Hostage
Chapter 3- Not Really Gone
AN: Sorry if this story isn't as good as the other one, but I just ran out of ideas. I wanted to make them as different as possible. It may be short, but I hope it was just as touching.
Disclaimer: I don't own Goren and Eames
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The day of her funeral came quickly. Goren couldn't help thinking about what they did in her last day on earth. He kicked himself for not saying he loved her. He wanted to so bad. Her funeral was held under a marquee in the cemetery. It was a beautiful sunny day with no clouds. Many people were there. She was very popular amongst the people in her building and her family loved her.
Goren sat in the second row after immediate family. "We are here to celebrate the life Alexandra Eames. She was an intelligent, fun person and so I am told, one hell of a good cop" the woman started. She wanted to make it not so formal. In her experience in conducting funerals, laughter was essential to get over the grief. "I have some sentences written by family on what they thought of Alex. 'She had a great smile', 'She was always nice and helpful', 'She was always full of life'. She can never say she wasn't loved." Half way through the service, she asked if anyone would like to speak, and Goren raised his hand. He felt he had to tell everyone whom he saw in Alex.
"My name is Bobby and I was.am.Alex's partner. She was a great detective and very dedicated to her work. I was there when she died. That morning we were stuck in the elevator and we didn't know our workmates were being held hostage. When we finally got out she bravely walked up to the man and told him to let them all go. Then he shot her. It all happened in slow motion." His eyes started to water as he flashed back to it scene by scene. "I carried her down the stairs and she just said 'let my last moments be peaceful'. She just died in my arms. There, the stairs stained in blood. She stared death in the face and laughed. She wasn't scared. But the truth is, I was. I didn't want her to leave. I regret not telling her that day that I loved her and she was everything to me. So, uh, don't let a day go bye when you don't tell others how much they mean to you." He stood down from the microphone and silently walked back to his seat, tears on his unshaven face. Eames' mother got up, walked to him and hugged him.
"I'm glad my daughter had someone like you in her life" she whispered.
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He went straight home after and looked at the things his Alex left him. A few photos of them together, books, pens, CD's and other things he'd find useful around the office. A letter accompanied it.
Bobby.
Well, I must be gone then if you are reading this. I hope you are ok. Just a few things I want you to know. You are someone who I love very much. I don't know if I told you that before, but I'm telling you now. You have a gift. You can solve crimes and mysteries nobody else can. Don't give that up. You were the best thing in my life. Don't feel sad because I'm gone - be glad I was here.
I love you lots,
Alex.
Goren could hear her voice reading the letter to him. He placed all her things on a table and got out a pen and paper. He felt he had to write something back.
Alex.
You are gone. And I miss you. You made me smile and made me feel safe like nobody else I know. You understood me and knew me. Nobody else ever did. They all see me as a big man who has a crazy mind, but you just saw through that and saw me. I don't know if you heard what I said in the stairwell that day, but I love you. I wanted to kiss you and hold you and make you feel special. At your funeral today I told everyone how brave you were when you got shot. I told them how much I loved you. I know you are here somewhere with your angel wings, I know you had them all along. You are beautiful and loving and caring. I'll see you in heaven.
Love forever,
Bobby.
He kissed the paper and burnt it. He knew she would get the message written on the paper. He had gone through many loses in his life, but this one was far too much to bear.
"Goodbye Alex. Even though I know you aren't really gone" he said and slept on the floor that night. His dream was very unordinary. He was walking down the stairs she died on when Eames approached him wearing her work clothes. She hugged him.
"Bobby, I heard everything, and I feel the same," she said and kept walking up the stairs. She blew a kiss to Goren who was still standing in the same spot and watched her ascent up the stairs until he woke up. He didn't feel scared, but at peace because he knew she was really saying that and she knew neither of them would be at peace until it was said. He went to sleep, once again, feeling happy and content.
AN: Sorry if this story isn't as good as the other one, but I just ran out of ideas. I wanted to make them as different as possible. It may be short, but I hope it was just as touching.
Disclaimer: I don't own Goren and Eames
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
The day of her funeral came quickly. Goren couldn't help thinking about what they did in her last day on earth. He kicked himself for not saying he loved her. He wanted to so bad. Her funeral was held under a marquee in the cemetery. It was a beautiful sunny day with no clouds. Many people were there. She was very popular amongst the people in her building and her family loved her.
Goren sat in the second row after immediate family. "We are here to celebrate the life Alexandra Eames. She was an intelligent, fun person and so I am told, one hell of a good cop" the woman started. She wanted to make it not so formal. In her experience in conducting funerals, laughter was essential to get over the grief. "I have some sentences written by family on what they thought of Alex. 'She had a great smile', 'She was always nice and helpful', 'She was always full of life'. She can never say she wasn't loved." Half way through the service, she asked if anyone would like to speak, and Goren raised his hand. He felt he had to tell everyone whom he saw in Alex.
"My name is Bobby and I was.am.Alex's partner. She was a great detective and very dedicated to her work. I was there when she died. That morning we were stuck in the elevator and we didn't know our workmates were being held hostage. When we finally got out she bravely walked up to the man and told him to let them all go. Then he shot her. It all happened in slow motion." His eyes started to water as he flashed back to it scene by scene. "I carried her down the stairs and she just said 'let my last moments be peaceful'. She just died in my arms. There, the stairs stained in blood. She stared death in the face and laughed. She wasn't scared. But the truth is, I was. I didn't want her to leave. I regret not telling her that day that I loved her and she was everything to me. So, uh, don't let a day go bye when you don't tell others how much they mean to you." He stood down from the microphone and silently walked back to his seat, tears on his unshaven face. Eames' mother got up, walked to him and hugged him.
"I'm glad my daughter had someone like you in her life" she whispered.
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He went straight home after and looked at the things his Alex left him. A few photos of them together, books, pens, CD's and other things he'd find useful around the office. A letter accompanied it.
Bobby.
Well, I must be gone then if you are reading this. I hope you are ok. Just a few things I want you to know. You are someone who I love very much. I don't know if I told you that before, but I'm telling you now. You have a gift. You can solve crimes and mysteries nobody else can. Don't give that up. You were the best thing in my life. Don't feel sad because I'm gone - be glad I was here.
I love you lots,
Alex.
Goren could hear her voice reading the letter to him. He placed all her things on a table and got out a pen and paper. He felt he had to write something back.
Alex.
You are gone. And I miss you. You made me smile and made me feel safe like nobody else I know. You understood me and knew me. Nobody else ever did. They all see me as a big man who has a crazy mind, but you just saw through that and saw me. I don't know if you heard what I said in the stairwell that day, but I love you. I wanted to kiss you and hold you and make you feel special. At your funeral today I told everyone how brave you were when you got shot. I told them how much I loved you. I know you are here somewhere with your angel wings, I know you had them all along. You are beautiful and loving and caring. I'll see you in heaven.
Love forever,
Bobby.
He kissed the paper and burnt it. He knew she would get the message written on the paper. He had gone through many loses in his life, but this one was far too much to bear.
"Goodbye Alex. Even though I know you aren't really gone" he said and slept on the floor that night. His dream was very unordinary. He was walking down the stairs she died on when Eames approached him wearing her work clothes. She hugged him.
"Bobby, I heard everything, and I feel the same," she said and kept walking up the stairs. She blew a kiss to Goren who was still standing in the same spot and watched her ascent up the stairs until he woke up. He didn't feel scared, but at peace because he knew she was really saying that and she knew neither of them would be at peace until it was said. He went to sleep, once again, feeling happy and content.
