Chapter 4 "Realization"

Dawn sat back on the bed with the calendar and sighed. She looked at the dates again and silently cursed at herself for being so stupid. She hadn't had her womanlies since the middle of summer and that was almost four months ago. She hadn't had it since the first night her and her lover Connor had been together. Then it hit her and she slumped against the bed and whimpered a soft plea to god that it wasn't what she thought it was.

The phone rang causing Dawn to jump and then lunge for the phone. She waited a second knowing who it was before picking up the phone. "Hello." She said her voice wavering.

"Hi baby. I thought I would call you since I couldn't get you outta my mind." Connor said seductively.

"Well I have been thinking a lot lately too."

"What about?" He asked noticing the tone in her voice and his voice changed to a worried tone.

"Don't worry, it's just a lot had been on my mind." She lied as a tar slipped down her cheek.

"Dawn tell me what's going on! Are you cheating on me?!" He asked panic rising in his voice causing Angel to stop at the door to watch and listen to what his son was saying to his girlfriend.

"NO! That isn't it at all! I promise Connor! I would never ever do that to you!" Dawn screamed and Buffy started to walk toward her sister's room.

"Then what the hell is it!!?" Connor yelled unable to control his anger. Angel just sighed a little and rested his weight against the doorframe.

"Okay if you are dying to know! I think I am pregnant!" She yelled causing Buffy to stop walking and look at her sister whom didn't even notice she was in the room. "And you are the father!" "You're pregnant! With my baby?!" Connor asked in a panicky tone but none the less a happy one. Angel just stopped and went over to Connor who looked at his father in fear.

Angel took the phone and started to hang it up. Then he heard Buffy. "Buffy we will be there as soon as I can get us there." Angel said in a mad tone.

Buffy just hung up the phone and glared at Dawn. "How the HELL did this happen Dawn? I thought you were more responsible than this!"

"More responsible than what?" Spike asked as he walked into the house causing Dawn to hide her face in her shaking hands.

"Dawn thinks she is pregnant, with Connor's baby. Listen and tell us if it is true." Buffy ordered

Spike closed his eyes and concentrated and he heard the sound of Dawn's heart and then he hears the soft beating of a second heart. "She is about four months I would wager." He replied a look of disappointment spreading across his features.

Dawn felt her heart rip and then tears started to flow from her eyes. "I'm sorry! I am so sorry! I never meant for this to happen. I swear Spike I never meant for this to happen."

Spike just nodded and sat down in the chair beside Buffy. " I know Nibblet but these things happen when you make a stupid mistake."

"Spike is right Dawn! You slept with that thing and now you will have this child and you might never live the life you wanted."

"Well I have only lived as a human for a little over a year so what does it matter? We all have to handle things we don't want. For example Spike had to live with the fact he will live after the rest of us leave this world. You have to live with the fact that you will never live a long life and well me I have to live with a child that will have the best father in the whole god damned world and with a mother that WILL love her!" Dawn screamed making Buffy give her an awful look.

"Pidgin you don't know that. He might want nothing to do with the baby." Spike said softly trying to keep himself from storming out the door and killing his kinda brother. Well through Angel they were like half brothers.

"He will! Connor loves me and he has told me as much!"

"Yea when you were most likely screaming each others name and going give me more harder oh god Connor make it harder!" Buffy screamed making Dawn lunge at her sister furiously.

Spike grabbed her and pushed her back into the chair she was setting in and making Buffy stay where she was.
Connor watched Angel grip the steering wheel so hard his fingers turn white. Cordelia gave him a gentle pat on the back and Angel released the steering wheel.

"Angel it'll be okay. This was his decision and the thing he needs mostly right now is love and I don't think he knows that you love him right now. He is scared Angel and he doesn't need you to turn your back on him." Cordelia whispered in her lover's ear. They had attached his soul to Cordelia and that made it so they could be together but he couldn't be with anybody else.

"I do love you Connor, I just don't know why you would be so stupid." Angel replied softly giving Connor a gentle look.

"I know." He replied very very softly.

Dawn heard the doorbell ring and she bounded for it and opened it and saw Angel. Connor pushed past his father and pulled his lover into his strong arms as she began to cry and pull him closer. "Shh baby I'm here now. I promise you I won't leave you." Connor promised as he rubbed her back gently.

TBC ........ Well I hope you liked this chapter as well as the others. I wrote it with all your comments in mind trying to make it better. I think I am starting to really get into this story. It is fun to write and at least I can stand writing it. Well if you have any suggestions I am open. Please no flames but anything that you thought about it I would love to hear even id that includes flames.

- Trinity Dawn Armstrong