Heh people, thanx for the reviews, not sure what happened with the 1st chapter, when I uploaded it went all weird. What in the name of god is beta reader? Anyways this chapter has a bit of humor, I thought it would lighten the mood a bit. So here it is! Enjoy! Disclaimer: I don't own harry potter or any of the characters *sobs*.

JUNE 12TH 12:19PM:

I found a razor blade. I'm not going to cut too deep, just enough for me to feel better.

12:22:

Ohshit, aww, the release. I cut a long line down my arm, just enough. Oww, it stings, for some reason my arm feels hot? Oh god those words, why? My own parents hate me!

12:25:

I'm feeling rather light headed.

1:52:

ohshitohshit. There is blood all over the tiles and the mat. I must have drifted off. Shit, I need to clean up.

2:15:

I managed to clean up. I put the razor blade into my Hogwarts trunk, you know, if I need it again. I need to sleep.

June 13th midday:

Just woke up. I had horrible dreams about what they said last night. Oww, my arm really stings. So what? I deserve the pain. I need to go for a walk, I can't be near them right now.

1:00pm:

Why did I do that to myself? Ahh, I remember the feeling when I did. Release. It made me feel better, better about everything.

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August 16th 10:00am:

I just got a letter from Ron, He said his dad would come and collect me around midday, by means of floo. Yes, I know I haven't written in a while, I think I didn't want to face up to it again, what my paren- no, I can't call them that anymore. What "they" said, I can't think about it. I did it a few more times. It really does ease my pain. I know it doesn't make sense, to ease my emotional pain only to be put upon by physical pain. But the physical pain is nothing compared to what I'm feeling inside. I never thought I would write this much less say it, but I really hate myself sometimes. The arguments between "them" haven't stopped. The two of them have hardly said more than 10 words to me at anyone time. But, what do I care? I should start packing my trunk.

12:30:

I'm at the burrow. Ron's dad came and collected me. As we were about to leave "they" started shouting at each other in the next room. Mr. Weasley looked horrified. I pulled a fake smile and said "probably something stupid". I shouted bye but I doubt them heard me. So here I am, I was greeted by a warm welcome, I actually smiled, properly, for the first time in ages. I felt happy for a brief number of seconds, only to feel pain when Ginny grabbed my arm and brought me to her room. I winced at the pain, but no one noticed.

12:46:

Harry's here. It really is good to see him. The first thing he said to me was; "Wow, Hermione, you look....different" "How do you mean?" "Older and more....... Womanly: I couldn't help but blush. I have been debating whether or not I should tell them, but it is best not to burden them with my problems, I can handle it by myself

2:00pm

After lunch Ginny and I talked. She kept asking how the summer was, I faked a smile and said "fine". I quickly got off the subject and asked if she heard the comment Harry made earlier. She smirked and said "yeah" "What did he mean?" "Well you are a bit curvier" "Ohh" There was a bit of a pause. I felt really dopey I didn't know what he meant by "womanly"

"So have you?" "Have I what?" "You know!" "No I don't" "Got it yet?" "Got what yet?"- I was beginning to loose my patience "You know, got the painters in yet?" "The painters?" "Your monthly friend!" "Who?" I could tell Ginny was about to loose her patience. "What in the name of god are you talking abou-" -"YOUR PERIOD!!!, honestly Hermione, you can be so thick sometimes" "Oh right, sorry" "So have you?" "Yeah, a while back" "Why didn't you tell me?" "Didn't think it was important" "Ohh" "So have you?' "Yeah, last week"-Ginny blushed "So you told your mum?" "No" "Okay, think you should" "Suppose so" "Yep" Ginny left the room looking a bit flustered. Alone, at last.

Hermione walked over to her trunk and took out her razor blade, feeling particularly upset she didn't have a mother to turn to. Well there it is. Hoped you liked my girlie humor near the end! You'll have to wait to see what happens in the next chapter! Review to find out! Be nice!