me and Emily in the library. She was helping me with a potions paper. Which in my opinion she is almost as good as Snape at potions. Oh, it was horrible. I was so embarrassed that I even know these people. Her and Ginny came over and sat down at the table and they began to talk to me about her. It was all roomers that have been going around about her. It was stuff like her cheating on things and her parents buying her grades in classes and that she has not got any friends that are actually her friends. It was all a bunch of crap that they more than likely started. 'Mione doesn't like her because Emily is showing her up grade wise. She got mad and left. I haven't been able to talk to her since. Every time I try some one rags me away. I was assigned to work with 'Mione on a project in charms and I refused to do anything. She also felt that she had to help me with an extra credit paper that Snape was forced to give me when I missed class because Ron's wand backfired and turned my quill into a lizard and it began to attack me. I had points taken for cheating on the bloody extra credit thing. It sounded to much like 'Mione for his taste.
October 23 1991
I wrote Emily and sent her an owl so that she would get it. The letter explained how sorry I was and that I really don't like those people. I tried to talk to her after breakfast but I was intercepted by Ron and she was gone. She did write back saying that she wasn't mad and that if we needed to say something that owling works until they find something to distract them from torture Neville.
October 27 1991
I hope that Harry and the rest of those idiots get turned into something small and squishy. They figured out that Emily was the one sending me not my Gran Like I was telling them. They went through my stuff. 'Mione and Ginny and kept me in the common room while Harry and Ron opened my trunk and threw my stuff all over the room to try and find the letters on 'that book that I am always writing in'. I think that's what Ron called it anyways. I have been keeping things with me that I think are important. What really got me was that after not being to find anything that they felt was important they left my stuff everywhere and they came and asked me where I kept it and then told me what they were doing . I think that they actually expected me to tell them what they wanted to know. Ginny had left the argument and was sitting in the corner and writing in an really old looking diary. She was acting real strange about it too. Like she was paranoid about anyone seeing the diary. I don't think any one else saw her.
October 31 1991
Dinner was the best ever. Harry and the others went to Nick's Death Day party. So, I walked over and sat with Emily, it was nice. Aw.but after was better. We were all heading back to our common rooms and on a wall was a creepy message about the Chamber of Secrets being opened and guess who was there first. Harry and the rest of the Potter gang. They were standing over a petrified Mrs. Norris. Emily was trying her best not to laugh while we watched the care taker almost kill Harry in front of the whole school. Then Malfoy saw what was going on and began to scream warnings out to all the Mudbloods that they would be next. I mumbled to Emily that I wonder if this Heir would take requests on who to get next. Laughing at something like this was something that I don't think that Malfoy expected to see me doing. He gave me the strangest look. He was standing in front of me and maybe he heard me. Either way it was a funny look.
November 3 1991
'Mione asked Binns about the Chamber in class today. He was so thrown by the interest of the kids in something he had to say that he broke his normal routine and told the story. Salazar Slytherin had made this chamber when the school was built and that it has some kind of monster inside. People have looked for this Chamber but no one can find it. Every thing at this school is so dramatic. The Potter gang is now trying to find the answers to the questions that Binns could not.
November 9 1991
We had our first Quiddich game today. Harry was attacked by a bludger. It is hard to write and laugh at that same time. He fell from his broom and broke his arm. Lockhart 'fixed' it by removing all the bones in his arm. Is it wrong to laugh at that? He has to stay in the hospital wing and regrow all of those bones. Which I have heard hurts like you would not believe. Oh this is too good.
November 10 1991
We were told about a dueling club that we are going to be starting. I signed up. Harry and Ron think that I am doing it because I am almost a Squid like Filch and they went after his cat. So, I guess that they think I am out to protect Trevor. Emily heard me talking to them about it. She doesn't think that I am a Squib. She thinks that I just have a problem focusing.
November 22 1991
Emily is going to go home for Christmas. I got the distinct feeling that she didn't want to do so. I was going to ask why, but she said that she didn't want to talk about it so I left it alone. I may ask her latter when she doesn't seen so mad about it. I am also thinking of asking her to come and visit me during the break.
November 26 1991
Oh, I think that I might drown in all of the homework that Snape has been giving. I think that he is mad about something. He has been grumpier that usual. I wonder what has made him so mad.?
November 30 1991
Why do teachers think that homework is a good idea? I mean I don't really want to think about their classes outside of class. I am also fairly sure that they don't want to think about the students outside of class either. I have 7 reports to write and they are due in the morning.
December 1 1991
We have the dueling club thing next week and I may die in there. Gran sent me a letter saying that we are going to go and see family over the break and not going to go to St. Mongo's. I don't know if this is good or bad. Ginny has been acting real strange lately. I don't really know how to describe it either. I would go and ask her if she is okay, but the last guy that went up and just talked to her. Well he ended up dating her with out even knowing he was. That whole family is off . Crap FredandGeorge have Trevor.
December 4 1991
Potter and his Gang are up to something. They are doing a lot of whispering, hiding in the common room, and in general just trying to be sneaker than they can be with out looking suspicious. They are all staying for break which makes me really glad that I am not.
December 5 1991
I was in the hall and some kids were trying to sale some things that are going to protect the people from the 'big evil' that is trying to kill off the students. I bought an onion that smelled bad and is this really ugly green, a pointy crystal thingy, and a newts tail that I think has gone rotten. Every one thinks that I would only buy these things so that I would not get attacked. That's just fine that they think that. I actually bought the pointy thing cause it was pretty I am going to give the onion and the newts tail to my Gran for Christmas. I couldn't just give her nothing. So I thought that it would be a good gift to give to someone that you, well, I have to go hide these things before the twins get the bright idea to make them do things other than smell.
December 8 1991
The dueling club thing was today. Oh, and I figured out why Snape has been in a bad mood for the past month. Lockhart was teaching the club. His assistant was Snape. I would have found it funny if Snape just killed him in front of every one. He looked like he could have if he was given a chance. We were paired off into groups of two and were told to practice. That was just a bad idea. Every one just starting fighting and it was, well, it was funny to watch 'Mione get thrown around. Me and Justin were asked to demonstrate how to disarm an opponent. Snape put a stop to that quickly and I do think him for it. Potter and Malfoy had to go instead. The only interesting thing that can say came out of this was that now every one know that potter can talk to snakes. Any one else surprised?!
December 10 1991
We have had three more attacks. Justin, Colin, and Nearly Headless Nick are all in the hospital wing. Everyone is now thinking that Harry is responsible. Peeves has a song and dance that he has started doing around the school. I like it. I think that he should have it played on the radio. Harry needs to learn to just stay with a group of people and not to wonder away. That way he will not be accused of being the Heir.
January 4 1992
Why does my family have to so strange? I didn't bring my journal on this trip. I didn't want to have my Gran trying to find itat. . I spent the whole break avoiding small children who wanted to know why i did not have a mommy or a daddy. they decided that they must not love me any more thats why i live with grandma. Ther had to be at least 50 people in that house. I had to sleep on the couch in the living room. which wasnt very plesent. I was where i could hear every thing that they said about me and my Gran. they thought that i was asleep. they think that Gran is crazy for keepung me and that she should have given me away to a nice family that was able to handle a child. I am aparently fat, stupid, and of no use to the wizarding world. I have the nicest family. my presants were all really expensive so hen i returned them i got back a ton of money. i really hope that we don't have to go back there next year. I think that I would have to kill a bunch of people if we did. I don't understand people. the train ride home was nice. I cot to talk to Emily. her family is about as bad as mine. they don't like her. her mom and dad were both from the wizarding world. they got a divorce and the dad got the kids because that mom didn't want them. she has to older brothers, that do to Drumstrags. he remarried a lady that is muglgle born and she resents Emily because she is a tinge more powerful than her . which isn't her fault, she is only working with the power she was given. even if it was bad things that I was hearing it was still nice to talk to some one. i have been thinking that I would ask Emily to be my girl friend, but I don't think that i am ready to handle that one just yet. January 6 1992 Potter has been walking around here like his puppy just died. 'Mione has been in the hospital for most of the break. All either of them will say is that she is sick. I also heard them talking to each other about break and how "If its not Draco than Who?" and " Can you believe that she turned into a cat." I wish I could have been here to take pictures of that. I could have used Collins camera, I mean he has no use for it right now, and I am sure that 'Mione would not want to forget the year that she turned her self into a cat.
January 12 1992
Snape is so mean. The sad thing is, I can under stand why. If I was him I would be too. I may act scared of him but he is really good at what he does. Know one seems to want to give him any respect for just that. I wish he didn't hate me so much. Gran said once that my dad had told her he had caught Snape more than once with Death Eaters and Dumbledore just let him go. My dad said he was a spy before it came out in his trial. If it is true I have more respect for the man than I did before. That's a very dangerous thing to be involved in and to have in come out in trial. I may need to start on the home work for his class now instead of writing about him in this.
January 17 1992
I got a C in potions. I think that he thinks that I cheated but just cant prove it. I don't really care I got a C. I wrote Gran and she sent me some candy and other snack things. Emily and I are going to go to the kitchens and get something to eat on the astronomy tower. I am so happy. I may actually make the D that I get in the class this year.
January 18 1992
Well I had a wonderful day and last night wasn't that bad either. I almost asked her out but didn't. I am only 12 I don't think that I need to worry about a girlfriend right now. I kind of like things the way they are now. 'Mione wont be out of the hospital wing till February so its been real nice. Ginny is getting strange all she does is sit and write in that diary. Sometimes she gets up and walks out of the tower in a daze and returns looking terrified. She is beginning to worry me.
January 20 1992
I was thinking of getting Emily something for Valentines Day, but I don't know what yet. Ginny is really beginning to scare me now. She acts like she is scared of that diary of hers. She wont let anyone touch it. Its real, I don't know but I wish some one else would notice it.
January 29 1992
I found this cute little necklace with a blue and bronze charm on it. I am going to give it to Emily for Valentines Day. Um. Okay Ginny just ran out of here with that diary. She has been sitting around staring at it nervously at the thing for a couple of days and she doesn't talk to any one anymore. I wonder what made her run off like that.
January 30 1992
Okay, I saw Ginny run out of here like a mad woman. She came back in like nothing had happened and she look relived, like some huge burden had been lifted from her. I then saw Potter and Ron come back from seeing 'Mione. They had Ginny's diary. It was all wet like it had been in the lake or something. I heard them whispering about a T. M. Riddle and how nothing was written in the diary at all. I really want to look at the diary. Ginny wrote in the thing every day and constantly there has to be something in that diary. I would think that maybe she had put a charm on it so that no one could read it. With out 'Mione there is no way that they would ever be able to figure out how to do any thing. But the person is Ginny and she isn't smart enough to know how to do any thing like that.
January 31 1992
I was talking to Emily about yesterday. She said that she saw Ron and Potter going into the girls bathroom that was flooding and they came out with a book. We both want to find this book and see what is in it. They are up to something. WE are now trying to find out every thing that we cam from what we know. Like who is this T. M. Riddle?
February 8 1992
'Mione has been back for a couple for days. They have been sitting around and trying to find out how to use that diary, and talking about what they know about Riddle. He is apparently like Percy, but Slytherin. Emily and I met in the library. Her grandma was a 6th year when the chamber of secrets was first opened. Tom Riddle was a 5th year and he was the one who caught the person responsible for the whole mess. Hagrid. He was with a monster when he was caught. Tom was a big hero and won all kinds of awards. We still want the diary but Harry keeps it locked in his trunk. The more I talk to Emily the more she reminds me of Malfoy. She knows more than a first year should know and there are times when she has that I am better that you because I am a pure blood attitude.
February 14 1992
I gave Emily her present. She gave me a new journal and some quills and this really colorful ink. She saw that my journal was almost full and thought that I needed a new one. Potter got all kinds of singing telegrams. Lockharts idea, he thought that it would be a good idea to have the day all about the holiday. He suggested that we ask Snape about a love potion. The look he gave the school was great. It was this try it and die a slow painful death look. I wish that I could give looks like that.
March 3 1992
Harry woke up Ron awhile ago to tell him about being sucked into the diary and how Hagrid was the one who was accused of being the one to open the chamber. My it took him a long time to figure that out. I hate him. I am awake now and cant go back to sleep.
March 10 1992
I have been trying to get that diary for over a month now. But I cant pick locks very well. The next Quiddich game is in a week or so and I am going to try and sneak Emily into the dorm so she can try and get it. I have to go and worry about classes now. ' Mione is trying to take every one of them at the same time. I have no idea how she thinks that she is going to pull that one off, But I don't think that I will mind seeing her die trying.
March 23 1992
I hate potions . I wish that I could drop it. He has made a new look for me. Its not as bad as the old one. I also hate when 'Mione tryes to help me. I know that I messed up the potion and I know I need to fix it but it's hard to think with her breathing down my neck. I am not as stupid as they all think.
March 28 1992
Well every thing went as it was planned to. Every one went to the game I let Emily in and then when we went up to Potters room. Well someone had got there first. The place was trashed and the diary was gone. Ginny had run passed us on they way up to the tower. We just thought that she was late to see her lover boy Potter play. 'Mione and Clearwater, Percy's girlfriend, have been petrified and the game was canceled. Emily left and I ran for Harry like a good roommate. He was so up set and I helped him clean every think up. I really should be mean to him. I wonder why 'Mione wasn't at the game?
March 29 1992
Harry and Ron have just left to tell Hagrid what they know. Needless to say it will be a short visit. I think I will stay up and see what this is all about. It could be interesting. Well they got back at around 3 or 4 this morning the talked about Hagrid being taken probably to Azkaban, and Dumbledore is gone and I hold Potter personally responsible for that one. Cause if he is than its all over. They also talked about following spiders. They didn't say to much about it . I think that Ron is scared of them.
March 30 1992
Well he is gone and every one knows it. Stupid Potter! Gran wanted to know if I wanted to come home. I should but I want to see how this all plays out. Mlafoy has been sucking up to Snape. Telling him how wonderful he is and how he should be the next Headmaster. Oh wouldn't that be fun. He would start executing students for fun. That might be good he would start with Potter.
April 1 1992
April fools day and there is no jokes. Not even from there twins. I miss the jokes. I want to have things to go on the way it did before this all happened. Even if the jokes are played on me.
April 12 1992
I have nothing to write about. Everything is so boring. We aren't allowed to do anything. Harry and Ron are up to the same old stuff but I really don't have the energy to care about them. I don't think that they have any idea what to do with out 'Mione there. My wand did "slip" out of my hand and the leg on my desk disappeared when they told us that we are going to have to take tests in June.
April 15 1992
Emily seems so restless. She seems to have all this built up energy and nothing to do with it. Peeves is the same way . I don't think he has broken anything in over a month. I think they may both explode if they don't do something soon. Poor things.
May 3 1992
The Mandrakes will be cut tonight. Ginny was trying to tell Ron and Harry something at dinner. Percy shut her up real fast like he thought what she had to say was about him. She ran away and no one went after her. I thought that maybe I should go after her but she wouldn't talk to me any ways. Poor thing, I wonder what's wrong.
May 5 1992
Potter convinced Lockhart that we could walk a corridor by our selves and they ran off. I was stupid and followed them. They were headed towards Myrtle's bathroom. I hid when McGonagall came out of no where and they told her that they wanted to tell 'Mione that she would be all better soon. I went and hid out side the door to wait for them this has to be the bravest thing that I have ever done. They came out with a piece of paper that said something about a Basilisk and the pipes in the school. They were going back to the bathroom when an announcement went out fro the students to return to their common rooms and that all teachers were to go to the break room. There was a new message and Ginny has gone missing. Poor Ron looked like he could have died right there. I went back to the common room to see what all was going on there. I had my fill of following Potter. Especially since I knew that he was now going after Ginny.
May 7 1992
I should have followed them. I "overheard" them telling 'Mione about what happened. Tom was preserved in the Diary and was feeding off of Ginny to bring himself back. Oh, and he is also "you know who". Hey look at that know one is surprised by that one. Lock Hart was exposed as a fake. The dope took Ron's wand to do a memory charm. He now remembers nothing. Every thing is back to normal here. Dumbledore has decided that all tests are to be suspended and I think that 'Mione cried when she heard that. Harry is also the hero of a small house elf named Dobby. We have nothing to do until time to go home. I may not write unless something interesting happens I have very little paper left in this book and I want to start with a new school year in that one.
June 17 1992
I have had nothing to do this whole time. Emily and I have been sitting around with her friends and watching the giant squid. I was wondering out loud if it was always that big or if the twins had something to do with it. So we have been trying to find out. The only person we haven't asked is Snape and I hope that he isn't the only one who knows the secret of the giant squid. Dumbledore just giggles and walks away maybe he did it. Wow, my life is boring. Harry has gone back to being the school golden boy and is once again become the butt of many jokes. Malfoy has been moping around like someone just killed his puppy. It's really sad. We are going to be allowed to go home earlier than we usually are. I think that the teachers are tired of having us around. I hope they get a good teacher for DADA. I really don't want another Lockhart. I have to go. I have to figure out this Giant squid thing before it drives me crazy. I have this theory that he is really "you know who" in disguise because all of the strange things that go on here are related to him or are him. For a school that is meant to be safe from all of this stuff because of our fearless leader Dumbledore, "you know who" sure shows up here a lot.
June 25 1992
I am headed home tomorrow morning and I am not too sure I want to do home. I kind of like it here. I don't want to have to talk to Gran. I don't want to go through what I did last summer. I did not find out what happened to the squid, but I will find out. If I have free time next year. Emily and I have agreed to write when we can and maybe do something over the summer. Its nice to have a friend. Well I have to go pack. You know I just realized that I haven't seem Trevor in about 2 months. I wonder where he is? Maybe he became snake food, or Fred and George did something to him.
