AN: This is a little abnormal for me, but I was listening to the Grease Soundtrack and decided to write a songfic to Hopelessly Devoted to You – slash, of course, because it's all I ever write anymore it seems. *looks minutely ashamed*. Remus/Sirius, because I felt like it.

It's all going horribly wrong. I always thought, stupid thoughts, that nothing would ever break
the bonds I had with the others in our little gang. Nothing could ever break the bonds I had
with Prongs, Padfoot and Wormtail. They were the best... and only... friends I ever had. But
now... strong Prongs, and meek Wormtail are dead, and at the hands of... of my darling Padfoot.
 
I could hardly believe it when I found the wreckage of Godric Hollow and realised that Padfoot 
had betrayed his best friend, Prongs. I was shocked. The Padfoot I knew and loved would never
have done that, not to anyone. He was too kind for that. In betraying Prongs' trust, he had also
betrayed me. He had vowed he would never betray me like that.
 
Guess mine is not
 
The first heart broken
 
My eyes are not the first to cry
 
I'm not the first to know
 
There's just no getting over you
 
As I laid eyes on the maniacally laughing figure after he cursed Wormtail, I realised I wasn't 
the first lover he'd betrayed. I'd been foolish to think it'd be any different. He'd had so many
lovers, male and female alike, before he'd started with me. I thought we had deeper bonds than
that, but he just discarded me and my trust the same way he always did with the others.
 
I knew then why all his ex-girlfriends and boyfriends had so obsessed over him after he'd broken
up with them or started cheating on them. Padfoot had become such a huge part of my life, and I
had become so reliant on him. Forever there would be a huge hole inside me, my love for him would
never die but simply remain dormant until the day I died. He was just too special to give up.
 
I know I'm just a fool
 
who's willing
 
To sit around and wait for you
 
But baby can't you see
 
There's nothing else for me to do
 
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
 
As they dragged him away to Azkaban prison, I could feel hot tears in my eyes. A traitorous part
of me wanted him to come back to me, to tell me that somehow something had been mistaken and he
had never killed anyone intentionally. I knew, however, that this was completely impossible. I
had seen him with my own two eyes as he killed Wormtail, I knew he had been Prongs' secret keeper,
and so only he could disperse the piece of information that led to their destruction.
 
Yes, I knew all of this, but something kept me from fully believing it. The last thing I saw of 
him before they took him away was, in the midst of his maniacal laughter, a last sorrowful,
pleading glance at me. Even if it was pointless, and foolish, I knew for sure then, that I was
destined to spend the rest of my days waiting for him. There was nothing else I /could/ do. Maybe
he had not treasured our love enough, but I had, and the love that I felt for him could not be as
easily discarded as his clearly was.
 
But now there's nowhere to hide
 
Since you pushed my love aside
 
I'm out of my head
 
Hopelessly devoted to you
 
Hopelessly devoted to you
 
Hopelessly devoted to you
 
He had discarded our love like a broken toy. He knew how much I loved him, and still he 
carelessly threw it aside. Was I going crazy, to reduce myself to merely waiting for him when I
knew there was no chance he would, or could, ever return to me? Or was there really an inkling of
the truth in my strange premonitions on the matter?
 
No. It was foolish to wait for him, and I knew it all along. A part of me began to hate him for 
what he had done to me, while another part of me remained fixated on the point. I was head over
heels for this man, and although I knew that it was pointless to even spare another thought for
him, I continued to do so because I was so madly in love. It was crazy, it was foolish... but I
was in love. And unlike some other people, I choose to respect such feelings.
 
My head is saying
 
Fool forget him
 
My heart is saying don't let go
 
Hold on to the end
 
And that's what I intend to do
 
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
 
My head did keep telling me that it was stupid to keep obsessing over my Sirius Black, my darling
Padfoot, but my aching heart kept on loving him despite this. I knew it, I was only in for more
and more heartbreak when the end came and he had not returned for me, but I had to keep on going
like this. I not only loved him and adored him, but I was bound to him for eternity. After all
we had been through together, that sort of love cannot just be discarded.
 
But now there's no where to hide
 
Since you pushed my love aside
 
I'm out of my head
 
Hopelessly devoted to you
 
Hopelessly devoted to you

Call me crazy. Call me stupid. I deserve every word of it. To keep clinging like this even after he had proven to me that I meant nothing more to him than a... a... an empty Coke can, or a discarded newspaper was crazy and stupid and any other words you could think up. But I kept on doing it. Why? Because I loved Sirius. The rest of my life would be spend kicking myself for this one stupid choice I made, back in Seventh Year, to try my luck with Padfoot.

Then I realised that it wasn't mere infatuation... it was love. True love. I was madly in love, head over heels, smitten, besotted, fanatical, love-struck, obsessed with this man. I had thought my feelings were requited... but they weren't. And, powerless to do anything about it, I would love him forever and ever.

Hopelessly devoted to you...